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I am the reason why you can't have nice things.

About Me

I used to have this long, rambling, stupid bio here. But then I got pissed off and deleted it. Now it's like I'm all mysterious and complex and shit.

My Interests

Conflicts that are currently driving my inner workings:

    Getting My Shit Together vs. Entropy & Inertia
    Sarcastic Witticisms vs. Self-Loathing
    Hope vs. Apathy vs. Zen

I'd like to meet:

People I can get along with. People who share a lot of my interests. People with a weird sense of humor. People I can have a conversation with, without feeling the urge to punch them in the neck after two minutes (not that I normally go around punching people in the neck; it's the principle of the thing).

Here's what's stuck in my head at the moment:

H O C I C O :: D R O W N I N G

ALEC E M P I R E :: A D D I C T E D TO YOU

N A C H T M A H R :: DEUS EX M A C H I N A

Music:

DJ?Acucrack, Azam Ali, And One, Antigen Shift, Aphex Twin, Asche, ascii.Disko, Astral Projection, Atari Teenage Riot, Atomica, Aural Vampire, Autechre, Autoclav 1.1, Ayria, Keef Baker, Beethoven, Black Lung, Bong-Ra, Boole, Bruderschaft, Caustic, Cdatakill, Cenotype, Censor, Cervello Elettronico, Richard Cheese, Charlie Clouser, City At World's End, Coil, CoLD SToRAGE, Concord Dawn, Converter, Cornelius, Cubanate, Das Ich, Delerium, DJ Dieselboy, Dom + Roland, Rob Dougan, DragonForce, Drumcorps, DustFungus, E Nomine, Earth, Edgey, Eels, Eisbrecher, Electric Six, Hanin Elias, Alec Empire, Endif, Nic Endo, end.user, Feindflug, Film Noir World, Fluke, Fractured, Adam Freeland, Frontline Assembly, Funker Vogt, Future Sound Of London, Genetic Selection, Ghosts In The Clocktower, Grails, Gravity Kills, Hanzel Und Gretyl, Haujobb, MC Stephen Hawking, Headscan, Heimataerde, Hocico, Icon Of Coil, Interlace, Ken Ishii, Iszoloscope, Takkyu Ishino, John5, Juno Reactor, Yoko Kanno, Kenji Kawai, cEvin Key, Klangstabil, KMFDM, KOMPRESSOR, Kraftwerk, DJ Krush, Laibach, Liar's Rosebush, The Mad Capsule Markets, Man... Or Astro-Man?, Clint Mansell, Marilyn Manson, Kevin Manthei, Mash Up Soundsystem, Massive Attack, Bear McCreary, Melotron, Memmaker, Metallica (before they cut their fierce mullets off), Miss Kittin, Moctan, Mount Fuji Doomjazz Corporation, Muscle And Hate, Nachtmahr, Drew Neumann, Nine Inch Nails (before Trent stopped doing drugs and got all "respectable"), Nirvana, Nitzer Ebb, Niyaz, Noisuf-X, Northern Valentine, OOMPH!, Orbital, P.A.L, Panzer Division, Peelander-Z, Pig, Pills, Pneumatic Detach, Portishead, Powerglove, pr0metheus buRning, Propellerheads, Punto Omega, Pzychobitch, R010R, RAMMS+EIN, Razed In Black, The Retrosic, Rotersand, Sabrepulse, Thomas Schumacher, s:cage, Scooter, scrap.edx, Scribe Machine, Eric Serra, The Shizit, Sigur Rós, The Silk Demise, Silk Saw, [:SITD:], Slick Idiot, Snake River Conspiracy, Sneaker Pimps, Soman, SPLaTTeRCeLL, Stitch 7even, Suicide Commando, Supreme Court, Synaesthesia, Synnack, Tactical Sekt, Les Tambours Du Bronx, Technical Itch, Terminal Sect, Terrorfakt, Tool, TT-34, Tumor, U.N.K.L.E., Unter Null, Mijk van Dijk, Velvet Acid Christ, VNV Nation, Wauvenfold, Welle: Erdball, Worms Of The Earth, :wumpscut:, Akira Yamaoka, Yoshida Brothers, Zilch, Zlad!, Zombie Girl

Movies:

12 Monkeys, 13 Tzameti, 2LDK, 2001: A Space Odyssey, 300, 3 Extremes (1 & 2), the Alien quadrillogy, Avalon, Battle Angel, Battle Royale, Battle Royale 2, Blade Runner, Brazil, Broken Flowers, Cannibal: The Musical, Casshern, City Of Lost Children, Cloverfield, Cube, Dancer In The Dark, Das Boot, the Dead Or Alive trilogy, Death To Smoochy, Delicatessen, District B13, Dr. Strangelove (or: How I Learned To Stop Worrying And Love The Bomb), Dodgeball, Dumplings, Equilibrium, El Espinazo del Diablo, Event Horizon, The Eye, Falling Down, Fido, The Fifth Element, Fight Club, Ghost In The Shell, Ghost In The Shell 2: Innocence, The Great Dictator, Grindhouse, Hero, The Host, Hot Fuzz, Ichi The Killer, The Incredibles, Izo, Jacob's Ladder, Jesus Christ Vampire Hunter, JIN-ROH: The Wolf Brigade, Kamikaze Girls, Kill Bill, Kontroll, Der Krieger Und Die Kaiserin, El Labirinto Del Fauno, Lady Vengeance, The Last Minute, Layer Cake, LEON: The Professional, Life Is Beautiful, Lola Rennt, The Lost Skeleton Of Cadavra, Macross Plus, Meltdown, Memento, Metropolis, The Mist, Natural Born Killers, Natural City, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Nochnoi Dozor, Oldboy, ONG-BAK: The Thai Warrior, Pi, Pistol Opera, Renaissance, Requiem For A Dream, the Ringu anthology, The Saddest Music In The World, Samurai Fiction, SARS WARS: Bangkok Zombie Crisis, Schizopolis, Sexy Beast, Shark Skin Man & Peach Hip Girl, Shaun Of The Dead, Smokin' Aces, Steamboy, Suicide Club, Sympathy For Mr Vengeance, Team America: World Police, Versus, Voices Of A Distant Star, Volcano High, Wasabi, Yukikaze, ZATOICHI: The Blind Swordsman

Television:

Æon Flux, Arrested Development, Battlestar Galactica (the intense one with Edward James Olmos, not the cheesy one from the 70s), Buffy, Family Guy, Firefly, Futurama, GIJoe, the History Channel, Invader ZIM, It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia, Kids In The Hall, MEGAS XLR, Mystery Science Theater 3000, Mythbusters, Sealab: 2021, The Simpsons, Transformers, Travel Sick, Upright Citizens Brigade, Venture Bros., Vermillion Pleasure Night, Wonder Showzen

Books:

Nick Abadzis (Laika [author & artist]); Douglas Adams (The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy series); Tony Ballantyne (Recursion, Capacity, Divergence); Wayne Barlowe (Expedition, Barlowe's Inferno, Brushfire, God's Demon); Max Barry (Jennifer Government, Company); Stephen Baxter (The Time Ships [sequel to H G Wells' The Time Machine], Evolution, Voyage, Titan, Moonseed, the Manifold trilogy); Greg Bear (The Forge Of God, Anvil Of The Stars, Eon, Eternity, Legacy, Blood Music); Ray Bradbury (The Martian Chronicles, Fahrenheit 451); Max Brooks (The Zombie Survival Guide, World War Z); Orson Scott Card (Ender's Game, and all the books that go with it); Mark Z. Danielewski ( House Of Leaves); Greg Egan (Schild's Ladder); James Finn Garner (Apocalypse WOW!); Jon Courtenay Grimwood (Stamping Butterflies, End Of The World Blues); Austin Grossman (Soon I Will Be Invincible); M John Harrison (Viriconium, Light, Nova Swing); Stephen Hawking (A Brief History Of Time); John Hodgman (The Areas Of My Expertise); Aldous Huxley (Brave New World); JetLag Travel (MOLVANIA: A Land Beyond The Reach Of Modern Dentistry, PHAIC TAN: Sunstroke On A Shoestring); Yukito Kashiro (Battle Angel [author and artist]); Jay Lake (Mainspring); Stanislaw Lem (Mortal Engines, One Human Minute, Fiasco); Sergei Lukyanenko (Night Watch, Day Watch, Twilight Watch); Jack McKinney (The Robotech novels); Ian McDonald (Terminal Cafe, Evolution's Shore, Scissors Cut Paper Wrap Stone, The Broken Land, River Of Gods, Brasyl); James Morrow (This Is The Way The World Ends, The Godhead Trilogy, City of Truth, The Wine Of Violence, Continent of Lies, Bible Stories For Adults, Only Begotten Daughter, The Last Witchfinder, The Cat's Pajamas & Other Stories, The Philosopher's Apprentice); Miyamoto Musashi (The Book Of Five Rings); George Orwell (Ninteen Eighty-Four); Chuck Palahniuk (Fight Club, Survivor, Choke, Diary, Lullaby, Haunted, Rant); Erich Maria Remarque (All Quiet On The Western Front); Mark E. Rogers (Samurai Cat series [author and illustrator]); Joh Sasaki (Zero Over Berlin); Dan Simmons (Hyperion, The Fall Of Hyperion, Endymion, The Rise of Endymion, Prayers To Broken Stones, The Hollow Man, Phases Of Gravity, The Terror); Neal Stephenson (Snow Crash, Diamond Age, Zodiac, Cryptonomicon, The Baroque Cycle, In the Beginning Was The Command Line, The Big U); Yamamoto Tsunetomo (Hagakure [a.k.a. The Book Of The Samurai]); Sun Tzu (The Art Of War); Jhonen Vasquez (Bad Art Collection, Johnny The Homocidal Maniac, Squee, Fillerbunny, I Feel Sick [artist and author]); H G Wells (The Time Machine, The World Set Free [a.k.a. The Last War], The War In The Air)

