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I'll never give up no matter what they say. I've got a determination that can't be swayed. 3

About Me


Perfectionist. Freak. Masochist. Paradox. Introvert. Individualist. Narcissist. Fighter. Dandy. Passivist. Confrontationist. Non-Conformist. Secular Humanist. Grammar Nazi.
My silence is not acceptance, it is a rebellion.
My rebellion against you.
You will normally find me in the corner of the room during a debate quietly voicing my opinions, and counter arguments against everything you believe, and are saying, to myself.
I don't like to waste my time, effort, or breath for the most part, so I will keep to myself as I sit there smiling inside at your flawed arguments.
What you mistake for awe, and admiration, is really just my intentional lack of expression that I offer you as my argument against your ignorance, and hypocrisy.
You want a perfect world in your ideal: a non-original reach towards your unimaginative & dull dream.
I am an empath.
I consider it a gift, and a flaw.
I am a realistic idealist.
I believe that dreams are important in life.
Without dreams, life would be a stagnant memory, an endless déjà vu.
I believe in accomplishing my dreams one way or another.
And I will.
Because I am...
The Paradoxal Criminal Masochist™.
Paradoxal by nature,
Criminal hindsight,
Masochist as undoubtable as the courtyard bell strikes midnight.
© 2005-2007 Paradoxal Criminal Masochist™. All Rights Reserved.
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My Interests

V.I.P.

Mishee.
One of the most life changing people ever to come into my life. I don't think anyone can compete with her on that one, haha.
Probably one of the most narcissistic people I've ever met, which is definitely one of the reasons why I love talking to her. Her sense of humor is the closest to matching mine than any other friend, and we have more or less the same interests.
Definitely an amazing person, as well as intelligent.
We have the same irritations when it comes to people, and we proceed to fix things in our own manner when we're crossed [together].
She's the only person I will talk to when it comes to shopping, and fashion.
She has been present for some of the hardest moments in my life, and helped me through them.
She is one of the most valuable friends you could ever have because she will never lie to you [unless she has to compliment you, lmao], never break a promise, always be there, and she will always have a level head in any situation.
& I feel lucky to have her in my life.
Jayme.
We met on MySpace December 10th 2005 & were married within the first comment she left me.
Lovers from the first moment while both in relationships, but we have such a strong connection we couldn't even stop ourselves for our own good & that of our relationships. We both care a lot about each other despite the fact that we disguise it mostly now, and are going to meet in person very soon.
I'm impatient to finally be with her.
She is one of the few girls who's been able to keep me around for so long.
She can come off as tough & bitchy sounding, but when it all comes down to it she's really one of the sweetest & most caring people you'll ever know.
Hence why she has me, and not you.
In fact, she's so special that I even wrote, sang, and recorded a song about us in January '06. ;]
You can listen to it on my music MySpace when I'm finally satisfied with the recording fully. ♥
Friends Friends
[Unable to load all friends; put the ones I talk to most.]
NO WHINING ABOUT YOUR PLACEMENT.

Banners one.


two.

three.

Swap?Post me.

Music

I'd like to meet:

