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SkullQueen

No shaft of light can breach it. No breath of air comes from it. Only an endless dark rises deep fro

About Me

I love dark art and dark fantasy. I am drawn to the darker side of life. The things that go bump in the night. I cling to the darkness as if it were the life giving sun and dream dark dreams of what life will be for future generations. I hold inside myself dark prayers for darker ends and keep the stronghold of my heart locked inside where no one will find it. You may think that you have but there isnt anyone who knows the secrets of my heart. I feel ice inside and keep warmth at bay. What life is this that you think that you have made? One day you may look to me for advice to find me gone from you and never to return. I am but a fleeting shadow. I draw myself close only to pull away. I look into your soul and see your desires manifest themselves as if you have opened your soul wide to me, but when you give me thoes desires I am quick to close the door that I once held wide open for you. I dream of the day when the world will fall into itself and I hold myself ready, for even now the spinning of this world slows and its life is waning. You may think me a weak person...but what I convey to you on the outside is only what I deem it necessary for you to see. HOld close your heart and your soul from me for I will surely wreck it as if it were my own. I see what you have done, my fellow humans, you who have made this glass world we all call home. You have built a breakable dome that one day will shatter and where will you be when life hangs in the balance? When all your creature comforts are gone? When you realize that you have wasted your time by not fully appreciating education? Moral values? The freedoms you say this government is giving you? When you have defeated all your evil and it still remains but in the form you have given it? When you have exhausted all your resources and you have given complete controll of your life over to thoes that you thought were leading us? What then my children will you do? Will you stand and fight? How will you choose sides?I think that you will all be the ones to suffer the most. You blindly put your faith into thoes that would only misuse it. You dream false dreams of sunshine and daisies. YOu put your faith into a God that only sees your sins. I see frightened animals ready to bolt. Not knowing where to turn.I smell your fear in everything that you do. A tragedy strikes us and we cower in fear in the comfort of our own homes. We dont stand and fight with others we put banners on our cars like we are being supportive. Your dreams will end...Your hearts will break. I wont pick up the pieces ill step over them and continue on because I am one of the strong.My darkness overcomes my light. Thoes who think they know me only know a mask. Thoes who wish they know me will only ever know a piece of me. Thoes who already do are lucky to get that piece. I am a many faceted gem. My dark light shines brightest when im being bad. But if you get to know me at my worst you are lucky for you might just know the true me. But Ill never tell....You who would learn the wisdom of hidden things and traverse the avenues of shadow beneath the stars, heed this song of pain that was chanted by one who went unseen before you that you may follow the singing of his voice across the windblown sands that obscure the marks of his feet. Each who goes into the Empty Space walks alone, but where one has gone another may follow. Turn not your mind from night fears, but embrace them as a lover. Let terror possess your body and course through your veins with its heady intoxication to steal your judgment, your very reason. In the madness of the night, all sounds become articulate. A man sure of himself, confident in his strength, aware of his rightful place, remains forever ignorant. His mind is closed. He cannot learn in life, and after death there is no acquisition of knowledge, only unending certainty. His highest fulfillment is to be food for the things that burrow and squirm, for in their mindless hunger they are pure, undefiled by reason, and their purity elevates them above the putrefying pride of our race. By writhing on your belly in abject terror you will rise up in awareness of truth; by the screams that fill the throat unsought is the mind purged of the corruption of faith. Believe in nothing. There is no purpose in birth, no salvation of the soul in life, no reward after death. Abandon hope and you shall become free, and with freedom acquire emptiness. The night things that hop and skitter and flit at the edges of the campfire glow exist only to teach, but no man can understand their words unless he has lost in fear the memory of his name. Two serving maidens will come to you when you lie alone, and will lead you to the place within yourself that cannot be known but only felt. These handmaidens are Terror and Despair. Let them guide you into nightmares that follow one upon the other, like windblown grains of sand, until they cover over the markers of your mind. When you have lost yourself in the wasteland of unending nothingness, the night things will come.With hope utterly abandoned, all else will leave you, save only fear. Your name forgotten, your memories bereft of meaning, without desire or purpose and having no regret, you would cease utterly to exist and would become one with the greatness of the night were it not for fear. Let your terror be your standing place amid the ocean of darkness. From it you cannot retreat for it is all that you are become. Pure fear is undifferentiated, a smoothness without line or color; hence a man in the extremity of terror is united with all other terrified men; more than this, in the purity of terror he becomes one with all fearful creatures in this world or other worlds, both in this moment and in distant aeons of time, and in that unity wherein dwells the wisdom of all, his mind is opened, and the night things speak.Pain is the terror of the body, and as the body is but a pallid reflection of the mind, so is the pain of the flesh no more than a distant echo of the terror of dreams. Even so, do not despise your pain, for it has its function. Pain anchors the mind to flesh. In the absence of pain, the mind would fly up and become lost in the spaces between the stars, and darkness would consume it. Just as the mind can lose all aspects of itself, but will never cease to fear, so can the body lose all strength and sensations or longing, but will always feel pain. While there is life, there is pain, and fear continues even when life is no more.Despair is not separate from terror but is the consequence of the abatement of fear. When terror fills the mind there is room for nothing else, but when it withdraws in part, as it must do, for it ebbs and flows even as the tides of the seas, then the mind is left cleansed and empty, and this condition is called despair. In despair there is a void that yearns to be filled up. Let the night things fill it with their whisperings, and in this way grow wise in the secret ways of this world, and other worlds unknown to men.Of all pains, hunger is the most useful since it gnaws unceasingly, like the worm in the tomb. It is the gateway upon an emptiness vast and endless; no matter the quantity or kind of food, it is never filled up. All living creatures are but embodiments of hunger. Man is a hollow tube, ingesting food at one end and excreting waste at the other. How is it possible for man to be other than empty? As it is for the body, so it is also for the mind. The natural condition of the mind is emptiness. All efforts to fill it are temporary diversions that fail to deny this truth.To learn arcane wisdom is the simplest of tasks. Purge the mind with terror; purge the body with pain and hunger. Take yourself out into the empty spaces of the world that express in their limited way the same qualities as the empty spaces between the stars. The things that dwell there are ever watchful. They exist only to teach. After terror comes despair, and in despair the language of the shadows is intelligible. As you empty your mind of self, the night creatures fill it with their wisdom.The wisest of these creatures is the black beetle that lives on the dung of others. Dead food is better than food that is living, since its essence is nearer to the ultimate state of decay to which we all tend. From corruption arises new life. Fill yourself with corruption and from it you shall be reborn, even as the fungi arise and glow with radiance on the faces of the dead who have rested in their tombs a span of years. Emulate the beetles and the worms, and learn their teachings. Eat of the dead, lest you be consumed by the emptiness. The living cannot teach the dead, but the dead can instruct the living.In the wasteland dwell those things that cannot abide the light of reason. Even as man is a creature of the day, and ceases to know himself during the darkness, so do these things of the void cease to articulate their identity during the hours of the sun. They sleep by day and wake by night to feed. The terror of man is their nourishment and their excrement is higher wisdom. The dung of these things may only be consumed when the mind is made empty by terror and is in a receptive state of despair. Unless the mind be perfectly purged, their excrement will be vomited up and lost. The exquisite rapture of hunger retains all foods, and extracts nourishment even from the husks of beetles and the castings of worms. Ingest wisdom with the darkness, and sleep by day.Separate yourself from humanity, for what use have you for these pale, blinking fools and their ceaseless yammerings? In life they serve no function, and in death they are only food for the crawling creatures. Take yourself apart, embrace your fear, and listen to the darkness. Your teachers will come; as they appear before you, consume their wisdom. Grind their chitinous cases between your teeth and partake of their essence. The whirring of their wings and the rubbing of their legs is music. Consume all, even the other things that approach, those that have no bodies but only teeth and eyes that gleam in shadow. The crawling things instruct the body, and the shadow shapes teach the mind, but the wisdom of both must be consumed. There is only hunger in the universe. Devour everything.~Necronomicon~

