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crazy is making the choice to be confined within the constraints of normality. My name is Amy...welcome to my world...my many sides and many colors...

My name is Amy. A while back I branded myself with this Amy Fabulous persona…it was fitting as I was promoting myself and my events and it carried this fun and high energy connotation to the name. Today, I’d like to still think of myself as having those fun characteristics, but fabulous to me has taken on a new meaning – being fabulous means doing the best you can do in whatever you’re doing, and having a damn good time while doing it. I hope we all strive to be fabulous in every way- it comes within…meaning you could be sweeping floors or trading stocks for a living and still find creative ways in being great at it and having fun.
I used to be a very insecure girl who relied heavily on my appearance and sexuality to gain respect and a feeling of empowerment. I experienced the feeling of being bullied and feeling outcasted at a young age and made a promise to never let someone make me feel so helpless again. I took a dark path…hanging out with really bad crowds and gangsters thinking that that was the way to gain respect. I was constantly conscious of my looks – my hair, make up always had to be perfect…I had to have all the nicest clothes all the time…I relied on my external shell to make up for what I lacked on the inside. The ironic thing is, the more “perfect” you try to look, the deeper a hole of emptiness you find yourself in. Pretty fades and can be taken away from you at any time…that’s why no matter how pretty you are on the outside, if you have no substance on the inside, you are nothing but that, another pretty face.
I’ve learned through a lot of growing pains how to find real empowerment – through my career, creating, following my passions and hobbies, giving my love and care to people and the world…this positive energy that you create is yours to own…forever. Don’t get me wrong, I still love a pretty dress and colorful eye shadow palette, taking care of yourself is still important…but the greatest realization is that those things are not defining.
I do not care for people who are so insecure and empty that they harm others and the world in their blind attempt to find fulfillment. I do not like people who lie - even little lies that relieve you of guilt – they show your character. I don’t care for cheap people…I’m a very giving and generous person and cannot stand people who are calculative. I tune out people who talk all the time and don’t perform. I think that guys who feel the need to display their ego in their big loud cars and their mooligan behavior are idiots (PS.. if you drive a hummer and live in the city please go get a brain).
I cannot stand it when people complain about being bored, blah blah. Are you kidding me? There is so much to do in this world…so much that needs to be done…how the heck can you be bored? No one or nothing can entertain you or make you happy. Stop looking for external factors to fill in the gaps. A boring person will be bored wherever they are, whatever they do, whoever they are with as soon as the movie stops or the company they are with are out of jokes. Bottom line…go do something about your misery and don’t just sit and wait.
All that being said, I have a lot of love to give and have faith in people. I believe everyone is born good and has potential... unfortunately, some people get so caught up or misguided that the potential for extraordinary gets lost in all the negativity that they've allowed to accumulate.
I believe in second chances. All people, no matter how evil or negative they may seem, are good and have pure hearts. It is just that some suffer from delusions more than others. Like salty water, the water itself is not salty, it is the salt that makes the water seem salty. we must learn how to separate the negative actions and words of others from their actual self.
everything happens for a reason...

It is sad that every day, we are more and more consumed by all things superficial to the point that many of us are blinded without realizing it. Empty mirages of happiness. I think it is sad that so many people are so disillusioned at what happiness and success is and actively participate in a destructive cycle. Buy more, consume more, work longer, love less.... We need to start cherishing others and stop cherishing ourselves. What if you were to die tomorrow? How do you want to be remembered? At the end, what really mattered in your life?

SUCCESS "To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty. to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded." -----Ralph Waldo Emerson

People I love
MOM You have taught me how to be a strong woman and have passed on your values and caring nature. You spent your entire lifetime suffering, but to this day, still thrive to take care and love those in your life, despite the fact that many of those people have hurt you beyond words. I have witnessed your sorrow and your pain and have learned so much from it. You have taught me the importance of independence, of strength, of loyalty you have taught me the danger of emptiness empty souls, empty hearts, empty men.
ALICE My seeester!!! I admire your courage. You broke out of a safe comfort zone to pursue your dreams. That, is strength. You support me in everything I do, and I thank you so much for that. You always understand me, well, at least try to, and then turn around and make fun of me when I'm being an idiot! Haha luve you for that. Thanks ali poop, for making me laugh and smile all the time you have that gift to bring sunshine into peoples lives. You're often damn cranky, princesslike and bratty at times, but you never fail to be always considerate, thoughtful and caring. Smart, beautiful, and funny. U rock big sis.
ANITA my sheester anita. I am happy you are home. You listen to me so patiently and give me boy advice and career advice and life wisdom. You make me stronger and smarter. You make me laugh. You make me go nuts sometimes. You are such a great sister and friend. i love you. My darling Linda LINDA We've been through absolutely EVERYTHING together. Our adventures (remember those nammer adventures back in the days and being at the airport while you wore my glasses to look smarter?! haha) We've witnessed each other grow and even regress, rise and fall, triumph and crumble. The laughter, the joy, the tears and the pain, we are lucky to have each other to have endured it all together. You are my sister, my rock, and my hero.
PAULINA you touch my heart so dearly...always giving, always thinking of others. You make me feel so special and loved. You inspire me. It is taking after you that I have learnt how to be caring and considerate of others. Thank you for your support, your love, your wisdom and for just being such an amazing friend. I am truly blessed to have you in my life!
SUNNI My twin sister! Everyday I say to myself how lucky I am to have someone like you in my life. You are a strong, intelligent, fun and caring woman. You inspire me to be a better person. It is so rare that you can develop such a connection with someone that you haven't known for a long time, but I am sure we are just reconnecting from a past life! Candy apples, cute crushes, sunday dimsums, urban fare dates, laughing all the time everywhere we go....and more amazing memories to come...

triple A trio say cheeeese!

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