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About Me

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The ultimate love of my life if my Lord and Savior. Without Him, I would be nothing and could do nothing. When everything around me fails, He never does.
My heart belongs to my little girls who are growing up so fast. Audra is 11 but wishes she was a teenager already. She can't wait to go to high school. Gurl don't rush me, I aint ready for all dat!!!! Nicki (Dominique) is 7 going on 25. She likes to think she rule things. Ha! But she knows I aint havin dat!
The newest addition to my family is my baby boy C.J., a 5 month old Shih Tzu who stole my heart at first sight. Like a newborn baby, we bonded from the moment I held him in my arms. I'm having a load of fun wit him. I don't know who likes to cuddle more, him or me!! LOL
I have a pretty small but close-knit fam. I'm the baby of two brothers. My oldest brother James is, well... he's an older brother who still wants to protect his baby sister. The middle brother is... well, what can I say about a middle child?? Hmmmmm? Anyway, My Mom and Dad are still together after 38 years and they act like it too. I don't know who gets on each other's nerves the worst (LOL) but I suppose that's what staying together is all about... you're in it for the good and "you get on my dang nerves" moments. My Auntie Brenda is like my second Mom to me. If I'm not at my Mom's house, I'm chilling at her's watching movies, playing with my baby Casey (her dog), or raiding her frig. Then there are my handful of cousins (handful as in, I could literally count them on one hand) that would beat someone down for messin wit fam. Desire... slow ya role chick, respect your beauty and others will respect you too!!! I have three neices (Samantha, Meagan and Chelsea) and one nephew (Deven) whom I can't keep up wit cause they're growing up so fast.... I gotta step up my game cause yall makin ya Auntie feel old!!! LOL. Well.... That's it. Told you my fam was small. But really, I have a lot more family, we just don't keep in touch.
Besides loving on my family, I own two businesses... yep, TWO! And believe me, they keep me crazy busy. It's not unusual for me to pull an all-nighter to get a project done and then spend three days trying to get caught up on my sleep. Feechi Designs is a web and print design business I started in 2006 after over 11 years of graphic designing and a degree in web site development. City Church Guide is a free monthly magazine for churches that was started this year with a friend of mine. God has given me so much favor in allowing me to use my talents for the building of His Kingdom. Working from home is a dream come true and an ever evolving blessing. Trust me... I do not miss that 8 to 5 job!!!! Thank you Lord!!
Besides my family and career, music and poetry are the other loves of my life. There's always a tune in my head and a verse in my heart. I also have a thing for abstract oil paintings. I love gazing off into a picture and getting lost in the curves and angles of creativity.
When I'm not working I love hangin out or talkin on the phone with my friends Bonnie, Jennifer, Carolyn, and Angie. Thick or thin, they're always there to pick me up and cheer me on. Yall know I luv ya! But aint nothin like a night out with my girls BJ, Theresa, Kim and Dee. Yall know how we do it!!!!
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Check out my friend's blog! Pumps and Gloss
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My Interests

My family through the years
UPDATED: 13 more photos added

Three ladies and a dog

MY FAVORITES

~~MUSIC~~
Gospel
R&B
Hip-Hop
Contemporary Jazz
Neo-Soul
Pop
Soft-Rock
, Country
just about everything

~~SONGS~~
"Sinner's Prayer" by Deitrick Haddon
"Closer" by Floetry
"Beautiful" by India.Arie

~~MOVIES~~
The Notebook
Sweet November
Love Jones
Brown Sugar
just to name a few

~~FOOD~~
grilled chicken taco salad
Pizza Hut's Meatlover's Pizza
Papa John's Garlic Bread

~~SNACK~~
Homemade seafood nachos

~~DRINK~~
Dr. Pepper
Cherry Coke
Kahlua w/milk

~~SCENT~~
smell of rain
baby lotion/powder

~~COLORS~~
black
ruby red
baby blue
soft pink

~~FASHION~~
silver jewelry
trendy handbags
strappy high heels
sandles
capri pants

~~PERFUME~~
Dolce and Gabbana

~~TV SHOWS~~
House
CSI:Miami
TBN
Food Network
Discovery Channel

~~HOBBY~~
writing poetry
music
watching tv/movies

~~PLACES TO CHILL~~
at home
parent's house
Auntie's house
park
beach

~~DREAM CAR~~
The new Cadillac STS in black with tan interior

~~PLACE TO LIVE~~
In the country but not too far from the city or on a hill near the beach

~~KNOWN TO ALWAYS SAY~~
"You know what....?"

I'd like to meet:



Music:



Create Your Own Countdown

"Joy the Queen of Clean Comediane"
Thanks Joy for keeping me laughting. Keep being the "Prodocious" self that you are! Looking forward to seeing you again soon.

Movies:

My Poetic
Journal
Between the lines of my poetry are emotions and feelings I've experienced thorughout my life. They may not always rhyme or make sence to you, but that's just how the words flow through me.
Enjoy your journey into my emotions.
THE WAKE
The Wake
Looking upon her brunette skin
Not quite black
Not quite indian
But some place
Beautiful in between
Her delicate silver hair
So perfectly curled and place
Around her face
Of rosey cheeks
Rosey lips
Her favorite pink dress
The voice of my child
Asking in wonder and fear
"Mommy, why isn't she moving?"
Those words
Were the last thing I expected to hear
Eyes swelling
I tried to gather the words to explain why
People, even grandmas, have to die
Not sure if she understood
That God took Grandma home
Or she just silenced herself
To save me the grief
Of having to expose
My six year old
To this cold reality
Of loss, pain and grief
But suffering is for sure
Something Grandma
Will never have to endure again
As my spirit within
Assures me that
She's with our creator in Heaven
Not sure what to say
Or how to say it
So I say nothing at all
As I watch my Father's spirit fall
Into a cry
Of asking God why
A cry of not being able to bare
Breathing a room full of air
That his mother can't inhale
Not even one last time
The tears and hugs
The looks of disbelief
The hurt of grief
We look but don't know what to say
Or we tiptoe around words
Just to ensure
No one is pushed over the edge
Into a whaling cry
Of Why God Why
So,
Somber we all are
Gathered at the wake
On a day we all knew
We'd one day have to face
We only wish that
Today wasn't the day
We love you and miss you Grandma
Annie Maude Dubose Osborne
1920-2005
FREE
Free
I'm avoiding at all cost
Holding on for too long cause
I'm afraid I might see something
Deeper than I can handle
Cause with each day
I'm drawn closer to something
Much more powerful than just
My physical attraction to you
As we lean into a kiss
You make my mind
Lose track of where I am
Where I'm going and
Where I'm suppose to be
I'm yearning to throw myself
Into what I can only hope will be
Behind words of encouragement
To let go and just be ... FREE
Free is what you want me to be
Cause you aint out to hurt me
Time is what we have
If time is what I need
So I can be ... FREE
Free of my insecurities
My vulnerabilities
Of what other men have done to me
Emotionally
Physically
Mentally
Challending
Is what this love thing
Has become to me
I fight to overcome to just be ... FREE
Free to be me
Like only I know how to be
But the shit they put me through
Got me dazed
And numb to
Seeing the possibilities
Of what we could truely be
If I just let this shit go and be ... FREE
Free to feel again
Love again
Play again
Laugh again
Free to be me again
Without the thoughts that
You are just like the rest of them
Free to openly trust in your words
I know time will tell
And in time I'll see
So with all my uncertainties
To you my dear love
I want to draw the line
Leaving the past behind me
I'm tired of running from love
I want to be ... FREE
Free to give you all I have to give
Free to believe that fairytales exist
And dreams do come true
For you my love
All of me I want to give to you
So you can be ... FREE
Free to want me
Need me
Love me
Have me
And all of me
Anxiously
I hear you calling out to me
I know it's not fair to you
But it's not easy for me
To just be ... FREE
So I'm avoiding at all cost
Holding on for too long cause
I'm afraid I might see something
Deeper than I can handle
Something much more powerful
Than my physical attraction to you
BREATHE
Breathe
My heart swells
With salty tears
They're choking me
Sufficating me
Draining life from me
I'm not able
To breathe the air
You took from me
Death is rising up inside me
Life isn't worth living
Not even worth giving
Not one more second
Of grief
Of pain
I hear my name
But it's in vein
I can't do this again
Over again
And again
You breathe life into me
Then you take it from me
You take the air you exhale
The air I inhale
I inhale to survive
I breathe cause it's you I need
You are the air I breathe
WHAT IF
What If
You silly fools
You stand at a distance and judge me
But stand in my face and love on me
As if I don't know your thoughts
Or hear your whispers once I depart
Don't look at me and think I'm the fool
For following my desires and dreams
Hell, I'm just following my Lord's will for my life
Something I can't do at this 8 to 5
I refuse to be bound like a slave
Saying "Yes Mamn" and "No Mamn"
To a woman who don't give a damn
About me, my kids, my health
Hell, you are the fools at best
Trapped behind a desk
All for the sake of a paycheck
All awhile thinking to yourself
What if I had done this
What if I had done that
Even if I fail
At this new business of mine
At least I can look back
And say I tried
You won't ever catch me at 65
Looking over my life
Asking myself
What If...
BLACK SILK
Black Silk
Black silk dances in the warm wind
That sails across the bare sea
Waves rub against the shore
To taste white sand beneath my feet
Black silk lingers on my passion and love
Captured by this moment of enchantment
Beneath stars above
Black silk so gentle on my body
Of shimmering tides
So warm against my body
That lay on pearls
Beneath the sky
WHY?
Why?
I hear the foot steps
And I ask myself why
Why did God create the mind
Of this mentally challended child
A child...
A man he will be soon
Trapped in the darkness
Of a doorless room
Why does he walk the floor at night
Pacing from one end to another
And back again he walks
But only for a moment
Will he stop
Silence pierces the dark
Why God?
Why have you set him apart?
HAND ON MY BACK
Hand on my back
Laying here on my stomach
Pillow clinched tight beneath my chest
I feel the warmth of your hand on my back
Clinching the pillow tighter
As you slowly carress
Back and forth
Your hand on my skin
Stirring up desires within
The scent of you
There laying on my sheets
Eyes locked onto mine
As we silently speak
"Make love to me"
Inside
We know why
It's not good
For me to lay here
Next to you
Nightgown around my waist
Thights touching
As we interlace
Our bodies so close
We could become one
And make sweet passionate love
Until we both moan
In pleasure of the sin
We've been warned about
So I just lay here
on my stomach
Pillow clinched tight beneath my chest
Enjoying the warmth
Of your hand on my back

