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Non omnis moriar - Noli foras ire, in interiori homine habitat veritas - Veritas odium parit

About Me

. I could not sufficiently describe myself using text. Try asking me, or getting to know me. Then you can use your own experiences and tools to make whatever judgements you'd like. I hope you can see the positive aspects of my personality, and being my friend. Please do not expect too much from me. I am a man of extra-ordinary qualities. Do not confuse this with extraordinary qualities. I'm human.
This is some of what people can expect of me:
I AM NOT A :
  • rockstar (and I have no aspirations to be one)
  • waif (although I was at one time)
  • club person (although I do sometimes go)
  • DJ (although I do spin)

  • I DO NOT :
  • smoke
  • drink coffee
  • want to hook up with you
  • drink alcohol heavily
  • go out often
  • use drugs
  • view myself as gifted or talented (I'm positive most would agree with me)
  • believe that I am attractive, but I am a slave to my own vanity
  • understand people who ask questions that they don't want to know the answer to
  • have "cool hair"
  • like people who inconvenience others for personal gain

  • I - can be very blunt - here to insult/offend anyone - probably wont meet you anywhere, ever - do drink tea - used to date TOO MUCH - enjoy watching odd movies - am trying to be vegetarian - enjoy religeous/philosophical folklore and mythology - love writing - enjoy beauty of all types - am COMPLICATED - am honest about emotions, and protective of my thoughts - am human with a full range of emotions, and I am not always happy - have a low tolerance for stupid people with big egos - can be very naive, and misguided - am constantly asking questions of people whos answers I know will crush me - fear real intimacy to the point that it paralyzes my confidence to inactivity (I can't make the first move) - know alcoholics, junkies, prostitutes, insane people and criminals - know people who are honorable, pious, truthful and selfless - know good people who lie and bad people that tell the truth - have personally commited crimes you could not imagine, and done acts of kindness no one ever seems to notice - set my expectations higher for myself and those around me than what can ever be achieved - punish myself when I cannot reach my goals - try everyday to be a good man, and suceed everyday at just being - have rigid ethical standards, and questionable morals - easily recall my failures, and have a hard time remembering remembering my success - see in color, and I judge others in black or white - am public about my life, and private about the lives of those I love - am loved by few and hated by many, but somehow the two balance eachother out - am more like you than you are willing to admit to yourself - have seen an endless series of dreams end while I waited to die twice, but I am still living (Zombie?)If something is listed as a hobby or interest it is just a hobby or interest. I make no claims to be anything but a working stiff with a 9-5 job. My job consists of looking at a computer screen constantly, and performing various tasks related to computers. It is not exciting, or interesting in any way. I write lines of text that translate into instructions that some guy in an office passes down to me.
    ABOUT MY TOP 1
    1. What's their name?
    ~Stephanie
    2. Can you trust them?
    ~Absolutely
    3. How did you meet them?
    ~We used to talk online/phone and we took the jump to real life
    4. How old were you when you first met?
    ~28-29
    5. Is this person one of your best friends?
    ~She is absolutely one my best friends
    6. Say something that only makes sense to you two.
    ~Spotlight/Charles/Sexual Chocolate
    7. Is this person older then you?
    ~Nope, a few years my junior
    8.When was the last time you saw this person?
    ~Maybe a month or so
    9. When was the last time you talked to them on the phone?
    ~Yesterday
    10. Are you related to this person?
    ~Nope
    11. Do they have pets?
    ~Yes, a loud mouthed cat which I haven't met... His name is Morpheus
    12. Are they hott or sexy?
    ~Absolutely
    13. Are you their b/f or g/f?
    ~Noooperz
    14. Do you have nicknames for each other?
    ~I think my nickname is "asshole" and hers is "boobie girl" but my memory has been cloudy lately
    15. Do you have pics of this person on your myspace?
    ~Absolutely
    16. How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
    ~Usually half the week... 3-4 days... sometimes all week... lately when both have time
    17. Do you think the person will repost this?
    ~If she is bored
    18. Could u live with this person?
    ~I am sure if I could get rid of some of my crap yes... but honestly she doesn't like living with others, and neither do I.
    19. Why is this person number 1 on your friends list?
    ~I love her dearly and I would be lost without her
    20. Have you seen this person cry?
    ~Yes, unfortunately and everytime I hope it is the last time she cries for that reason.
    21. Do you know this person's middle name?
    ~Yes
    The Hermit Prudence, Caution, Deliberation.
    The Hermit points to all things hidden, such as knowledge and inspiration,hidden enemies. The illumination is from within, and retirement from participation in current events.
    The Hermit is a card of introspection, analysis and, well, virginity. You do not desire to socialize; the card indicates, instead, a desire for peace and solitude.
    You prefer to take the time to think, organize, ruminate, take stock. There may be feelings of frustration and discontent but these feelings eventually lead to enlightenment, illumination, clarity.
    The Hermit represents a wise, inspirational person, friend, teacher, therapist. This a person who can shine a light on things that were previously mysterious and confusing.
    You scored as Nazi.
    Fascism
    83%
    Nazi
    83%
    Republican
    67%
    Communism
    58%
    Democrat
    50%
    Green
    33%
    Socialist
    17%
    Anarchism
    8%
    Greed: Medium
    Gluttony: Medium
    Wrath: High
    Sloth: Low
    Envy: Low
    Lust: High
    Pride: Medium
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    My Interests

    [Professional]
    Computer Programming,
    Database Administration,
    Graphic Design,

    [Hobbies]
    Art,
    Sculpting,
    Painting,
    Sketching,
    Writing,
    Audio Production,
    Music Composition,
    Photography,
    Music Collecting,
    Indi Film & Foreign Film Collecting

    [Favorite Artists (of varying types)]
    Andy Warhol,
    Alberto Giacometti,
    Dennis Oppenheim,
    Dan Flavin,
    Donald Judd,
    Diane Arbus,
    Dustin Shuler,
    David Hockney,
    Edward Keinholz,
    Francis Bacon,
    Hans Bellmer,
    Jasper Johns,
    J.P. Witkin,
    Joseph Beuys,
    Magdalena Abakanowicz,
    Man Ray,
    Richard Hamilton,
    Robert Mapplethorpe,
    Rudolf Schwarzkogler,
    Roy Lichtenstein,
    The Chapman Bros.,
    WeeGee

    I'd like to meet:



    If you are intelligent and enjoy talking I would love to talk to you.

    If you share similar interests to mine. I would like to explore them with you.

    If you are friendly and just want to make a new friend. I am always happy to get to know new people.

    If you are curious about me... feel free to ask anything you want.

    Music:

    Alec Empire,
    Alaska Highway,
    And One,
    Angels and Agony,
    Aslan Faction,
    Aiboforcen,
    Arzt+pfusch,
    Absurd Minds,
    b-movie,
    Black Lung,
    Converter,
    Coil,
    Der Blutharsch,
    Din Fiv,
    Dead Voices on Air,
    Die Form,
    Funker Vogt,
    Frontline Assembly,
    God Module,
    Grendel,
    Haujobb,
    Hocico,
    Joy Division,
    Klinik,
    Laetherstrip,
    Ladytron,
    Miss Kittin,
    Merzbow,
    Ministry,
    Mentallo & The Fixer,
    Neurosis,
    Nurse with Wound,
    Neuroticfish,
    Pneumatic Detatch,
    Pzycho Bitch,
    S.P.O.C.K,
    Siechtum,
    Seelenkrank,
    Skinny Puppy,
    Swamp Terrorists,
    Sisters of Mercy,
    Tankt,
    Terrorfakt,
    Tarmvred,
    This Morn Omina,
    Trance to the Sun,
    Tumor,
    Visage,
    Velvet Acid Christ,
    VNV,
    Wumpscut,
    X marks the Pedwalk,
    X-mal Deutschland,

    NOTE: I am still adding music to this list as I sort through my collection.

    Movies:

    12 Monkies
    13 Ghosts
    2046
    28 Days Later
    8mm
    A Clockwork Orange
    A Dirty Shame
    A Midsummers Rave
    Airheads
    Alice In Wonderland
    AMADEUS
    Amelie
    American Beauty
    American Movie
    Attack of the Killer Tomatoes
    Audition
    Auntie Mame
    Bad Santa
    Barton Fink
    Battle Royale
    Beetlejuice
    Being John Malkovich
    Benny and Joon
    Better Off Dead
    Big Fish
    Bio-Zombie
    Black Christmas
    Bladerunner
    Blair Witch Project
    Blue Crush
    Blue Velvet
    Boondock Saints
    Boxing Helena
    Bram Stoker's Dracula
    Brazil
    Breakfast at Tiffany's
    Bride of Re-Animator
    Bubba Ho-Tep
    Bully
    But I'm a Cheerleader
    Butterfly Effect
    Caberet
    Cable Guy
    Carrie
    Cecil B. Demented
    Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
    Chicago
    Circus
    City of Lost Children
    Clockwork Orange
    Confessions Of a Teenage Drama Queen
    Copycat
    Dahmer
    Dancer in the Dark
    Dark Crystal
    Dawn of the Dead (New & Old)
    Dawn of the Dead (original)
    Day of the Dead
    Dazed and Confused
    Dead Alive
    Desperate Living
    Detroit Rock City
    Devils Rejects
    Donnie Darko
    Down and Out with the Dolls
    Dragonfly
    Drop Dead Gorgeous
    Ed Wood
    Edward Scissorhands
    Elvira
    Eraserhead
    Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
    Ever After
    Exorcism Of Emily Rose
    Exorcist
    Falling Down
    Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
    Female Trouble
    Ferris Buellers Day-Off
    Fifth Element, Fight Club
    Forbidden Zone
    Four Rooms
    Frailty
    Frankenweenie
    Freaked
    Freaks
    Friday
    From Hell
    Full Metal Jacket
    Garbage Pail Kids
    Ghost Dog
    Ghost World
    Gifted
    Go
    Goodfellas
    Gozu
    Grosse Pointe Blank
    Hackers
    Hair
    Hallraiser
    Hangmans Curse
    Happiness
    Happiness of the Katakuris
    Heathers
    High Fidelity
    High Plains Drifter
    High Tension
    Hot Chick
    House of 1000 Corpses
    House On Haunted Hill (New)
    How To Deal
    Ichi the Killer
    Idle Hands
    In a Lonely
    Insomnia
    Interview with a Vampire
    Jackass The Movie
    Jawbreaker
    Joe Vs the Volcano
    Kids
    Killer Klowns From Outerspace
    Killer Nerd
    Labyrinth
    Legend
    Madagascar
    Mallrats
    Manhunter
    Mars Attacks
    May
    Mean Girls
    Meet the Feebles
    Metropolis
    Miss Congeniality
    Monster
    Moulin Rouge
    Mule Skinner Blues
    Mulholland Drive
    My Own Private Idaho
    Mystery Train
    Napoleon dynamite
    Natural Born Killers
    Night of the Living Dead
    Nightmare Before Christmas
    Office Space
    Oldboy
    Once Bitten
    Orgasmo
    Oxygen
    Party Monster
    Pee Wee's Big Adventure
    Pi
    Pink Flamingos
    Place
    Poltergeist
    Powder
    Pretty In Pink
    Princess Bride
    Psycho
    Pulp Fiction
    Pumpkin
    Punch-Drunk Love
    Quills
    Rabid
    Re-Animator Unleashed
    Re-Animator
    Rear Window
    Red Dragon
    Red Eye
    Reflections of Evil
    Requiem for a Dream
    Resevoir Dogs
    Resident Evil
    Return of Re-animator
    Return Of the Killer Tomatoes
    Return to Oz
    Rushmore
    Salon Kitty
    Santa Sangre
    Saw
    Saw II
    Say Anything
    Se7en
    Secret Window
    Secretary
    Seed of Chucky
    Serial Mom
    Shaun of the Dead
    Showgirls
    Sick - The Life and Death of Bob Flanegan supermasochist
    Sick Girl (Masters of Horror)
    Sid and Nancy
    Silence of the Lambs
    Sin City
    SLC Punk
    Sleepaway Camp 1 & 3
    Sleepign Beauty
    Sleepy Hollow
    Snatch
    Some Like it Hot
    St. John's Wart
    Stay tuned
    Suicide Club
    Suicide Kings
    Summer Of Sam
    Ted Budy
    Tetsuo
    Texas Chainsaw Massacre (New)
    Texas Chainsaw Massacre (The Original)
    The American Nightmare
    The Apartment
    The Audition
    The Beyond
    The Butterfly Effect
    The Cell
    The Crying Game
    The Dark Crystal
    The Devil's Backbone
    The Devils Rejects
    THE EXORCIST
    THE FISHER KING
    The Galaxy of Terror
    The General
    The Girl Next Door
    The Girls on the Red Velvet Swing
    The Grudge (japan release)
    The Grudge (u.s.a. release)
    The Grudge 2 (japan release)

    Heroes:

    Pheneas Guage, Corporal Klink, James Tiberius MF'n Kirk (all hail the inter-galactic hoe), ALF, JarJar (cuz he's fucking annoying), Boba Fett (Cuz he will kick your ass), Jango Fett (Cuz all 2,398,505,693,489,248 of him will kick your ass)

    My Blog

    So Sad

    I am only now just feeling the pain I should have felt when I left you... all of you. Beautiful flesh rotts... good people are remembered... it is a pity my mind will fail me in the end... and your na...
    Posted by Ü°º×5k15m׺°Ü on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 01:49:00 PST

    Nothing worse

    It seems nothing is worse than looking back on all your loves lost/thrown away... and knowing that it seems everyone is the same... and you threw some of the best chances you had at happiness away... ...
    Posted by Ü°º×5k15m׺°Ü on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 01:35:00 PST

    Sometimes you miss people... you just shouldnt miss.

    Digging through old pictures... and seeing so many familiar faces... I wish sometimes things had happend differently... I miss so many of you and wish I could handle the less savory aspects of your pe...
    Posted by Ü°º×5k15m׺°Ü on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 01:20:00 PST

    If I cannot find Love I will settle for Compatibility that might give me a path to Love

    I believe that making a friend who understands me is critical to finding "real" love... finding someone who wants my attention... someone who can accept my willingness to give them all elements o...
    Posted by Ü°º×5k15m׺°Ü on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 01:31:00 PST

    Something to Note - Why Nerd Girls are Better

    They are usually nicer. They are usually more likely to be themselves. They are funny. They don't usually look down on someone for being into the "Nerdy" things. They are notoriously low maintain...
    Posted by Ü°º×5k15m׺°Ü on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 07:35:00 PST

    Let them eat bad food!

    Let's start the New Year off with food poison! I am so sick right now it is not even funny. Someone come shoot me.
    Posted by Ü°º×5k15m׺°Ü on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 07:18:00 PST

    You Didn't want Me

    This is why I'm alone tonight This is why I've got no appetite For fighting and biting. For lying and sniping For talking of one thing, And doing another Blaming each other I never thought I'd sacrifi...
    Posted by Ü°º×5k15m׺°Ü on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 03:17:00 PST

    Trust You

    They wait for you with open armsThey testify your charms And lovers understand The future that you've planned But all the people you took advantage of (They were less than nothing to you) And all the ...
    Posted by Ü°º×5k15m׺°Ü on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 03:16:00 PST

    Someone to Belive In

    I thought I'd beaten you away onceI thought I was out of this trap onceI said I'd never be like thisI said I'd never stop wishing I was somewhere elseSomeone to beNot myself To much of you in meSomewh...
    Posted by Ü°º×5k15m׺°Ü on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 03:16:00 PST

    Razor Wire

    She's sorryShe never meant to hurt youSo sorryShe never meant to lead you onIt's an ordinary dayIn an ordinary street in your townIt just isn't enough to keep herShe wants toTake you to the city light...
    Posted by Ü°º×5k15m׺°Ü on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 03:13:00 PST