Paul

I am 24, gettin older scares me a bit. I love goin out. But love stayin in with someone. I love my friends. But find i drift from people alot. I wanna keep n contact but it I don’t see a point if its always me contactin them or i dont hear from them. I want people to want to talk to me not just cuz I have called them. I hate where i am from but i miss it as well. I love Manchester where i live now but would move to London in a second if i could. I am very self concious and insecure, most people dont think i am tho. I wont walk into a bar on my own. I wont sit in a cafe on my own. Sometimes i am to scared to call my friends incase they dont want me to. I love meetin new people but cant do it on my own. But i will get on a stage infront of 1500 people and sing. I will dance on show to a whole club and love it but then i cant cope with people staring at me. I am confident in my appearence but cant chat any1 up cuz i dont see they will want me too. I am a good problem solver but only when its some1 elses problem. I hate double standards. I aint to keen on the uk government. I hate people who hate students. I dont like Jordan. I feel a bit sorry for Jodie Marsh. I dont think Michael Jackson is a pedo. I think Whitney Houston had the best voice in the world. Mariah Carey is overrated. I was fumin Marissa was writen out of the OC. Vera and Jack are quality. Macauley Culkins career needs to come back. I dont really like alcohol but i drink alot. My biggest annoyance is that i lose everything. Feet make me sick. I dont think enough people get what a GIFT a FRIEND is. Friends fall out over stupid things to often and give up on friendship to easily. I dont get why people choose family to be god parents. I dont get why people christen their kids for the sake of it. I dont like how lazy our country is. I dont like kids havin kids. I think Madonna looks like a man. David Beckham needs to be given a break. I would love to know how many footballers are gay but hide it. If i could do anythin it would be to win an Olympic Gold medal. I think Bill Gates should give half his money to charity, he dont need that much. I think people mis understand me alot. I HATE MISSIN people. I get to attached to people. I wish drugs didnt have a come down. I wish i was closer to my family. Really wish people would make more effort to keep in touch. Never understood people who lie. Gossips are uncalled for. We all need to think about what we say b4 we say it. Ally McBeal is a legend of a show. Brad Pitt should have stayed with Jen. I dont think beauty is everythin but i myself judge on looks. If i could go out everynight i prob would. Wish i didnt drown my problems with drink and drugs. My biggest regret is waitin till i was 24 to move to England. I wouldnt thank my parents if i won a Brit or a grammy award. Homeless people that sit by the cash machine do my head it. I am scared of being alone. I just wanna tell SOME1 i LOVE them. I hate it when you feel you love some1 more than they love you. I have a crap memory. I am very blunt. I think its funny that girls ask me if they look nice rather than there girls mate cuz i wont lie. I dont like bein bored anxious or upset. I really want to be rich. 'Money doesnt bring happiness', i dont believe this. I would do anythin to get a record contract. Spiders and Snakes scare me. I love all kinda of club/dance music. I want to travel the world. Religion, is a personal belief no need to try and force it upon people. Even tho I believe. So many other things can come from my brain but ask if you wanna know anything else ?