My Interests

horror,comicsDrawing,painting,writing,anime,anything , music,spreading sin and blasphemy,getting people into shitthat they didnt want to be in in the first place, video games, reading and causing everyone trouble,spreading my sick and twisted ideals on life love and pain by pressing someone to not be fucking chicken shit,tearing down peoples walls stone by stone and watching them fall,then kicking them while they are down to add insult to injury. DONT FUCK WITH ME!!!!!!! Drawing people in against their will just so I can feed them sin.

I'd like to meet:

Id like to meet someone that was worth my time. That didnt only think about themselves. Id like to meet someone that had the courage to love me for who I am and what I am and have the confidence and balls to stick around to see where id take them.I would also like to meet someone with the courage to look me in the face and tell me what they really mean instead of half measures and half truths. I dont wanna jump through hoops to get the truth or to get to the bottom of you.Just lay ur shit out there for me to see and dont try to hide it. Id like to meet someone that wasnt so quick to run out the door just because we hit a bump in the road. If im not worth caring about dont FUCKING BE WITH ME!!!! I know that i am and dont need you to tell me im not.Id like to meet someone that didnt want me around for how popular i am or the clothes that I wear or the sterotype they try to fit me in. Fuck that and fuck you if you think that im gonna bow down to your idiotic views on life.

