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Chameleon

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About Me



I am not so sure what there is to say about me. I am an average woman. I am a thinker and like to explore the core of everything that interests me. I do not like shallowness and superficiality. I can be very sponteanous but it usually takes some time before I really open up my heart to anyone. Originally I am from (East-)Berlin but after having lived in London for two years, where I stuided dance at the LCDS, Amsterdam has become my home. Perhaps I will be off again some day and go some place new but for now I am happy where I am. And as almost everybody in the Netherlands I also have two cats who keep me company.

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My Interests


My Interests: DANCING, WRITING, PAINTING, PSYCHOLOGY, PHILOSOPHY, BOOKS, FILMS, MUSIC, CULTURES, JUST ABOUT ALL ASPECTS OF LIFE ...

Heroes: ALL PEOPLE WHO DO NOT ALLOW ANYONE OR ANYTHING TO BREAK THEIR SPIRIT!

I'd like to meet:


PEOPLE WITH HUMOR AND DEPTH

THOUGHTS

PRINCIPLES/MORALS/ETHICS VERSUS GOALS
LOVE IS IN THE LOVING
WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THE FUNDAMENTAL BELIEF/FAITH IN HUMAN BEINGS AND HUMANITY?
The ignorance or how we produce the evil - by A. Miller
"TOXIC" PEOPLE
THOUGHTS ON INTERACTIONS – PART I
THOUGHTS ON INTERACTIONS – PART II
ONE INDIVIDUAL STEP – PART I
ONE INDIVIDUAL STEP – PART II
THE ENEMY INSIDE
MASOCHISM VERSUS SELF-SABOTAGE
THE DANGER OF TERMINOLOGY
WITHOUT EVIL NO GAIN
SURVIVAL
FOOLISH THINKER
AN INTRUDER?

LIFE

OUCH…
"THE BODY NEVER LIES” (for Louise)
FRIENDSHIP IS EVERYTHING BUT EXPECTATIONS
PERCEPTION AND LOVE ARE SO IMPORTANT
KEEP YOUR MISERY TO YOURSELF
ALL THAT MATTERS IS WHO I AM!
A BIZARRE BUT WARM LIFE
OUT OF SIGHT
LOVE KNOWS NO HIERARCHY
LOVE HAS MANY FACES
SPECIAL TO ME
AN ARTIST’S LIFE
IT DEFINITELY SUCKS
TRANSFORMED PERSPECTIVE
REALITY CHECK

WRITINGS

THE AFTERMATH OF AN AVERAGE DAY
SHARING IS ABOUT CONNECTING AND HEALING
WHAT IF
I WONDER
TORTURING TREASURE
LESSONS OF MY LIFE
MASKS
SILENT PAIN
WASTE?

PAINTINGS/DRAWINGS

EXQUISITE SPIRIT
BROTHERS
SHE NEVER UNDERSSTOOD
IF I WOULD DARE TO …
THE ONE THING THATHAS NEVER BEEN EXPLAINED
EVERYTHING ASKS IT’S PRICE
IT'S NOT A POSESSION
TROUBLE COMES AT NIGHT
STRANGERS ARE NOT ALWAYS STRANGERS
PAINFULLY BEAUTIFUL
JUST A MOMENT IN TIME
NO WORDS NEEDED
TOGETHER APART
SOMETHING ... ONLY TIME ...
THE TASTE OF LIFE
NOT SPEAKING ABOUT IT ALSO DOESN'T MAKE IT ANY EASIER
ANY VOICE LOST - I
ANY VOICE LOST - II
CHILDREN
PASSION - I
PASSION - II
WITHIN
HARMONIOUS POWER
THE HEALING
The Healing - 2
DREAMWORLD
MYSTERIOUS PLACE
SOLITUDE

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Music:



Movies:

I am always in for a good movie but there are too many remarkable films I have seen to list them all.

Books:

