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Bones

"Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrink

About Me

I live in this one and its up to me to make a difference in my small place and time on this earth and one day people well see who I am and what I stand for love of ones self and think for ones self is the only way that life is tolerable but 80% live behind things they think are what make them feel alive and not having the things that do that thats when one is truly alive. Bones ((I walked thru the panther's living room And our summer together ended Too soon Stronger than farther Strangled by night Rest in my sun burst Relax in her secret wilderness This is the sea of doubts which threads harps unwithered & unstrung Its the brother, not the past who turns sunlight into glass It's the valley It's me))CANCEL MY SUBSCRIPTION TO THE RESURRECTION SEND MY CREDENTIALS TO THE HOUSE OF DETENTIONTHE FEELING OF COMPLETELY GIVING IN TO YOUR DEMONS IS HOPELESS, BUT YOU CAN'T CLIMB YOUR WAY OUT OF SUCH A HOLE, YOU TEND TO CROUCH DOWN AND CALL IT HOME!!!!!!"Only waves softly answer when they touch the beach" I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity. Words have no power to impress the mind with the exquisite horror of their reality My life has been one hell of a ride to say the least ive been threw alot and still dealing with alot of mental problems which it seems the only cure is my music and god at the moment beside all the medications im on But most of all there is not a day that goes by that i am not playing the guitar or writing songs for that has become my life and I cant live without it! So if you have any questions ask away feel free anything is better than nothing. I have learned, that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. Never give up, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn. Were I called on to define, very briefly, the term Art, I should call it 'the reproduction of what the Senses perceive in Nature through the veil of the soul.' The mere imitation, however accurate, of what is in Nature, entitles no man to the sacred name of 'Artist.' Beauty of whatever kind, in its supreme development, invariably excites the sensitive soul to tears. What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us; what we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal. Death is the wish of some, the relief of many, and the end of all. “The most loving parents and relatives commit murder with smiles on their faces. They force us to destroy the person we really are: a subtle kind of murder.” Death is only going to happen to you once; I don't want to miss it. Death is more universal than life; everyone dies but not everyone lives. “The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You trade in your sense for an act. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. There can't be any large-scale revolution until there's a personal revolution, on and individual level. It's got to happen inside first. You can take away a man's political freedom and you won't hurt him- unless you take away his freedom to feel. That can destroy him. That kind of freedom can't be granted. Nobody can win it for you.” “People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.” “Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” “That's what real love amounts to- letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending- performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act-” Friends can help each other. A true friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself-and especially to feel. Or, not feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at the moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to-letting a person be what he really is. I like any reaction I can get with my music. Just anything to get people to think. I mean if you can get a whole room full of drunk, stoned people to actually wake up and think, you're doing something. I think the highest and lowest points are the important ones. Anything else is just...in between. I want the freedom to try everything. I'm interested in anything about revolt, disorder, chaos, especially activity that appears to have no meaning. It seems to me to be the road toward freedom. If my poetry aims to achieve anything, it's to deliver people from the limited ways in which they see and feel. Listen, real poetry doesn't say anything; it just ticks off the possibilities. Opens all doors. You can walk through anyone that suits you. I think of myself as an intelligent, sensitive human being with the soul of a clown which always forces me to blow it at the most important moments. People fear death even more than pain. It's strange that they fear death. Life hurts a lot more than death. At the point of death, the pain is over. Yeah, I guess it is a friend. Sex is full of lies. The body tries to tell the truth. But, it's usually too battered with rules to be heard, and bound with pretenses so it can hardly move. We cripple ourselves with lies. The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. We fear violence less than our own feelings. Personal, private, solitary pain is more terrifying than what anyone else can inflict. Whoever controls the media, controls the mind. fantasy layout powered by HOT FreeLayouts.com / MyHotCommentshttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=00TmMPXLdBA http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RcbWkMvMHrU http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wf2oHzc_Lfc http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dnE4TB2ILEI http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDd5_73GK5o http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpkeJWXY4ZA http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4rCs0pAbY8k http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0oJR2A35FF8 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MqXpDdstjiU http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xajqf-PhO8s

My Interests

“Poetry is not an expression of the party line. It's that time of night, lying in bed, thinking what you really think, making the private world public, that's what the poet does.”“Follow your inner moonlight; don't hide the madness.”“...who passed through universities with radiant cool eyes hallucinating Arkansas and Blake-light tragedy among the scholars of war, who were expelled from the academies for crazy & publishing obscene odes on the windows of the skull...”I love to play the guitar on a everyday bases,but my interests are Music, Love, Mother Nature, Art, Poetry, anything that is created by someones own bueatifull mind,and a little chaos does not hurt to rebel against this way of life well alot of chaos is good

You Are a Seeker Soul
You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges.
You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions.
Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist.
Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!).

Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others.
And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you.
You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically.
Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas.

Souls you are most compatible with: Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul What Kind of Soul Are You?

I'd like to meet:

Anyone and everyone you learn something new bad or good from each and every person you meet but for me I like to be alone and dift im a ramblin man in a way but would love to meet the one to ramble with me if she is anywhere to be found (The weight of good and evil can be weighed it can be seen, felt, heard, smelled, sometimes tasted but most of the time its in you that knows. Who’s the one to justify the differents between the two you not god, satan or any other religious thing for that matter not no laws, humans or fuck bean on the side of the road just you! The only judge in your life that needs to be listen to is you, there is meaning worth living, if your not doing what you think you should be doing than there is no meaning your just at times feet begging for the end and you don’t even know it! Screams of relief comes out at the worst moments, if you don’t keep the balance in honor to yourself. Life needs a little chaos, and yet a good deed or two also it needs the fulfillment of it all not just one. Don’t be satisfied with just one or two things in life go and take it all its yours, you just got to know how to get it from the hounds that think there in power because they are not you are! Once again you don’t even no it so go and fill your life with the balance it needs! Weigh they un weighable things in life and play with the water on the fire or better yet play with fire on the water but its your choice, no gods, no judges, no cops, only the mind that well we made are minds to be some brainwashed by yesterday and some free but mainly confused and blinded by they unforgettable things we were taught thinking that it was the right stuff to learn for they knew no better. Become the mind with the inner power it was built with the mind of freedom to be. PS I dont understand why my pics wont work on here Bones) (Falling deep drop down how many years can I fall forever and a day nothing is less than the more you play with evil and kiss it right on the forehead of a damaged mind lost for nothingness and plans of running never can be around when your feet are missing and the ground shakes but you cant feel the quake nothing is there but an empty soul of birth that is just death come along and feel the freedom of your dieing day wake to see the lights of the future of your pain Bones)Jim is not the devil but if he was rock n roll he left behind some good stuff

Music:

The Doors,Nirvana,Alice In Chains,Tool,Perfect Circle,Lucero,Hank Williams S.R,J.R. and the 111,O.A.R,Jack Johnson,Dave Matthews,Really to many to list,Anything Acoustic something that has meaning and SOUL but I dont like rap that degrades everyone one and everything sorry not a hater but just dont like the negative energy you can be somebody with out trying to be some bad ass

Movies:

I cant wait to see this.. .. ..To many to listed

Television:

Dont have time to watch the brain washing shitI'm running out of juice. Trying to make things, create, entertain. It's a rough gig for sure. May be it's better to chill out, and eat, and watch the sun come up and down, and just be. I'm gonna try it. No one's really special, and then again everyone is.People and there reason beyond doubt is that people think of nothing more than how they can profit or gain more for ones self than to help one another out. I'm one that hates to work for what we all call money but to me money is paper with out meaning so I'm becoming a volunteer and joining a group to volunteer all over were ever its needed no money but a real pay off so im happy and cant wait to get my visa to leave, to start doing real work in life I think others should think of something if your life is not filled with what you want go searching for it but don't think of the profit you well gain or fame or anything that has no meaning to real people but to those lost in the western ways of living do it for the greater good of human kind. work for a real reason not to buy your big screen or some other gadget that has no need besides you just want it.

Books:

The Bible some times, The Doors Of Perception,Edgar Allan Poe, autobiography's,Anything that has to do with the mind,music,art,and drugs since drugs was at one time my best friend,still into traveling inside my mind in ways to for see and understand myself and the ways I consider that to not be drugs but a libary of fully understanding. Im reading 9 differnt ones off and on right now ill tell you how they are when im done alot of spritaul books of the native ways and some other Psychology books

Heroes:

