shash

I am of Apache, Navajo and Spanish descent.
Existing for the moment until the next moment passes. An artist for most of my life. Living with the bear and thunder-being medicine. An explorer and observor throughout many dimensions in life of our creations. In past moments, I have done ceremonies, sweat lodges, and various other divinations depending on intent. Or, I am just me.
I do not answer to any one belief, but do recognize them all. I do have a contrary nature with this present human life being, so learning or accepting to face ones self, handling inner fears, and unknowns, is important. If you initially intend to aproach me for various reasons of seeking. I am true to nature so I am not the one to prove anything too. Or, I am just me.
A THOUGHT!
12-31-06 Just think of the massive energies
moving at the moment.
And we are all apart of this historical
moment of energies shifting toward the better of things.
Collective thought in a global scale for peace.
Our thoughts may not go as directed,
but where it is needed.
Ultimately to what is better for all.
Some things need to pass for things to move on.
An ex-President(Ford) passing in peace and
another ex-President(Hussein) passing in chaos.
This has a profound effect in the worlds
spiritual energies.
Finally a large element of darkness
has been taken out of this realm,
yet there is more to come,
but it is in a good direction.
Chaos will still attempt to cloud
things as it is the way.
But, the levels of good things has
moved forward in this moment of
a new light for mankind.
PEACE!
shash
A Step in Awareness
It is a gradual thing. We could not handle it should too many things hit us all at once. The thought process has to go thru changes to recognize new senses, unseen possibilities, and a different sense of thought. Many people out there speak the words, but only understand the surface of it's meaning. Wanting to include the known perimeters of this reality tends to keep us at the lake side.
A small step at a time can pass thru many dimensions and if thought has not adjusted to the new surroundings of possibilities, then it is only a brief passing. Expanding awareness is expanding to new senses in thought.
This can be a strange and scary feeling if you do not truly have faith in self. One tends to feel the crossing of sanity because of the new sensations. I did when it first happened. These are nothing to fear, but allow the faith in self to grow with unknowns. Observe and make conscious choices to explore.
I had to briefly pass the veil to get to these levels and that is the other way many would prefer not to take, but it is the core that keeps many in this realm. The fear of death. I no longer have that fear of natural passage and it has opened so much in that area alone. To me, it is an element that keeps us from seeing further. We can see past it and still live out this lifes wonders.
Living this reality has to run it's course. Learning of our higher self can be like looking thru a window until we separate from our physical bodies. And continue to move on in our varied lives through our awareness.
The events I have been a apart of have been life long. The things I speak of are of my perceptions and many ways similar to the varied views of others. The things I speak of can be as guidance of possibilities. Not venues to be followed as doctrines. This is what I move with and allow space for others to expand their own journey of awareness.
The good/evil scenerios are concepts of humanity. Yet, very real in the minds of humanity as they create it. This is an area that has less weight when awareness begins to unfold. There are many unknowns and the conditioning of the good/evil concepts keep many from seeing past the many spiritual wonders that we are about.
Want to see more spiritually? Do not fear seeing past what you know. Observe it. Your strength is believing in self. Observe the things not familiar and move as perceived in a good way. Observe your life and the little things or series of events that affected the way you react. How did it correlate to society around you in the moment.
Its interesting to observe many people in various societies experiencing the same or similar events. It also gives a peek at how energy moves in life. Resulting in our behavior. Learning to see these things spiritually gives understanding on things to come. It can also aid in more choices not previously realized in handling situations.
What is your path? You have been living it! These things are gradual when the sight is awakening. The searching should be within as that is where awareness in spirit is growing. Thats if you want to observe things as they flow in movement and unfold in events. The initial confusion is the growing choices in direction of life.
This is a beginning as the directions of existence can all exist in a moment and living them all within a moment is an awareness of all possibilities. Don't expect anything. Let things move in their natural way. Observe, comprehend, and move on. No reason to stay in one spot. Things do reoccur till you get the understanding of things to be.
There is no need to feel left behind. You are a part of all things created and your understanding of awareness in life evolves within the lives you exist. Eventually moving beyond life as comprehended. The choices in life and observing life of choices is ones path of wanting to understand more of self and evolve.
shash
A Thought on Body Healing!
To help, if you are not good with visualization of your own body healing. Get a medical illustration of the human torso. One with the internal organs illustrated. Visualize the areas you are concerned with. Practice viewing the parts of interest and eventually see yourself with the parts inside you.
Practice getting closer and closer to your area of interest. Gradually get to cell level and eventually further, but mainly the part of interest is what your concerned with for now. For basic visualizing, see the part as a whole. Practice visualizing them as the healthy parts in the medical illustration. Expect nothing and live a good life. shash
Existing is beyond the birth of stars and countless realms of non-times.
Where the expansion of thought is boundless.
But for now, we are human.
Life beyond life.
shash
Passing Memories. 12-21-07
Another linear year is passing into memories.
There were challenges and there were triumphs.
Whatever choices we made they were done and now we move on.
Some want it better for living in this world
and some do not.
However we chose, linear time did not stop.
We lived to continue the cycle of life.
Hopefully our added experiences will make us wiser for what is to come.
Its a human experience we ponder about.
It's a life we want to shout.
We ask what is life, but do not see.
We are experiencing it until there is more to be.
Some want shortcuts, some want it quick,
but without the experience of existing it's fruitless to see.
Be at peace with your inner self and allow it to be with soulful things in a natural pace.
They will guide you and bring solice to thee.
As we journey toward our next cycle in life.
Be grateful you were given life and able to be.
Peace!
shash
J Palace, copyright 2007
A Thought on Stillness.
Stillness... gather your good memories to get into your calm state.
Withdraw in further to your inner safe place and be silent in thought, but observe your surroundings, like looking thru a window.
Being emotionally detached.
Observe the turbulance and watch its movement as the waves pass.
Look back and attempt to observe where it is originating.
Sometimes it can be pin pointed and sometimes there are many elements involved.
Do not attempt to correct them as there are many variables involved.
Learn to move through them but be stilled to allow things to pass.
Observe and learn the movements they make to affect the life of humanity and other life forms.
The state of calmness counters and lessens the waves as they pass with less resistance.
That is where getting involved is passive but can be longer lasting.
Learn by observing and living life.
At times to calm my surroundings I envision I am surrounded by rolling grass covered land that is calmly moving with the breeze.
From there I go many directions.
One of many ways.
shash
J Palace, copyright 2008