Books:
Maya Angelou - I know why the caged bird sings / Gather together in my name / Singin' and swingin' and getting merry like Christmas / The heart of a woman / All god's children need travelling shoes
Marilyn French - Her mother's daughter / The women's room / Our father
Rita Mae Brown – Six of one / In her day
Jung Chang - Wild swans
Wally Lamb – Couldn’t keep it to myself
Camilla Gibb – Mouthing the words
Alice Walker – The colour purple
Toni Morrison – The bluest eyes
H. Wassomo – The house with the blind glass windows (The Tora books)
Kuwana Haussley – Angel of Harlem
Adrian N. Leblanc - Random Family
Janet Frame – An angel at my table
Jennifer Lauck – Blackbird / Still water
Marya Hornbacher – Wasted
Stephanie Grant – Alice's Passion
Laura Donaforte – I remember myself
M. Morris – If i should die before I wake
Margaret Dickson – Maddy's song
Herman Hesse - Der Steppenwolf
Irvin D. Yalom - The Schopenhauer Cure / The gift of therapy / The therapist / When Nietzsche wept
J. D. Saliner - The catcher in the rye / Nine stories
K. Sello Duiker - The silent violence of dreams
Paul Coehlo – O Alquimista (The alchemist)
Keri Hulme - Kerewin
Ian McEwan - The cement garden
Elliot Perlman – Seven types of ambiguity
Minette Walters - The sculptress / The icebreaker / The scold’s bridle
Mo Hayder – Birdman / The treatment
Ken Follet - A dangerous Fortune / The pillars of the earth
Emile Zola - "De Rougon Macquarts"
Dostojevski
Alexander Solzjenitsyn
Balzac
Guy de Maupassant
Per Olov Enquist
Mario Vargas Llosa
Mark Haddon
Dave Eggers
Alice Miller - The body never lies / The drama of the gifted child / The truth will set you free / Banished knowledge / Breaking down the wall of silence / For your own good / Thou shalt not be aware / The untouched key / Paths of life
Jean Jenson - Reclaiming your life
J.Young + J.Klosko - Reinventing your life
Thomas A. HARRIS - I'm ok - you're ok
Ellen Bass + Laura Davis - The courage to heal
Steve Farmer - Adult children of abusive parents
Ingeborg Bosch - Illusions
Lillian B. Rubin - The Man With the Beautiful Voice / Daughters, Mothers & the Crucible of Aging / America's Working Class Speaks / Tales of Triumph Over the Past / White Against White in an Urban School District
Gloria Nossis - Women's Experience (Stories, Memoirs, Essays from childhood to Maturity)
Eliana Gil - Outgrowing pain
Iris Krasnow - I am my mother's daughter
Lou Marinoff - The big questions
Marshall B. Rosenberg - Nonviolent communication
Janet Woititz - Adult children of alcoholics / Struggles for intimacy / Home away from home
Charles L. Withfield - Healing the child within
Wayne Muller - Legacy of the heart
Sandra Butler - Conspiracy of silence
S. Fraser - My father's house (memoir)
E.Sue Blume - Secret Survivors
Judith Lewis Herman - Trauma and recovery
Jane Middleton - Children of trauma
P. Greenacre - Trauma growth and personality
C.R.Figley - Trauma and its wake
H.M.Lynd - On shame and the search for identity
G. Kaufman - Shame and the power of caring
Susie Orbach - Hunger strike / Emotional Blackmail
Mary Pipher - Hunger Pain
S. Macleod - The art of starvation
Marilee Strong - A bright red scream
Tracy Alderman - The sacred soul
Amy S. Wilensky – Passing for normal
Dave Pelzer – A child called it / The lost boy / My name is Dave
Heather Lewis – House rules
Ginny NiCarthy - Getting free of abusive relationships
Karen Johnson - Trusting ourselves
Robert Subay - Lost in the shuffle
A.E. Mallinger + J. DeWyze - Too perfect
Marilyn J. Sorensen - Low self-esteem misunderstood
Boris Cyrulnik - Ghosts from the past (Les murmure des fantómes)
John Holt - How children learn / How children fail
Ernest Hartmann - Boundaries of the mind
Stone+Stone - Embracing ourselves
Dr. Drew Pinsky – Cracked
Phyllis Krystal - Cutting the ties that bind
Paul Ferrini - The power of love
Alice Schwarzer - Mit Leidenschaft
Günter Walraff - Ganze unten
AND MANY MORE ...

Heroes:

There is no such thing as heroes!

My Blog

Dangerous Inheritance (time to retire some tired old sayings)

> "Blood is thicker than water" is an English-language proverb which generally means that the bonds of family and common ancestry are stronger than those bonds between unrelated people.   I don...
Posted by Chameleon on Wed, 28 May 2008 02:52:00 PST

IN THE NAME AND HONOUR OF WOMEN !!! - repost

Today is international women's day  the day to stand still and to celebrate the achievements of women throughout history! I find it very, very sad that this day is hardly being mentioned anymore (ove...
Posted by Chameleon on Thu, 08 Mar 2007 12:03:00 PST

The aftermath of an average day

  The aftermath of an average day     Grief, sadness Deep inside my heart   The more I don't fight it The more intense it becomes   Otherwise my body simply feels numb ...
Posted by Chameleon on Fri, 07 Mar 2008 09:14:00 PST

Ouch ...

When people get in touch, a lot keep asking: "What have you done?"   A question like that, in times like these, always leaves me at loss because how can I answer that when I have not really...
Posted by Chameleon on Thu, 21 Feb 2008 08:11:00 PST

"The body never lies" (for Louise)

Lately I felt like things just seemed to slip away leaving me with no ground underneath my feet and nothing to hold on to. Well, what inspired me to write this blog is the visit of a friend; who ...
Posted by Chameleon on Thu, 13 Dec 2007 08:51:00 PST

Exquisite spirit

      Some mistake a woman's charm for weakness. Some mistake a woman's opinion for rubbish.   Some mistake a woman's smile as a sign she is an easy prey. Some mistake her strugg...
Posted by Chameleon on Fri, 23 Nov 2007 08:46:00 PST

Universal Childrens Day!

Tomorrow, on the 20th of November it's Universal Children's Day!   It made me think of the countless numbers of children who die every day. UNNECESSARY! Who die because of poverty, abuse and mal...
Posted by Chameleon on Mon, 19 Nov 2007 11:24:00 PST

Friendship is everything BUT expectations!

Whenever I have a conversation with someone about what friendship means I am often surprised when hearing about expectations because to me friendship is everything except expectations! And, when I sa...
Posted by Chameleon on Sun, 18 Nov 2007 10:46:00 PST

Brothers

I am not a portrait painter at all but this time I tried to picture the two boys of a dear fiend of mine. I know the children which made it even harder for me. I did not care so much about a photograp...
Posted by Chameleon on Thu, 15 Nov 2007 12:46:00 PST

The one thing that has never been explained

An older painting but not less present to me ...         We have fingers and hands and are capable of writing and building things. But, for some strange reason it happens oft...
Posted by Chameleon on Sat, 13 Oct 2007 01:42:00 PST