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Estel

When darkness falls, the stars come out.

About Me

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I like caviar and cheap wine, i fight for what i believe to be right till the end and hold on to the ones i care for oh too tightly, which must be silly of me for many reasons.
I still have hope that its possible to find some great people on here, i do enjoy meeting new people and just sitting at a cafe chatting about nothing and everything. I am kind hearted person, i could be shy at times and talkative at other. Although when i have nothing of significance to say i don't say anything, the whole "Oh my god i love your shoes" irritates me.
I have my own opinions on life, that many people do not agree with, but i don't care i understand why i see things the way i do if others don't agree its not my problem. They way i think was based on my personal experiences, the others because i have something called common sense... ah yes shocking, there is a such thing. I am very headstrong, you really wont be able to change my opinion, but i will listen to yours, and depending on how it is i might even respect it =] .
I am a cynical person, i don't believe that there is good in everyone, there is just good in some people. Those people are hard to come by. Most of the time i do probably view the glass as half empty lol. I do aspire to be do things, and i will do my best to get where i want to get =].
Most of my time i spend reading, but i also try to write and draw,my other hobby would have to be photography, i like both black and white photography as well as digital. I do really dislike it when people say that digital photography is soul less, there are many reasons to why that is silly. I love to capture some bits of our every day world that can be usual or quite unusual. It is my life really.
And i guess by going here you can see some of the books i like to read, the genres and the types. At the moment i am very interested in Ancient Egypt, especially the Eighteenth Dynasty. I am also interested in European myths and lore, thats what i am at the moment really getting into. The historical figures that fascinate me are; including some of the Pharaohs of the Eighteenth dynasty (Tutankhamen, Smenkhkare and Akhenaten) Alexander the Great, Richard the Third and Vlad Dracula.
I like lace, pvc,leather or wet look materials, high heels and corsets, i am just a girl hehe.
Its hard to believe that true happiness truly lasts, it exists but may not really last.
I love nature, and people that look natural and beautiful in that way. I believe in magic, karma, recornation and spirits, yeah i'm odd that way ;) . Hmm i also love trees and hugging trees, it gives of a nice feeling.
I love tea! Any tea...fruit tea, green tea, tea with milk or iced tea. Its just heaven in a cup!
The most simple things are the most precious ones in life, like breathing in the cool air of the night and smell of roses. I do love chatting to interesting people that have actually something to say and don't mind listening and maybe even helping at times. But a lot of people i helped through the years were never there for me, which makes me a careful person.
I love playing games, especially on Gamecube.
Things i don't like:
When things go wrong and knowing that something will go wrong before it gets better.
Children that want to grow up faster, by getting drunk, looking and acting slutty and pretending to be who they are not. Childhood is so important, there will be time yet for all the "grown up" stuff, maybe it just wont be as fun.
It terrible when people who you really care about and consider them as your good friends don't really think much of you, or use you and treat you badly.
People that have their profiles set to private annoy me just so much. It is unfair, you get to see my profile, and other peoples profiles but after you have viewed my profile i can't view yours so i don't even know what kind of a person you are, and i'd like to have a vague idea straight away.Yeah i do dislike so much or i do hate some things hmmm, does it really matter? lol
...if you are going to ask me to send you pictures of myself the first thing after you got my msn, dont even bother talking to me. Also dont bother talking to me if you stupidly presume that i'd "wanna play with you" you sick perves. Arh yes i am a bit fed up of messages like that.
For my stock images go here. For more of my photography, writing (or rants) and a bit of modeling you can click here .

My Interests

Reading, Writing (i have some ideas for books and ideas for films, so i am currently trying to work on that), Music, Computer Graphics (Playing with Photoshop is fun), Photography, Fantasy Artwork, and just things that have to do with magic, mystery and fantasy.

I'd like to meet:

It is always nice to meet good people.
[This layout has been made by me, hence why it has my name all over the place, the floral brushes could be obtained here , the other brushes have been created by me.]

Music:

AFI, Apoptygma Berzerk, Cannibal Corpse, Crematory, Deftones, Dope Stars Inc, Elementa440, Dreadful Shadows, INXS, Kidney Thieves, Kiss, London After Midnight, Misfits, Murderdolls, Nirvana, Placebo, Puddle Of Mudd, Rachel Stamp, Rob Zombie, SPF1000, The Cruxshadows, Type O Negative.

Movies:

12 Monkeys, 13 Ghosts, Amadeus,Big Fish, Brotherhood Of The Wolf, Beauty and the Beast, Bram Stoker's Dracula, Cabin Of Dr Caligari, Donnie Darko, Emperor's New Groove, Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind, Finding Nemo (Yeah Lots of Disney films), Garden State, Green Mile, Iron Man, Lost in Translation, Lucky Number Sleven, Matrix, Metropolitan, Not Another Teen Movie, The Lord Of The Rings, The Simpsons Movie, True Romance, V for Vendatta, Vincet, Passion Of The Christ, People Under The Stairs, Saw (I and II), Sweet here After, Signs, Swimming Pool. Also most films with Johnny Depp or John Malkovich.

Television:

Grey's Anatomy, Family Guy, House, The Amazing Race, The Soup, Two and a Half Men, Simpsons, Scrubs, QI, and documentaries, lots of them!

Books:

A few of my favorite authors are Katharine Kerr, David Gemmell and David Eddings.
Some of the books i love are: The Dracula Tape by Fred Saberhagen, Court of the Midnight King by Freda Warrington, The Girl with a Peral Ear Ring, Sense and Senseabillity, Gilieds Blood and of course the Lord Of the Rings books, Angels and Demons as well as The Davinchi Code, The Act of God by Graham Phillips.

My Blog

Biggest disappointment

  Tutankhamun exhibition was terrible. There was hardly anything from his tomb, almost none of his possessions were there, nothing that you usually associate with his name. It was understandabl...
Posted by Estel on Sun, 23 Dec 2007 10:31:00 PST

Oddness

I'm just realising how much i like things to be in alphabetic order, its really odd. But things seem to be more tidy that way, that goes for my friends lists and fav films and bands online and for my...
Posted by Estel on Thu, 27 Sep 2007 06:59:00 PST

MTV video music awards

I always enjoy watching the video awards, it has been like a habit of mine for the last few years. But this year has been really disappointing.Britney Spears's performance has been really bad, this wa...
Posted by Estel on Mon, 10 Sep 2007 03:05:00 PST

The book im reading

I am still reading H.P. Lovecraft's Omnibus 1 At the Mountain of Madness. As i decided to read more slowly, and thus save some money on the books, so i only read when i can't sleep or when i'm really ...
Posted by Estel on Fri, 17 Aug 2007 04:17:00 PST

A small thing

I have been just looking at some myspace profiles, and people hardly say anything about themselves at all. That for me would make them not so approachable, but maybe thats the whole point. Its just re...
Posted by Estel on Sun, 22 Jul 2007 02:57:00 PST

The Core - My Review

What you are about to read can spoil the film for you, so be warned.   The concept of this film was a really amazing. The graphics was very well done and so was the stony line as well. However it...
Posted by Estel on Sat, 21 Apr 2007 03:46:00 PST

A bit of a treat

I am not feeling that festive at the moment, or havent felt that festive yet, go figure. But i do have a bit of festive photography for you, kinda Christmacy and pretty.   1 - taken at &nb...
Posted by Estel on Mon, 18 Dec 2006 05:09:00 PST

Little Notes From Paris

So after coming back from Paris i have decided to write a few things down and share them with you wonderful lot =] .   When i first arrived at Paris i wasn't all to pleased to be honest, it was j...
Posted by Estel on Mon, 03 Jul 2006 01:09:00 PST

I do not understand humans

Watching a car commercial made me think of how people are really horrible, that some would spend a million pounds on a car that can be like a boat, i swear that has been invented. When they can b...
Posted by Estel on Sat, 03 Jun 2006 03:32:00 PST

All that is Lost? Ignored..

I feel like i am being ignored by few people, and seeing that others don't really care. I guess that we all feel that way at times, and i have been feeling like that for a while now. Need something to...
Posted by Estel on Thu, 09 Mar 2006 01:01:00 PST