HERM-ANUBIS...shower me in your eternal love...reflect.
I AM JUST A SOUL WOVEN INTO THE ETERNAL DANCE OF AN INFINITELY INTRICATE BALANCE OF CHAOS AND ORDER, TAKING EONS OF TIME TO CREATE THAT WHICH I AM CONSTANTLY BECOMING AND AFTER ALL THIS, I AM SO BLESSED THAT THERE ARE OTHERS ALONG SIDE ME WITH WHOM I RELATE, WHO HAVE COME SO EQUALLY FAR THROUGH THIS INSANE ADVENTURE: MY GRATITUDE FOR THESE PEOPLE IS SO ENORMOUS- TO KNOW THAT I AM NOT ALONE WITHIN THE IMMENSITY OF THE WHOLE.
HOOPNITISM, PYROTISM, VIBRATIONAL EVOLVEMENT. I JUST SO HAPPEN TO BE A VISIONARY AND PERFORMANCE ARTIST, STRIVING TO MAKE MY LIVING IN JUST SUCH THIS WAY: MEDITATION THROUGH ART, MEDITATION THROUGH DANCE, MEDITATION THROUGH LOVE, CATALYIZATION, CONNECTION, DUENDE. I LIVE MOST VICARIOUSLY WITHIN MY BODY, MY MIND, AND THROUGH CHARACTERS OF THE GREATEST EXISTING PARCHEMENTS, ABOUT IDEAS AND WORLDS THAT SOMETIMES GIVE ME CATHARTIC EXPLOSIONS; OTHERWISE YOU CAN FIND ME JAMMIN' OUT ON THE DANCEFLOOR, LIKE AN UNCAGED TINKERBELL IN A JUNGLE OF DENIZENS. I ENJOY INTIMITE MOMENTS WITH NATURE, MYSELF, AND OTHER SIMILIARLY-SPIRITED INDIVIDUALS; AS THE ONLY MOMENTS WHEN I TRUELY FEEL ALIVE, ARE THOSE MOMENTS WHEN I FEEL CONNECTED WITH THE WHOLE. MUSIC, DANCING, INTELLECTUAL STIMULATION, AND TANDEM EXPRESSIONS ASSIST ME IN THIS BRILLIANT ABILITY. I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY, AS THEY ARE SO FASCINATING, SO BEAUTIFUL, SO TALENTED, AND SO FULL OF STRANGE AND WONDERFUL ANECDOTES.
(mostly) SERIOUSLY AND FOR (lowercase) rEALS, I AM AN IDEALIST/MONIST, AIKIDO-INFUSED, HERBAL JUNKIE, WHO EMBRACES ANALYTIC PHILOSOPHY, ONLY TO TRANSCEND IT (FUCK LOGIC). UNDERSTANDABLY, I AM A CRAZY SYNTHESIS OF OPPOSITION, WHOSE CAPRICIOUS MANNORISMS IMBIBE INTO MY PERPETUAL WANTINGNESS TO FOLLOW THE CATEGORICAL IMPERATIVE AND TAKE EXTREME RESPONSIBILITIES REGARDING GENERAL CONSENSUS REALITY, WHILE AT THE SAME TIME REMAINING A CAREFREE, NON-JUDGEMENTAL, SPIRITUAL ENTITY, WHICH GENERALLY ENDS IN A MASSIVE WHIRLAGE OF SELF-INTOXICATED STRESS SYNDROME, STEMMING FROM A REGRESSIVE IDENTITY CRISIS, DUE TO MY INABILITY TO COPE WITH THE INFINITE TELLURIAN.
I THINK NON-LINEARLY AND THROUGH ABSTRACT EMOTIONS, THOUGH SOMETIMES IN STRANGE VOICES, WHICH GENERALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT. I SPEND A FAIR AMOUNT OF MY TIME TRYING TO UNDUE THE DAMAGE IMPRINTED ON ME FROM A SELF-DEFEATING CIVILIZATION THAT SICKENS ME, WHILE AT THE SAME TIME FINDING MYSELF ENAMORED IN ITS WEB. I AM OVERWHELMED WITH AND THROUGH THE WORLD'S EMOTIONS AND MY CAPACITY TO FEEL IS SO STRONG, THAT I OFTENTIMES LACK THE COURAGE FOR ALL OF WHAT IS AND WHAT MAY BECOME OR WHO I POSSIBLY AM. I BEAR HUMANITY'S SORROWS AND JOYS UPON MY BACK AND UNDER MY FEET WITH AN APPROPRIATE GRACE... DEEP UNDER ALL THE SEPERATATION AND ANIMOSITY, THERE IS SO MUCH ...LOVE, THERE IS SO MUCH LOVE.
