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Requiem In black

seartching for paradise in the savage garden

About Me

i am a elder goth and an emisary to the goddess,and like most creative people, i have far too many interests and am highly distractable, and do stop trying to determine if i am a man or a woman.the fact is im a good part both and therfor neither one.i was born endowed whith the finest traits of both sexes and i drift this way and that as i choose.please visit my art group colorado fetish art community and my art studio vernal goddess studios When we battle against another we are projecting our internal struggle of yin and yang balance. Society teaches us that we are men or women but our deeper awareness knows that we crave a balance of energy within that is ultimately androgynous. ............................................................ ..................."REVOLUTION" was the word on his lips as he stood in the streets and screamed ,"HEY, LISTEN TO ME" i quess warhol wasnt wrong,fame fifteen minets long......10 p.m.,i feel the rain comming down,im a old school,glam/glitter/romantic/elder goth, i sell fetish art,i draw most of the day,i have had 3 near death exspiriances that have changed my life,im a cancer survivor,i practice my guitar 3 hours a day 7 day's a week (for 28 years so im a little bit good ),i study and practice the kama sutra (the original one not the watered down playboy version),and tantric sex,i love to give pepol something to stare at,i wear long skirts and love to were high heels,im just a whore for the underground,im a loayal of criss angel,i like to shock pepole whith my looks and dress,i dont give a fuck what anyone says about me ,i am what i am,i love roller derby girls,i have a red belt in tae kwon do and a green belt in kendo,i love b.d.s.m.,and jappanness rope bondage,i practice magik and whytchcraft.i have a collection of antiqe tea sets ,dolls,cameos,and swords,im an original club kid, ,im an old school wytch, musicion,artist,,recording studio owner,49% owner of force and form productsions,industrial,wiccan,THE WORD IS REVOLUTION,i collect todd mcfarlin figures,i love being a single parent of two lovely boys. pissing off the religious right,supporting the l.g.b.t.community,lets tip the power balance and tear down there crown ,educate the masses, i have 14 guitars ,2 basses ,and 2 drum sets,and tons of world percussion,speak to me the pain you feel,finnaly being my authentic self, political activist whith the natural law party,being a fashion whore and looking ABSOLUTLY FABULOUS, i am a true patriot, raising as mutch hell as i can,to make some kind of difference everyone must know eradicate the fascists, revolution will grow,miss being on tour and playing live music,trying to get all my goth freinds to meet and start a community of like minds to try to make this crappy town more tolerable to be in ,libretto 6:00 p.m. .religion and sex are power plays manipulate the people for the money they pay,selling skin,selling god, the numbers look the same on there credit cards,the ritch control the government ,the media,the law,as the banks get fat ,and the poor stay poor,and the ritch get ritch,and the cops get paid to look the other way,as the one percent rules america,every body needs,but no one wants to see,the way society keeps spreading the disease............revolution calling....IM AWAKE NOW AND IM NOT GOING BACK TO SLEEP,6:01 p.m.,........... "i remember now".........Embrace this moment. Remember. We are eternal. All this pain is an illusion...

My Interests

elagant gothic lollita,elagant aristacrat lollita,B.D.S.M,polyamoury,polytheistic,Androgyny,gothic fashion,goth-loli fasion,beautyful women (duh),pin up girls.love,passion,art bell,coast to coast am,roller derby,im a loyal of criss angel,vampyers,my lovely freinds,draguns,the fay,studying the kama sutra, corsets,b d s m ,whips,betty page,harley-davidson, sex, chains, floggers, all things dark and moody,gothic everything,crowly,music, bondage,art ,art ,and more art ,wicca,cabballa,the old religion,the ancent ones,ann rice,jappanness food and culture, pinups, sirens, anima. hot wax, all things fetish and sensual ,black and white horror films,i play guitar, keys, and drums,forming a nuw band soon,working on my 1972 plymouth 340 wedge hemi duster and my 1996 chevy lummina police intercepter,and so so mutch more . my yahoo id is merrillgary and vernalgoddess my live journal is intheblack. .................... vernal goddess on myspace im also a proud member of the Colorado Gothic Tea Society.