One who holds true to themselves musicians, poets, writers, artist of all kinds way to many to list but one for sure my own lost mind trying to find it was the greatest influence's ever what I went threw and when I did find it thank god for my insanity it was an inspiration of its own It's time for you to receive the credit that's due for the work that you do. But this may not be about your regular duties at home or on the job; this is more about what you bring to the world by who you are when you show up. It may be hard for others to put this into words, yet you'll know you are appreciated by how people act in your presence.August 14, 2008 - Thursdayhowl at the sunlight moonIts in the mid day and the moon calls upon a howl it comes with out warning nothing I can do to stop my mid day howl! The moon is to bright for the day its my glass they keep me from the burning rays. One may ask what is this freak speaking of and that is my howl of pray. Not to the god's of organized religion but the power over all spirits and souls that roam they howl threw me my voice comes so powerful over the vast night that I cant even stop it. So what is he talking of? Only the power from above may know and even then............6:28 PM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove July 21, 2008 - MondaySoul searching Current mood: rockinIn life some times we have to hit bottom before we think about whats next or is this it? For me bottom has been home and its funny that I don't mind it but why not some where else and maybe find a little bit more of my soul along the way. Ive tryed to be like everyone else and work but I cant find a job here and not only that im getting more and more broke everyday with out a job, so its homeless soon enough. Ive thought about going back to the army but I cant handle a desk job and that's all they while offer now that they got me on these meds and they still have not started my disability pay I did my work for them and now they can give me the word they said was that Id get some much a month for my medical discharge but still nothing so fuck it. For awhile I was going to be going there anyways but now im just ready and my car gave out so its the walking ill do and with the help of nice people to give me rides along the way to get there sooner and find and begin a new. If you see a ruck sack and guitar and a mop headed man walking do the highway flip him off throw shit at him or just give a honk it might be me and at least people are saying hello in there on way while im on my way. Life you live once and it flys by so I just don't want to say what if, I would like to say a remember when I.................6:12 PM - 5 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove June 25, 2008 - WednesdayThere’s No Escape....There's no escaping who you are. Nor can you get any real distance from where you've been. You can't escape who you've loved and who you love, and you can very seldom escape the ones you hate, or at least your hatred for them. There is no solution but to embrace who and what you are. Be uniquly you, flaws and all. Appreciate your experience and put it to good use, and for God's sake, live a little.3:07 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove June 19, 2008 - ThursdayMy Inner RiverI got a river of death and hatred flowing in my belly. It's where I get the balls to do what I don't wanna do, or at least ain't supposed to. It's where I get all my judgment and hate. All my envy and wrath, and greed. It's always flowing. It floods it's banks sometimes, especially when I'm doing well, and feeling great. It floods up to remind me where I'm headed. It's blind ferryman, always coming to collect his toll, waiting to take me across. The river flows and wants to drown me, and he wants credit for the assist. I try to stop drinking from that river, but it gives me what I need when I am fearful. It is the gift that keeps on giving, one little drink from my inner river, to get me through the unknown, will devour my life for a week, a month or may be more. Why is it so hard to stay on heaven's bank. I guess the way they party on the otherside seems apealing, may be we were meant to live a little on both sides so we get to be whole men.3:51 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove May 29, 2008 - ThursdayRelativity, and Judgment...You have morals and convictions, we all do. You have standards and commitments, just like everyone else. Though the degrees vary, everyone holds themselves to some ethos and set of guiding beliefs. We watch one another stearnly to see if the people around us are living up to our own code of ethics and judge accordingly. This action is the source of every conflict on the planet. Morals, values, ethics, creedos, whatever, are relative and variable. Most people practice ethics of convienience anyhow. Good when it suits them. What if we all went hungry right now? What if the power grid went down and we were left to fend for ourselves? What if the safety net of law enforcment vanished overnight? I guarantee we'd be living by a very different set of values. We would all be willing to kill to eat if hungry and scared enough. Willing to steal to feed our hungry children. Willing to lie cheat and steal to survive. Your values are a luxury. So why must we judge and try to apply our values to those in different circumstances. The whole world will heal when we seek to understand, rather than to be understood. When we seek to love rather than to be loved. When we finally abandon judgment.6:28 AM - 2 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove May 25, 2008 - SundayLearn to live and not till your dying Current mood: burntBetween birth and death we live this thing called life, where it goes, what it does and how it works. Most of all I found life is not living if your not pushing the card falling from an edge and grabbing for the meaning behind all means of this life and the farther I fall the more I see the gest of it all. Money,fame,cars you name it they live it but why I always question I see that the stuff is nice but to have the knowing of what ones life is really worth then material has no value in my eyes no more. To open the imagination of ones soul is to embrace a world all in its own and only the venom from your own fangs can open the eyes of your dead and dying life to see that life is not dying if you are truly living4:25 PM - 1 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove April 3, 2008 - ThursdayFear of nothingAlmost everything we are fretting about means absolutly nothing when all is said and done. In the long run, just about all the things I’ve worried about never even came close to fruition. Almost everything I conjured up a bunch of fear about because I thought it was so important, wasn’t worth thinking even 3 minutes about. Petty concerns. People gotta toughen up. If we weren’t throwing away 90% of our energy on things, people, and ideas that were neither here nor there, we’d have plenty left over to accomplish the things that matter. The truth is that no one knows how things will turn out, and thinking and laboring over things that you cannot effect is the greatest waste of potential and possability ever. Stick to what is yours to effect and leave the rest to fortuna’s wheel, it’s gonna be that way anyway, and life is sweeter when you volunteer.5:38 AM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove April 1, 2008 - TuesdayThe story Current mood: blessedHigh locked in side the closet, clothes grab at my face, screams come from my soul but its not my voice help to find the way it cry’s out! No one, no home, no place to go im trapped on this earth with the endless winter darkness creeping in the final steps of this high. Summer arrives closing of my eyes the suns bright and burns, the feeling once more of anxiety. I cant begin to explain the help of the dieing hand that helped me threw the trip of a life time that changed one small man into a voice of millions. He has now become the shaman of this life time not wanted not picked but possessed by the death of the ones that failed to make it were they failed he well succeed the anxiety is from all, but he pushes on he has wings now and must fly. Ocean breeze is were it well all begin to show you’ll see forever and remember the times that one weird boy became a weird amazing man full of life that leads the minds of all that hear the words of true balance of his life. The story to follow would be nearly impossible but I can tell it!9:19 PM - 2 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove March 29, 2008 - SaturdayeveryoneEveryone’s lying. Everyone... They’re not that good, they’re not that pretty, they’re not that stong, or put together or happy. The world has been running on what things look like for quite some time. I don’t suppose pretending to be a certain way or a certain thing is so bad in and of itself, but it has anothewr dangerous effect. Some people aren’t so full of shit by nature, and therefore believe the appearances of all these phony bullshit artists. They have no real standard to judge themselves by, just fake people and thier fronts, so they obviously are made to feel like freaks or losers. When in fact, the only freaks or losers are people that are living lies. They lie about thier spirituality, about thier success, about the quality of thier relationships, and everyone else is left chasing carrotts dangled by snake oil salesmen, and pretend to bes. I promise, if everyone was truly honest about who and what they are, half the world would suddenly feel a lot better about itself. The bell curves too high in the lies, and making the world to feel all alone, and like a freak. Tell the truth, fuckers.9:40 AM - 1 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove March 25, 2008 - Tuesdaywords Current mood: crazyThe sun rose right into your eyes, as the time of morning came colored text above your head, step out the room feet felt the floor of velvet sand. Waves crash as I bough my head to the ancient dead, some cover there eyes to sin, ridiculed for the scenes of the soul being awoke for a time to bal Some are irritated of the beauty that the ocean holds, and others listen and some it brings heavenly feelings to be felt. A view forever nothing to reach, only the grasp of your once soul, that got pulled to play the role of many others, when sometimes be in the ones self, tormented and beat he mentally crashes gave up no more let them speak the gift of ones mind one calls crazy the one that has the mind feels the same,but is in touch for souls come to speak threw the mind of this freak. Good evil its not a matter only the things they show and are pushed threw me that I carry out the request of the wilted unshowered souls.The guilt is not of no more, things were done and cannot be torn, smile in his face let him win for the time to be, evil comes with every scene, and this scene is my life7:58 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

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time to waste

  How did everything go? "If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far ...
Posted by Bones on Wed, 01 Oct 2008 09:34:00 PST

wonder

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zkqCR7kcMB8
Posted by Bones on Wed, 01 Oct 2008 10:21:00 PST

A point

Know what FUCK IT I am sick of this, every day, we get deeper into shit with no end in site. IM TIRED of being responsible. IM TIRED that this country rewards stupidity while shunning those that show...
Posted by Bones on Sat, 27 Sep 2008 03:44:00 PST

many doubts

    Times of let downs and times of unwanting shame people try to blame there selves and let alone  the person that is causing it then you hurt and push the other aside li...
Posted by Bones on Sat, 27 Sep 2008 11:48:00 PST

howl at the sunlight moon

Its in the mid day and the moon calls upon a howl it comes with out warning nothing I can do to stop my mid day howl! The moon is to bright for the day its my glass they keep me from the burning rays....
Posted by Bones on Fri, 15 Aug 2008 10:36:00 PST

Soul searching

In life some times we have to hit bottom before we think about whats next or is this it? For me bottom has been home and its funny that I don't mind it but why not some where else and maybe find a lit...
Posted by Bones on Tue, 22 Jul 2008 10:26:00 PST

There’s No Escape....

There's no escaping who you are. Nor can you get any real distance from where you've been. You can't escape who you've loved and who you love, and you can very seldom escape the ones you hate, or at l...
Posted by Bones on Wed, 25 Jun 2008 03:08:00 PST

My Inner River

I got a river of death and hatred flowing in my belly. It's where I get the balls to do what I don't wanna do, or at least ain't supposed to. It's where I get all my judgment and hate. All my envy and...
Posted by Bones on Thu, 19 Jun 2008 03:52:00 PST

Relativity, and Judgment...

You have morals and convictions, we all do. You have standards and commitments, just like everyone else. Though the degrees vary, everyone holds themselves to some ethos and set of guiding beliefs. W...
Posted by Bones on Thu, 29 May 2008 10:30:00 PST

Learn to live and not till your dying

Between birth and death we live this thing called life, where it goes, what it does and how it works. Most of all I found life is not living if your not pushing the card falling from an edge and grab...
Posted by Bones on Mon, 26 May 2008 08:31:00 PST