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Kelly

Stay strong. Every scar is a memento of bravery.

About Me

I just want the same things as everyone else: to enjoy my life, pursue the things that are meaningful to me
I just want to have fun, love deeply, go places, see things, learn, create, and experience... find a good balance between silly and serious.
I want a house like this one someday! Only mine would be a bit larger with a small library, a lovely and functional garden, nestled in the country somehwere beautiul and peacful near mountains... surrounded by magnificent forests, serene hills, and clear, winding streams, but without being too far from a city so that I could still do "cultural" things- see concerts, take classes, visit museums, etc.- from time to time. And I would spend all my time writing and making things and entertaining friends and decorating or working on the house and cooking and learning about history, science, languages, the religions and mythologies and folklores of the world, occasionally traveling or having visitors too. That is my ideal life really... all I want to do is have days like this: a long walk through the autumnal woods and countyside, followed by reading (or perhaps just cuddling) in a hammock under the red-leaf-covered limbs of maple trees, with a cup of tea (or herbal infusion from the garden), and a purring cat on my tummy, in the late afternoon sun of a blissful fall day. Or nestled next to the fireplace in winter, a book or a sewing project in my hands, vegetable soup simmering on the stove, good music or coversation over a glass of red wine, listening to the wind's whine against the window pane blowing in the grey outside. Spring would bring blossomed branches raining petals on the ground, I would spend time planting and gardening, have picnics in the lush green fields among the wildflowers, friends would bring their guitars, their easels and paints, and we would linger to watch the moon rise, to catch a glimpse of a falling star or two, sipping mead. And I would have summers full of hiking and travels! And warm gentle breezes blowing through my hair on an old-fashioned swing in the shade of an oak tree, the smell of a thunderstom in the air, laughing barefoot through the firefly-lit dusk on the way back from a dip in the lake across the meadow.
My life...one day.... As it is now, I have some of those things to an extent and manage to enjoy them immensely, but of course- I want it all! :)
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My Interests

reading, writing, music, concerts, metal, trees, travel, nature, making stuff, conversation, connection, the human condition, intoxication, creation, destruction

I'd like to meet:



Gods, extraterrestrials, aether-dwelling benevolent entities, centaurs, satyrs, faeries, imps, nymphs, dryads, sprites, gnomes, wise men, angels, embodiments of divine energy, time-travellers, prophets, personified archetypes, amicable incarnations of sentience from other dimensions, sophic visitors from other planes of existence, familiar faces from parallel universes, manifestations of certain things from my dreams, and other beings of questionable existence...

and people from other parts of the world so I can go visit them. I want to go EVERYWHERE at least once.

Music:

