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Illusions_Child

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About Me

MyGen Profile Generator Ok, who am I? I study Mechanical Engineering at Bath University, I have just completed my second year of study, and am starting work for a Watford based company Building Research Establishment for a 12 month industrial placement as part of my course.I'm from New Zealand , play some sport, lots of music, organise gigs, go to festivals, travel about, attempt to draw/sculpt/photograph, dance like a lunatic on nights out.
When not in Bath, i'm in Edinburgh in Scotland. It's kinda hard to sum yourself up in a few words, to people with so many different view point in life, if you want to know more just ask.Main focus in life is the environment. It's why i'm on my course: renewable energy, Sustainable Development, conservationism, Hydrogen Economy etc...
I try not to take life too seriously, but enough to make a stand when somethings out of order.I am introspective but outwardly focused, I think Empathy is an essential skill in life. I think of everything and almost anything, I can end up laying in bed till stupid hours unable to stop my mind racing, ideas and inspiration don't really care for working hours- i can get very bad insomnia...
I can sometimes be very affectionate, when i feel i can show it, however I am also very reserved with some aspects of myself, and my thoughts... and slow to trust. I try to respect everyone for who they are, and what they like, and have a sense of compassion for everyone. This also means i care deeply for my friends, and family and if anyone fucks with them i give them alot of shit. Well, i might try being a diplomat at first, if that fails, I unleash hell on the fuckers...This year I am trying to sort myself out a bit more, hedonism, socialising, smoking, partying, sleeping, sex and general mayhem had taken its toll on my studies and moneys, so *fingers crossed* i can do it all again but get the work done too...Most of my friends are students, or have dropped out/graduated already. They party pretty hard, and between us have amassed rediculous debt.. but had legendary parties, nights out and times. Have met some of the best people i could hope to since my gap year and at Bath University, just hoping that time wont see us drift apart.If I werent doing the degree im doing, in some hopeless attempt to save the planet from ourselves.. I'd love to study in an arts college, or do Politics Philosophy and Economics, or Psychology, or a million and one other things that i cant fit into the hours of each day. I have a passion for music, photography, painting/drawing and sculpture in particular. I have a portfolio full of life drawings from a couple of years back, and hope to get far more involved in these things once more. I have a profile on DeviantArt as well, link below.. with what art ive managed to upload so far and the occasional rant XD.Throughout my life, my main goal has just been to help people, make a differance of somekind, in a positive fashion, to as many lives as i can, and this world. Working for the UN, an NGO (VSA, VSO, EWB, Friends of the Earth...) or for the NZ government would be a dream.I have a very dark, and twisted sense of humour. Some people dont really get why I find some things funny... but a sense of humour is really important to me, and reflects many things about a person. The ability to not take life too seriously, and have a laugh and a good time... the alternative is to feel down about it all, tried it myself and thats no fun. I love tattoos, i design my own. Body art and modification is a growing interest of mine. I have 5 more tattoos that im working on, a large one for my back, small neck, small hips, medium upperleft arm, circlet upper right arm.
I also plan on getting several piercings when money, study and work allow- lip, eyebrow, tongue, right nipple..possibly more.. i dont want to end up looking like a painted pin cushion tho....One last thing. as a character, i am made of a strange shifting balance of drives and perspectives rolled into one. I am an hearty idealist, and a cynic.
I am both optomist and pessemist
I suffered from depression, but have found a peace for now
I am a hedonist, and a buddhist, to various extents...
I have a passion for the arts, a head in science
my mind can be racing but empty
I am hugely ambitious and driven, but procrastinate compulsively and am lazy...
I love sleep but im an insomniac
i have great compassion and faith in humanity, but loath so much about us... I think we are all made up of many, apparently contradictory drives and impulses, we just have to try and keep a balanced perspective, and maintain our integrity . try not to fall too deeply into disillusionment, and retain some compassion DESPITE all the shit in this world. Do not underestimate the good too...
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My Interests

People- i like honesty, honor, humour, integrity, open mindedness, a balanced perspective on life, and understanding.Music, all the time, love music. some poetry, most art, photography, graphic design,Scuba diving, (british) football, tennis, drinking.....
Festivals, Gigs, Raves... live music or DJs, house parties
Environment, natural beauty, conservation, the sea, animals and most life, beaches, waterfalls, full silver moons and the night sky, sunsets and dawn.Ideals of peaceful protest and democracy, developed by many of the greatest minds. Ghandi, M L King for peaceful protest. too many to list on democracy, despite the view that:
"Democracy is the art of running the circus from the monkey cage."
Mythology, history, belief systems (philosophies, theologies, practises)... I love trying to understand them, why they are the way they are and their origins.
I also love tolkiens writing, and fantasy worlds (ive wished many a time i was in one...lol): dragons, elves, greek mythology, vampires (cliche on here? never...)
Gothic clothing/culture/fashion: fishnet things, spiky things, shiny things, black, fetish, UV stuff....
cooking really nice food and having a meal with friends, with lots of wine. Kinkyness, playfulness, erotisism, BDSM, outdoors... exploration and experimentation... ice, candles, cuffs, swings, fire, (I can watch flames endlessly), blindfolds.. whips, swings...I love talking, properly, with people, exchanging ideas on life, or just having really random conversations regardless of what state your in.
Tai chi, kung fu, meditation, chi gung, buddhism, Stoicism, Epicureanism, Taoism...Random things: feathers, (Paua) shells, incense, baths, glowsticks, sunglasses, hippies, ravers, industrial gothic fashion, Fishnets..., corsets, thumbcuffs, real cuffs, dreamcatchers, cats (

I'd like to meet:

friends and family who are all too far away
any one on my 'heros' list
most people who have a good heart, humour, open and intellegent mind, interesting nature, and life.A cross between Jimi Hendrix and Jack Sparrow, would probably be the coolest bloke ever...

Music:

This list is not exhaustive... but its plenty enough. Dance music: Trance (from euphoric to psytrance), Drum and Bass, Breakbeat, Techno, TBM, EBM, Industrial, Acid and Funky House, Liquid Funk...
Leftfield, Orbital, Pendulum, Combichrist, VNV Nation, Front 242, DJ Tiesto, Groove Armada, Faithless, NIN, Calibre, Roni Size, High Contrast, Logistics, Syrian, Gataka, Squarepusher, Rob D, Aphex Twin, Shy FX, Ayria, Delerium, Vitalic, William Alexander, DJ Friction, DJ Hype, DJ Marky, Plump DJs, Cut and Run, Andy C, Silent Auction, Prodigy, Icon of Coil, Neuroticfish, Mind in a Box, Zombie Girl, Suicide Commando....Metal and Rock:
Tool, Defontes, Muse, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Foo Fighters, Black Sabbath, Staind, A Perfect Circle, Evanescense, Propellerheads, Nirvana, Jimi Hendrix, Incubus, Man Of The Hour, Opeth, Rob Zombie, Slayer, System of a Down, Rage Against the Machine, Cheap Sex, Queens of the Stone Age, Mariyln Manson, Smashing Pumpkins, Disturbed, Biffy Clyro, Merrick, Rival Schools, Janis Joplin, Audioslave, Skunk Anansie, Shihad, Cycloptic, Pantera, Drowning Pool, Korn, Slipknot, The Pixies...Classical:
Bach, Vivaldi, Verdi, Rodrigo, Albinoni, Mozart, Beethoven, Barber...
I'm missing a lot here but i can't remember them all...Chill Out: Trip Hop, ambient, Reggae, blues etc.
Tricky, Massive Attack, Otis Redding, Eva Cassidy, Bic Runga, Portishead, Radiohead, Jack Johnson, David Gray, Coldplay, Bob Marley, DJ Format, Moby, Air, Manu Chau, Gregory Isaacs, Marvin Gaye, Finley Quaye....Hip Hop, Rap, and Punk:
Dead Kennedys, Jurrasic 5, A Tribe Called Quest, Cypress Hill, NoFX, The Clash, Greenday, 2 Pac, Sex Pistols, Ramones, Rancid, Less Than Jake, Nad Religion, Sublime....

Movies:

Requim for a Dream, Pi, Lord of the Rings, Bully, Kids, Being John Malkovich, City of God, Full Metal Jacket, Apocolypse Now, Gladiator, The Motorcycle Diaries, Kagemusha- Shadow Warrior, V for Vendetta, The Big Libowski, Laputa- Castle in the Sky, Revelations, Shooting Dogs, South West 9, Unleashed, Underworld, The Crow, Ong-Bak, A Beautiful Mind, The Thin Red Line, Training Day, Tears Of The Sun, Event Horizon, The Matrix, Planet of the Apes (original), Layer Cake, Saw, Bowling for Columbine, Farenheit 9/11, American History X, Leon (directors cut), Natural Born Killers, Sin City, Crash, Blow, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Pirates of The Caribbean, The Nineth Gate (most Johnny Depp films...), Monty Python, Fight Club, It's All Gone Pete Tong, Lock Stock..., Snatch, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, 12 Monkeys, Shuan of the Dead, Battle Royale, The Shaweshank Redemtion, The Experiment, Gattaca, Interview with a Vampire, Alien(s), Human Traffic, Se7en, Rules of Attraction, Withnailand I, Scarface, random indie films, B movies, fantasy films, international films...

