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S.A.D.

Nearly ninety percent of the black widow bites reported in the medical literature of the first 4 dec

About Me

This is the first thing I directed... width="425" height="350" ..I'm really skinny and a socialist, but I'm a little more than that. I've had an unusual life so far. I've worked in politics, third key manager at a record store (yuck!), held my family together for a long time (no saving it now), lived in several states and cities throughout the country, been a musician, been a vagabond, been an activist, been around some of the most wealthy and powerful people in the world and, conversely, the poorest and most powerless (guess which ones were self-serving, greedy assholes?), worked several low paying odd jobs (put me in touch with the "real" backbone of the country), worked as a production assistant, been an actor, worked (or rather working) on an upcoming wonderful documentary about a subject that I can't disclose, written a couple of screenplays (not too happy with them, but I can revise), and currently writing a graphic novel that I hope to finish by the end of this summer.Actually, I've done more than what I thought I have. Anyway, I'm a rather serious and intense person; however, I do have a fun side that a few people get to see from time to time. Most people really bore me. Why? I think it's because most people aren't really that passionate about anything, or they can only talk about getting fucked up and stupid shit like that. I find conversation with most people is like talking to a wall. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't really connect with a lot of people. All of my life, I've felt out of place. I've never really fit in anywhere, but I do have a few close friends that more than make up for not fitting into "the big picture." I'm a very sensitive person, probably too sensitive for my own good, but I wouldn't change this about myself. It makes me who I am, and I kind of like who I am. Recently, someone told me that I have a really cool speaking voice. I thought that was very nice.

My Interests

I'm interested in everything but sports and math. I also like to search for Pulp videos on YouTube. I never knew they made a video for Party Hard until this morning. Instantly, it has become one of my favorite videos. I love the scene when all the gals are coming after Jarvis and he does that little hand motion - causing them all to collapse. There's a lot of hidden meaning in the video - I dig.

I'd like to meet:

I would like to meet a girl that loves Transformers: Generation One as much as I do. I dream of looking at pictures of Starscream and Tracks with this non-extistent girl and both of us getting turned on by the photos of Starscream and Tracks rather than our own bodies and emotional presence. This is my fantasy; I dream it well. Honestly (not that I don't want the above to happen), I want to be around people that know that the world is not that great of a place, but can see through the shit and will put up a fight to make the world a little less cold. Seriously, this is a must. If more people were to do this, the world would be a terrific place, but of course, those with power or those that have it easy tend not to think about anything that doesn't concern their own interests. True, I'm taking a leftist stance, and yes, I'm a fan of leftist, academic writers. However, if you don't see this in your day-to-day life, you're probably one of the chosen ones or your eyes are wide shut. People should read more non-fitcion. Fiction is great, but non-fiction needs some serious attention. I'm not a fan of shallow people. However, I'm guilty of being shallow myself, but I think it's far more respectable to like someone based on looks than it is money. Physical beauty, in most cases, is natural; people are supposed to be attracted to other people. However, people that like people based on what kind of car a person drives, a person's job or how much money they have. Well, fuck those people! I see this too much and it really gets to me. Money has no "real" value, and people that think this is the most important thing (or even rank it high on their lists) -- well -- I don't really want to be around them. People will ALWAYS be more important than cash. I like self-deprecating people; they tend to be more fun to talk to and easier to get along with as well. I also like people with a real sense of emotional maturity. What do I mean by this? Well, people that truly understand their own emotions and the emotions of others around them. I'm a huge fan of emotions. Without them, we are nothing that I would ever want to be. I like people that can talk for hours and hours about anything. I like people that can deconstruct a film they just watched and give a pseudo-academic analysis of it. That's always fun. I like real people, people that aren't afraid to be themselves. I dislike the whole "I'm pretending to be something I'm not, so someone will like me" shit. I like people that go out dancing every once in while. I like people that try to express how they feel or try to communicate an idea through art or conventional means. I like people that always try to do the right thing. I like people that try to be the best person they can be. I like people that realize that the last two Flaming Lips' albums are the best of humanity in a sonic form. I like people that live in their heads -- lost in their own minds that are swimming with anxieties, doubt, sadness, pain and disconnection; however, those same minds should also be filled with sincerity, idealism, truth, kindness and love -- in other words, complete people or as complete as one can be; I realize that no one is ever truly complete, so I just expect a serious attempt at trying to be an actualized person. And most importantly, I'd like to meet anyone that still believes in love. I know it's silly, but it's what keeps me going.

Music:

The Flaming Lips, Bob Dylan, Sonic Youth, Pavement, Stephen Malkmus and the Jicks, Galaxie 500, Arcade Fire, Asobi Seksu, After Hours, Kate Bush, Roxy Music, Cat Power ("Good Woman" is such a beautiful song), Nick Drake, Cowboy Junkies, Pulp, Beck ("Sea Change" only), Silver Jews, Pearl Jam, Low, Sparklehorse, Neil Diamond, Terribly Empty Pockets, Duran Duran, The Wallflowers, U2 (even though they believe in God), Phil Ochs, Television, Vincent Gallo (even though he's a Republican), Mercury Rev, R.E.M. (the Bill Berry years), Rolling Stones, They Might Be Giants (mainly for Linnell's songs), Prince, Lou Reed, etc ...

