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Carina Crash

i can't remember to forget you..

About Me

"i'm just a floozy, an old fashioned hussy.. tryin' to kiss you, it hasn't been easy"
23 year old stripey batty kinda grrl: who loves johnny depp and penguins. i adore love stories and even write some dreamy scribblings of my own. :}
*i really enjoy photographing and being photographed(-- infact i sometimes model.) i like kissing photos and nudes the best. i'm constantly dreaming and always have my head in the clouds.
*my strongest (and most favourite!) sense is touch. i like to run my fingers over absolutely everything at all times.
*i like stargazer lillies and ladybugs.
*i love breakfast at 3 am and talking over coffee.
i like reading someone else's diary and putting myself in the scene.
*i love the way a corset feels! it's so happy, it's like being constantly hugged.
*i wear a love:locket around my neck and hold it close to my heart. i do believe there is someone written in the stars for everyone. maybe thats why my eyes are constantly towards the sky.
my wishlist. because each day is valentine's day!
"..sometimes there's so much beauty in the world, i feel like i can't take it.. like my heart's just going to cave in."

My Interests

johnny depp, tim burton, letter writing, pen pals, fountain pens, anais nin, oscar wilde, androgyny, hedonism, aesthetics, transgender, genderbending, tim roth, jude law, jeff buckley, mice, pisces, kissing, love songs, love letters, victorian culture, 1890s london, 1930s paris, brassai, henry miller, dh lawrence, opium, brown paper cigarettes, marlene dietrich, corsets, fingerless gloves, veiled hats, silk ribbons, erotica, black and white stripes, musicals, opera, giuseppe verdi, unrequited love, eddie izzard, mini coopers, hello kitty, french cinema, the boys of queer as folk, rufus wainwright, suicide girls, vintage pornography, nerve magazine, egotism, photobooths, my nikon fm2, black and white photography, collarbones and ribcages, cigarettes and chocolate milk, boys whos name begin with r, kissing with my eyes closed, traveling by train, personal diaries, starlet biographies, autobiographies, dreaming up illogical scenarios, jean-pierre jeunet, the opportune moment, trinkets, secrets, declarations of love, fountain pen ink, found objects, breakfast for dinner, coffee smell, city lights, falling in love with strangers, going to restaurants alone, single servings, reading at the bar, saying yes, organized chaos, used books, white bedsheets, messy hair and a perfect smile, counting jellybeans, waiting, chai tea, unexpected things, trembling, erotomania, obsessive-compulsive, remembering to forget, waking up to you, keeping the curtains closed

I'd like to meet:



"you will never be able to see yourself the way other people see you, the way i see you.. which is ashame because you are- ..i really think you have no idea how beautiful you are."

Music:

rufus wainwright, jeff buckley, the smiths, morrissey, the cure, the dresden dolls, martha wainwright, joan as police woman, siouxsie and the banshees, the creatures, rasputina, peter murphy, nick cave, birthday party, bauhaus, depeche mode, david bowie, cherry vanilla, soft cell, cyndi lauper, duran duran, simply red, psychedelic furs, simple minds, the human league, abc, madonna, robbie williams, radiohead, millbrook, ewan mcgregor, jane harrocks, kiki and herb, judy garland, marilyn monroe, cello, french love songs, antony and the johnsons, bryan ferry, roxy music, radiohead, edith piaf, nina simone, franz schubert, verdi, puccini, maria callas, placido domingo, the metropolitan opera, the gershwins, gilbert and sullivan, cole porter, film soundtracks, broadway sensibilites, cabaret, music boxes and harpsicords

Movies:

