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Shadow

true intelligence is simply a mind enlightened by instruction

About Me

Archived blogs: Poetry/short writings

Path of the prisoner
Puppet Slave
Grave Digger
Epic of SIren
Latent Connotations
Silence
Eternities End
Dissolution
The argument
Pacings
Forbidden Sorrows
Within a Memory
Invisible
The Human Canvas
The Screams
King of Hatred
Enduring pain
Mother
Demise
Tantrum
Defiance
The drive
The bait
The womb
Disguises
Brittle Bones
Hails Approach
When Bones Grow..
Unending
Charred Resentments
Atlantis
Dark Corridors
The World Within
Scours
Transcending
Transitions
The Searchers
Blistered Mind
Cherry Blossoms
Rabbit in the headlights
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Thoughts

Knowledge
My thoughts on crime
Testing your limits
Acceptance of Pain
Perceptions
Self Acceptance
Interdependence
Human Sexuality
Need vs. want
Self-sabotage
The search for joy
The blame game
True to myself
The earths lessons
Global Warming
A moment of fall
The search for visibility
Negative Influences
Fear of Death
Isolation
Judgements
Beyond that bend
Inner resolve
Hope in a hopeless...
Drowning in fear
Toxic Relationships
Filling the void
Yin/Yang nirvana
Limitations of Diagn..
Boundaries
..beautiful picture..
The next journey
Complications of life
The unending question
Contemplations
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Quotes/ Others thoughts
Quote
Cecil B. De Mille
Patanjali
Fight Club
Image
Hermann Hesse
Anon
Paul Ferinni
Williams James
Henry Van Dyke
Ralph Waldo E...
Aristotle
Alice Walker
Marshall Rosen..
Marshall Rosen..
Viktor E. Frankl
Carl A. Jung
Jules De Gautier
John Steinbeck
Black Elk
Orison Swett Marden
Jean Paul Sartre
Daisaku Ikeda
Boethius



Misc
Post-Apocalyptic..
Philosophical cr...
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Pictures
More Pictures
Short film - INSiDE
Demo - Lifeforce
Slideshow
Pictures
Link
Demo - Chaos Theory
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Others Lyrics

MIAB
Severed
Diary of Dreams
Colony of 5
Gewalt Kubikzahl
VNV Nation
Assemblage 23
MIAB
Deadsy
MIAB

Dreams

Powers end
Warrior Woman
Dreamworld 01
Dreamworld 02
Dreamworld 03
My Dreamworld
Shopping Hell
Building Warrior
Prison Trap
Shadowy Torment
Desecrated surreality
Balance Within Chaos


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"On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero."
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Narrator - Fight Club

“Creativity is a drug I cannot live without”
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Cecil B. De Mille
I am a writer both in heart and soul, it's as much a part of me as the skin I live in, but I am not limited to this devotion - I enjoy music, thinking and have a passion for webdesign.

In my life I live as much as I can in the boundaries that have been set for me - searching for enjoyment in the things I do, so that I may recieve the most from what is given to me.

I admire cultures that pursue perfection within thier simpliticy, I tend to respect ancient cultures such as the Egyptians and the Samaurai for thier way of life as they worked to perfection in the things they did, leaving out the unecessary complexities that life holds - instead focusing thier minds on a higher quality through thier art, fighting, and anything else they sought.

Another thing I admire about the Samaurai is thier ability to forgive without question. I have thought about what must go on in the mind for someone to have so much inner strength and peace for this to be possible.
I search for truth in my life, although I often fall short of who I could be, I enjoy learning from those who might teach me. Some people I have admired in my past are - Gandhi, MLK Jr., and Frankl. They were able to obtain a closer understanding of truth on some levels and in a way I am working to achieve this as my own personal fulfillment, although I know my own struggles get in the way.

I know what I am seeking is hard to obtain, because of my inner battles -I search the truth while alternately seeking out ignorance, as ignorance can bring the delusion of safety.

I enjoy the idea of philosophy and agree with the belief that you deny yourself of growth if you determine that you know everything instead of understanding there is so much more in life that we can learn.
There are many parts to me, the side faced with the need for growth and another that understands why a person can feel as if they are brought to thier knees - this is why I love movies like Prozac Nation and Fight Club.

These parts are both my inner growth and downfall; inside of me is a constant war of thinking and thought which at times can cause me to stand still in life, unknowing of where my next path might be or if I even want to take one.
At one time I measured my successes by what I achieved through the world but I now have started to measure them by what I can achieve through my own mind.
"Truth is the offspring of silence and unbroken meditation"
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Isaac Newton

"every time we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us No matter how unreasonable others may seem, I am responsible for not reacting negatively. Regardless of what is happening around me I will always have the perogative, and the responsibility, of choosing what happens within me. I am the creator of my own reality. When I [review my day], I know that I must stop judging others. If I judge others, I am probably judging myself. Whoever is upsetting me most is my best teacher. I have much to learn from him or her, and in my hearts, I should thank that person."
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Bill Wilson, "Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, p. 88

"In the depths of winter I finally learned there was in me an invincible summer."
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Albert Camus
"It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything."
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Tyler Durden - Fight Club

My Interests



Links

Dead Philosophers Society
typogenerator
IamX
mindinabox.com
Mount Sims ( video)
Atomic Pinup
PI(movie)
DavidBolt.com

I enjoy working out with weights and have a high respect for those who know Kickboxing and Karate, as I am learning the basics of Karate myself I find it an intriguing sport and hope to learn more in the future.

