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*Chezza.B*

detaching is dropping that which does not make you feel good and exuding positive energy

About Me



"Music is closer to us, then; it streams toward us; we stand in its way, but then it goes right through us. It is almost like a higher air, we draw it into the lungs of spirit and it gives us a greater blood in the secret circulation."

-Rilke and Benventua: an Intimate Correspondence

*sigh*

My Interests

people who say what they mean and mean what they say
discipline in the form of being a disciple to one's self
watching shadows on the wall
working hands
soft necks
... (and the silence/meaning of ...)
lips that make my lips dissolve
inner communities
brain vs heart power (and knowing the difference between the two)
people into strummin' it, pluckin' it, beatin it up and the result of what happens when you do that
color... yeah, i'm a huge fan of color
adventures
the journey over the result
furry things
shaking it
making up ideas in my head and makin' shit happen
triacontrahedrons
malapropisms
double-entendres
innuendo
right here. right now

I'd like to meet:

Yeah, baby, let THIS music go right through you...

"...Real fearlessness is the product of tenderness. It comes from letting the world tickle your heart, your raw and beautiful heart. You are willing to open up, without resistance or shyness, and face the world. You are willing to share your heart with others."

-Chogyam Trungpa
Shambhala: The Sacred Path of the Warrior

Music:

The Electric Mess

my DEVO cover band, DEVA

Movies:

slaughterhouse five
red, white & blue series
anything by pedro almodovar
sex, lies & videotape
blue velvet
rear window
wizard of oz
willy wonka & the chocolate factory (the original obvs)
wild at heart
the purple rose of cairo
eraserhead
secretary
chinatown
delicatessen
city of lost children
silkwood
rosemary's baby
the tenant
network
gods and monsters
high art
spirited away
princess mononke
the age of innocence
the bluebird (shirley temple's first flop but incredible fantasy i loved as a child)
24 hour party people
shortbus
the unbearable lightness of being
white palace
pandora's box
stranger than paradise
who's afraid of virginia woolf
the elephant man
the warriors
alien
pink flamingoes
sunrise
nosferatu
saturday night fever
beyond the valley of the dolls
straw dogs
german expressionistic films
russian montage films
film noir
most documentaries (knowledge *is* power afterall)
MORE MORE MORE!

Television:

i am developing a show but ironically, don't have cable and only rent popular shows on DVD for research, but here is what i like now and have loved...(drum roll please...)

the office (both UK *and* US)
reno 911
arrested development
curb your enthusiasm
south park
upright citizen's brigade
strangers with candy
ben stiller show
the league of gentlemen
six feet under
nip/tuck (2nd season)
weeds
avatar (nickelodeon animation... yeah, yeah, i used to work there, okay?)
the simpsons
etc.

Books:

shambhala: the sacred path of the warrior
the razor's edge
running with scissors
the crimson petal and the white
the big book
complicity
jung and tarot
his dark material series by philip pullman
wasp factory
rilke
hafiz
rumi
the power of now
naked
bio on bowie
bio on bunuel
bio on david cronenberg
bio on jeff buckley
bio on siouxsie & the banshees
the alchemist
low life
the vedas
my film history book
play of consciousness by swami muktananda
courage & contentment by gurumayi chidvilasananda
my vocabulary builder
the thesaurus
websters new college dictionary
screenplay by sid field
from giotto to cezanne
the goddess mirror
the bhagavad gita
etc.

Heroes:



My Blog

Suggested actions for this linear time called 2008

** Feel your heart, witness your mind (did you know you don't have to believe your thoughts and that they aren't real unless you do something about them?)** Offer and receive regularly** Be courageous...
Posted by *Chezza.B* on Tue, 01 Jan 2008 06:40:00 PST

Myspace: High School Going to Hell or how can THAT fucking bitch be before me?!

Last week I was gum flappin' with one of my main peeps the *great* Timo Ellis and we were joking around about how "high school" Myspace is and that we've gone back to high school hell. So I gave him a...
Posted by *Chezza.B* on Wed, 14 Nov 2007 01:41:00 PST

Mary-life

My first time reading this poem, it reminded me of my teacher, Gurumayi. She was once a shy woman who was a translator for her Guru. When he passed away, he made her Guru and at first, she was still s...
Posted by *Chezza.B* on Thu, 18 Oct 2007 04:53:00 PST

What Are Dreams to me?

Yesterday was Guru Purnima. A very auspicious day for the disciple/guru relationship enhanced by the full moon. My good friend Miss S came over and we chanted the Guru Gita, which is a beautiful song ...
Posted by *Chezza.B* on Mon, 30 Jul 2007 08:31:00 PST

Yeah or No? Which is it?

I've noticed something that I first encountered years ago through *one* friend back in the early 90s that I have watched grow enormously in our venacular since then. Now it has implanted itself into t...
Posted by *Chezza.B* on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 06:11:00 PST

At Least Im Not Breaking Up

I am aloneI have been aloneWhat I feelI give to myselfMy fingers againstMy own skinAh aloneness!An acquired tasteYou have to pay to playand you always find in the endYour bank account's emptyBut at le...
Posted by *Chezza.B* on Fri, 12 Oct 2007 10:54:00 PST

Does being quixotic really mean my eyes go round and round?

I find it very interesting the emoticons that Myspace has chosen for our mood "status" updates. I feel I am a very idealistic person and that that is a great attribute of mine, yet the emoticon has it...
Posted by *Chezza.B* on Fri, 05 Oct 2007 11:54:00 PST

It's f*ing SWEET to dance to James Brown

'nuff said!
Posted by *Chezza.B* on Wed, 18 Jul 2007 12:10:00 PST

Open Your Eyes to a New World

Your song sounds like an angel weepingthe tearsdrop and turn into nectarin my heartYour face acheswith melancholyThe bliss unfelt,unheardlost in the drink of brewthat it takes youto open your heartSad...
Posted by *Chezza.B* on Sun, 15 Jul 2007 02:02:00 PST

Bhakti inspired poem

Pool of LoveI didn't expectWhen I looked into your eyesthat I would fall into a poolof loveAs I swim there my heartflutters in wavesunfathomableLove gushes in washing over melike a scintillating water...
Posted by *Chezza.B* on Sun, 08 Jul 2007 06:47:00 PST