gattaca, tape, swing kids, dead poets society, snow falling on cedars, memento, trainspotting, closer, croupier, velvet goldmine, nora, moulin rouge, pulp fiction, legend of 1900, henry and june, captives, amelie, insomnia, blow, from hell, dead man, chaplin, restoration, home for the holidays, chances are, only you, music from another room, great expectations, before sunrise, hedwig and the angry inch, party monster, nightmare before christmas, bent, sleepers, the wisdom of crocodiles, immortality, existenz, waking the dead, ma vie en rose, les miserables, wilde, interview with the vampire, quills, inventing the abbotts, enemy at the gates, final cut, midnight in the garden of good and evil, the perfect husband, vatel, the million dollar hotel, deceiver, hamlet, beautiful girls, jennifer 8, dangerous liasions, the dreamers, before sunset, lord of war, city lights, lenny, lovesick, heights, talk to her, amores perros, my own private idaho, long island expressway, bad education, y tu mama tambien, things you can tell just by looking at her, fixing frank, the devil is a woman, dinner at eight, grand hotel, mommy dearest, tristan and isolde, sonny, the libertine, operation petticoat, charade, my fair lady, sabrina, the misfits, the prince and the showgirl, shortbus, batman begins, american psycho, a very long engagement, delicatessen, the city of lost children, brief encounter, bringing up baby, life is beautiful, philadelphia story, the hottest state, the pillowbook, the tiger and the snow, puccini for beginners, the fountain, breaking and entering, la moustache, the white countess, the good german, copying beethoven, children of men, fur, the painted veil, half nelson, notes on a scandal, stay, lars and the real girl, another country, unconditional love, first snow, factory girl, amazing grace, scenes of a sexual nature, love in the time of cholera, goya's ghost, la vie en rose, lady chatterley, lover, wings of desire, tarnation, fat girls, stardust, dedication, sunshine, breakfast on pluto, enduring love, sweeney todd, the ballad of jack and rose, lars and the real girl

Television:

six feet under, dexter, queer as folk, carnivale , the tudors, autopsy, real sex, cold case files, the new detectives, unsolved mysteries, the l word, rome, house, good eats, iron chef america, top chef! :D

Books:

henry and june, the hottest state, ash wednesday, tommy's tale, belinda, the sleeping beauty trilogy, seduction: a portrait of anais nin, little birds, delta of venus, the picture of dorian gray, orlando, jude the obscure, the girls, tess of the d'urbervilles, great expectations, audrey style, marlene, honey, ladies and gentlemen lenny bruce, a wished for song, the sexual life of catherine m, waiting, dizzy and jimmy, tallulah, hedonism handbook, bombshell, devil's knot, permanent midnight, i fatty, perv, the girls sappho goes to hollywood, the sewing circle, little girl lost, a cast of killers, the last days of marilyn monroe, blue angel, darkly dreaming dexter, dearly devoted dexter, dexter in the dark, the erotic life of anais nin, salad days, the golden girls of mgm, love without, saint morrissey, a spy in the house of love, incest, dream brother, linotte, rosebud, the black dahlia files, interview with the vampire, collages, tea, strapless, century girl. vegan cookbooks, anais nin, oscar wilde

Heroes:



"just feeling is a subversive act.. expressing it is rebellious." -jb

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My Blog

..no more walls

"I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger than reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. A...
Posted by Carina Crash on Tue, 01 Apr 2008 03:31:00 PST

one year..

in loving memory of paige mcvandalmay 14th 1974 - october 16th 2006i miss you always....
Posted by Carina Crash on Wed, 17 Oct 2007 10:37:00 PST

..i know how it feels


Posted by Carina Crash on Tue, 24 Jul 2007 12:42:00 PST

..how can i heal?

I don't even know how long she's been gone. It's like I've woken up in bed and she's not here... because she's gone to the bathroom or something. But somehow, I know she's never gonna come back to bed...
Posted by Carina Crash on Wed, 07 Mar 2007 01:05:00 PST

absolute torture.

"i love you and i desperately want to show you..and i can’t. you’re terribly lonely and it’s brutal for me. it’s absolute torture. we go through enough of our lives being alon...
Posted by Carina Crash on Sat, 20 Jan 2007 04:22:00 PST

one kiss breaches the distance between friendship and love

all flowers in time bend towards the sun.. i know you say there's no one for you... but here is one. ...
Posted by Carina Crash on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 02:46:00 PST

yes, i was reading your memiors..again.

"Her sight gave me an electric shock; in a word, I was inlove with her. I lived in a trance. I hoped for nothing.. I knew nothing..but I felt a deep anguish in my heart. Entire nights I would spend in...
Posted by Carina Crash on Mon, 04 Dec 2006 10:24:00 PST

oh the world won't listen..


Posted by Carina Crash on Sat, 08 Jul 2006 04:37:00 PST

excerpt from a letter to you..

"..i really have such a hard time saying goodbye or parting with someone. and it doesn’t matter who they are or how long i’ve been with them. i just always feel my heart starting to crack ...
Posted by Carina Crash on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

sweet comic valentine,

Each time that one loves is the only time one has ever loved. Difference of object does not alter singleness of passion. It merely intensifies it. We can have but one great experience at best, and t...
Posted by Carina Crash on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST