~holding on to a grudge~

I'd like to meet:

I am just looking for people to get to know and establish a respectable relationship with. Someone who is together with their life, who knows how to have a good time and party -- but someone who has the common sense to know when enough is enough, and finally, people who can keep up with my ADHD.I always bare in mind that we all have different personality traits and we can either accept one another for who and how we are, or not... it's that simple. I do not judge others for who and how they are, however, if who and how they are does not compliment who and how I am and there is conflict then those are the types of relationships I tend to stay away from.

I have always found the best friends to be those who will accept me for who/how I am as well as for who/how I am NOT.

Music:

Music is my life. Actually, to me, music IS the very definition of life. Its very substance is the air I breathe, the water I drink, the food I eat. Without music my life would be nothing and I don't think I could function or be so incredibly touched in the way that music can touch me. Nothing can compare to what music does to and for me and the way it makes me feel. It breathes life in to me, it pulls tears from me, it helps me to recall moments with such detail that could have been forgotten had there not been music involved in the scenario, it makes my confusion make sense, it calms my anxiety, it turns me on, it makes me sad, it makes me happy, it makes me FEEL but, most importantly, it's the only thing in my life that is constant. I know it will never let me down, it will never hurt me, it will always be there and it will never go away from me, no matter what. For all that it has to offer, for all that it has given me and shall continue to give to me, I am deeply grateful. There is nothing else in the world like music, nothing can, nor ever will, replace its importance in my life.I have changed and added so many artists to this page that it's just becoming monotonous. It's just easier to break it down and state, that, basically what I like can be summed up as follows.

I adore E.L.E.C.T.R.O.N.I.C., music as well as simple basic R.O.C.K., emo, screamo/scremo, Everything from break-beats (the darker the better), house (of all kinds/genres), electro-house, hard trance, industrial, electroclash, techno, synth-pop, tech-step, drum n bass (somewhat picky here), speed garage, trip-hop, hip-hop and rap (but on these two, I am somewhat picky here as well. With either hip-hop or rap, it has to have flow, energy, creativity and has to speak to me. It has to have meaning, otherwise, I just find no interest.), goth, darkwave, new wave, music from the 80's (both the cheesy kind and the non cheesy kind) --- I love electronic music (edm, ebm, idm), obviously,--- alternative, indie, old school hardcore, punk rock, ska, classical, jazz, blues and anything that is done well and has a capturing creative flow and finds its way to my heart and soul.

Movies:

Fight Club, Donnie Darko, Lord of the Rings (all 3), Marie Antionette, 24 Hour Party People, The Departed, Domino, The X-Files (Movie), Excalibur, Underworld, Underworld- Evolution, Human Traffic, Ronin, Most any James Bond Film, Band of Brothers, A Midnight Clear, Thin Red Line, The Longest Day, From Here to Eternity, The Bridge on the River Kwai, Battleground 1949, Saving Private Ryan, Das Boot (The Original in German - UnCut), Stalag 17, Tora Tora Tora,(Big War Movie -mostly World War II- freak)- Apocalypse Now, Hamburger Hill, Casualties of War, Full Metal Jacket, The Bottom Line, The Deer Hunter, Jacob's Latter, Platoon, The Killing Fields, Red Dawn, Taps, Black Hawk Down, Gladiator, Troy, Spartacus, Kingdom of Heaven, Alexander (2004), Giant, Cleopatra, A Room With A View, Windtalkers, End of the Affair, Photographing Fairies, Mad Max, Walk the Line, Bram Stoker's - Dracula, Edward Scissorhands, Seven, Gypsy Rose Lee, Interview with the Vampire, Good Fellas, City of Lost Children, Gothic, The Dark Crystal, The Princess Bride, The Dark Crystal, Labyrinth, The Neverending Story, Amadeus, Sid and Nancy, The Blair Witch Project, Predator, Miami Vice, Trainspotting, Amelie, Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels, Snatch, Dogs in Space, Titanic, The Nightmare Before Christmas, Veronica Guerin, Shawshank Redemption, Remains of the Day, Chasing Amy, Clerks, Mall Rats, Salton Sea, Pulp Fiction, Less Than Zero, Splendor in the Grass, The Virgin Suicides, Heathers, American History X, The Usual Suspects, Reservoir Dogs, Pirates of the Carribean I and II, Way of the Gun, Hedwig and the Angry Inch, Pump Up the Volume, Dogma, Drug Store Cowboy, Office Space, The Last Emperor, An American Story, The Royal Tennenbaums, Lost in Translation, Requiem for a Dream, Kill Bill Vol1 and Vol2, Spun, The Ghost and Mrs. Muir, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Girl Interrupted, Pulp Fiction, The Matrix (all 3), Me-Myself-I, Velvet Gold Mine, Most of "those 80's teen angst movies", Blow, Gone in 60 Seconds, The Island (the books was better), The Brother's Grimm (the stories were better), Igby Goes Down, Empire Records, Shakespeare in Love, Gattaca, Finding Neverland, Garden State, Hackers, Gia, Batman, Jaws, Scream, Nightmare on Elm Street, The Grudge, Ju-on, Peace Love and Beats, Scratch, Howard's End, Sense and Sensibility, A Home at the End of the World, Dr. Doolittle (the original), Gormenghast - BBC Mini Series, The Piano, Oscar Wilde, Shaun of the Dead, The Lost Boys, Point Match, Sin City, (this list could go on forever as well)

Television:

Sci-Fi Channel (GHOST HUNTERS,TAPS, ROCKS), CNN, MSNBC, The Discovery Channel, PBS, The Learning Channel, The History Channel, The Travel Channel, Otherwise TV really doesn't offer much to challenge the imagination.

Books:

I read A LOT, this list could be neverending... but a few I can name: Anne Rice, Poppy Z. Brite, Neil Gaiman, Chuck Palahniuk, H.P. Lovecraft, Dean Koontz, China Mieville, Mervyn Peak, Stephen King, JRR Tolkien, Albert Camus, Charles Dickens, Franz Kafka, Orson Scott Card, Edgar Allen Poe, F. Scott Fitzgerald, George RR Martin, Terry Pratchett, Sylvia Plath, Mary Shelley, Lord Byron, Kurt Vonnegut, JD Salinger, Lewis Carrol,William Shakespeare, Oscar Wilde, Marion Zimmer Bradley, Mary Stewart, Lord Byron, Percy Shelley, Robert Jordan, Mary Shelley, Hunter S. Thompson, R.A. Salvatore (again, this could go on forever)

Heroes:

Tyler Durden, Donnie Darko, Holden Caulfield, My Grandmother