Writing is the core of me, if you want to disover my soul all you need is to search inside my poetry. There you might find my soul hidden if you know where to search, I hide inside my writing words that portray something beyond what is first thought to be written. The only way to understand this hidden part of me would require knowing me on a deeper level.

Another interest is hiking, although it has often been neglected in my more recent life due to my personal shortcomings. No matter the neglect I still hold a passion for nature, enjoying the glimpses I still get on occassion when I can pull myself free from the things in life that I bind myself to. I spend most of my time in deep thinking and for a majority of my life attempted to discover the true meaning of honor, bonding better with those who have these same values.

My deepest interest is self-discovery although I have far to go and a mind that often fights this need inside to discover all I can.

I wish to learn all about the mind and most of all its barracades, this is why I hold to a more of a philisophical point of view. Self-discovery is the reason for my interest in both the mind and philosophy. It is through having to deal with hardships created from ignorance by others and myself that I have formed a unquenching thirst for knowledge. As long as there are mistakes and trials, I know that I will continue to search knowledge and what it really is.

My interest in archaeology also derives from this, I find a treasure in wanting to learn about the mystery that lies buried from our memories and wonder how much of the past is really buried due to the destruction of time or of mankinds intent on erasing our history as we often do in our our own individual memories.

I believe that learning about the past is important not only due to the mystery of who we were but I know that it can help us to discover why we are human and play the roles in life that we do now. I see humans on many levels, its hard to hold the same beliefs that I once did about others and myself; as I change inside my beliefs also change, now being formed by me instead of the influence of the world. In life we all seem to play roles, ones played out from times before us. This is why I find science so amazing, we can interact in such an instinctual way while carrying another level made up of feelings and emotions. Psychology to me is just that -the combination of science and the world of emotions.

There is so much more about me inside, I continue to grow and change as we all do, the more I surround myself with certain ideas and beliefs the more they grow inside me to become who I really am.

I'd like to meet:



People who are true to themselves as well as thinking for themselves. The type of person I most connect with are those who are are deep thinkers, original or talented writers...

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Dawning Aurora

ultraguenni

Corey

Allen

Dottie

Louise

Chameleon

Afar

Storme

Truman, 65% stonger than the leading brand

Erich

bionoize

Dr Phill

Naked Pagan

KillskillZ

xadictionx

Louie
Natalie

Robert Foster

Jason

RayBeat

Camillus

a nocturnes prelude

Cat

Gilbert

who the fuck are you?

Ger

markus

I love to add bands when I think they have a certain quality or sound, my favorite type of music is industrial, but I do like other styles if done in the right way. I connect best with the mixture of original sound and lyrics that reach beyond societies set ideals, this is why mind.in.a.box is my favorite band.

Joujouka - New Asians

Favorite Bands


mind.in.a.box

Louis XIV

JOUJOUKA

Snog

Nudex

Ministry

Andrako

config.sys

DESTROID

Rotersand

Compulsory Skin

(Re)Adjust

Metallspürhunde

Helltrash

Mount Sims

Staind

Gorillaz

head-less

The Strand

Stromkern

Square Zero

Total Pain Kollapz

State of the Union

Zavod

Uberbyte

Invaein

Filament 38

VNV Nation

Front 242
Grendel

Steril

Son of Rust

Deviant UK

Necessary response

&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Misc Links and Banners

Music:

Electronica/Industrial/Electro I also like some Alternative and Psychodelic as long as it has a certain sound.

mind.in.a.box, Louis XIV, JOUJOUKA, Snog, NUDEX, Ministry, Xorcist, Andrako, Error, config.sys, DESTRIOD, Kill Switch... Klick, Birmingham Six, VAST, Rotersand, Apoptygma Berzerk, Pigface, Faster Pussycat, (Re) Adjust, Metallspürhunde, Combichrist, Helltrash, HED PE, Mount Sims, Staind, Pink Floyd, Gorillaz, Head-less, The Strand, Stromkern, Square Zero, Total Pain Kollapz, State of the Union, Zavod, My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult, Ministry, Uberbyte, In Væin, Pixies (where is my mind) , Filament 38, VNV Nation, Compulsory Skin, Front 242, Grendel, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Steril, Son of Rust, Deviant UK, Necessary Response, Praga Khan, engelmacher, Nitzer ebb, Type O Negative, Imperative Reaction, Black Sabbath (solitude) (fairies wear boots)

