Tribute to Cruzzer: Turn the Page by Bob Seger
I am quiet but direct, very business oriented. I love catching people off guard with the things I do. I am not an open book as I once used to be, I like people to take the time and figure me out, but not many people can, but those who have the patience and put the effort in, those are the ones I like to surround myself with. Just when people think they know the tune I am singing, I change the "tune." To me, it doesn’t matter to me how one is brought up, where they are from, but what does matter to me is the personal efforts they make to improve on their lives and the conditions around them. My close friends to me have nicknamed me ‘Cruzzer,’ or ‘Ice.’Cruzzer came from my last name ‘Cruz’ and also because I am always moving around, I am never settled down in one place. I am constantly going, never slowing down. My father and friends always say ‘hats off’ to the woman who will be able to tie me down. As for the nickname ‘Ice,’ because I am blank and do not seem to show any facial emotion for long periods of time and it confuses the heck out of everyone. Also, in high school I use to be the biggest A$$hole to people. I am always deeply and sincerely interested in everybody around me, I am open and willing to give you the shirt off my back or anything you need if I have it.
Also, they call me Ice because I assume a mood when people do not know if I am full of ruthlessness, cunning, patience or sweetness. In all truth, I assume all these moods all at once.
Ruthlessness means that I have no pity for me, or for others, which enables me to do what I need to do in life, but it does not mean I am nasty and cruel to others. I hate to mix Business and Personal Feelings. Business is business. Being patient means that I am never in hurry and try to make my timing always right, yet I never waste time. I always try and stay calm, collected and just waiting with unemotional. No matter what, I try and stay optimistic and confident with total faith to myself. Be cunning means I execute with skill and ingenuity, not deceptive or manipulative. I try to be sweet. I mean, you can always catch more flies in life with honey than with vinegar. It doesn’t mean I am spacey or silly. People mix all the meanings of those terms all the time.My greatest enemy in life is my own self importance because I become weak by feeling offended by the deeds or misdeeds of people around me. I do not consider anyone’s acts important for me to be angry with them. If I am pissed at you, I will take you aside and tell you, I won't air it out. I don’t take things personal anymore like I once did. Fighting my self importance is not something simple, because it is the core of everything that is both good and bad in me. Erasing the bad part without erasing the good is the tough part. I really don’t have any expectations of any kind, whatever comes my way, I accept it, I will not lower my head to no one, and I don’t want people lowering their head to me. I’m not afraid of looking like a fool, because this allows me to fool anyone. I always have said 'It takes a fool to catch others in your trap..' I have an endless patience and never hurry. I also have a capacity to improvise when needs be.As for my myspace screenname, "El BaJa Panties" it comes from some Puerto Rican friends who call me that because I always dressed well while in college (LIKE IN ARMANI and Valentino SUITS) and they would say.. "Mirate... El Baja Panty..." It just stuck...It's funny how people who don't even know you personally are the ones talking the 'gossip' about you. People are always trying to figure me out, thing is, they read something about me or hear something about me but they never get to know me in person.For those who do know me, they know what is up and how I keep the masses amused or keep them guessing. Hahaha anyhoo, People change every two years, I mean it is obvious, experiences they have in thier life change them and thier views and interests. If you want to know what I am up to, hit me up.Like I said before, I travel often and always on the move. I have several ways of making money but its not important what I do.One of the things I really like to do is photography and pretty much known through out the underground hip hop scene, I take pictures for you know cd covers, for thier websites, whatever. I also to speak to high school students. Often I am invited to present at conferences all over the nation. Basically I am an individual of many talents which I like to keep hidden so I can suprise the hell out of people when I do what I know who to do or who I know... NOTHING HAS BEEN GIVEN TO ME! I Have BUSTED MY ASS for Everything I have wanted. My philosphy is that I do not blame others for what I have and don't have. I get so sick of people saying stuff that "THE MAN" is holding them down! I believe in SELF-DETERMINATION! I do not believe in luck, LUCK is where preperation meets circumstance.I do a lot of things within politics, before I was mainly an activist but now I play a role which is more suited for me instead of protesting all the time.People call me a sell out, but I don't let it bother me because I feel those people are afraid of competition. Some people are not willing to sacrifice time, money or put out effort to improve their own lives. I don't need to validate myself by who or what I am about to others. I have found satisfaction within myself.There was a time