Movies:

Buffalo '66, The Brown Bunny, In the Company of Men, Arizona Dream, Trouble Every Day, The Shape of Things, Crumb, American Movie, Hurlyburly, Adaptation, 2001: A Space Odyssey, Bully, Network, Lost in Translation, ...And Justice for All, The Hospital, Vertigo, Election, Big Fish, Annie Hall, V for Vendetta, Election, Deconstructing Harry, Manhattan, Flirt, The Book of Life, No Such Thing, Moulin Rouge, Sleeper, Love and Death, Play It Again - Sam, Barton Fink, The Bicycle Thief, Hard Ticket to Hawaii, The People Vs. Larry Flynt, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, JFK, U Turn, Dead Man Walking, Dog Day Afternoon, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Marty, The Good, The Bad and The Ugly, Fistfull of Dollars, For a Few Dollars More, Taxi Driver, 8 1/2, The Fearless Freaks, Stardust Memories, Reds, Bulworth, Grizzly Man, The Center of the World, She's So Lovely, Crimes and Misdemeanors, The Rules of Attraction, Happiness, Sleeper, Love and Death, Ghostbusters, The 400 Blows, The Graduate, Rushmore, The Fog of War, Nashville, Bringing Out the Dead, Wild Strawberries, Raising Arizona, Shane, A Perfect World, Magnolia, Fight Club, Matchpoint, Eyes Wide Shut, Star Trek 2: The Wrath of Kahn, Henry Fool, Transformers: The Movie, Requiem for a Dream, Batman Begins, Pee-Wee's Big Adventure, Born on the Fourth of July, Ed Wood, The King of Comedy, Five Easy Pieces, Trust, Troll 2 (defies description), High Plains Drifter, Natural Born Killers, I Heart Huckabees, etc ...

Television:

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Books:

I'll read anything, and I do. I like Howard Zinn, Noam Chomsky and Michael Albert; progressive politcal writers make me feel pretty good.

Heroes:

Optimus Prime, Rodimus Prime. Although, lately, I've been thinking that Rodimus was a better leader. Optimus was fine, but rarely doubted himself; Rodimus was full of confilct, turmoil, pain and was open with his insecurities and anxieties with everyone. It made him more relatable, modest and, in my opinion, a more effective leader. Also, the wonderful Wayne Coyne is a huge influence -- a true inspiration. And, of course, I have to give a nod to Woody Allen.

My Blog

Potential autobiographical essay required for a job that I won't even get an interview for...

Hey gang - what hell has been going on in all of your lives? I just found out that I got some girl pregnant. No, just kidding. Lately, I've been thinking that sex is pretty fuckin' stupid. However...
Posted by Shane on Fri, 11 May 2007 12:15:00 PST

Well, shit...

Last night, I wrote a blog that I liked quite a bit. I put some real time and thought into it. Anyway, I finish it, go to post and get an "error" message. I hit refresh, the back button - nothing. ...
Posted by Shane on Fri, 04 May 2007 03:13:00 PST

This blog is about music - I guess.

Over the years, bands and their music effect us in different ways. For example, back in high school, I remember being in bed with headphones on - listening to Nine Inch Nails' Pretty Hate Machine and ...
Posted by Shane on Sun, 08 Apr 2007 09:42:00 PST

This is something I sketched out while waiting for a pizza. (REVISED)

REVISION:*Jon put this into the proper format. Thanks. Anyway, for ten minutes, it turned out okay. I wonder if I actually put time into something like this ... no, I'm too busy with other things...
Posted by Shane on Wed, 04 Apr 2007 08:47:00 PST

Those gals deserved a pizza, too!

Last night, I was typing a message, and in it, I wrote a short anecdote about how terrible my high school was. After I sent it, I started thinking, "Was it really that bad?" Within a fraction of a se...
Posted by Shane on Sun, 01 Apr 2007 03:03:00 PST

Hugo Weaving

I just got the news that Hugo Weaving is Megatron. I've had a bad week and this just made it worse. Frank Welker deserved that role! A forum was set up for fan input and the only thing that all fan...
Posted by Shane on Sat, 24 Mar 2007 11:10:00 PST

Mistakes have been made.

Last week, I took a break from writing. What did I do? I took some time to visit with friends and, basically, waste time. This has proven to be a huge mistake. Since January, I've had such momentu...
Posted by Shane on Wed, 21 Mar 2007 05:14:00 PST

Saturday

~Davis...
Posted by Shane on Mon, 19 Mar 2007 09:13:00 PST

I hope this means what I think it means...

I just found this photo a few minutes ago. Above it, was the caption: Optimus Prime and Megatron reunite!Does this mean they finally hired Frank Welker to voice Megatron? I hope so. It's a recent p...
Posted by Shane on Mon, 12 Mar 2007 01:48:00 PST

The Too Skinny Intergalatic Vampire vs. The Evil, Fat Insurance Company

I don't have any kind of insurance. And with a potential move coming up soon, my mom has been adamant that I get all kinds of medical tests done and take out some sort of insurance policy. I really ...
Posted by Shane on Sat, 10 Mar 2007 05:38:00 PST