Music is synonymous with experience. Layers of sound waves, more than mere vibrations of air, convey emotion like no other art form. I am very partial to metal. Metal is rife with a form of intensity lacking in many other styles of music, and there is so much diversity within the genre and its countless sub-genres, it’s impossible to get bored. But I don't like all metal... for example, not much grindcore does it for me, and anything with “Nevermore” vocals- which is most prog/power metal - tends to give me the fingernails-on-the-chalkboard experince. I like classic rock, classical, oldies, ’80, a bit of blues and jazz, some electronic and industrial. I don’t like much modern pop, rap, and country; and I haven't ever really gotten into any punk or rockabilly or anything, and I'll admit to a lack of exposure, but, what- with all the wonderful metal to listen to- does it matter? And the band list: Arcturus, Enslaved, Solefald, Agalloch, Satyricon, Amon Amarth, Old Man's Child, Zyklon, Cryptopsy, At The Gates, Morbid Angel, Borknagar, Immortal, Canopy, Strapping Young Lad, Decapitated, Emperor, Insomnium, Thorns, Ram-Zet, Asmegin, Windir, Primordial, Blut Aus Nord, Gorgoroth, Jesu, Keep Of Kalessin, Malevolent Creation, Mayhem, Negurã Bunget, Red Harvest, old Soilwork, most In Flames, Sturmgeist, ...And Oceans, Akercocke, Hypocrisy, Kataklysm, Behemoth, Anata, Dissection, Burzum, Ulver, Arch Enemy, Ved Buens Ende, Dodheimsgard, Neurosis, Thyrfing, Fintroll, Grave, Sigh, Mastodon, Daylight Dies, Age Of Silence, Fluerety, Marduk, Rotting Christ, Opeth, Isis, Ephel Duath, Callisto, Mael Mordha, Vital Remains, Paths of Possession, Dark Tranquility, Death, Cronian, Six Feet Under, Vintersorg, I, Danzig, Samael, Deathspell Omega, Septic Flesh, Thorr's Hammer, Frantic Bleep, Kathaarsys, Carpathian Forest, Ihsahan, How Like A Winter, In The Woods, Katatonia, Swallow The Sun, Krisiun, Misery Index, Quo Vadis, Silent Stream of Godless Elegy, Vituperation, Zyklon B, Kalmah, Ground Zero System, The Haunted, Darkane, The Angelic Process, Kayo Dot, Korpiklaani, Mithras, Pelican, Mors Principium Est, Arsis, Pan-Thy-Monium, Acid Bath, Subterranian Masquerade, Amoral, Orphaned Land, Bathory, Dog Fashion Disco, Skinny Puppy, KMFDM, Björk, Wumpscut, Sleepytime Gorilla Museum, Secret Chiefs 3, Faun Fables, Zoe Keating, Arcanum, Aphex Twin, Frank Zappa, Fleetwood Mac, The Cure, Depeche Mode, My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult, Jonny Cash, Bogus Blimp, Porcupine Tree, They Might Be Giants, Golgol Bordello, Beirut, Dead Can Dance, Massive Attack, Emilie Autumn, Sarah McLaughlan, The Cranberries, Smashing Pumpkins, Frank Sinatra, Blue Oyster Cult, The Beatles, Patsy Kline, Billie Holiday, Edith Paif, Elvis Presley, Louis Armstrong, Pink Floyd, The Doors, Led Zepplin... I can't list them all... but you can tell I'm a glutton for music!

Movies:

Adaptation, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, The Science of Sleep, The City of Lost Chilrden, Delicatessen, Ameli, A Very Long Engagement, Tuvalu, Wild at Heart, Gummo, The Lord Of The Rings, Fight Club, The Wicker Man (the original- have not seen new one), Dogma, Little Nicky, Meet the Feebles, Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas, Brazil, Minority Report, A Scanner Darlky, What's Eating Gilbert Grape, The Secret Adventures of Tom Thumb, Bubba Hotep, Dune, Legend, Jacob's Ladder, Full Metal Jacket, 2001; A Space Oyssey, Dr. Strangelove, The Fountain, The Neverending Story, Singing In The Rain, Watership Down, Raising Arizona, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation, The Jerk, Weekend at Bernie's, The Little Mermaid, Like Water for Chocolate, Pan's Labyrinth, The Motorcycle Diaries, Donnie Darko, Sin City, The Life of David Gale, Frida, Crash, Magnolia, What The Bleep Do We Know!?, Waking Life, Edward Sissorhands, Big Fish, anything Tim Burton worked on... Stanley Kubrick, Kevin Smith, David Lynch, Jean-Pierre Jeunet... lately I've been getting into Ingmar Bergman films...

Television:

The Simpsons, The Family Guy, South Park, American Dad, Metalocalypse, Mythbusters, NOVA, other random Discovery or History Channel or PBS sometimes... I hate a lot of TV.