Television:

AMERICAN IDOL
HOUSE
CSI and CSI:MIAMI
TOP CHEF
THATS SO RAVEN (hey, I have kids!)

Books:

I read the BIBLE most nights before going to bed. When I'm not reading the BIBLE I'm reading a self-help spiritual gyuide like "Purpose Driven Life". GREAT BOOK! It has changed my life!




Heroes:



My Blog

Journal Post - UPDATED

Hello my family of friends. Just wanted to take time to give yall an update on what's been going on with me lately.  Feechi Designs has been keeping me crazy busy. A month ago I took on...
Posted by Kathryn »-(¯`v´¯)-» on Mon, 04 Jun 2007 04:25:00 PST

The way you say my name

It's something about you that keeps me noticing How you're intently watching me From the position you take at the bar Far enough to shield your personal space but yet, not too far To watch me dance t...
Posted by Kathryn »-(¯`v´¯)-» on Mon, 21 May 2007 01:00:00 PST

I promise I didn't kidnap them

Okay, If you've looked at my pictures you are probably wondering.... No, I didn't kidnap a white family! They are all mine! My mother who conceived and gave birth to me is... you guesse...
Posted by Kathryn »-(¯`v´¯)-» on Mon, 21 May 2007 02:12:00 PST

A Love Poem

I was so captivated by this poem, I had to share it with my friends and fam. ENJOY!   Aura No. 3You should knowthat they couldn't create a mirrorthat could begin toshow you half the thingsthat I...
Posted by Kathryn »-(¯`v´¯)-» on Fri, 18 May 2007 01:43:00 PST

Recognize me

If you were blind could you recognize me?   Could you recognize me from... The smell of my perfume The touch of my hands The feel of my skin The gentleness of my kiss The joy in my laugh Th...
Posted by Kathryn »-(¯`v´¯)-» on Thu, 17 May 2007 02:41:00 PST

More than Rubies

by Bishop Donald Hilliard, Jr. "Who can find a virtuous woman?  For her price is far above rubies..." Proverbs 31 (KJV) How many times have we read this verse or heard it on Mother's Day? ...
Posted by Kathryn »-(¯`v´¯)-» on Wed, 16 May 2007 12:33:00 PST

Withstanding the Storms of Life

by Bishop Keith Butler And why call ye me, Lord, Lord, and do not the things, which I say? Whosoever cometh to me, and heareth my sayings, and doeth them, I will shew you to whom he is like: Luke 6:4...
Posted by Kathryn »-(¯`v´¯)-» on Tue, 15 May 2007 03:03:00 PST

Free

"FREE" i'm avoiding at all costlooking into your eyes too long cause i'm afraid i might seesomething deeper than i can handlecause with each kissi'm drawn closer to something much more powerful ...
Posted by Kathryn »-(¯`v´¯)-» on Sat, 31 Mar 2007 06:10:00 PST

Can I Get Close To You

can i get close to you and experience the warmth of you wrapping your body around mine into a space that's undefined and boundless to intensify the ferventness that radiates from my chest as i draw in...
Posted by Kathryn »-(¯`v´¯)-» on Wed, 09 May 2007 08:21:00 PST

I Love You Inspite Of

i love you inspite of cause the sound of the key at the front door causes me to hit the floor feet racing to catch up to my heart that's already there open to receive you after our long day of work ha...
Posted by Kathryn »-(¯`v´¯)-» on Wed, 09 May 2007 08:15:00 PST