I think HATE is most of the problem to begin with - people acting out of hate, not caring about others - staying silent and not "thinking globally" about how they can individually work toward a solution. Prejudice, Injustice, Apathy. I just know deep down we can do we better. WE CAN. PERIOD. SO LET'S DO IT!!!!! We ALL have something offer - no matter our situation. Think about it. Hold a door, say thank you, donate money, go work in a soup kitchen, volunteer at an animal shelter, don't make fun of someone. Whatever you think needs fixing, go WORK ON IT in whatever way you think is best! I'm curious how many people will take this challenge and I'm curious about all the creative ways people can come up with to work toward a solution! The time will pass anyway - why be unhappy? I figure I still got about 60 years in me so I'm not all that down for spending it being miserable. My basic needs are pretty much met and if they weren't I could work to meet them. So, yeah - why do you have to lose? What do you have to lose? Seriously. I guess we all gotta let stuff go - sometimes there just aren't enough rocks. Dig? If you don't laugh, you didn't get it, but if you ONLY laugh, you didn't get it.
NOW, about me personally - I like to play with conventional conceptions so that I can grow and possibly open new possibilities for other people as well as growing into new possibilities for myself. I don't like to be constrained at all. My philosophy is putting all my stuff out there - no matter what it is. Forget the closet. Put the stuff on the porch. I spent a lot of time in fear for awhile. Now I think - Who cares? Life is so short. I mean - In the end I think it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks about you. So now I'm working on who I want to be and being true to that. I learned that all that really matters is what was true, and truly said, and how we treated one another. For me, my life goal is simply loving with no fear - and sharing that love with people around me in a COMPASSIONATE way. I think thats what I'm here for. It'll probably take my whole life to achieve this, but I don't care. I can wait. I have faith. Not in anything particular - Just Crazy Faith. I want to believe. On the more personal front, I have a wicked sense of humor (HUMOR IS IMPORTANT) and inside, I can be a mush - no matter if I have that outgoing exterior.I don't know what I'll find yet and where I'll end up. I guess I have to let that go and just kinda find a way to sail with the tides. I want that inner peace and serenity.AS WELL SAID AS CAN BE: "You find your home, and it may not be what you thought - you know; colour's off, style's wrong... but there it is anyway and to hell with you if you can't take a joke."
Height: 5'7Weight: 115 lbs
Right or left-handed: Righty
Heritage: Italian-Romanian Know any languages?: German, English, French, Sign Language, Latin, only a little Hebrew and Arabic, C++, Ajax/Spry
Are you in love?: Yes. With everything. Always, I just didn't know it.
Do you swear?: Yes sometimes (like a sailor)
If you could have any job, what would it be?: Anything artistically oriented or a job working on humanitarian issues (which is what I am going to do next year)
Were you popular in high school?: No. Not in anyway.
Do you like thunderstorms?: Yes!!! They scare me.
Is the glass half empty or half full?: I'm not sure what you mean. But either way I'll probably drink it.
Best places you have ever been?: Home.
Favorite food?: Sushi and Brie - but not together.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Yes.
Are you a risk taker?: Yes!!! Only those who attempt the absurd will achieve the impossible. I think it's in my basement... let me go upstairs and check.
Have you ever been to jail?: Only to work with prisoners as field work.
Do you wear contacts or glasses?: Contacts
What is your bedtime?: Mostly at 4:00am - too late!
Boxers, briefs, or boxer briefs?: Boxer briefs.
Piercings/tattoos?: Tattoo of unfinished ying yang melting, I'm getting another one soon.
Can you handle the truth?: I love the truth!
Will you have sex with any pretty little thing or does it actually mean something?: Longer story than we have time for.
Best advice you've ever received?: All you can do is your best, let go of the rest.
Are you laid back or high strung?: Ugh.
Do you like to try new things?: If it is out there and extreme, probably.
Are you optimistic or pessimistic?: I can not say that either word characterizes the majority of my cognitive patterns. Thus, I abstain from answering.
Have you ever been engaged?: Once - sorta, but not officially
Craziest thing you've ever done?: Be myself!
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I lit my love and watched it burn
Asking nothing in return
Except the lessons I will learn
By holding crazy faith
I've been touched by that bright fire
Down to the root of my desire
While the smoke it rises higher
On crazy faith
Love your losing, lose your love
Let the hawk fly from the glove
Then do not search the skies above
Search your crazy faith
Love is lightning, love is ice
It only strikes the lucky twice
Once, so you will know the price
And once for crazy faith
ISN'T FAITH BELIEVING ALL POWER CAN'T BE SEEN? Wahdat al-wujud!Blom pikha. It's all about soul. I'm all about faith and a deeper devotion. It's all about knowin' what someone is feelin'.
MY MOMENT OF UNDERSTANDING:
Forrest: Hey, Bubba...
Bubba: Hey, Forrest. Forrest, why'd this happen?
Forrest: You got shot.
Forrest: (voice-over) Then Bubba said something I won't even forget.
Bubba: I wanna go home.
Forrest: Bubba was my best good friend. And even I know that ain't something you can find just around the corner. Bubba was gonna be a shrimpin' boat captain, but instead he died right there by that river in Vietnam.
"I wanna tell you something Mark, something you do not yet know, that we K-PAXians have been around long enough to have discovered. The universe will expand, then it will collapse back on itself, then will expand again. It will repeat this process forever. What you don't you know is that when the universe expands again, everything will be as it is now. Whatever mistakes you make this time around, you will live through on your next pass. Every mistake you make, you will live through again, & again, forever. So my advice to you is to get it right this time around. Because this time is all you have."