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Hello everyone!I would ask you all to consider what I’m about to write here very deeply, and if you feel so inclined, to show people my URL for this profile. It is pretty simple, what I think might be an underlying force that fundamentally affects all social interaction and the majority of human thought.We all have addictions, right?You are addicted to food, to sleep, to many habits and many thoughts. Ever think of how you might be if you were not addicted to these things?I am not suggesting one gives up eating, or sleeping, or even habits. What I am suggesting is the possibility that we are all quite mad, repeating behaviours and thoughts and somehow expecting different outcomes. It is all self-fulfilling but I will tell you from my own experience that it is far easier to break these addictions than to keep them. The energy you pour into maintaining a status quo is certainly MORE energy than it would take to evolve with life, since it is obvious to everyone that things are always changing. We’ll set aside philosophy and stick to the essentials that are practical to living.Take someone who is addicted to coffee. Very common addiction. The person drinks coffee because they are tired and need more energy to get things done. What this person may not consider is that they are demanding too much of themselves, they are committing violence to themselves, probably almost constantly. The person must maintain the addiction to coffee in order to keep up with their life. But is it really theirs if it is all dependent on a drug? What if this person gave up coffee? Many things could happen. Two main possibilities is that they would learn to function without coffee and realize just how much of a habit it really is. Or their life would start to fall apart. A constructed life that works well is merely an illusion and weakens us in our ability to react to the inherent dynamicism of life.A man hates his job. He hates his job and always fondly remembers a vacation to the Caribbean where he learned to surf. He has only surfed that one time and wasn’t that great at it. So for a desktop background he puts a photo of someone surfing, someone who resembles him or who he’d like to be, and changes the picture periodically. The self-medicating keeps him calm when he needs to be calm at work. It reminds him of better times in the past and the possibility of better times in the future. But what if he removed this desktop picture and put something totally neutral in its place? What if he did that and became more and more miserable at work, more and more angry and confrontational? Little things ALWAYS make a big difference, even if you do not see it yet.What if it lead to a breakdown in his life and established relationships? This is neither good nor bad, but the truth is, that in this state of discontent, where the man does not allow himself this small pleasure to keep him happy - like a house of cards - it all collapses. It is possible this man can now make many new choices. One choice is deciding to visit the Caribbean again, NOW. Doing it as soon as possible. No expectations. When he arrives in the Caribbean he is afraid, he has come alone. Him and his wife have temporarily separated. She is pregnant and he is worried about his duties as a father, as a husband. But what of his duties to himself? He has come back here where he learned to surf to find out what those duties may be, to see if he could be a happier person if he took care of himself for once, took care of himself first. And there is every possibility that this man becomes a surfer. Perhaps he is a surfing instructor and his wife and newborn child move down with him and live with him on the beach. Perhaps they are all a lot happier. They still fight sometimes, they are faced with crime and a big change in the quality of medicare. But the man is finally true to himself, who he is NOW, and he is happy. Or perhaps the wife does not join him. Perhaps she doesn’t love this new him, but then, if this is true…did she ever love HIM? Or did she only love his habits, his styles? Did she ever even know him? The man is responsible for the child he brought into the world, but he is also responsible for himself. Living as he needs to does not negate his ability to care for the child, though his wife may interfere. What’s next for this man, if he chooses to explore this dream? Perhaps he fails as a surfing instructor and has to move back to Canada. Perhaps he becomes a homeless wanderer. Perhaps he gets bored of surfing and tutors English instead. The point is his discontent is useful. Not utilitarian useful, but useful if he would like to be happier. A short period of discontent is worth everything if it helps you allow yourself to change.You probably want to change right now. You have plans about what and how to change, but the desire to develop, to be happier, remains. Maybe if you planned less and lived more the answers might come to you of their own accord.It is likely that things are far easier than we suspect, because we make them difficult. Look at how people live and it