Heroes:

All my heroes are villains. ..

My Blog

The Arrangement.

On weekends I try to sleep in. Sometimes I sleep until noon. Other times, I get into this repeated waking up and falling back to sleep cycle. Occasionally, I will get into this half-awake-half-asle...
Posted by [ panzer ] on Sat, 31 May 2008 09:42:00 PST

Husk.

There's a dead fly caught in an invisible web in the corner of the ceiling. I know that it probably hung there for hours or days, buzzing and twitching frantically until exhaustion and hunger finally...
Posted by [ panzer ] on Wed, 28 May 2008 11:57:00 PST

Friend subscriptions.

What's up with friend subscriptions?Specifically, why does MySpace let me subscribe to like 300 friends, if it's not gonna show me all my subscriptions? I'm only subscribed to about half the allowed ...
Posted by [ panzer ] on Wed, 28 May 2008 10:10:00 PST

You better recognize.

A couple friends of mine have an ambient musical project called Ghosts In The Clocktower. They are releasing a digital-only split album with another band called Protoleet. The cover art has just bee...
Posted by [ panzer ] on Tue, 27 May 2008 09:56:00 PST

Shitshitshitshitshit.

Just got a call from CDIA. Apparently, they had to cancel the part-time class that starts in June.So either I will have to start the full-time class in June, or wait until September to go part-time. N...
Posted by [ panzer ] on Wed, 21 May 2008 10:44:00 PST

Why have i never heard of this show before?

Vermillion Pleasure Night is my new favorite show*. It has everything I love. I could probably watch "Dr Phero" for hours, if it lasted that long.* - ...that isn't Battlestar Galactica, Venture Bros...
Posted by [ panzer ] on Wed, 21 May 2008 07:48:00 PST

Standing stones.

This is near where I work. It's a hard to see in this pic (my phone camera doesn't seem to have a zoom function), but somebody hopped the fence and built a neat little Stonehenge out of bricks in the...
Posted by [ panzer ] on Tue, 20 May 2008 11:34:00 PST

Moment of Zen.

Today I saw a one-legged man laughing with his friend, and for a moment I was filled with hope.
Posted by [ panzer ] on Tue, 20 May 2008 10:57:00 PST

Also, bonus WALL-E... IRL.

Wall-E Spotted in LA! from Blink on Vimeo....
Posted by [ panzer ] on Sun, 18 May 2008 09:46:00 PST

I’m not gonna lie, this is probably one of the coolest things I’ve ever seen.

MUTO a wall-painted animation by BLU from blu on Vimeo....
Posted by [ panzer ] on Sun, 18 May 2008 09:13:00 PST