IN THE REALM OF OCCULT SPIRITUALITY, I HAVEN'T A MENTOR, SAVE FOR DEAD MEN, AND UP UNTILL RECENT, I SPENT A FAIR AMOUNT OF MY TIME FEELING LIKE I WAS ROAMING AIMLESSLY THROUGH A MAZE OF CORRIDERS, BLINDFOLDED AND WITLESS, QUESTIONING MY DIRECTION, QUESTIONING MY QUESTIONS. I CANNOT HELP BUT FEEL THE MYSTERIOUS PULL: MY PRIMORDIAL SELF- I STILL HAVE SO MUCH TO LEARN, FOR HAVING SO MUCH TO OFFER.
I'M A TRUE ANIMIST, WHO BELIEVES IN WILLED, LAYERED, SENTIENT SYSTEMS. I'M AN OBSERVER OF PATTERNS, A KEEPER OF SECRETS, AND A MOUTHFUL OF ANECDOTES, MOST OF WHICH ARE COMPLETELY POINTLESS. I LAUGH A LOT AND CRY A LOT AND EAT A LOT, ESPECIALLY SEAFOOD AND FRUITY THINGS. CONSTANTLY I TRY TO NEVER TAKE ANYTHING TOO PERSONALLY WHEN ENGAGING WITH OTHERS, FOR WHAT ILLS AND WHAT AILS IS A MERE PROJECTION OF ONE'S OWN SELFHOOD, BUT UNFORTUNATELY, I HAVE A QUICK TONGUE AND VERY LITTLE PATIENCE.
I CARE SO, SO MUCH ABOUT THE AFFECTATIONS OF OTHERS, SINCE I FEEL MYSELF BOUND EVER SO TIGHTLY TO THE ETERNAL: LET'S FACE IT, WE ARE ALL IN THIS INSANE CYCLE OF INFINITUDE TOGETHER: EVERY SINGLE THING THAT HAS EVER, IS EVER, AND WILL EVER OCCUR IS ABSOLUTLEY NECESSARY (Yes! Yes! Yes!)... AND YES!... SO LET'S WORK ON HAVING THAT MOMENTARY EPIPHANY THAT WILL SEND US SHOOTING OUT OF OURSELVES LIKE ROCKETS INTO OUR OWN NEURAL NETWORK. AND SHIT!FUCK!, ITS ALL HAPPENING RIGHT NOW, SO HAVE A LITTLE COMPASSION BECAUSE WHAT YOU EXPERIENCE IS A PART OF YOU AND IT'S ALL NECESSARY, OTHERWISE IT WOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED! THE WORLD IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND SO ALIVE (because it is all so necessary!), AND I AM FOREVER GREATFUL TO BE ALIVE, RIGHT AT THE CUSP OF SUCH AN EXTRAORDINARY TIME.
THE CYCLE CONTINUES, AND THERE'S A STORY ATTACHED, WHERE EACH OF US PLAYS THE LEADING ROLE: A STORY OF A SPECIES OF BEINGS, WHO WERE THOUGHT INTO EXISTENCE: A DIVNE MICROCOSM FROM THE MACROCOSM. A STORY, WHICH CONTINUES THROUGH THE AGES OF A DIVINE SPECIES THAT SUFFERS FROM AMNESIA, WROUGHT BY A TIME THAT MOVES ALL-TOO-FAST, BROUGHT UP AND BOUGHT OUT... A FORGETFULLNESS THAT DIVORCES US FROM OUR ORIGINAL UNION WITH THE STARS. A PACT LONG AGO CREATED AND SINCE FORGETTEN. A CYCLICAL STORY THAT WILL BRING US BACK IN AN AGE OF GODS AND GODDESSES, WITH INTENTION, DESTRUCTION, AND RECREATION, BACK TO ANOTHER BEGINNING, IN A VERSE, OUR UNI-VERSE, IN A CHAPTER, IN A BOOK, BOUND INSIDE A LIBRARY WITH ROWS UPON ROWS OF SHELVES THAT STRETCH FURTHER THAN ANY CAN SEE AND HIGHER THAN ANY CAN REACH: SO LET US EXPAND OUR MINDS, SO WE CAN EXPAND OUR BEINGS AND FUSE OUR VIBES TOGETHER AND JOIN THE GALACTIC OVERMIND, TO CONTINUE AND EVOLVE HIGHER, SO WE CAN BECOME MORE THAN JUST ONE LITTLE FRAGMENT IN ONE LITTLE (uni)VERSE IN ONE LITTLE CHAPTER. LET US EMANATE THE ENTIRITY OF THE TAPESTRY, NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN, THROUGH-IN AND WITHOUT, WOVEN INTO ETERNITY, FOREVER...
RA-AMEN, AND LOVE BLESSES.
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