is obvious we MAKE things difficult for ourselves and each other. We make them difficult because it is habit, it is what is familiar, what is comfortable. It is comfortable because this way we avoid boredom. If we avoid boredom, then we do not have to be with ourselves. We do not have to face our Great Discontent. And if we can avoid ourselves, then we can avoid our fundamental loneliness. Loneliness, I suggest, may be the root cause. I am not talking about Enlightenment, Nirvana, Heaven, or bliss. I am talking about attainable happiness, stopping the violence against yourself, and playing.People are really angry, but they are angry because they feel betrayed, fundamentally. Life is not what they WANT it to be. Things don’t go according to plan. This continues in all things. But more than anything there is an aversion to loneliness. I will tell you that I have faced my loneliness and it is no big deal. It is not hard work, and it is not painful as you might imagine it. Instead, I will tell you from my own limited experience and limited way of seeing things that if you face your loneliness, as I did, you open yourself up to many more possibilities. And if you face your loneliness, then the fear of these possibilities fades. The boredom fades too, if you can look at your loneliness. The struggle within yourself to change ends too, if you can look at your loneliness. Giving up an addiction to pleasure, to what is familiar, is easy: simply by facing your own loneliness.You can make the choice at any time. No preparation is necessary. You do not have to be spiritual. This is the most practical thing in the world. I suggest to you, that the happiness and goodness you deeply want is available this very moment, through literal means and through an uncommon change in how you look at things. If you are ready (and if you are you will Know you are), then it takes nothing more than to say these words aloud, whenever you feel like it:“I am ready to face my loneliness. Please, show me how I can face my loneliness.” You do not have to believe these words. You do not have to believe things can change and get better and better. You do not have to believe in any deity, any religion, and diet or any fad. You do not have to believe I am telling the truth. You do not have to believe you can be happier. Belief comes when you do not see, open your eyes and there is no need to believe.All you have to do is look inside yourself and look at me and where I am in my life now, to send this message to you… and see that it is at least possible to transcend your loneliness, transcend boredom. If you SEE that it is even slightly possible, and you say these words: “I am ready to face my loneliness. Please, show me how I can face my loneliness,” then magic may just happen. Magic is just a different way of seeing things. And it is right there, neither good nor bad, neither beautiful nor ugly. This is not about ending struggle on the outside, but ending the struggle within. And maybe you will learn what Love is, and maybe you will be happier. Everything IS possible.What are you waiting for? Conditions will never be right. Take the risk when you can and above all be gentle with yourself. And that’s it. Thank you for reading this.PS. Obviously if you don't know me please don't take my self-help authoritarian style of writing too seriously. I've just been concerned about a lot of people really close to me and thought I might try to send out some good vibes, and this is what I ended up typing. If you disagree with me that can be a really good thing. Perhaps you are thinking for yourself? That's really all I ask of people. HUGGLES!
You Should Be A Poet
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And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery...
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Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker
Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm"
You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone...
Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-)
You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear.
Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing.
The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person.
Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life.
You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face.
Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life* What Kind of Seducer Are You?
You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. How Boyish or Girlish Are You?
You Should Get a PhD in Liberal Arts (like political science, literature, or philosophy)
You're a great thinker and a true philosopher.
You'd make a talented professor or writer. What Advanced Degree Should You Get?
Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence
You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary.You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator. What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?
You Have A Type A- Personality
A- You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds Do You Have a Type A Personality?

