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About Me

I am a goth. I cant help it. I thought for a long time that I fit in other cultural groups but most people failed to understand either my humor, or my art, or my outlook on life and my spirituality or something. There was always something unaceptable about me, something weird, a little more twisted and a little darker than the rest of my friends. One day I fell onto a WEbsite outlining what it was to be and not to be Goth and I knew that here was a group of people, a sub culture as it were who were of like heart. I then knew It wasn't alone. Being Goth is not in how you dress or talk or act. Goth is in your heart or it isn't and it is as simple as that. ..

My Interests

Well I like Music, movies, praying in the dark, angels with big swords, things that make my heart pound, the color of blood (the taste as well but don't tell anyone). I love my wife and my kids. I also like things I shouldn't and have a tough time resisting. The hunt for things I don't have. I like helping others find thier path and make thier way to thier fulfillment. I like pretty people and nice people I also like people who give a s.!t. I dont like mean and cruel people. I dont like to hate but I am capable of hatred beyond what I like to admit. I like to have friends. I love clasic hurses betweenabout 1964 to 1974. I am interested in YOU.

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Music:

Goth, Industrial, electronica, rock, 80's euro pop, prety much anything but country and jazz.

Movies:

sci fi, action, horror, slasher, thriller, pop teen flicks "ala american pie style", fantasy and dark comedy.

Television:

csi, enterprise, scrubs, guillmore girls, six feet under.

My Blog

survey I stole from corena

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The SurveyName:DerekBirthday:christmas fricken eveBirthplace:Moose jawCurrent Location:a chairEye Color:candy apple brown. ok so what if thats not a real color?Hair Color:Blac...
Posted by ^V^ OcKeR ^V^ on Sat, 17 Feb 2007 10:19:00 PST

COOL places I want to go!

I was'nt sure where to post these but WOW you wont believe how cool these churches are!well to me anyway... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sedlec_Ossuary    ; http://www.kostnice.cz/SSE to...
Posted by ^V^ OcKeR ^V^ on Sun, 11 Feb 2007 10:56:00 PST

from the lips of an angel

From the lips of an angel?   I am sure I heard it. My wife heard it too. I have been in a fairly deep depression for a number of weeks and there appeared to be no light at the end of the tunnel. ...
Posted by ^V^ OcKeR ^V^ on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 03:35:00 PST

Christmas Dream and a visitation to follow!

As I am going off to sleep I sense I am going to have a spiritual dream of some kind. Immediately I find myself standing in my kitchen and I realize I am in my spiritual armor and fully armed. I ...
Posted by ^V^ OcKeR ^V^ on Mon, 25 Dec 2006 03:07:00 PST

signifigance. what is it worth?

This is a major key to the crisis I have been in and the depression I have been plagued with.I read this book a number of yars ago called "The search for signifigance" and it seated my faith...
Posted by ^V^ OcKeR ^V^ on Tue, 19 Dec 2006 11:18:00 PST

Gothemo as shit

im drowning in myself. I want to cry almost all the time. I am so tired. I am.... Its not specificly Church or mairital struggle or kids or whatever. its just im tired of fighting life on lifes terms....
Posted by ^V^ OcKeR ^V^ on Wed, 29 Nov 2006 08:15:00 PST

The Gathering

Knowing that the gathering and negotiations of truth and light would be a tough battle I took some time to clear my head and prepare for the possible fight that lay ahead. I drove around in my Hearse ...
Posted by ^V^ OcKeR ^V^ on Wed, 24 May 2006 08:50:00 PST

Invisible enemys??

  I entertained the strangest battle today. It was as if all day long, every time I stopped to reflect upon my surrounding circumstances, I entered into a fevered battle in my spirit. I dont kno...
Posted by ^V^ OcKeR ^V^ on Fri, 09 Dec 2005 12:21:00 PST

The Suprise

I found myself hunting on Sunday night. It was late Sunday night probably 1:00 am I was in Kamloops in the neighbourhood in which I grew up, and did most of my terrorizing and rabble rousing as a youn...
Posted by ^V^ OcKeR ^V^ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Return of the Dark biting things

I thought for a while that I had won the war against the thing who loves to torment me. I thought it had finaly given up the ghost and retreated having learned it canot prevail. I started for the firs...
Posted by ^V^ OcKeR ^V^ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST