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Alan Kayanan

Cracks will form and then shatter.

About Me

... I live while I photograph. I do not Photograph to live.
... When I was younger, I dreamed of flying. I fell in love with the big blue sky above our heads. But not at all like Jenny, from Forrest Gump, the poor girl. So I learned how to fly. I went to Florida and earned my wings.Just like the Little Prince. Like Arthur Dent. Like Luke Skywalker. Like the Flying Tigers. Like Pete "Maverick" Mitchell. Like the Blue Angels.

... My name is Alan-Maurice Valdellon Kayanan and I like my name. It's very long and I can say it with a ridiculous filipino accent. I love nerds. I wish there were more of us. I encourage all nerds to find each other and Breed. I come from a large family of nerds. I have an extra helping of Dork too. As in, I'm probably dorkier than you are.
*1016 photographs in my Photo Section. Lots to see.
*315 enteries in my Blog. Enough to read.
... I know lots about all kinds of smiles. I have to. I am an apt student of human facial expression. I know there's a birth of a smile and a death of a smile. I know that for different people a smile fully blossoms at different times. I know a smile looks different when you exhale, inhale, or hold a breath. I know when a genuine smile starts in your eyes and ends up on your lips. I've seen so many smiles that look almost right, but end before they ever get close to your eyes. I love how a smile can be the most welcome and universal form of communication. I love how you can 'hear' a smile over the phone when talking to an old friend who lives thousands of miles away. I love your smile. I think smiles and laughter are the best ingredients to a life well lived.
... I am also as versed in frowns and tears as I am with smiles and joy...
... I am constantly having an affair with color.
(click photo for my Flickr)
...I have such a strange sense of humor. I feel isolated in my horridly dirty taste in jokes. I always win gross-out competitions. Don't even try me I'll make you throw up a little in your mouth.
Some photographers take reality...and impose the domination of their own thought and spirit. Others come before reality more tenderly and a photograph to them is an instrument of love and revelation.
~Ansel Adams
Do your damnedest in an ostentatious manner all the time.
~George S. Patton
I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.
~Douglas Adams

My Interests

Walking.
Kindness.
Hope.
Reading.
Sleep.
Observation+Camera.
Participation+Camera.
I'm a pirate.
I don't have a car.
I'm constantly looking for people who are looking for me.

I'd like to meet:



Teachers.

Explorers.

Team Mates.

A Best Friend.

MAC gave me 55 lipsticks to test. These are the same lipsticks I got caught stealing by the police when I was 15. How ironic.
~Eddie Izzard

Who are we? We find that we live on an insignificant planet of a humdrum star lost in a galaxy tucked away in some forgotten corner of a universe in which there are far more galaxies than people.
~Carl Sagan

There's only one thing that will make them stop hating you. And that's being so good at what you do that they can't ignore you.
~Colonel Graff to Ender Wiggen

It is the supreme art of the teacher to awaken joy in creative expression and knowledge.
~Albert Einstein

Millions of men have lived to fight, build palaces and boundaries, shape destinies and societies; but the compelling force of all times has been the force of originality and creation profoundly affecting the roots of human spirit.
~Ansel Adams

If everyone is thinking alike, then somebody isn't thinking.
~General George S. Patton

Music is an addiction. ~ Miles Davis

One, a robot may not injure a human being, or through inaction, allow a human being to come to harm; Two, a robot must obey the orders given it by human beings except where such orders would conflict with the First Law; Three, a robot must protect its own existence as long as such protection does not conflict with the First or Second Laws.
~Isaac Asimov

Which death is preferably to every other? "The unexpected".
~Julius Caesar

Any great work of art... revives and readapts time and space, and the measure of its success is the extent to which it makes you an inhabitant of that world - the extent to which it invites you in and lets you breathe its strange, special air.
~Leonard Bernstein

I believe in everything until it's disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it's in your mind. Who's to say that dreams and nightmares aren't as real as the here and now?
~John Lennon

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Music:

Down Beat. Dorian Mode. Minor Key. Capo III. Break Beat. Bass Cleft. DS al Coda. Fortissimo. Tutti Band. Allegro. Accelerando. Refrain. Crucial Bridge. Boogie-Woogie. Swiss Triplet. Double Flat. Double Bass. C above high C. Perfect Third. Major Fifth. Vamp. Vamp. Vamp.

