Sane

Juss so everyone knows, I leave my computer on 24/7, and my browser open. So it always says im online but alotta the time im AFK, so if u message me and i dont reply, dont take it personally, Im juss not at the computer or im doin a million other things too!! I always respond when I get back on, or if I am on and actually surfin myspace I respond pretty fast.
UPDATE! Im using my revenge profile right now, (as in at this point in my life), as it appeals more to my jaded side :D so if ur one of my friends hit me up there, im on it alot more.
Incase you cant tell, I turned this profile all evans blue, But I made a new profile to use my old layout on.... add me there, www.myspace.com/beautykilled.
I LOVE MATISYN!!!
Im a 25 yr old divorced mostly Native American/Hungarian female. I am a full time mother to 3 beautiful little boys. Ages 7, 3, & 2. Im a pisces/aries and believe very much in astrology. The real stuff anyways. I have a good heart and very strong beliefs and morals, I've had a rather ruff life and Im just trying to bounce back & Better my life for my kids and myself. If you can get past my defenses I am a affectionate, passionate, giving and love driven person. But I can also be hateful, self absorbed, angry & bitter as well... gotta love those walls! With all the improvements im trying to make there really isnt room in my life for a relationship, My plate is seriously full, But I would like to make a few TRUE friends... Tho theyd have to be the type that understands im not gonna be up their ass all the time and dont want them up mine.. sounds mean I know but im a very loner type person with a lot goin on in my life.
I hide me and my kids in our own little bubble and seldom let anyone near it, and never let anyone in...
Im also a very jaded person, who dont expect much from people, and that way is never dissapointed... But I have alotta hope that there are better people out there. And that I might find them. Hope is all we really have in the end.
I can be your best friend, The love of your life, Or your worst nightmare. There is no in between.
People have a habit of obsessing over me, both positively and negatively. (kind of hard to explain without giving examples.) I seem to fascinate, intrigue, and even infuriate. Its as the saying goes, either you love me or your just jealous. I know that sounds egotistical, but ask anyone i know if it isnt true...
I have a strong hold on people, and on myself.
I am consuming, as well as consumed.
I am strong where you are weak, and weak where you could only wish you were.
I can help those few people left that are good, realize their worth and maximize upon it, And I can break those that prey on others.
Dont think one person posesses all this? think im just conceited? You'll see....
Ive spent my entire life getting to know myself above all else, and playing on my strengths from the hardships life throws ones way.
Nothing in life is a mistake, Everything happens for a reason. Think you juss get dumped on? maybe your just lucky. The more you get thru in life, the stronger you become. Even when it feels as if life is breaking you, Its really juss calousing your soul.
Be thankful for all you are given in this life, The bad times most of all. Each has a lesson to learn, Just dont be so jaded you miss it. Cuz then it will all have been for nothing, and your life really will be a waste.
What you do with those strengths you very well earned, is up to you. I hope you dont make them futile.
Treasure those close to you with all your heart, but with the exception of your own kids, remember that people, no matter how much you love them, are all disposable.
Dont let anyone bring you down, cause you grief, Ruin your life or cause you to make decisions in life that ARE NOT right for you. Cause when it comes down to it, they are obsolete.
And theres a good chance that one day, you wont even hardly remember them anymore...
The brain is truly amazing and can block out most anything.
Even pain. Be true to yourself above all else, As long as its not at the cost of others... Cuz in the end, All you got is you. Better hope you can rely on yourself.
-------------------Girls----------------------
--------------are like apples----------------
----------on trees. The best ones----------
---------are at the top of the tree.---------
-------The boys dont want to reach--------
-----for the good ones because they-------
--are afraid of falling and getting hurt.----
---Instead, they get the rotten apples-----
---from the ground that arent as good, ---
---but easy. So the apples up top think---
----something wrong w/ them when in----
-----reality they're amazing. They just----
------have to wait for the right boy to-----
---------come along, the one who's----------
------------- brave enough to---------------
------------------climb all--------------------
------------------the way--------------------
-----------------to the top-------------------
----------------of the tree.------------------
My Newest Pics....
Some Pic's Damion Did Of Me... He rocks my socks. :D
Check Out Damions Art Here.
My psycho dead look