"""MY BABIES"""
I'd like to meet:
Sylvia Browne
Your aura shines Orange!
What Color Is Your Aura?
Music:
LIFE'S WHAT YOU MAKE IT (Talk Talk)
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Movies:
Shawshank Redemption, Good Fellas, Reservoir Dogs, Scarface, and so on*** Amityville Horror (the new movie) and always---""Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer""
Television:
A&E, The Discovery channel, ""FOOTBALL"", Hockey and now Sesame Street-(lol)-but really I do--because of my son--
Books:
Many Lives and Many Masters,---Charlottes Web and GoodNight Moon and Curious George---(can't help it-still favorites)
Heroes:
"GOD/Jesus"
"MY MOM"
"My Sister Mary"
"My Son Aydan"
"MY DOG PEBBLES"
There are remarkable reasons for them being my heroes--and words alone are not enough to explain why....
I am incredibly thankful to God for the love he gives me, the life that he has given me and for all the roads that he has let me cross, the most spectacular gift that he gave me was my son Aydan, my wonderful family and friends and my dog pebbles who I love dearly. I thank God for everything in my life because without him nothing would be possible and I firmly believe in prayer and I do know that God does answer us.
""I HAVE HAD MANY PRAYERS ANSWERED IN MY LIFE AND I RECENTLY HAD ONE OF THE HARDEST PRAYERS I'VE EVER HAD TO SAY---ANSWERED!!!!""
AFTER BEING IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A WEEK ALREADY--
ON FRIDAY--APRIL 14,2006 AT 4:15am--MY MOMMA HAD FLAT-LINED AND WAS GONE FOR 2-3 MINUTES AND THE WONDERFUL STAFF AT SHANDS OF JACKSONVILLE WERE ABLE TO SAVE HER AND THEN SHE WAS PUT ON LIFE SUPPORT AND THAT DAY AS I LOOKED AT MY MOM WITH TUBES IN HER THROAT AND WIRES EVERYWHERE ON HER BODY I FELT AN ENORMOUS LOSE, SADNESS, PAIN AND GUILT AND REALIZED I MAY NEVER HAVE A CHANCE TO SAY--I LOVE YOU--I'M SORRY--OR ANYTHING AGAIN AND I WOULD NEVER KNOW IF SHE KNEW HOW I FELT AND WAS FEELING AND HURTING SINCE SHE WAS INCOHERANT AND SINCE I FAILED TO SPEND TIME WITH HER WHILE SHE WAS HERE. I HAVE NEVER LOST ANYONE CLOSE TO ME AND TO SEE YOUR LOVED ONE SLIPPING RIGHT BEFORE YOUR EYES IS SOOOOOOOOO PAINFUL AND UNDESCRIBABLE AND YOU HAVE NO MORE CHANCES TO DO, SAY OR FEEL---------
ALTHOUGH MY MOM COULD NOT RESPOND AND I DID NOT KNOW IF SHE COULD HEAR ME---I BEGGED HER--PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME-- AND I PRAYED AND PRAYED AND PRAYED TO GOD TO --PLEASE LET HER STAY HERE A LIL LONGER, I WASN'T READY FOR HER TO GO, THAT I PROMISE TO BE A BETTER DAUGHTER, TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH HER, ETC. ETC. ETC....
GOD WAS LISTENING AND GOD ANSWERED MINE AND OTHERS PRAYERS AND BY 8pm THAT NIGHT SHE WAS OFF THE LIFE SUPPORT MACHINE AND BREATHING ON HER OWN AND AT 9:10pm AS I WENT TO KISS HER HEAD CAUSE VISITING HOURS WERE OVER--SHE OPENED HER EYES AND LOOKED AT ME AND SAID--YOU AND MARY ARE BEAUTIFUL ANGELS-- AND SHE SAID--LAST NIGHT I SAW THE DEVIL AND TOLD HIM I'M NOT GOING WITH YOU AND THEN SHE WAS SURROUNDED BY ANGELS AND SPOKE WITH GOD--
OH MY GOSH--I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DROP ON THE FLOOR--I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT.. I HAVE BEEN A NERVOUS WRECK STILL SINCE THAT DAY BECAUSE THEY STILL HAVE NO MEDICAL EXPLANATION OF WHY SHE FLAT-LINED AND THEY DO NOT KNOW HOW MUCH TIME SHE HAS BUT I DO KNOW THAT GOD WAS LISTENING AND HE HAS GIVEN ME THE CHANCE TO HAVE MY MOMMA A LIL LONGER AND THE CHANCE TO SAY EVERYTHING I SHOULD HAVE, NEEDED TO, ETC. AND HERE SHE IS TONIGHT APRIL 26, WITH MY SON AT OUR HOUSESHE HAS TO HAVE 24/7 CARE NOW AND ITS VERY HARD FOR HER AND US BUT WE DO NOT ALWAYS GET SECOND CHANCES IN LIFE AND THOUGH I CANNOT MAKE UP FOR WHAT I SHOULD OF, COULD OF, WOULD OF, IN THE PAST-- I HAVE NOW, AND I'M GONNA CHERISH EVERY MOMENT I DO HAVE LEFT WITH HER AND SHE IS AN AMAZING FIGHTER CAUSE SHE WENT THREW HELL TO STAY HERE AND SHE DID IT FOR HER CHILDREN AND GOD DID IT FOR US..
""DON'T WAIT TILL ITS TO LATE FOR THE COULD OF, SHOULD OF, WOULD OF--BECAUSE YOU MAY NOT GET A SECOND CHANCE AND THE GUILT ALONE --IS ENOUGH TO KILL YOU--""
Since I was a lil girl I always said --I WOULD NEVER HAVE KIDS-- didn't want them what-so-ever and now----
""LOOK AT THIS MIRACLE FROM GOD""
and I couldn't be happier.............
"I THINK WE ARE ALL HEROES IN OUR OWN SPECIAL WAYS"
whether we know it or not we are all a hero to someone for some reason or just for being ourselves..
I think people that can have compassion, love and respect for others are ALL HEROES..
