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"On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero."
         Narrator - Fight Club
“Creativity is a drug I cannot live withoutâ€
         Cecil B. De Mille
I am a writer both in heart and soul, it's as much a part of me as the skin I live in, but I am not limited to this devotion - I enjoy music, thinking and have a passion for webdesign.
In my life I live as much as I can in the boundaries that have been set for me - searching for enjoyment in the things I do, so that I may recieve the most from what is given to me.
I admire cultures that pursue perfection within thier simpliticy, I tend to respect ancient cultures such as the Egyptians and the Samaurai for thier way of life as they worked to perfection in the things they did, leaving out the unecessary complexities that life holds - instead focusing thier minds on a higher quality through thier art, fighting, and anything else they sought.
Another thing I admire about the Samaurai is thier ability to forgive without question. I have thought about what must go on in the mind for someone to have so much inner strength and peace for this to be possible.
I search for truth in my life, although I often fall short of who I could be, I enjoy learning from those who might teach me. Some people I have admired in my past are - Gandhi, MLK Jr., and Frankl. They were able to obtain a closer understanding of truth on some levels and in a way I am working to achieve this as my own personal fulfillment, although I know my own struggles get in the way.
I know what I am seeking is hard to obtain, because of my inner battles -I search the truth while alternately seeking out ignorance, as ignorance can bring the delusion of safety.
I enjoy the idea of philosophy and agree with the belief that you deny yourself of growth if you determine that you know everything instead of understanding there is so much more in life that we can learn.
There are many parts to me, the side faced with the need for growth and another that understands why a person can feel as if they are brought to thier knees - this is why I love movies like Prozac Nation and Fight Club.
These parts are both my inner growth and downfall; inside of me is a constant war of thinking and thought which at times can cause me to stand still in life, unknowing of where my next path might be or if I even want to take one.
At one time I measured my successes by what I achieved through the world but I now have started to measure them by what I can achieve through my own mind.
"Truth is the offspring of silence and unbroken meditation"
         Isaac Newton
"every time we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us No matter how unreasonable others may seem, I am responsible for not reacting negatively. Regardless of what is happening around me I will always have the perogative, and the responsibility, of choosing what happens within me. I am the creator of my own reality. When I [review my day], I know that I must stop judging others. If I judge others, I am probably judging myself. Whoever is upsetting me most is my best teacher. I have much to learn from him or her, and in my hearts, I should thank that person."
         Bill Wilson, "Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, p. 88
"In the depths of winter I finally learned there was in me an invincible summer."
         Albert Camus
"It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything."
         Tyler Durden - Fight Club