tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) - ProfilesArchive

About Me

Me racing in the tC
A pretty good webcam pic
If there is one thing you should know about me, it's that I am a very open person. I wear my heart on my sleeve, so you can be certain that what you see is what you're gonna get.
I am also a bunch of contradictions...for example:

I am "un-gay" by working on/modifying my cars, but I'll do it wearing pink I will listen to Kelly Clarkson while driving to a Nine Inch Nails concert I will put glitter in my hair and even (rarely) wear eye makeup but I won't do drag I will dance with no shirt on or do the "wet underwear" contest but I am actually very shy and insecure about my body/looks I appreciate guys with a mind and sense of humor, yet looks and other superficial things DO matter (sorry) I have only been out for a few years but I am totally, completely comfortable with my sexuality
What you will find is that I am a complex person with many facets to my life. I am completely comfortable with being gay and I see no reason to hide it. If you're still in the closet, please don't try to be my friend or ask me for a "discreet" hookup. I came out and I am never going back in. When I find a boyfriend, he better be affectionate and willing to show it anywhere.
When I decide to do something, I DO it. I may hang back at first, but when I commit I will jump in with both feet.
I will do anything for my friends, but I also expect my friends to be there for me. Most of my life I have been alone (I changed schools often when I was little), so it is important to me feel like I belong. However, I expect my friends to be adults, too. So if you're under 21 (physically or mentally) then please move on. I am way over high school. You should be, too.
I like to travel. I believe it is important to be worldly and experience other cultures and ways of thinking. There is more to life than clubs or the mall. Places I've been to (as in spent the night):

Ensenada, Mexico Istanbul, Turkey Bodrum, Turkey Ankara, Turkey Tekirova, Turkey Dublin, Ireland Cork, Ireland London, England Bern, Switzerland Zurich, Switzerland Geneva, Switzerland Paris, France St. Maarten, Netherlands Antilles Bermuda ...and then the places I've visited in the U.S. (not including airport layovers): Baltimore MD Annapolis MD Columbia MD Ellicott City MD Washington D.C. Rehoboth Beach DE New York NY Utica NY Syracuse NY Philadelphia PA Burlington VT Portland ME Manchester NH Williamsburg VA Chicago IL Kitty Hawk NC Louisville KY Lexington KY New Orleans LA Baton Rouge LA Daytona FL Tampa FL St. Augustine FL Orlando FL Las Vegas NV Anthem NV Laughlin NV Brianhead UT Oatman AZ Kingman AZ Bullhead City AZ Flagstaff AZ San Diego CA Laguna Beach CA Santa Barbara CA San Francisco CA Eureka CA Carmel CA Monterey CA Malibu CA San Luis Obispo CA Broadbent OR
(me in Ireland)
(me in Turkey looking dorky... lol)
Original Poetry I've Written
enchanting knight
you are merlin, captivating and seducing me.
wizard eternal, my soul swirls in your spell.
reflections of the deep sky mirror in your eye,
filling me with intense shooting-stars of passion.
you are arthur, standing above steamy water.
excalibur rises and draws me in,
i taste power and lust; hard, hot, intoxicating.
i give myself completely as you come inside;
your arms holding me with strength and desire.
i ascend from your magic, a young knight inspired.
Moonrise
The dark, cool mountain air is all about
As Orion gazes upon our first embrace.
The depth of blues in the sky and earth surround us
and dwarf our selves in their antiquity.
We need not cotton nor wool to keep us warm,
as we each feel a slight electric tingle on our skin.
Our hands touch ever so lightly
as a glow rises from the stone.
We turn our faces upward, innocent with wonder.
It is the moon, lifting our blanket of darkness.
The Truth is realized as She rises in the night
and, unashamed, we kiss in her tender light.

My Interests

I love you, Anneanne! R.I.P. Oct 30, 3007

I'm interested in meeting all kind of guys... I'm also totally into cars, snowboarding, cooking, politics, science fiction, movies, shopping (clothes whore), and clubbing.

Me and James, my first gay friend who I met at the first gay bar I ever went to (the Silver Fox).

Kenzo: 1994 Mazda MX-5 Miata

Koji: 2006 Scion tC

My Next Car, Alfa Romeo Brera!

One of my favorite things to do (NONE are my boyfriend; i'm just slutty and single!):

Anthony and me on the last night of the Boom:

Angel and Me at Palm Springs Pride:

Ron and Me @ Stiff Tuesdays

Hanz is such a sweetheart!

James and me.

Me and Kyle:

Dave and me:

Me and Chris:

Me and Keith:

Me and Matthias:

Me and Jake:

Nick and Me:

Me and Jake in better times:

CHER RULES!!! (OK, "Believe" it or not, that's really Chad from the Dream Girls Revue @ the Boom)

Me and my friend Tori @ Disneyland. We go waaaay back to my straight days!

Me and Ron again:

Me and Julia @ Friction

DJ Ali and me:

Hot, hot Dave. Too bad he's into girls. *sigh*

Me molesting Robert (don't ask)

Me and Amber

Me, James, and Brandon @ Friction:

Me and Katrina, the BEST bartender. She used to be at Club Thrust:

Me and Jewels @ the Boom:

Me and Art @ Thrust:

Me and Amir @ the Boom:

It's Zack and Zach! You figure out which is which! LOL

SNOWBOARDING!!! I LOVE IT!!!