+ Confessions +

We go together perfectly like this.
30/10/07
I ended up moving to Bronxville, NY and now I attend Sarah Lawrence College! ^_^
15/03/07
I got accepted to UC Davis today! :D
12/12/06
Today sucks, but Melissa's the only one who could cheer me up.
She told me to find a bird that can tweet nicely instead of a pigeon, rofl. ;] ♥
05/12/06
I have more lovers than you have toes & fingers put together.
25/11/06
[12:26:38 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: Damn you're on your sidekick.
[12:26:42 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: I wanted you to listen to something.
[12:26:43 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: Haha.
[12:26:49 AM] Denis4mvp: Lol yeah I am
[12:26:55 AM] Denis4mvp: Listen to what?
[12:27:02 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: Haha, this voice comment I left my friend.
[12:27:04 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: It's pretty funny.
[12:27:16 AM] Denis4mvp: Umm..leave me oneeeeee
[12:27:36 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: Hahaha, alright.
[12:27:38 AM] Denis4mvp: Tommorow I'm gonna add you to my top 8
[12:27:48 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: When I go upstairs where my cell phone is.
[12:27:49 AM] Denis4mvp: Cuz your 50% amazing
[12:27:55 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: Haha, awww... :]
[12:27:57 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: Yay!
[12:28:07 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: I'll add you to my friend section on my page.
[12:28:14 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: LMFAO @ 50% amazing.
[12:28:20 AM] Denis4mvp: Lol
[12:28:28 AM] PrdxlCrmnlMschst: That's going in my confessions box.
[12:28:37 AM] Denis4mvp: Yay
[12:29:13 AM] Denis4mvp: :-)
[12:33:25 AM] Denis4mvp: I've seen your sn like 5858383 times...
[12:33:42 AM] Denis4mvp: And I'm like who's this bitchs, she's always on private
[12:33:49 AM] Denis4mvp: Lol
[5:17:47 PM] Nessa: www.myspace.com/61983424
[5:18:01 PM] Paradoxal Criminal Masochist,, 4968484: I need to pee.
[5:18:16 PM] Nessa: Lmfao
[5:18:21 PM] Nessa: www.bathroom.com
[5:18:24 PM] Nessa: There ya go.
[5:18:45 PM] Paradoxal Criminal Masochist,, 4968484: LMFAO
[5:18:54 PM] Paradoxal Criminal Masochist,, 4968484: I'm putting that in my confessions.
[5:18:59 PM] Nessa: ROFL
[5:19:01 PM] Nessa: Score

