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The moment of complete stillness

About Me

The moments in which I find that I know myself best is when I have put a leash on myself not allowing me to move an inch in any one direction, centered in the complete reality of this very second, no movement, no fluctuations, no flexibility, just a firmness, a fixed attitude within, and without, a sort of death, a pause, a full stop. No doubt baby. No doubt

My Interests

Collect match boxes, lighters, and guns.

I'd like to meet:

The Zia Indians of New Mexico regard the Sun as a sacred symbol. Their symbol, a red circle with groups of rays pointing in four directions, is painted on ceremonial vases, drawn on the ground around campfires, and used to introduce newborns to the Sun. Four is the sacred number of the Zia and can be found repeated in the four points radiating from the circle. The number four is embodied in the four points of the compass, north, south, east, and west; in the four seasons of the year spring, summer, autumn and winter; in the 24 hours of each day by sunrise, noon, evening and night; by four seasons of life, childhood, youth, adulthood and old age. The Zia also believe that with life come four sacred obligations: development of a strong body, a clear mind, a pure spirit and devotion to the welfare of people/family. All of these are bound together within the circle of life.The symbol is featured on the Flag of New Mexico and in the design of the New Mexico State Capitol zia. Some New Mexican youth use this symbol as a tattoo.

Music:

"We might as well wish for worldly happiness when we want to control the conduct of others."

Movies:

I am too lazy to list movies. However, I like movies in between movies, and sometimes not even those.

Television:

Televsion makes me depressed and crazy.

Books:

The softest thing in the world Will overcome the hardest. Non-being can enter where there is no space. Therefore I know the benefit of unattached action. The wordless teaching and unattached actionAre rarely seen.

Heroes:

Me and my three fish

My Blog

The Tangerine Festival

I went to the Tangerine Festival with a few friends. The weather was beautiful. Everyone seemed in accord with the vibe of the festival, the tangerines scattered on green grass, faces I didn't recogni...
Posted by Mejgan on Sun, 28 Jan 2007 09:34:00 PST

A letter I wrote to a lover

Last night I went to a queer party, marched through the long hallway, into the kitchen, exchanged words with faces, and thought "I am a queer too." Andrew and John showed up right to my face demanding...
Posted by Mejgan on Sun, 28 Jan 2007 09:04:00 PST

Broken Glass

"I am not there yet." "Where?" "Where I want to be." "Where is that?" "To be free of you. To be empty again." "You ask for the impossible." "How so?" "I have skills." "In what?" "In making he...
Posted by Mejgan on Sat, 27 Jan 2007 09:45:00 PST

Everything Is Alive

The Supreme Critic on the errors of the past and the present, and the only prophet of that which must be, is that great nature in which we rest as the earth lies in the soft arms of the atmosphere; th...
Posted by Mejgan on Tue, 23 Jan 2007 02:00:00 PST

Black Diamond Flowers

"They say flowers don't bloom here anymore." "Never again?" "They say it will never rain here anymore." "We can walk away." "A walk away from here will be the beginning of something new." "It is ...
Posted by Mejgan on Mon, 22 Jan 2007 11:01:00 PST

My Love of Our Darkness

  "I like this darkness. It comforts me." "You have always liked it." "Do you mind?" "No." "I like to know what your name is?" "It is too late for that." "I know. That is sad. Isn't it? It ...
Posted by Mejgan on Sun, 21 Jan 2007 10:12:00 PST

How I feel today; Yosano Akiko Poems (1878-1942)

  You Have Yet to Touch You have yet to touch This soft flesh, This throbbing blood Are you not lonely, Expounder of the Way? Without ReturningWithout returning&. O my feelings ...
Posted by Mejgan on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 11:18:00 PST

Tom Waits Video On Youtube a must watch kicks ass

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0Puxfk5Huk
Posted by Mejgan on Sat, 25 Nov 2006 11:14:00 PST

Thanksgiving Prayer by William Burroughs

Thanksgiving Prayer by William S. Burroughs Thanks for the wild turkey and the passenger pigeons, destined to be shit out through wholesome American guts. Thanks for a continent to despoil and pois...
Posted by Mejgan on Wed, 22 Nov 2006 02:52:00 PST

Today is a wonderful day

Cloudy skies, rain, and the wonders of gray have engulfed the world around us. What a delightful day it is to sit at home or office and watch the rain hit against the windows and to look out and see p...
Posted by Mejgan on Tue, 07 Nov 2006 02:32:00 PST