OMG look @ me before I started going to the gym. What a toothpick!

Fooling round with the webcam... what other gay boy would have a friggin' WHEEL in the background? Hahaha

Anthony and me at Lucky Sundays:

Me @ a photo shoot:

I'd like to meet:

Quality Gay Friends.

Ever since I came out, I've found lots of "club friends" who are fun and attractive and will do the whole hugs/hellos/smiles at the dance club.... but finding guys who are actual friends outside of the clubs has been more challenging. I've found a small few, but there is always room in my life for more. :-) What matters most is that you be a good person. I hate the whole WeHo/Queeny attitude of some boys. I don't care how attractive a person is on the outside, if they are full of themselves and bitchy then they are ugly. There's far too much ugliness already in the world, why do so many guys have to add to it with drama and attitude? If you've been blessed with good looks, be humble about it. That is WAY sexier than someone who knows they are hot and flaunts it.

My birthday @ Lucky Sundays:

Music:

I love going to dance clubs! The energy... the music... the boys (hehe)... check these out:

ENVY

STIFF TUESDAYSN

Lucky Sundays

As for a list of music.... on the radio I mostly listen to NPR (KPCC, 89.3) and OutQ or Area 33 on Sirius Satellite . My musical taste ranges from pop to house. I generally can enjoy almost anything, but I am less likely to enjoy hip hop, rap, really twangy country, or anything religious.

Movies:

Classic film like the Seventh Seal (cheesy yet so good... Death plays black, of course):

anything with josh hartnett! (yum)

cheesy movies are so much fun to mock:

and of course there is hot twink porn:

and of course there are some hot gay movies:

anything with paul walker:

Television:

Books:

What's a book? Is that a URL of some kind? LOL! Give a try to this independent publisher, who's an old and dear friend of mine (Jean Goldstrom): Whortleberry Press
If you have a Mazda, try MazdaSport Magazine which is published by another old and dear friend of mine (Barbara Beach): MazdaSport

Heroes:

my Mom, Barack Obama, Ataturk (founder of Turkey), John F. Kennedy, Eleanor Roosevelt, Bill Clinton, Abraham Lincoln, Martin Luther King Jr., my best friend Terry, my other best friend Scott, my third best friend Joon

My Blog

looking for a douche? theyre in the black and white cars!

i'm sorry, but traffic cops are just douche bags. their job has nothing to do with "public safety" -- they are raising revenue for the city and state, pure and simple. today while driving to work, i'm...
Posted by tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) on Fri, 26 Sep 2008 11:14:00 PST

sunshine vs. darkness

i feel as though my life has quite often been split into two opposite pieces. when i was little, the split was between mom and dad (they divorced when i was 4, dad moving to california while me and mo...
Posted by tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) on Wed, 24 Sep 2008 05:06:00 PST

thank you for the music

...because it's all i have. *sigh*tonight i had fun at stiff tuesdays. great music, fun people, blah blah blah. but in the end, i drove home alone -- as always. i had my iPod going with '80s music for...
Posted by tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) on Wed, 16 Jul 2008 04:09:00 PST

thinking

over the past day-and-half, i have watched and listened to news stories about the beginning of legal same-sex marriage here in california. i was quite thrilled to see diane olsen and robin tyler getti...
Posted by tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) on Thu, 19 Jun 2008 07:45:00 PST

to crazy hillary supporters, i say ENOUGH! she LOST!

well, my trip to baltimore was a good one with the exception of me getting sick on the plane ride home. i liked virgin america airlines -- the "mood lighting" was way cool and the at-seat personal ent...
Posted by tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) on Fri, 06 Jun 2008 11:39:00 PST

confusion

i am confused by something. during the democratic primary, i understand how the supporters of each candidate can be zealous and enthusiastic. in my case, i support barack obama and i am excited by his...
Posted by tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) on Thu, 22 May 2008 04:57:00 PST

fluids are your friend

ok, i know i'm blonde. but really, i went above and beyond "dumb blonde" the other day.see... my poor little Miata has been kind of neglected. a year and a half ago, a short developed in the electrica...
Posted by tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) on Sun, 18 May 2008 09:25:00 PST

Speed Racer: The Movie (no spoilers)

Well, last night it was obvious where I was going to be: at the very first showing of Speed Racer: The Movie!I'm not usually someone who wants to be first in line for a movie. I'm fine with waiting fo...
Posted by tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) on Fri, 09 May 2008 01:16:00 PST

high self esteem

for much of my life, i have struggled with my self esteem. it's not that i have been without love or support -- this struggle is totally within myself and at the core is a lack of self-confidence. i h...
Posted by tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) on Wed, 07 May 2008 01:58:00 PST

it’s official, i am a whore (and i love it)

so... i was at club envy in fullerton tonight. it was fun, and i LOVE the fact that there is a gay place in the OC that i can WALK to. ok, it's only once a week and some nights there's not that many p...
Posted by tasty cupcaKe (racerzacK) on Tue, 29 Apr 2008 02:54:00 PST