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Joel

As a man thinketh in his' heart, so is he.

About Me

My eyes opened tonight. Caught in the grip of a powerful recollection. Oh God, I don't want to feel this again. I don't want to be here anymore. I want it to go away. Forever away.

Tonight, I awoke in Hell, burning in the furnace that is me. A chain of rememberance tightening around my neck. Quivering under the shock of it, an onslaught of remorseless agony will fly through me again. It's asphyxiation to my soul. The searing heat, and the charred scent of my scorching deep heart's desire violates my senses. It's choking me. The chain that never stops gripping, and the smoke that never stops rising. It hurts so much to be here. I want this to end. I want it to end.

Dear innocence, I hate how faithless you have been. You leave with just the slightest blow. Abandon me to the howling wolves of heart and soul, and let them have their' way with me. Oh, how I have hated you for leaving. How I did bitterly curse your memory as they dismembered me on winter's coldest night. Dragged away from life, I'm poisoned in my absence from You.

Ascend me. Take me up from this crushing need. It's grinding me away. A grave holds back my cries. No one can take notice. It's all I can do to crawl out another plea from my ragged, burning depths. Take me away from this unspoken nightmare, and let it all fall away to nothing. Let me forget the years that were lost, and let me find myself in the fresh and soothing world that is calling from Your misty eyes. I see them, gazing at me. Alluring me. Romancing me, the ashen, cindered object of Your desire. Saying my name beyond the dark. The dead hear hopes and dreams in every prodigal journey.

Dear Jesus, I hate how faithless I have been. I leave with just the slightest blow. I don't know where innocence has gone, but I can't live anymore without it. Be to me what was never given. Kiss this wound until the shame it bleeds ceases it's unbearable current.

Love me, and make me better.

Copyright 2007.

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My Interests

Jesus the Christ, music, astronomy, art, designing my own clothes, castles, fantasy, sci-fi, video games, etc.

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Music:

Eden's Bridge, Petra, Stryper, Wedding Party, Holy Soldier, Saviour Machine, Rackets And Drapes, Tarja Turunen, Michael English, Michael Sweet, Nightwish, Cristine Glass, Maire Brennan, Clannad, Enya, Beseech, Theatre of Tragedy, Castlevania, Lord Of The Rings etc.

Movies:

Lord Of The Rings, Passion Of The Christ, Legend, Narnia, Signs, Lady in The Water, The Village, The Incredibles, The Secret Garden, Dragon Slayer, Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children, Willow, Godzilla 1954, Star Trek III: The Search for Spock, Star Trek Generations, Jurassic Park, Edward Scissorhands, Exorcism of Emily Rose, etc.

Television:

I don't like too much on television right now. Mostly I like to watch things on The Science Channel, especially on Tuesday nights when the subject is about Astronomy.Other programs include Man vs. Wild, Survivorman, MASH, A Haunting, TAPS, Andy Griffith, Leave It To Beaver, Star Trek TOS, Star Trek TNG, Star Trek DS9, Star Trek Voyager, and Enterprise - (minus the Trek series sometimes less than admirable verbal and sexual content). I also like The Munsters, Addams Family, Wild Alaska, etc.

Books:

(Non-fiction) Bible, Journey of Desire, The Sacred Romance, Beyond the Shadow of Doubt, Barefoot on Barbed Wire, Mere Christianity, The Weight of Glory, The Four Loves, etc.(Fiction) Lord Of The Rings, Moby Dick, Mary Shelley's Frankenstein, Dr. Jekyll And Mr. Hyde, Oliver Twist, The Scarlet Letter, Chronicles of Narnia, Wuthering Heights, Last Of The Mohicans, The Firebird Trilogy, etc.

Heroes:

Jesus the Christ,Joan Of Arc,J R R Tolkien,C.S. Lewis,Albert Einstein,My Mother.
Help Stop Hate Crimes Against Goths
Which Advent Children Character Are You?
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You scored as Romantic Goth. You are a romantic goth, better known as a traditional goth. You are probably quickly identified as a goth by outsiders. Black lace, bats, and moonlit cemetaries are just a few of your favorite things. Click on my name to take my other tests if you liked this one.

Romantic Goth


71%

Ethereal Goth


54%

Industrial/Rivet-Head


50%

Old-school Goth


50%

Anything-Goes Goth


50%

Fantasy Goth


46%

Cyber-goth


33%

Perky Goff


29%

Understanding Outsider


25%

Confused Outsider


21%

Death Rocker


13%
What subcategory of Goth best fits you?
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You scored as Legolas.

Legolas


90%

Samwise Gamgee


80%

Galadriel


80%

Frodo Baggins


73%

Arwen of Rivendell


73%

Gandalf the Grey


67%

Aragorn


60%

Boromir


54%

Saruman the White


50%

Gimli


47%

Meriadoc Brandybuck (Merry)


43%

Eowyn of Rohan


43%

Peregrin Took (Pippin)


40%

Gollum


30%
Which Lord of the Rings character are you most like?
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You scored as Guardian Angel. You are tough! There is someone in your life who you are watching over. Your love protects them. You are not afraid of anything, not even the devil!