19/11/06
I aced my Sarah Lawrence College interview today! :D
It went really well which makes me really happy.
:]
18/11/06
I am probably going to start whoring again soon.
& I'm coming back with Maggie & Levina. ;]
14/11/06
[11:40:17 PM] TwilightGardenXO: How 'bout phone sex? :D
[11:40:21 PM] TwilightGardenXO: rofl
[11:40:22 PM] teh magster: SURE
[11:40:26 PM] TwilightGardenXO: YAY!
[11:40:29 PM] teh magster: i'll mail you an xmas card
[11:40:30 PM] TwilightGardenXO: ROUND TWO!
[11:40:38 PM] teh magster: and put a piece of paper in it
[11:40:39 PM] teh magster: saying
[11:40:45 PM] TwilightGardenXO: MAGGIE & LILI HAVE PHONE SEX... AGAIN!
[11:40:55 PM] TwilightGardenXO: "*phone sex*"
[11:40:56 PM] TwilightGardenXO: rofl
[11:40:58 PM] teh magster: good for 1 hawt session of lili maggie phone sex
[11:41:03 PM] TwilightGardenXO: Hahahaha.
[11:41:04 PM] teh magster: IOU [11:41:09 PM] TwilightGardenXO: Hahahahahahaha.
[11:41:16 PM] TwilightGardenXO: DO I REALLY GET TO USE IT?!?!?
[11:41:31 PM] teh magster: YES
[11:41:39 PM] teh magster: BUT ONLY DURING NIGHT TIME MINUTES
[11:41:43 PM] TwilightGardenXO: WOW DUDE, I AM TOTALLY SHOWING THAT OFF ON MYSPACE.
[11:41:43 PM] TwilightGardenXO: rofl
[11:41:45 PM] teh magster: HAHAHA
[11:41:52 PM] teh magster: ily
[11:41:57 PM] TwilightGardenXO: Ily2, hahaha.
[11:42:11 PM] teh magster: ;-)
08/11/06
[11:06:30 PM] AmaeKyou: Oh.
[11:06:32 PM] AmaeKyou: & then...
[11:06:43 PM] AmaeKyou: There's the kids who put their FC in their display names.
[11:06:43 PM] AmaeKyou: rofl
[11:06:48 PM] AmaeKyou: & it's pathetic 'cause it's always like...
[11:06:57 PM] AmaeKyou: "Derek Fraternity [1.6K]"
[11:07:01 PM] AmaeKyou: Or...
[11:07:33 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: omg
[11:07:34 PM] AmaeKyou: "Bertha Cadaver [5.6K]"
[11:07:38 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: That annoys the hell out of me
[11:07:42 PM] AmaeKyou: Hahaha, me too.
[11:07:46 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: I like the ones that don't even have over 1k
[11:07:59 PM] AmaeKyou: I'm like "Um, I don't show off about my FC & I've got about 35K more."
[11:08:02 PM] AmaeKyou: LMFAO
[11:08:05 PM] AmaeKyou: You mean like...
[11:08:06 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: Like I'm a Little Bitch [.8k]
[11:08:08 PM] AmaeKyou: LMFAO
[11:08:11 PM] AmaeKyou: AHAHAHAHAHA!
[11:08:13 PM] AmaeKyou: ARE YOU SERIOUS?!
[11:08:16 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: Yup
[11:08:18 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: I've seen it
[11:08:22 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: Or better yet on their page
[11:08:22 PM] AmaeKyou: OMFG!!!
[11:08:23 PM] AmaeKyou: LMFAO
[11:08:25 PM] AmaeKyou: AHAHAHAHAHA.
[11:08:31 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: "OMG Please help I got deleted at 1.2k"
[11:08:36 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: I can make 1.2k+ in a day
[11:08:38 PM] AmaeKyou: ROFLMFAO
[11:08:42 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: Don't whine about that
[11:08:46 PM] rawr R0CKSTAR: Or getting hacked at 1k
[11:08:50 PM] AmaeKyou: AHAHAHAHAHA.
[11:08:54 PM] AmaeKyou: Who the fuck would wanna hack a n00b?
[11:08:58 PM] AmaeKyou: They deleted themself.
[11:08:59 PM] AmaeKyou: Duh.
08/10/06
I'm leaving the 19th of October till the 23rd to go to New York City.
Then I'm leaving again the 28th of October till the 4th of November to go to Florida to spend time with Michelle. :] ♥
06/10/06
I ran/jogged 3 kilometers in 24 minutes today without stopping.
30/09/06
I made this for my Weddie: http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?j6ffjt1i4g24 ♥
Haha, & awww... some girl on MySpace made this for me: http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?j6ftfe7ca4c
Can you say favoritism?
27/09/06
It's not that I'm stubborn or not listening.
It's that I know what I want, and I do what I need to do to get there.
That's all. :]
25/09/06
I can't wait to get my tattoo of Muskular under my left wrist with Michelle in October when I get to see her! :D
18/09/06
Wednesday & I made up. ^^
10/09/06
I leave MySpace on & off.
But I've finally found that the internet is no longer my home where I belong.
& it's time to move .. five years.
With college on the horizon in less than a year, I suppose that's my new home.
& I'm waiting in the meantime to find it.
Everything you say to me means ultimately nothing.

26/08/06

School starts August 31st.
I'm flying September 5th to visit colleges in Massachusetts.
25/08/06
Everything I need, I have.
& everything I want, I will get.
I won't let my insecurities get in the way.
24/08/06
I'm right-handed.
23/08/06
The day the twin towers fell, I didn't realize how bad the situation was.
It was just another disaster to me with a lot of deaths, and that's the way life is.
So I thought to myself "Well, if I'm going to die today or in the near future seeing as I live in one of the most important cities in the US, there's something important I have to rush home to finish."
So I went home from school that day, and beat Paper Mario at around 2:30 PM.
End of story.
22/08/06
My flirtations are never serious.
It's just something to occupy my free time, and keep my skills fresh for my lady.
My heart's already taken.
21/08/06
I'm not goth, but I've been asked if I am a lot, lol. I'm not emo, scene or any other type of label either.
I dislike labels.
They stain individuality.
So don't label me.
20/08/06
I want to dye my hair blue black or burgundy.
I can't decide between the two, but I think I'm going to do blue black.
19/08/06
Happy birthday,
Michelle. :]

18/08/06
My first pokémon was Charmander.
& I named him Charmy.
That's why he's one of my favorite pokémon.
17/08/06
I downloaded Skype & Adium last night, and stayed up all night customizing my Adium.
I'm positively in love with Adium.
16/08/06
I am back down to under 40K. :[
15/08/06
I can roll my tongue.
14/08/06
Just so you all know, people have tried, and you'll get the same answer if you ask for either.
SCPool Player820 (2:36:57 AM): hey
amaekyou (2:37:32 AM): Hey.
SCPool Player820 (2:37:46 AM): r u lil bear
amaekyou (2:38:14 AM): lol, Yes. Why?
SCPool Player820 (2:38:28 AM): u kno me?
amaekyou (2:38:45 AM): lol, Am I supposed to?
SCPool Player820 (2:38:53 AM): kinda
SCPool Player820 (2:39:02 AM): u kno my best friend
amaekyou (2:39:20 AM): lol, So by knowing your best friend, I'm supposed to know you?
SCPool Player820 (2:39:28 AM): yea
SCPool Player820 (2:39:38 AM): www.myspace.com/34344315
amaekyou (2:40:26 AM): lol, Why?
SCPool Player820 (2:40:39 AM): thats me
amaekyou (2:40:44 AM): You're David?
SCPool Player820 (2:41:01 AM): im joseph
amaekyou (2:42:39 AM): Oh.
amaekyou (2:42:40 AM): lol
SCPool Player820 (2:42:56 AM): i want a sign
amaekyou (2:43:02 AM): That's nice.
SCPool Player820 (2:43:12 AM): make me one
SCPool Player820 (2:43:15 AM): plz
amaekyou (2:43:18 AM): lol, Um, no?
SCPool Player820 (2:43:23 AM): :'(
SCPool Player820 (2:43:33 AM): ur very pretty
amaekyou (2:43:42 AM): Thanks.
SCPool Player820 (2:43:56 AM): how bout nudes?
amaekyou (2:44:04 AM): lol, Ew.
amaekyou (2:44:04 AM): No.
SCPool Player820 (2:44:14 AM): i will pay u
amaekyou (2:44:41 AM): lol, If I wanted to get paid for taking naked pictures of my body, I'd join PlayBoy, and fuck Hugh Heffner for millions of dollars.
SCPool Player820 (2:45:09 AM): llol
13/08/06
I'm obsessed with Roseanne, The L Word, Family Guy, and Xena The Warrior Princess.
12/08/06
I'm actually going to accomplish the dreams that I have in life.
& I know this because I've already accomplished part of a dream.
When no one believed that I could.
11/08/06
The acidity in a lemon is not much less than that of a car battery.
& I like to eat lemons.
10/08/06
I've turned four straight girls bi in my life span so far.
09/08/06
I'm unsatisfied with my life.
& the way things are going right now. :/
I didn't get the job at Hot Topic.
08/08/06