Gojiiya '07
As I sit here gazing at the snow and ice of nature a past memory emerges of a recent journey to the Jicarilla Apache Reservation. I went to their annual Gojiiya weekend held in a valley of their land next to the tree lined Stone lake.
This was the once a year event when most of the tribe would move to the valley of their land. Moving there for the weekend. I mainly visited the families that invited me, and enjoyed their company.
The land even gave me good visions of its nature.
I found the campsite of the hosting family and waited for the family to arrive. For now, I was on my own. I had layed down to rest. As I rested my eyes went blurry and I was attempting to re-focus them. When they focused there were women cooking and tribal families setting up many tables of feast. I turned around to see the spot I was resting on. There was nothing there, but I still felt I was there.
Then I moved around the tables and put two coins in each container of water and thanked the family member. The thought was saying two quarters-50 cents. I began returning to the place my body was resting and then, I was stopped by a male figure. He handed two coins back to me and said he did not want them. I seemed to be confused of the behavior and then one of the women preparing the feast approached us.
She asked if I had given this man what I had in my hand. I answered yes and she asked me to follow her. We approached one of the feast tables and she picked up a moccasin and handed it to me. It looked like it had a stove pipe on it as I had accepted it and thanked her.
She said, I was welcomed there and for me to feast on the various foods and givings on their tables. I moved from table to table cherishing the givings, then my eyes refocused and I was laying there on the ground watching the red ants around me. They were also visiting, but did not bite.
Its was really refreshing to see the children sitting there with their great, great grandmother and relations. Visiting the star lit evenings with family campfires throughout the valley. To the wee mornings rays were singing and random yelping between camps echoing in the valley surrounded by the forest.
This land and its people seemed to be a resting place for me. I am glad I was allowed to visit their land. I do not ask for much; just camping out for the weekend with the tribal families in their valley was comforting. Memories from somewhere...
The many human elements where there, but being in the land of the ancestors brought solice. Being raised in the cities has reminded me to appreciate these moments. It was a very fullfiling experience. I got to meet one myspace friend. Another refreshing experience and then moved on.
The trip was continued with traveling afterward to Albuquerque to my first grand-daughter's, first birthday. A few festive days with the family and then back to Missouri. It stormed around us all the way back and it was very comforting to me.
This was a good moment.
shash (2-2-08)
J Palace, copyright 2008
...souls learning of life.
I get ecstatic when observing a soul learning of what more they are and can be. For now the threads of human nature influence the extent of how far we want experience and too what extent.
Boundries of ego and known sanity wavers as thought also goes thru changes. One can sense many bounce back to familiar ground when the senses of the unknowns expound. It's ok to learn about life.
Things will be when humanity eventually allows beyond its material boundries and emotions.
Believe in self.
shash (3-17-08)
J Palace, copyright 2008

