all u spacecadets! My Name is Kath - and despite my ACTUAL chronological age - my brain seems to have locked into position at around age 18 so............. as it was as good an age as any! - thats where it seems to wanna stay (and who am I to argue!).
|I am a non-reformable rock chick! I love good old ass shaking rawk n roll - I love people who are themselves - and dont pretend to be anything else! - (why do people try to make out they are something they are not????) unfortunately the world I live in is unbelievably narrow minded and takes a dim view of any kind of difference - it cannot handle 'deviations' or 'variances' from "norm"!!!!!............................ OH well - Shit happens...........sometimes you have to live a little white lie temporarily ha ha! so in a fit of insanity I gave up a blurry/cushy life on both sides of the bar (where I used to spend my whole life either working as a barmaid or out partying with my m8s), I expanded my brain (allegedly) (by getting 2 degrees - A BSc in Nursing (Stirling Uni) and a BA In Health Studies (UHI). I obviously had a flakey and decided to embark on a sharp increase of both cortisol and adrenaline - so I am just in the process of doing a Masters degree in Pain management (thru Edinburgh Uni School of Medicine) - (why do I do this to myself?). pain is a very interesting phenomenon when you get into the nitty gritty of it...................;0) and my first year of pain is drawing to a close!!! - one down............one to go!Inside my head Im still in London living it up and having a ball - unfortunately - the rest of my bloody life got right in my way.........................so i had to trade in life as a musical dosser and earn enough to pay for my body mods and lunch! (lunch! bloody unnecessary evil if you ask me! - i was doing really well on vodka and chocolate!).And so it transpired (shit happenens - again!!!!) - I was unceremoniously displaced from my perpetual party in London and transplanted back into the bosom of my family (much tho I love them! - WAY TO GO!!!NOT!!! :0)) - I was de-programmed, re-programmed and retrained...............So now I work my little arse off as a nurse (which i would love if I was allowed to do it without all the damn bitching and politics) - there must be easier/ better paid/less stressful ways to make a living! I'm starting to think I must be a closet masochist!!!! (There goes that pain thing again.....................;0)) - answers on a postcard. I juggle this 'real' job with being an unpaid soopersarcastic bitch and general all-round-sit-down comedienne - (which I blame on the fact that I was THE only girl in a class full of BOYS throughout school! - OMG an overpaid therapist would have a bloody field day inside my head! LOL) !!!!!!!!!!ah! life is JUST soooooooooooooooooooo hard!..........................***************************** *********************************Meanwhile - back at the ranch.....................................................(i nsert harps and butterflys HERE!) NURSING - a lovely fluffy warm non judgemental profession you'd think - (insert car crash sound fx HERE!) well you would be wrong! It makes me extremely sad to see that so many of the people who are supposed to be non judgemental have such a narrow concept of life and feel the need to judge anyone who is not ultra 'normal' and bitching and backbiting is unfortunately rife. - unfortunately the NHS system judges you on looks not purity of soul or ability so I had to "calm it all down" a bit - so bye bye technicolour morning hair (for now anyway) and hello "sensible" clone (yeah - on the outside! lol) - under the uniform its business as usual!!! Wot they don't see can't hurt them! lol!..........it pisses me off that in order to feed my kids I have to conform to their idea of 'normal'............fuck if i was dying..........I wouldn't give a shit what the person treating me looked like..as long as they knew their job!.................unfortunately...........there are 'rules' so I have to choose to be me or feed my kids! - nice choice!I have a tattoo and piercing addiction (which I confess - I am making no attempt whatsoever to fight!) - I love them on me and I really love them on you). I think humans are generally a really bland collective without them! - your skin is a canvas - so why leave it blank? Have you no imagination? - or do you think you are perfect already? lol My life is full of 'fuck ups', wrong turns and chances I now wish I'd taken - (and chances I wish I hadn't)- but I have no regrets! Life is too short to regret your choices - you'll know better the next time in the next life huh!Live life to the full- every fuck up is a learning curve! - just remember to look after other peoples Hearts and trust along the way - remember they are not yours to break!
|Despite the fact that Im such a shit judge of character - (and I have the dubious ability to magically morph nice guys into bastards - fuck knows how........haven't figured that out yet! - shame it doesn't work in reverse!!) I now have 2 fantastic kids (little space cadets) who are the centre of my universe - and they are not your 'run of the mill sprogs' - I am really proud to have helped create two truly amazing insightful, clever little people who are going to change the world (if they aren't certified first!). If I die tomorrow - I know that I had a purpose in life! - unleashing the likkle beasts on the unsuspecting world! ha ha! I live for music - and if I lived my life again - I'd have stayed put in London and not had so little confidence in myself, my ability and what I wanted to do! - thats my lesson for the next life - fuck it -you only live once - so dont waste it by being scared of "what ifs" or worrying about what other people think of you! don't let insecure people make you doubt yourself and NEVER let someone else grind you down and stop you being yourself! (it's easier for them to isolate you and change you, than to sort out their own issues!) - it has taken me a long time to learn that (damn I wish I'd figured it out sooner! ) but you live - you love -you lose - you learn - ~LOL~ And then you probably just carry on making the same mistakes anyway!............................
|it all adds up to make you who you are!
|CLEAR THE ROADS!!!!!!!! - theres a lunatic behind the wheel!!!!! - oh! its just me! - i have started driving lessons!!! EEKKK!!!!! ERM.............. - is it normal to hate gears on your first lesson? I WILL have an automatic with LEGROOM!!! - its a nightmare being a wee person with huge long legs - in order to get your legs comfortably on the pedals your hands are just touching the wheel! - so you have to settle for your knees banging off the wheel just so you can steer!..........................or is that just me? (again! lol).Well - I have had four lessons now! - my steering has improved (my instructor has stopped grabbing the wheel lol!) I can now stay on the road..............and change gears! ha ha - which i couldn't even dream of doing a month ago............so i guess thats progress (some people may disagree..........But I think it's huge progress- Hah!). I think i'll be ok once i get my car and my masochistic co-drivers and practice practice practice!!!!................It is so cool (and so weird) to just jump in a car and go somewhere..........................I love it!.................just wish i could stop gripping the wheel sooooooooooo hard!!!! lol................Guess id better get my Car soon and practice HUH! XSO THATS ME - STUCK IN A PLACE I DONT REALLY WANNA BE! SHORT ON OPTIONS- BUT SLOWLY DIGGING MYSELF OUT WITH A SPOON!!! LOL. I KNOW WHERE I WANNA GET TO - I JUST HAVE A SHIT SENSE OF DIRECTION!!!!!! - SO AS USUAL....................I'LL PROBABLY END UP FACING THE WRONG WAY ROUND............OR TAKING THE LONG WAY THERE! - BUT EVENTUALLY......................I WILL GET THERE IN THE END!!!!!!!PEACE LUV AND BUBBLEGUM DOODS! MWAH XX ............AS ALWAYS..................STAY PEACEFUL XX
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