Judy

I'd like to meet:

I would like to meet other friends who have the ability to be honest about their own trials and tribulations. It's going to be 13 1/2 years since I have my last drink, but, truth be told, I'm in the process of decreasing the strong pain medication I've been taking (as prescribed) since I was told I have spinal stinosis. I am now on 45mg from 180mg. I believe that God will guide me and show me that I can do this. I need to be honest about my life because Truth, Faith, and Love of God is all there is.
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Amazing Grace,

How sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me.

I once was lost but now I'm found, was blind but now I see.

T'was grace that taught my heart to feel,

and grace my fears relieved.

How precious did that grace appear the hour I first believed.

When we've been there ten thousand years,

bright shining as the sun,

we've no less days to sing God's praise then when we first begun.

Amazing Grace,

how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me.

I once was lost,but now I'm found.

Was blind, but now I see.

Lord make me the instrument of Your peace Where there is injury - pardon Where there is doubt - faith Where there is despair - hope Where there is darkness - light Where there is sadness - joy and where there is sadness - joy O Divine Master grant that I may not seek To be consoled - as to console To be understood - as to understand To be loved - as to love for It is in giving - that we receive It is in pardoning - that we are pardoned It is in dying - that we are born to eternal life.

Safely Home I am home in Heaven, dear ones; Oh, so happy and so bright! There is perfect joy and beauty In this everlasting light. All the pain and grief is over, Every restless tossing passed; I am now at peace forever, Safely home in Heaven at last. Did you wonder I so calmly Trod the valley of the shade? Oh! but Jesus' love illumined Every dark and fearful glade. And He came Himself to meet me In that way so hard to thread; And with Jesus' arm to lean on, Could I have one doubt or dread? Then you must not grieve so sorely, For I love you dearly still: Try to look beyond earth's shadows, Pray to trust our Father's Will. There is work still waiting for you, So you must not idly stand; Do it now, while life remaineth - You shall rest in Jesus' land. When that work is all completed, He will gently call you Home: Oh, the rapture of that meeting, Oh, the joy to see you come!

.. My Son David August 26, 1964 - August 14, 2001

So now little man you're tired of grass, LSD, alcohol, cocaine and hash,
When someone pretending to be a true friend, said let me introduce you to Mr. Heroine.
I'm so very powerful, I'm sure you've been told, pound for pound more expensive than gold.
I take you places that you have never been, rob you of your self-esteem then grin.
You'll shoot me in your veins on a daily basis, as long as you have money you'll swear you're in an oasis.
When your money runs out you'll sell all your things, then you'll even sell your mom's wedding ring.
The vomit, the cramps, the withdrawal pains, can only be eased by my little white grains.
I'm grown in fields and manufactured to taste, but I'm nothing more than poppy seed waste.
You'll try to recover again and again, but you little man, I'm your biggest friend.
You ingest me in your system once again, and it only gets worse, shoot me again.
I'll take your mind, body, soul and heart, and then you'll be mine, till death do us part.
WRITTEN BY MY SON DAVID

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Prayer of Salvation "Dear Jesus, I believe in you. I believe You are the Son of God, that You died for my sins, and that You were buried and rose again as written in the Bible. I'm sorry for the things I've done that hurt You. Forgive me for all my sins. Come into my heart, take charge of my life and make me the way You want me to be. With Your ever present help, I renounce all my sinful practices of the past. Cleanse my heart with Your precious blood. Write my name in Your Book of Life. I confess You now as my Lord and Savior. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit. Thank you, Jesus! In Jesus' Name, Amen."

Music:

George Benson, Enya, Kitaro, Yanni, Kenny G, Billie Holiday, Grover Washington (New Age and all Jazz)

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Movies:

Through forgiveness the arms of Jesus lift you, His blood cleanses you, and His love changes you. It is His free gift to you. turn you heart toward Jesus. Pray to receive Him and His forgiveness by faith today.... He will come into your heart and make all things new.

Television:

All eposodes of Law and Order, X-Files, NYPD,Drama Movies, Angel, All My Children, One Life to Life, General Hospital---News. Recently found a new TV station called Trinity Broadcasting Network.

Books:

Bible - Blessed By An Angel - 24 Hour Day Book - God Calling

Heroes:

GOD
.. SERENITY PRAYER

God grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change

courge to change the things I can

and the wisdom to know the difference

Only a few more steps and then God's power

shall be seen and known in my life.

I am now walking in darkness, surrounded by the limitations

of space and time.

But even in the darkness, I can have faith

and can be a light to guide feet that are afraid.

I believe that God's power will break through the darkness

and my prayers will pierce even to the ears of God Himself.

But only a cry from the heart, a trusting cry,

ever pierces that darkness and reaches to the divine ear of God. .

Withdraw into the calm of communion with God. Rest in that calm and peace. When the soul finds its home of rest in God, then it is that real life begins. Only when you are calm and serene can you do good work. Emotional upsets make you useless. The eternal life is calmness and when you enter into that, then you live as an enternal being. Calmness is based on complete trust in God. Nothing in this world can separate you from the love of God. I pray that I may wear the world like a loose garment. I pray that I may keep serene at the center of my being. I am strong, you know. Tried by experts, left lonely on bare floors and hated by those who loved me. Nights of sadness have not taken away my life. Nor days of melancholy and madness. I am a quiet cave hidden in ocean rocks, A fir tree watching giant redwoods rot away, A patch of grass at the edge of a roaring river, A stone that has known the desert's heat and survived till the sun was gone. I am strong you know, Oppressed by tyrants, Abandoned on dark nights and cursed by those who praised me. Winters raging has not bowed my head, Nor years of loneliness and aging. I am a silent spring trickling down the mountains, A patch of snow refusing to melt A patient crack in granite rocks, A tree that was bent at birth has not fallen in the cold wind. I am strong you know, Some kind of woman has somehow grown, I like the strength that lovers give, But I am strong enough alone. You should not dwell too much on the mistakes, faults, and failures of the past. Be done with shame and remorse and contempt for yourself. With God's help, develop a new self-respect. Unless you respect yourself, others will not respect you. You ran a race, you stumbled and fell, you have risen again and now you press on toward the goal of a better life. Do not stay to examine the spot where you fell, only feel sorry for the delay, the shortsightedness that prevented you from seeing the real sooner. I pray that I may not look back. I pray that I may keep picking myself up and making a fresh start each day. You ask w hy I follow this Jesus? Why I love Him the way I do? When the world's turned away from His teachings And the people who serve Him are few. It's not the rewards I'm after Or the gifts that I hope to receive It's the Presence that calls for commitment It's the Spirit I trust and believe. The Lord does't shelter His faithful Or spare them all suffering and pain, Like everyone else I have burdens, And walk through my share of rain. Yet He gives me a plan and a purpose, And that joy only Christians have known, I never know what comes tomorrow, but I do know I'm never alone. It's the love always there when you need it; It's the words that redeem and inspire, It's the longing to ever be with Him that burns in my heart like a fire. So you ask why I love my Lord Jesus? Well, friend, that's so easy to see, But the one thing that fills me with wonder is Why Jesus loves someone like me.