Television:

Tribe,Merlin, Family Guy, South Park, My Name Is Earl, Simpsons, 2DTV, Monkey Dust, Spaced, Peepshow, Futurama, Lost, The IT Crowd, The Power of Nightmares, Have I Got News For You, Scrubs, Cowboy Beebop, American Dad, Red Dwarf, Rome, Dead Ringers, Modern Toss, Trigger Happy TV, Sopranos, Star Trek (stuff, sometimes), Babylon 5, Stargate (stuff), Drawn Together, Bremner Bird and Fortune...

Books:

Catch 22, Michael Moore, Herman Hesse (Siddhartha, The Steppenwolfe), JRR Tolkein (the Hobbit, LOTR, the Silmarillion, Unfinished Tales), John Pilger (Tell Me No Lies), Sebatiao Salgado (photographic books), Kurt Vonnegut (Breakfast of Champions rocks), Douglas Adams (Hitchhikers guide to galaxy series, last chance to see, the salmon of doubt), Gary Larson (farside stuff), Garfield, Heroge Orwell, Shakespeare, Nietzsche ...

Heroes:

Gro Harlem Brundtland, Kofi Annan, Bob Marley, Martin Luther King, Nobel (and his prize winners), Gandhi, Buddhas, aid workers, Kurt Kobain, Chino Moreno, Helen Clarke, HR Giger, Freud, my grandfather (Armor Mitchell), John Pilger, Sebastio Selgado, Herman Hesse.... etc...

My Blog

Are We living in/ on the path towards a plutocracy?

I find it ironic that whilst some Western powers justify conflicts in the name of democracy, their domestic government seems to be eroding the reality of such a  system within their borders...:na...
Posted by Illusions_Child on Thu, 14 Jun 2007 08:06:00 PST

Weekend 9-11Feb: Synergy and One Nation

FYI all in the UK (and fellow watermelons, mentalists, etc)I have been planning the craziest weekender for a few months now, and its come together, at last. It is also going to be a celebration of Mar...
Posted by Illusions_Child on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 05:54:00 PST

BRE job opp for post grad

IMPORTANT! (post grads)I have been asked by my project manager to get in touch with people regarding a (permanent place) job opportunity at the Building research Establishment where I work.Essentially...
Posted by Illusions_Child on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 06:07:00 PST

Nuclear Unclear

It was announced some time ago (but snuck out under cover of some Iraq issue) that the UK is renewing its Nuclear program.it is set to spend no less that £26bn on a new Trident missile weapons scheme,...
Posted by Illusions_Child on Tue, 28 Nov 2006 12:45:00 PST

Wednesday 4th October. Get In!!

Get In! -A fusion of Bath's best dance music- - Drum and Bass  Breaks  Techno  Psytrance  - Hardhouse -    Wednesday 4th October QTs (formerly the Playground)- Under Pultney Bridge. &nbs...
Posted by Illusions_Child on Tue, 03 Oct 2006 03:14:00 PST

Gro Harlem Brundtland and sustainable development

Gro Harlem Brundtland is possibly now my favourite person.I have only jsut come across her, somehow so late, and her work is frankly incredible.I can only hope i lead a career half as influential and ...
Posted by Illusions_Child on Fri, 11 Aug 2006 10:35:00 PST

Placement- First Week in Watford

I am doing well now.  I am using the internet at work, after i finish my hours for the day... still no net at ythe flat....I moved in on saturday, then went back to bath until sunday.had a nightm...
Posted by Illusions_Child on Thu, 27 Jul 2006 04:29:00 PST

oh joy

well..its good im such a cynical bastard it seems. As far as i can gather, i have been shafted in the heart. but such is life.I knew the rules were in place for good reason, to ignore that has been fo...
Posted by Illusions_Child on Wed, 28 Jun 2006 11:02:00 PST

my tattoos

since im procrastinating in an extreme way, i thought id try and explain my tattoo design. This will not explain it all, as in many respects its a full reflection of my character, and each part makes ...
Posted by Illusions_Child on Sun, 18 Jun 2006 01:05:00 PST