Music:

If its not rock it doesnt exist....nuff said. alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting""How art thou fallen from heaven O day-star, son of the morning! (Helel ben Shahar) How art thou cast down to the ground, That didst cast lots over the nations! And thou saidst in thy heart: 'I will ascend into heaven, Above the stars of God (El) Will I exalt my throne; And I will sit upon the mount of meeting, In the uttermost parts of the north; I will ascend above the heights of the clouds; I will be like the Most High (Elyon).' Yet thou shalt be brought dow to the nether-world, To the uttermost parts of the pit." - Isaiah 14:12-15

Movies:

Any thing out of the ordinary and dark,mostly shit that other people wouldnt watch.But here are some of the genres Horror,fantasy,scifi,...I love anything to do with Vampires. I also love Lord of the Rings and anything else that will take me away as far as possible from all of you...jk. No but seriously. I love the darker side of Anime, Hellsing,Devil Lady, Demon Lord Dante, Lady Death..the list goes on and on and on..You get the idea.

Television:


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Books:

There are wayyyyy too many to name but I am all over the Dragon Lance,I love Alastair Crowley, Edgar Allen Poe,H P Lovecraft,Stephen King,Bram Stoker, Anne Rice, R A Salvatore.I know Im a loser but hey someone has to be. Basically anything scary, I love comics, Spawn, Lady Death, Lady Demon, Evil Ernie, these guys are the shit.

Heroes:

Heros are for those weakminded individuals who are too sad and depraved to help themselves..Fuck That.. One Day the strong will overpower the weak and the world will be left in darkness. And on that day the strong will raise their voices in victorious cries and laugh in the faces of their foes. For all the world will know the might and power of thoes who have looked death in the face and laughed. For what is held in darkness is sacred only to thoes strong enough to look into the mirrors of their own souls. Ahh if I only had a big enough candle Id show the world what HELL really is.MegaDeath. Planets will collide and all things on earth will be Dead. The multitude of sinners will rise up to take Heavens gates. We will burst through with victorious cries and rejoice in the chaotic lamentations of Gods followers. Hahahaha ahhh the sheer ecstasy of it all. Our blood stained swords will cleave through the air and tell the tales of our fallen enemies.

My Blog

FUCK all you SHITTY MOTHER FUCKING ASSHOLES!!!!!!!!!!!

I FUCKING HATE LAMEBRAINED EGOMANIACAL ASSHOLES! YOU KNOW WHAT? WE SHOULD TOTALLY DEVISE A FUCKING PLAN TO KICK EVERY ONE OF THOSE MOTHER FUCKERS OFF PLANET EARTH. WE COULD JUST TAKE THEM RIGHT OUTSID...
Posted by SkullQueen on Fri, 13 Apr 2007 07:00:00 PST

Pain to come..

Myriad visions a cacophony of sound and light and darkness. A time to come and a time of pain. Where are we going and Where have we gone? What is this place that we have arrived?   And whe...
Posted by SkullQueen on Sun, 01 Apr 2007 10:35:00 PST

BlaCk VoiD..........

The deep solitude of infinite black holds dear those that come willingly and naturally to it. And deep inside its warm cocoon it harbors those souls that the "light" bearers of the world have thrown d...
Posted by SkullQueen on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 08:17:00 PST

Fuck all of you....

You know what I fucking hate? I hate assholes that make your life a living fucking hell because they think that you arent doing something right! What is up with all this Yoda induced advice ive been g...
Posted by SkullQueen on Mon, 11 Dec 2006 02:53:00 PST

Am I....

Am I strong or am I just like everyone else? When I think of the things that I have had to endure I know that my lot isnt any different than anyone elses. That we are all doing our very best but....I ...
Posted by SkullQueen on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 07:57:00 PST

I feel....

Like Im freefalling and I cant get a grip on myself. I sit in silence and im restless. I cant eat. It feels like a thousand pounds of rocks in my belly. I cant breathe. My lungs wont fill with enough ...
Posted by SkullQueen on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 07:48:00 PST

Why?

Why is it that everyone always seems to have that unwanted piece of advice on how you should live your life? I dont understand why ppl think that they can just butt into your life and try and tell you...
Posted by SkullQueen on Mon, 06 Nov 2006 01:02:00 PST

OMG!!

OMG!!! This has been the worst week ever!!!! I cant believe how much shit has just gone absolutly awry!!! Im sorry I havent been online much lately and i hope you all forgive me. But I do miss you guy...
Posted by SkullQueen on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 06:26:00 PST

Just a little something to tide you over until there is more...

  Deadly Imaginings   The Boatman comes to ferry me across the blood river, its cold and dark, I can't see where I'm going and I have no sense of time. I'm bruised and beaten; my skin is tat...
Posted by SkullQueen on Sun, 08 Oct 2006 12:10:00 PST

Hearts Tendencies.....

Vaporous, vicious, unfeeling soul. I hate my heart and its Tendencies for Anger. Morbid,chaotic,Lamentations of dreary solitiude. I Hate My heart and its tendencies for Anger. Tempestuous, Stubborn, A...
Posted by SkullQueen on Fri, 06 Oct 2006 12:00:00 PST