Books:

House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski, Tom Robbins (especially Fierce Invalids Home From Hot Climates and Jitterbug Perfume), Mark Twain (favorites include all short stories, No. 44, the Mysterious Stranger, The Bible According to Mark Twain which includes Eve’s Diary and Adam’s Diary, and Letters From the Earth), Kurt Vonnegut, Philip K. Dick, Nathaniel Hawthorn, Albert Camus, ee cummings (poetry counts- it's in books!) , Edgar Alan Poe, T.S. Eliot, William Blake, Henry David Thoreau, Ralph Waldo Emerson, Samuel Beckett, Charles Baudelaire, Oscar Wilde, J.R.R. Tolkien, Watership Down by Richard Adams, Flannery O'Connor, Walt Witman, Ray Bradbury, Herman Melville, Harold Frederic, Richard Adams, D.H. Lawrence, James Joyce, John Fowles, E.M. Forester, Henrik Isben, Thomas Hardy (especially Jude the Obscure), Walker Percy, Margret Atwood, Carlton Mellick III, Chuck Palahniuk, Terry Prachett, Dr. Andrew Weil, Fred Alan Wolf, Stephen Hawking, books about random things I find interesting... like right now I am reading a book about about Qi and the practice of Qigong and A Short History of Nearly Everything by Bill Bryson

Heroes:

The people who have really been there for me.
And my great grandmother, Sutie Nova Mable Turner, though she died before I met her, she left a legacy of artwork, a legend of endless talents, and a family full of people who were touched by her. I hope to be like her one day.

My Blog

All hail the mighty microbe!

Apparently, I'm in a quoting mood tonight. The following is from A Short History of Nearly Everything by Bill Bryson:"In fact, there is no point in trying to hide from your bacteria, for they are on a...
Posted by Helly on Thu, 11 Oct 2007 09:07:00 PST

"The Autumn People"

"For some, autumn comes early, stays late through life where October follows September and November touches October and then instead of December and Christ's birth, there is no Bethlehem Star, no rejo...
Posted by Helly on Thu, 11 Oct 2007 07:20:00 PST

less the sky, thunder the land

the door to the world has slammedwe have demons in our basket and we don't give a damnbut spread the blanket to picnic and watch it all enddisconnected from all that the explosions portendparked here ...
Posted by Helly on Wed, 22 Aug 2007 03:46:00 PST

internal eschaton

because sometimes you just have to destroy everything and re-buildI can be flawed and failfailing takes strengthfalling apart takes being together in the first placewander the darker side of energythe...
Posted by Helly on Sun, 10 Dec 2006 12:27:00 PST

thanksgiving, huh?

everything I have was suffered for by my ancestors.many people died. EVERYBODY died...and WE will dieYou and I,one way or anotherbut for now, I sit so comfortably on this couchin a nice, heated home ...
Posted by Helly on Mon, 27 Nov 2006 04:25:00 PST

Anthocyanins and Abscission

At last the leaves explode with red and goldscatter across the earthfloorand there is something about the way they are blown across the road...an occasional cyclonic outburst to insist they still exis...
Posted by Helly on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 07:05:00 PST

something primal [lj x-post]

if you want me gone consider it donethe rain in my soul is colder, darker, flooding fasterthan you imaginedthere is no way to love me enough after thatthe floodwater is meant for you, to drown youand ...
Posted by Helly on Wed, 18 Oct 2006 08:41:00 PST

In case you didn't realize

It isn't only about Autumn. It's about transition. It's in homagae to nature, to change, to life, to death, to being a tiny part of a greater thing that is rooted deeply and branching ever-upward.... ...
Posted by Helly on Tue, 03 Oct 2006 08:06:00 PST

Colors flash a life-full in the falling sky

and whither away in the blink of an eyethe afternoon sun glows at a cool distance slantingsoft rivulets deep in the breeze recantingthe prayers in layers of every autumn I've hadthe most beautiful dyi...
Posted by Helly on Mon, 02 Oct 2006 07:40:00 PST

Bored=Survey

Stolen from Laura 1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?I have one about 12 inches long on the right hip/leg going down the outer thigh. from total hip replacement.2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR R...
Posted by Helly on Fri, 07 Apr 2006 02:33:00 PST