My Interests

anime, books, buddhism, camping, canoeing, cooking, frisbee, gardening, hiking, indie rock, japan, kink, leather, motorcycles, opera, photography, poetry, rollerblading, tarot, theatre, travel, writing, yoga

I'd like to meet:

Someone who is true to themself.
You will have a Content love. Not
boring, but without fights and problems. You
will just... be in love. Simple as that. As a
person, you're not the one who laughs highest
or most often, nor the one in the dark corner
crying. You are the one who sits watching
everyone else, often with a little smile
playing on your lips. To you, life is good and
you will get what you wish for. You will fall
for someone who is himself, and lets you be
you.

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Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory
You want to have your cake... and everyone else's.
Which isn't a bad thing, if everyone else gets to eat too!
You're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship.
You think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions. What's Your Ideal Relationship?
Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover
You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires. And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek. You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships. It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is. What Is Your Seduction Style?

Music:

Abba, Alanis Morissette, Alexisonfire, Arcade Fire, Arrogant Worms, At the Drive-In, Bad Brains, Bad Religion, Beastie Boys, Belle and Sebastian, Billy Talent, Bjork, Calexico, Clit 45, David Bowie, Dashboard Confessional, Endo, Exploited, FEAR, From Autumn to Ashes, Franz Ferdinand, Fugazi, Futureheads, Hot Hot Heat, ICP, Idlewild, Iggy Pop, In Flames, Interpol, Jack off Jill, Jewel, Joy Division, Kate Bush, The Killers, KMFDM, Le Tigre, Madredeus, Marilyn Manson, Massive Attack, Melissa Etheridge, Metric, Michael Nyman, Mindless Self Indulgence, Moody Blues, Morrissey, Mushroomhead, New Pornographers, New York Dolls, Nine Inch Nails, Noise Therapy, Operation Ivy, Pansy Divsion, Pink Floyd, Portishead, Postal Service, The Queers, Radiohead, Rancid, Rush, Sex Pistols, Sleater-Kinney, They Might Be Giants, Tiger Army, Tori Amos, Velvet Acid Christ, Velvet Underground, Vines, Violent Femmes, Yeah Yeah Yeah's

Movies:

"Amelie", "HARRY POTTER AND THE PRISONER OF AZKABAN", "Solaris" (Tarkovsky Version 1972), "BARAKA", "Waking Life", "RUN LOLA RUN", "Lost in Translation", "LABYRINTH"

Television:

SOUTHPARK, SIMPSONS, INVADER ZIM, STAR TREK, THE FAMILY GUY, FUTURAMA, DAVE THE BARBARIAN

Books:

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Ani DiFranco, Julie Cameron, Michael Crichton, Daniel MacIvor, Sor Juana Ines De La Cruz, Matt Stone and Trey Parker, Terry Pratchett, Timothy Findley, J.K. Rowling, Les Tabernacles, Bjork, Jhonen Vasquez, Edward Carey, James St. James

My Blog

Isaac's b-day

Happy Birthday in advance Isaac.  The very atoms that make your cells are 100% unique, irreplaceable, and sacred.  The universe is blessed to have you and you take a place that cannot be rep...
Posted by Race on Sat, 22 Jul 2006 04:04:00 PST

Friday, July 21st

Forget the shit with my passport.  FINE.  I won't get one.  DONE.  Happy now? Ryan is making me feel better, but he still won't be honest.  I am learning how to read him, whic...
Posted by Race on Sat, 22 Jul 2006 02:24:00 PST

The Semiotics of Science

The Semiotics of Science     General Relativity Einstein...part of the classical system of thought derived from Enlightenment values: empiricism, linearity, logic, patriarchy... is it any w...
Posted by Race on Wed, 19 Jul 2006 02:10:00 PST

The Ode to/of Odes

Oh that I would be alive in the rivers of time, run parallel Ancient whispers and forgotten dreams Temptation, lust, loneliness, and a fondness for memory We are all addicts, looking for a final fix ...
Posted by Race on Sun, 16 Jul 2006 07:12:00 PST

I Don't Know Why (I Didn't Come)

I waited 'til I saw the sun I don't know why I didn't come I left you by the house of fun I don't know why I didn't come I don't know why I didn't come When I saw the break of day I wished that I coul...
Posted by Race on Sat, 08 Jul 2006 08:48:00 PST

I Don't Know Why (I Didn't Come)

I waited 'til I saw the sun I don't know why I didn't come I left you by the house of fun I don't know why I didn't come I don't know why I didn't come When I saw the break of day I wished that I coul...
Posted by Race on Sat, 08 Jul 2006 08:49:00 PST

The Great Discontent

aw alania, i'm really sad right now....really sad. the world is a beautiful blessing and people just won't calm down and stop fucking it up, fucking themselves.i hope on your adventures you are reckle...
Posted by Race on Sat, 08 Jul 2006 08:35:00 PST

wtf?

okay, don't ask me why but when I posted my previous blog it took out all sorts of spacing and punctuation.  What a load of crap...maybe I'll change it, probably too tired for that though.&n...
Posted by Race on Fri, 07 Jul 2006 07:22:00 PST

JUNE!

So where oh where did the ENTIRE MONTH OF JUNE GO????  Alas, I really cant remember, and for once I dont actually see it as a bad thing.  June was great.  Mustve been.  I mustve be...
Posted by Race on Fri, 07 Jul 2006 07:18:00 PST

Fear and Forests

Books which have finished reading me, and of their own volition no less, in this annum 2006 of the Common Era: The Star in the East: The Invention of a Messiah       &nbs...
Posted by Race on Fri, 09 Jun 2006 01:33:00 PST