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With each passing day I find out a little bit more about myself. I decided to revamp my page completely to reflect where I am at today in my life. I have had a lot of bad happen, who hasn't, but it is what we do afterwords that shows the world how strong we are. After years on steroids and Thyroid cancer my weight ballooned up to a whopping 345 pounds. It is something that I have really been tormented with- I guess you would call it my demon. I am constantly reminded by everyone that if I would only lose some weight how pretty I would be or that I would be smokin' hot. To those people all I can say is that you are superficial, and I truly feel sorry for you that you would judge a person in such a way. After my Thyroi..omy in 2005 my hormone levels started to return to normal, and now I am cancer free. I really wasn't doing much with my life, so I have decided to hit the gym,get in shape, and lose the weight. I train hard doing cardio 6-7 days a week, and lifting weights everyday on some body part. I love working out, getting sweaty, and having soreness the next day. I have noticed huge gains in my legs, but my upper body needs some work- that will come in time. I hope to be in the best shape of my life within two years (I am being realistic about the whole ordeal), and maybe even compete one day. There is nothing greater than seeing strong, confident women working out who are independent and positive that is why I try to surround myself with them. You can check out my other profile at:http://bodyspace.bodybuilding.com/Stryker995/There you will find my lifting stats, progress pics, my supplements, and everything else that is fitness related.Aside from everything fitness another one of my true passions is politics. Yes the ones of you that really know me are probably laughing at me since I hate public speaking, and being around a lot of people. I hope to start back to college in the Spring of 2009 for an International Relations degree, and eventually work in Asia. I would like to work in Intelligence but we will see where the road takes me I am open to anything. I love our country and the freedoms that it provides to our people, but we have some work that needs to be done before it is great again. Our standing in the world has dropped, we have backed out of some of our promises, and the people of this country needs us more than ever right now. Some will say that all of politics is corrupt, and no matter what we do things will never change; well I disagree. Sure you are going to have people who abuse the system, and think they can get away with anything especially in Washington, but that is with any field not just politics. What we need is people who actually care enough to push the hard and unpopular issues to do what needs done. We need people who are uncompromising on their ethics to make sure that the abusers do not come into power, and if they do make sure that they are punished for their wrongs. But all that aside I just love the whole atmosphere of Washington- the heart of our nation. While in school I hope to intern there and eventually study abroad in Asia all while getting my degree and my Grad degree. Big dreams? Of course! Is it possible? Anything is possible when you set your heart and mind to it, and one day I will be in the heart of it all.I guess I should finish by saying something that is actually about me well that is easier said than done. Besides all the same old stuff that you read on other profiles like "drama free" or "easy going" I want something a bit more in depth about me. Sure I am those things but that doesn't really tell you "about me" now does it? I am the kind of person that upon waking up doesn't liked to be talked to until thirty minutes later. This allows me to collect my thoughts for the day and get my head in the game if you will. I am an absolute loner, and as much as I try not to be, I just am. The only time you will see me in a big group of people is when I am at a rock concert and then I am right in the middle of the mosh pit with all the guys that could easily kick my ass. I really don't talk very much, but it isn't because I don't have anything to say I just think that I sound stupid and don't know what I am talking about compared to other people.I am a hopeless romantic who has yet to find and be in love. I have been single for eight years, yes you read that right, eight years. It isn't that people aren't interested it's just that I haven't found that person that I connect with on all levels, so I stay single. Would I like to be in a relationship? Absolutely! There is nothing better than having that person who witness's your life as you witness theirs all the while making memories that you will reflect upon later in life. I see these older couples who have been together for twenty, thirty, forty years or more and I am so envious because that is exactly what I want. Why waste all your effort on all the wrong ones when you can give all your effort to the right one?