in my life when I wanted to be at the forefront of everything I involved myself in, but now I love working from behind the scenes because it never makes me a target in conflict that is unnecessary in my own life. I do my moves behind the doors in meetings that the general public or the media will never see.Politics: One thing I will brag about something I really like to do, and Liquor Distributors will tell you that I know how to Lobby and I do it well within politics and that is changing different laws when it comes to regarding alcohol.My biggest success in life was when my best friend and I cornered and pinned the Arizona State Legistlators to change the Alcohol curfew from 1am to 2am in the State of Arizona back in 2004. Why was it so big? Two college students, one 24 and the other one 19 were able to do what NO LAWYER, NO LOBBYIST, NO LEGISLATOR COULD DO since the days of prohibition in one of the most CONSERVATIVE STATES in the US. Being LDS (MORMON) I don't condone drinking alcohol, but I did it out of a safety theory that we turned in to a fact. I do other things in the spectrum of poltics but I won't name those. Just because I am not fighting for "Chicano/Latino" causes does not mean I'm not down, I will never turn back on the MOVIMENTO, but it is a MOVEMENT so you got to keep moving but I'm so sick of stuff being a 'black/brown/chicano/latino' issue instead of a 'human' issue.Back in 2004, some group identified me as one of the top 100 immigration college activists in the Nation, but I don't really immigration issues nowdays like I once did. I have no loyalties to any party or ideology, my loyalty is to the people who struggle everyday in life trying to put food on the table, wether they have to work one job or 10 jobs. There is plenty of abundance in the world, yet people refuse to change their way of thinking so they get stuck doing the same job for years and years instead of trying new things and what I call re-vamping. Go read the book "RULES for Radicals" if you don't understand what I am talking about.
My views on politics. People don't understand politics is very complex. Like example, people are quick to blame others for their own problems. So when it comes to issues regarding my own home and family, people say I am extremely conservative. They say that same thing when it comes to my views on my neighborhood and city. When it comes to my views on issues in my State and nation, I'm not conservative, I'm progressive. It all depends on what spectrum of politics you want to look at it does my opinion switch. There are times when I will vote with the "right" over the "left" because they may make certain issues like "family" a priority.People are quick to blame one party, not knowing that another party may control the house/senate and that is why some people backed in to the corner to sign something. I mean come on, TAKE A POLITICAL COURSE and learn something.People may not agree with me on every issue, but people know it's hard for them to dispute my commitment to making a positive difference in my community. I don't agree ..ion, I believe everyone has a right to life. The only way I agree ..ion is when it jepordizes the mother's life. I support Law Enforcement. I am not homophobic, but I don't agree on homosexuality, but I can't judge or tell people how they live thier life. I don't believe in GAY RIGHTS, I BELIEVE IN HUMAN RIGHTS! SO I TREAT EVERYONE WITH THE RESPECT I WANT TO BE TREATED WITH! I don't believe in superficial borders. I am not communist or socialist, because I believe in self determination and not hand outs. Just thought I'd let people know that Communism will never work... because people have emotions. Jealousy, happiness, anger, etc etc. My biggest blessing is civility. Regardless of the circumstance, I like to argue, yet I still treat everyone with dignity and respect, even if I do not agree with them.Ok, enough political talk, I can pretty much chop it up on any subject. From hip hop music to mozart, from cars and phones to quantuam physics and string theory. Everyday Things: I am an Enviromental NERD. I sometimes go CRAZY when I see people treating this earth with disrespect, but that does not say I sometimes contribute, I am human and have my faults. I do not litter, I recycle, I reduce, and I reuse. Other things: I am ALWAYS READING! ALWAYS! I STUDY Psychological and precepitory War-Fare, Mass Media Control, Communication, Control through Advertisement, Control through images, and Orators (People who speak to the masses). I als study regular war-fare, Guerilla Tatics, etc etc. Other things I like is being involved in intellectually stimulating conversations and friendly debate, more like debate in which I can get in to your face and yell ''YOU ARE WRONG'' Raza Groups: Arizona Raza | Alabama Raza | Alaska Raza | Arkansas Raza | California Raza | Colorado Raza | Connecticut Raza | Delware Raza | Florida Latinos | Georgia Raza | Idaho Raza | Illinois Raza | Indiana Raza | Iowa Raza | Kentucky Raza | Louisana Raza | Minnesota Raza | Mississippi Raza | Missouri Raza | Montana Raza | Nebraska Raza | Nevada Raza | New Jeresey Raza | New Mexico Raza | New York Latinos/Raza | North Carolina Raza | North Dakota Raza | Ohio Raza | Oklahoma Raza | Oregon Raza | Pennsylvania Raza | South Carolina Raza | South Dakota Raza | Tennessee Raza | Texas Raza | Utah Raza | Washington Raza | West Virginia Raza | Wisconsin Raza | Wyoming Raza