Answering a Question.
Be open and observe all avenues of healing. During my leukemia experience I did the western medicine to get a feel of where they are at and to experience the outcomes of their way.
The processed chemicals in their treatments did make me feel seperated from my higher self as it clouded the mind. But then I'd back off to what I feel in nature. With confidence in who I am. Visioning the self and synching it with the western medicine ways. Like having a second opinion and to get a better handle of where the physical body was. I am open to the ways of others and their methods of healing but choose what works for me.
I also express this for others.
Do what works for you.
My journies of healing for others is usually not planned but, sometimes when asked with the humble intent of healing. With consideration to natures design.
Letting the natural things around us move in their natural course of life is where I like to be and the fast pace of society hinders what we are to see and be.
Yet they all culminate our experiences.
To truely heal listen to self and learn to understand the messages.
Listen to self.
shash
5-9-08
J Palace, copyright 2008

A Natural Thing.
Its a good time of the year for me as the ever changing weather conditions bring many things.
My seclusion from city life has aided with many introspectives and the natural things around us give our truer answers than any man-made whim.
Having nothing to do gives me plenty of things to do.
Experiencing life in many forms is amazing.
In recent weeks I've been enjoying a few very intense highly electrically charged thunderstorms. Tornadic behavior whisking by for another in its path. Nothing more exhilerating and humbling than a large thunderous energy body overhead pounding the ground around me with large electrical bolts and a large bolt air burst overhead.
Another nexus with nature among the many throughout this linear life span. My rottweillers even stood with me in a clearing un-afraid. Natural forces will orchestrate the final reactions as global pollution continues.
Relating to nature unfolds many mysteries.
We only need to relate.
Peace!
shash
6-23-08
J Palace, copyright 2008

A bewildering moment.....
History has its marks of good intentions being stricken by mankinds own hand. The religion that nails the poor guy to the cross every year does not seem to allow much growth of spirit. The messages that walk among us have to protect themself from this same negative aspect of man. It is bewlidering. We have many perceptions. Many not understood.
I have had in the past few years extremists verbally attack me with their cristian beliefs. They really get hyped up when an audience gathers. Surrounded by a crowd with a person shaking their hand in my face while verbally damning me and reciting bible scriptures at the same time. It is a very strange place to be. Only thing I could do is withdraw into my inner self and search for the moment of time I am really in.
It brought up the memories of how this imposition was forced on our ancestors. They were not allowed choices. What has caused this fracture in time! This was some old age stuff from another time period yet it is still allowed in this day thru the faceless. Eventually we will know what it means to walk our own path.
I am only saddened when I experience things like this. I am sombered to know there are many ways and I know my path is different and I have the choice to make it so for self.
Peace!
shash
7-2-08
J Palace, copyright 2008

Walking Your Own Path is the way.
shash
Only words from a wondering soul.