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About Me

i am the full moon. i rise and fall with the tides, the sun hurts my eyes, and when i need to, i cry. i'm exhausted but still moving out of habit. when i'm angry i'm honest about it. i refuse to commit. even if i want to, i won't do it. not to you. not to some dream. not to coffee later. people say i talk too much and have too many opinions, but those people have only scratched the surface when it comes to listing my addictions. i often argue because i'm good at it. sometimes it do it to make other people feel stupid. if you're a fool with your mouth open around me, you're really just askin for it. since i only talk when i know what i'm talking about, i'm always right. accept when i'm wrong, which is hard for me to admit. i tend to criticize. i'm always nervous, usually embarrassed, and difficult to excite. i like the way depression brings out the depth in my eyes. i often panic, especially in public, and paranoia is my way of life. it's not by choice it's just that i can't quiet the voices. i feel responsible for the sins of those who came before me. which is to say i'll soon die of cancer or some other disease caused by guilt and anxiety. i chew my nails until my fingers ache and bleed, and i gnaw on the inside of my lips. you may not think much of me after reading all this, but at least i know that you know that i know the ugly truth about me, and knowing's half the battle, isn't it.

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My Interests

reading. good conversation. making love. thinking hard. giving advice. talking to myself. getting into peoples heads. fixing things. re-evaluating. culture. psychology. anthropology. politics. nature. art. history. the truth of it all. sleeping. dreaming. indulging my fantasies. crown royal. rich food. spicy wine. dark coffee. parliament lights. trashy reality tv. traveling. memories. getting back in touch. falling in love with love. music. music. music. peace and quiet.

I'd like to meet:

me and everyone i love in our past lives. my dream characters.

Music:

ani, nina, tori, fiona, erykah, sade, lauryn, stevie, ray lamontagne, john fogarty, crosby stills nash & young, croft and seals, the roots, mark farina, portishead, otis redding, gypsy kings, bjork, janis, tracy chapman, me'shell ndegeocello, theivory corporation, daughter darling, dana kurtz, citizen cope, amos lee, caetano veloso, d'javan, miles davis, jill scott, julie roberts, outkast, atmosphere, brother ali, aretha, cat power, robert miles, sneaker pimps, d'angelo, goapele, etta james, carol king, james taylor, patsy cline, eric clapton, marvin gaye, al green, dave matthews, alison krauss, kasey chambers, john mayor, bb king, tribe, tupac, diana krall, natalie merchant, jonny lang, tedechi, zepplin, pearl jam, nirvana, smashing pumpkins, concrete blonde, guns and roses, nine inch nails, third eye blind, fleetwood mac, garbage, bill withers, billy holiday, freddie hubbard, gladys knight and the pips, heather nova, rolling stones, floyd, joe cocker, ccr, jazz, soul, r&b, bossa nova, samba, folk, down-tempo, lounge, fusion anything...

Movies:

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, waking life, the magdeline sisters, reality bites, adaptation, the jacket, gia, high art, boondock saints, requiem for a dream, pulp fiction, before sunset, before sunrise, blow, benny and june, the good girl, butterfly effect, brokeback mountain, as good as it gets, what about bob, what's eating gilbert grape, the royal tenenbaums, friends with money, sideways, the king of california...

Television:

six feet under, oz, deadwood, L word, queer as folk, the daily show, colbert report, boston legal, the discovery channel, the history channel, brother's and sisters...

Books:

the god of small things; walden; the red tent; cunt; the awakening and other shorts by kate chopin; the optimists; the bell jar; woman on the edge of time; anne sexton's life's work; bastard out of carolina; the poisonwood bible; ethical slut; sex, drugs and cocoa puffs; vagina monologues; the time travelers wife; the optimists; i know this much is true; the lighthouse; poetry collections and anthologies; my old journals; anything by noam chomsky, carl jung, ahrundati roy, anne rand, bukowski; anthropology/psychology/literature/social-science-related texts...

Heroes:

all the strange and wonderful beings in my two-fold family ~ the one i was born into and the one i have chosen. i know that i am weak, and full of inadequacies, the greatest of which is never learning to shower the ones i adore with gratitude and affection. but i hope and pray that you, everyone i love, know who you are, and find strength, pride and peace in each brief, sad, amazing moment. xo

My Blog

see you on the island!

aloha all you wonderful, beautiful people i love!i will be with you in the flesh again! i can't wait! i will be in honolulu on for the the girlfest womyn's festival. On tuesday , november 13th, i will...
Posted by selah on Tue, 06 Nov 2007 09:33:00 PST

mother's day

mother,your belly is an orchard,your back, a battlefield,your heart, a burial ground,your want, a sacrificial lamb.you have been through the thick of itand feel as though you are barely standing.your ...
Posted by selah on Sat, 05 May 2007 02:04:00 PST

bloodstone

dear love,i have fallen for you a thousand timesthat's how little i believe in you i have fallen for you in an easy afternoonover coffee and books and coffee and music and coffee and palm reading but ...
Posted by selah on Sat, 04 Nov 2006 02:10:00 PST

10:24 p.m.

tonightlike every other nighti will stand outon the ledge of my little boxsmokingstaring into the poorly-lit, box-shaped courtyardblaming bare-trees for their shadowslistening to the sounds of the oth...
Posted by selah on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 07:18:00 PST

lullaby

there is a desperate urge to die growing inside, a healthy weed.i stab at that worm with a dull hook.i sag in my seat,and while i walk,and on my face,smiles seem awkward.caring has become a tiresome d...
Posted by selah on Wed, 22 Nov 2006 09:42:00 PST

heavy rain kiss

i drive a sputtering, leaking beater, blackradical political positioning plastered across the backand you shelled out way too much for a rusty econoline van we call the shaggin wagonfor a very good re...
Posted by selah on Sun, 28 May 2006 01:27:00 PST

separatist (amazing grace)

amazing grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me i once was lost, but now im found was blind but now i see i am doubting thomas, but you can call me selah: &nb...
Posted by selah on Sun, 28 May 2006 03:03:00 PST

heroes

Heroes My father once ate his entire plate of supper in two huge bites - I saw it with my own two four-year-old-eyes. And my mother, almost bursting with twins, once jumped into an icy s...
Posted by selah on Sun, 28 May 2006 01:42:00 PST

home, sweet home

home, sweet home I finished eating, pushed my plates back, sipped the lukewarm black stuff in my coffee cup, and decided that its probably true what they saw about home being where the heart is...
Posted by selah on Sun, 28 May 2006 01:23:00 PST

what 'woman' means (full moon)

what 'woman' means i am the full moon casting my reflection into the crystal calm of Gaias womb causing waves to ripple in hushed tones whispering the secrets they hold thi...
Posted by selah on Sun, 28 May 2006 01:19:00 PST