I'd like to meet:

my beautyful one she who in the darkness is the greatest light, my twin flame,my goddess on earth,my misstress and lady my preistess.she who i will worship here and through eternaty, id like to meet dr x (his plan was brillient in its simplicity "assasination and replacement").and "the one who will lead us into paradice whith blood stained hands",and all kindred souls for love, joy,play,clubbing, and the passionate dance of life immortal. my freinds are my family, my love for them is endless,come let us form a community of like souls , for we may never pass this way again.THERES A REVOLUTION CALLING YOU .. "Patriotism means to stand by the country. It does not mean to stand by the President." President Theodore Roosevelt .......... .. "It is the duty of the patriot to protect his country from the government." Thomas Paine ........... "Dissent is the highest form of patriotism." President Thomas Jefferson .

Music:

goth,industrial,chamber music,old school goth,jazz, horrorpunk,ebm,synthpop,gothabilly,heavy metal,classical, horror pop,darkwave,dark 80's,phycobilly,trance,triphop,celtic,middleastern,big band,all music actually, . .as for groups.STEVIE NICKS and LORRENA MCKENNITabove all ,steave vie,frank sinatra,joe satriani,joey tofolla,frank zappa and the mothers of invention,tin machine,stray cats,robert johnson,Depeche Mode,pink floyd, Razed in Black,pitbull daycare,cradle of filth,70's rock,dark 80's, Assemblage 23, VNV Nation, Covenant, Wolfsheim, KMFDM, Front 242, Ministry,exsessive force, primus,dean martin,sammy davis jr,system of a down, Fields of the Nephilim, Dead Can Dance,velvet acid christ, Marilyn Manson,moon spell, lorrenna mckennet, The Cure, Caberet Voltaire,misfits,plasmatics,missing persons,johnny cash, Lords of Acid, Nine Inch Nails,Project Pitchfork, London After Midnight,devo,black sabbath,dio, Midnight Syndicate, Paul Van Dyke, Concrete Blond, Souixsie and the Banshees, Bjork, Duran Duran, New Order, Joy Division, boy george,marrillion,Sisters of Mercy, Neuroticfish, Blondie, David Bowie, Wumpscut, Theatre of Tragedy, Kraftwerk,prince and the revolution,prince and the nuw power generation,tangeren dream,pink floyd,led zepplin,infectious groves,givita tribe,art of noise,titan force,jag panzer,fleetwood mac,bach,mozart,vivaldi,berlious,handel,and many more ..

Movies:

easy rider,highlander (the first one and endgame ), the crow (duh),starwars (all of em ), darkcity,preditor,alien (all), house of a thousand corpes,prince and the revolution purple rain, strangeland (got to go to the directors party and meet the actors),the matrix,the worriors,clockwork orange (actually all of kubiks films ), batman,x men,spiderman,blade(all 3 ),any classic black n white horror movie, cradle of fear (i hope someboby has seen this movie),the audition (best movie ive seen in 10 years) any bruce lee movie. heavy meatal , rocky horra picture show, blade runner,logans run,b movies, gohst in the shell.akira, so many others just ask ....

Television:

hi hi puffy ami yumi show( my nuw favorite),highlander,buffy,angel,charmed,discovery channel,the learning channel,cartoon network,war of the worlds the series (if any one remembers this series let me know i think im the only one to have watched it ),reno 911,grim and evil.invader zimm, jeramia (i loved this show ) oddessy 5 (another cool show),

Books:

any non-fiction about magic or religion and everything ann rice has ever written, h.g, wells ,h.p. lovecraft,alister crowly,john dee ,ill read anything i love to read , knowlage is power.....

Heroes:

Thomas jefferson (first, formost, and always) and carla white "she who gave me the passion of music ".my beautyful gothic famaly in the springs, my dear dead freind and gohst who haunts me lori labare"the laural queen",, my dad and mom, jerry hall "he who is as a worrior of greatness",tawnia olson"she who is my sunlight",the beautyful mother of my children tonya griffin, my boys nick and connor,, thouse who fight against tiranny,and thouse who fight for l.g.b.t. rights,, thouse who died for freedom or rebelion, gandi,gahil gibran, john dee,bruce lee, raymond buckland,thouse who will fight and die in the new revolution that is comming,"Freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor; it must be demanded by the oppressed." ,