Movies:

Tower this is Ghose Rider, Requesting Fly-by. Negative Ghost Rider the Pattern is full.

... I challenge you to a battle of wits? For the Princess? To the death? I accept.

That kid is STILL on the escalator?!

Hello, Money Penny. Hello, James.

Television:

Please destroy your Tele and buy a good camera. I want you to show me something beautiful. I don't trust them at with the responsibility at all. I have found, because I am not a regular TV watcher, that I don't have much to speak about with people who ARE regular watchers.

Books:

I read alot. Alot alot. Thousands of pages a month.
I wish I had more time to do it.
I think the written word, the printed idea, is the most beautiful thing our species can do. Every original idea and thought passed from eye to eye and brain to brain is holy and sacred.

Heroes:

Mama. Papa. Carla. Alexis. Corrie. Addriene Adams. Andrew Pants. Jessica George. Lauren Hill. Sally Ride. Max Roach. Chuck Yeager.

My Blog

Why not?

Why not quit smoking?Why not shoot professionaly?Why not make it happen?Why not watch what I eat?Why not spend my money wisely?Why not have higher standards?Why not why not why not?!?I can't think of ...
Posted by Alan Kayanan on Thu, 19 Jun 2008 08:09:00 PST

Not really.

I've never ever really enjoyed birthdays. Yours or Mine.I've just never.... really gotten "into them".meh.
Posted by Alan Kayanan on Mon, 09 Jun 2008 02:37:00 PST

Learn.

We have to abandon the idea that schooling is something restricted to youth. How can it be, in a world where half the things a man knows at 20 are no longer true at 40 - and half the things he knows a...
Posted by Alan Kayanan on Thu, 08 May 2008 11:40:00 PST

Birds Lament

When birds speak of the wind to each other they sing. They have no trouble making conversation when the sky is bright and the bugs are out. I've heard that the bird's song fills the daylight hour...
Posted by Alan Kayanan on Fri, 02 May 2008 02:30:00 PST

Your Hair Down In Front of Your Eyes.

Am I the only one who gets to make you laugh,Laugh until you cry?Am I the only one who asks you to go,Go on without me?Am I the only one who loves when you leaveyour hair down in front of yo...
Posted by Alan Kayanan on Thu, 03 Apr 2008 11:34:00 PST

oh girl.

Is there anybody going to listen to my story,All about the girl who came to stay?She’s the kind of girl you want so much it makes you sorry,Still you don’t regret a single day.Ah girl, gir...
Posted by Alan Kayanan on Tue, 25 Mar 2008 09:26:00 PST

Sail for calm seas.

The rigging is in ruin.Spars snapped and one mast down.Backstays adrift aft.Sails ripped and rendered.Just making enough headway for steerage. Time to sail for calm seas.Rest and repair require safe h...
Posted by Alan Kayanan on Sun, 23 Mar 2008 11:47:00 PST

Homecoming.

Someday I'll return home.I'll have had to spend some time away.A day. A year. A war or two.You would be without my company the entire time. The train or the plane and my feet will being me back.I'll w...
Posted by Alan Kayanan on Mon, 10 Mar 2008 12:23:00 PST

Weight.

I didn't expect to be awake.I thought that I'd be asleep and warm and dreaming.I could be deep and blue.I could lament the troubles of my heart.We could delve deeper into the meat of what it means to ...
Posted by Alan Kayanan on Thu, 06 Mar 2008 02:08:00 PST

Announcement.

On Sunday, February 17th, I declared myself a member of the Baha'i Faith.My name is Alan Kayanan and I am a Baha'i....and I bet you have no idea what it is.Google.Wiki.Bahai.org.Or just come talk to m...
Posted by Alan Kayanan on Wed, 20 Feb 2008 11:49:00 PST