Guardian Angel


63%

Archangel


56%

Fallen Angel


54%

Archetype


52%

The Angel of Death


46%

The Anti-Heroine


44%

Demoness


25%

Archdemoness


17%
Are you an Angel or a Demoness? (anime pics)
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You scored as Elf. You are a Elf.. Not as wise as a wizard, but wiser than any other race. You are respectful, graceful, and pleasant. You're main power use is magic but you are good at fighting and ranging too. (ranging being you're speciality in fighting) which is one thing you have over a wizard.

Elf


88%

Human


54%

Wizard


54%

Nymph


50%

Dwarf


42%

Dark Magic User


25%
What Mystcial Medieval race are you?!(Kool Pics!!)
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You scored as You have the Gift of Empathy. You have been blessed with the gift of Empathy. Even though it is a heavy burden to carry the pain of others, know this that you can help them. Though I must advise you to learn how to not take their pain upon yourself and drag you down

You have the Gift of Empathy


94%

You have the Gift of Discernment


75%

You have the Gift of Wisdom


69%

You have the Gift of a Seer


63%

You have the Gift of Perception/Aura Vision


56%

You sadly do not recognize your gift yet


38%
What is your gift?(PICS)
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You scored as Crying Eye. You are the crying eye. You are very sad and look on the negative side of things. Crying seems to be a natural state.

Crying Eye


70%

Starry Eye


50%

Dramatic Eye


40%

Sexy Eye


30%

Angry Eye


30%

Hurt Eye


30%
What eye are you (Beautiful Pics)
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Your Seduction Style: The Coquette
You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get.
Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you.
Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte.
And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you. What Is Your Seduction Style?
You scored as Jean Grey. Jean Grey is likely the most powerful X-Man. She loves Cyclops very much but she has a soft spot for Wolverine. She's psychic so she can sense how others are feeling and tries to help them. She also has to control her amazing powers or the malevolent Phoenix entity could take control of her and wreak havok. Powers: Telekinetic, Telepathic

Jean Grey


75%

Storm


70%

Wolverine


55%

Cyclops


55%

Rogue


55%

Iceman


50%

Colossus


50%

Nightcrawler


45%

Gambit


45%

Beast


40%

Emma Frost


35%
Most Comprehensive X-Men Personality Quiz 2.0
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You scored as Fallen Angel. You my friend are a Fallen Angel!You were amongst the closest to God, yet love led you down a path of self-destruction. You find yourself crying a lot, because of the pains of this world. Yes it is very crewl, yet you know there isn't a thing you can do about it. Follow your heart and you will find some of your former happiness.

Fallen Angel


83%

Vampire


42%

Black Witch


42%

You are a Vampiric Elf!


17%

You are a Demon


8%
What creature of the night are you you most like? (Pics!!)
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You scored as Darkness. Darkness! Silent, mysterious and contemplating, you keep to yourself, and maybe a best friend. You are sometimes shunned and sometimes adored. It really depends. you will fight if you have to, but dont take much pleasure in it. You may feel alone, but its really that you just push everyone else away...

Darkness


67%

Wind


50%

Fire


33%

Light


33%

Earth


17%
What Element Lies within you?(PICS)
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You scored as Spacial-Visual. You prefer pictures to words, and your world is very colorful. Consider a career in graphic design or visual arts. And try not to go blind.

Spacial-Visual


89%

Intrapersonal


79%

Musical


68%

Bodily-Kinesthetic


64%

Verbal-Linguistic


50%

Interpersonal


39%

Logical-Mathematical


36%
Multiple Intelligences Test
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You scored as Different. Diversity makes the world go round! You're different; be proud! No one likes the same boring stuff all the time. Keep it up!

Different


83%

Beautiful/Handsome


80%

Sexual


60%

Funny


47%

Smart


30%
In What Way Are You Attractive?
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You scored as Quiet/thoughtful. You are quiet and intelligent. You enjoy doing activities that require thought and patients. You have many hidden talents but are too humble to publicly display them. You are very emotionally complex, although people don't realize it.

Quiet/thoughtful


75%

Nerd/anti-social


70%

Freak


60%

Fast Paced


60%

Interesting/outgoing...


55%

Competitive/achiever


30%

Insecure


25%
What kind of personality do you have??
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You scored as Saturn. You are Saturn-artistic and slightly geeky. You are extremely smart but often secluded socially. A career as a movie director or writer or artist seems good for you.

Saturn


83%

Pluto


80%

Earth


73%

Jupiter


73%

Neptune


67%

Venus


65%

Uranus


50%

Mars


47%

Mercury


40%
What planet are you from?
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