Movies:

Fight Club, &nbsp Cypher
They Live, The Cube, War of the Worlds, The Jacket, Trainspotting, Donnie Darko, PI, Sybil, Amazing Grace, Running With Scissors, The Wall, Empire Records, Appleseed, American History X, Children of Men, The Devil Wears Prada, Prozac Nation, Lost in Translation, The Eye, Dazed and Confused, On the edge , Foxfire, Gia, Burnt offerings,The Last Samauri, The Matrix, Ghost in a shell, Sixth Sense, Natural Born Killers, Dirty Filthy Love, Girl Interrupted, Memoirs of a Geisha, Kalifornia, Spirited, Silent Hill, The Postman, Clueless, The Omen (70 -80s series), Magnolia. I enjoy movies that are different than the norm, but I am not selective about what category they might fit.



"I got half a mind to scream out loud,
I got half a mind to die"

&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&n bsp&nbsp David Gray - Please Forgive Me

Television:

Survivor Man, Last One Standing, Human Weapon, Scientific American Frontiers, LA Ink, Cites of the Underground, The Real World, Amazing Race (sometimes) , Dirty Jobs, Overhaulin' and Workout. While they were on I loved Monster House and the Apprentice.

I also love some of the shows on the discovery science channel, particularly about the mind or genetics.

Books:

I have been interested lately in anything regarding existential thoughts. In the past I connected the most to books pertaining to overcoming hardships in life because I felt and still feel that a true warrior is not one who has outer strength but those who endure the trials of thier life on an internal basis and come out stronger than the things they have faced.

I have read autobiographies from both Martin Luther King, and Gandhi which helped me through some hard times in my life while also helping me to grow inside. Another truly amazing book about human growth through the hardest of times is a book called "A mans search for meaning" by Viktor E. Frankl. For those who have not heard of it; it is about how he survived the holocaust. Another book by Frankl that is perhaps harder to read but just as beneficial is "The Doctor and the Soul" this book is connected to his ideas regarding a therapy he created called "logo therapy" but has a very philosophical feel to it.

Other books: Lord of the Flies, Swan Song, Grapes of Wrath, The Bell Jar, I Never Promised You a Rose Garden, Fight Club, White Fang and Call of the Wild.

Heroes:

Hypatia of Alexandria, H. G. Wells, Martin Luther King Jr., Gandhi, Dogtown boys, Joan of Arc, Cleopatra, Marilyn Monroe, Carl Jung and Kim Peek

Knowledge is gained by learning from what those before you have already discovered, and adding your own discoveries along the way.

Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code Matches You Best? Honor:

You are an honorable person who is firm with his/her beliefs and treats others as you are treated. People would considor you humble at times and very respectful, and someone to definitely repect back.

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My Blog

Damn it

Mindless self indulgence is coming to town and as always it has to be on a weekday! course I don't have the money anyways :P but fuck! now they are not my favorite of all of them but they still do fuc...
Posted by Shadow on Tue, 06 May 2008 06:40:00 PST

Quote - John Powell

"The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing." - John Powell...
Posted by Shadow on Tue, 06 May 2008 04:54:00 PST

weird clouds?

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Posted by Shadow on Mon, 05 May 2008 08:55:00 PST

The Demon of "Love"

The Demon of "Love"It's only been a week since I went through so much devastation.  Devastation due to having hope again in someone outside of myself only to once more wonder if there is one man ...
Posted by Shadow on Sat, 03 May 2008 09:46:00 PST

Quintessence

This one is dedicated to a incredibly wonderful person who has helped me immensly to release the pain I have been dealing with recently.QuintessenceDown the battlefield of lifeI saw the clashing of th...
Posted by Shadow on Tue, 29 Apr 2008 04:56:00 PST

Feeling good now

What I saw just a short time ago as a painful point in my life now I am seeing as such a blessing :) went to one of my close friends profiles and saw the Lynyrd Skynyrd song "free bird" and had to pos...
Posted by Shadow on Mon, 28 Apr 2008 08:17:00 PST

Just a thought

There is a difference between loving unconditionally and loving blindly.
Posted by Shadow on Sun, 27 Apr 2008 01:04:00 PST

The Holy Grail from the Shrouded Window

The Holy Grail from the Shrouded WindowFacing loss like this can be a really positive thing although so painful right now, the sad part is I doubt he is feeling the same pain as he still has his crutc...
Posted by Shadow on Sun, 27 Apr 2008 08:17:00 PST

Levels of death

There are many levels of death I suppose, the loss of a person from this earth being the one people focus on the most. But loss of love can be just as strong in many ways, I know that's what led me to...
Posted by Shadow on Sun, 27 Apr 2008 04:52:00 PST

Playlist

Imperative reactionSyntax"Derailing losses ticking awayA clock striking dead the hour of decayThe blue of fixation lacking functionalityA thought of response tracing rationalityRehashing con...
Posted by Shadow on Sat, 26 Apr 2008 09:09:00 PST