peoplebowl (12:52:28 AM): i can't meet you wednesday, sorry. im leaving for egypt/south africa tomorrow morning.. be well,
amaekyou (12:52:37 AM): Playing I've Never.
amaekyou (12:52:57 AM): lol, Wow.
amaekyou (12:53:07 AM): That beats every other excuse I've had.
Response No. 1:
juliebird1212 (12:53:47 AM): hahaha
juliebird1212 (12:53:50 AM): are they serious?
amaekyou (12:54:06 AM): lol, I guess.
juliebird1212 (12:54:38 AM): That DOES beat any other excuse.
juliebird1212 (12:54:39 AM): lol
amaekyou (12:54:57 AM): lmao
Response No. 2:
DarkZero104 (12:56:06 AM): ...wait a minute
DarkZero104 (12:56:22 AM): egypt and south africa are in completely different parts of that continent
07/08/06
I shave my arms.
06/08/06
I have a job interview at Hot Topic today.
05/08/06
I date the European way.
It makes more sense.
[day/month/year]
04/08/06
amaekyou (7:17:50 AM): Why is it so hard to get to 200 comments nowadays?
amaekyou (7:17:55 AM): I got to 400 comments in like a day.
sup sammie (7:17:56 AM): lmfao
sup sammie (7:17:56 AM): 200?
amaekyou (7:17:57 AM): lol
amaekyou (7:17:59 AM): Yes.
amaekyou (7:18:01 AM): Wtf?
sup sammie (7:18:03 AM): on what?
sup sammie (7:18:04 AM): ur page?
sup sammie (7:18:14 AM): i can get comments easy :P
amaekyou (7:18:16 AM): lol, No, on my pictures.
sup sammie (7:18:18 AM): idk
amaekyou (7:18:47 AM): They're all ugly anyways.
sup sammie (7:18:54 AM): your pics?
sup sammie (7:18:56 AM): nah uh
amaekyou (7:19:02 AM): lol, No.
amaekyou (7:19:03 AM): The people.
sup sammie (7:19:05 AM): oh
sup sammie (7:19:07 AM): LOlz
amaekyou (7:19:09 AM): My "friends", haha.
amaekyou (7:19:12 AM): ;]
amaekyou (7:19:31 AM): & if they aren't ugly, they should comment me. :]
amaekyou (7:19:39 AM): & be sexy for me.
amaekyou (7:19:44 AM): Like they're supposed to.
sup sammie (7:19:49 AM): hahahaah
amaekyou (7:19:59 AM): It's written in the MySpace rules.
sup sammie (7:20:09 AM): really?
sup sammie (7:20:09 AM): where
sup sammie (7:20:10 AM): link me!
amaekyou (7:20:25 AM): lmao, liliisamazing.com
sup sammie (7:20:35 AM): URL NOT FOUND
amaekyou (7:20:41 AM): lmao
amaekyou (7:20:43 AM): LIARS!
amaekyou (7:20:47 AM): One of those MySpace errors.
amaekyou (7:20:49 AM): lmfao
sup sammie (7:20:50 AM): lmfao
sup sammie (7:20:53 AM): has to be :P
03/08/06
Everyone knows that I'm always late.
Do not thank me for the add.
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And you're bad news, my friends told me to leave you... I don't care, I like you.

My girlfriend and I broke up last Sunday night... meh -.-... so yeah, I still have a picture of her in my profile... I just need a while for it to sink in and then I'll take it down eventually. So ye...
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New pictures!! Yay<33.

*dances around* In my sexy, trench coat that's a poor excuse for one! lol :d
Posted by → PCM™ is an NYC Club Promoter ← on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

-In memory of Jonathan Zablotny- .x. {1986-2005} .x.

Last night, Jonathan Zablotny jumped off the Golden Gate bridge... :\ We'll always remember you... >.>;; He brought so much happiness whenever people were down... I only wish we could have been there...
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Happy 6 months anniversary Love<33.

Lili+Michelle<33.
Posted by → PCM™ is an NYC Club Promoter ← on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Meh, I knew I'd have bad luck today.

Every morning when I walk to the BART [Bay Area Rapid Transportation] station I pass two or three alleyways... the last one I pass, every now and then, has trucks that park and unload. Well, since my ...
Posted by → PCM™ is an NYC Club Promoter ← on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

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I don't feel that well... I've had really bad headaches for like a while... like a couple days and I feel like puking... :\ I'm thinking it maybe is from not drinking or eating all day but I do that l...
Posted by → PCM™ is an NYC Club Promoter ← on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

What type of girl am I?

Your so cute anyone would think your cute. Even thegrown ups:) Probaly any boy would run up to youwith flowers and cute stuffed animals likeyou;) Just look at you. Your adorable:) What Type Of Girl ...
Posted by → PCM™ is an NYC Club Promoter ← on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Story time<33.

So one day I was walking down this road. Just some road... and I happened to come upon a sorceress... man, she was so hawt... so I went to her hut and she asked me "Do you li--" and bam I pinned her a...
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A card for my beloved~

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Leaving!

I'm leaving for Florida tonight!! I'll be back on January 3rd!! ^_^ Take care everyone! Have a jolly Christmas and a Merry New Year~Love,-Lili Bear-
Posted by → PCM™ is an NYC Club Promoter ← on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST