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Starfire

Welcome to my Nightmare, I hope I didn't scare you

About Me


Description: Your inner soul is calling for
help! Everyday you wonder why you are still
here when there is nothing left. You use to
once be a happy, loving soul, but it was
damaged by 'them' and seems like it never can
be fixed again. You've been hurt, abused, and
damned far too much for you to handle it all
anymore! No one understands you because
theyre too scared to get to know you!
You want to finally give up; just escape and
rid of all your pain. You want people to
understand, you want comfort... You tend to
bottle up all of your emotions and problems,
hoping that theyll all go away But you long
to reach out and tell that one special person
all of your feelings and troubles! But you
never seem to have that person to talk to, or
they just dont seem to want to hear you! You
like expressing yourself in many ways;
whether it be through your emotions, words,
art, or even physically. You also enjoy nice
quiet sceneries that just dazzle your mind
with awe. You want a normal and
happy life. You always feel this sense
of loneliness clouding over your head, though
surrounded by several people. None of them
know you; you feel as though no one can
relate to you. You want understanding, you
want that friend, and you want that perfect
life! Your sanctuary would probably be any
place where you can be alone and hide out,
such as your bedroom... You may be tough at
times and try to prevent yourself from crying
on the outside.... But your heart is
always crying on the inside... Try to
loosen up and have some fun! Never start
frowning because you never know who's falling
in love with your smile :) +~+~+~+~+~+~+~+ Quote: Spiteful words can hurt your
feelings, but silence breaks your
heart
(unknown)+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+ Poem Verse: But finally, after all the tears, Ive drowned
After all the cuts, blood still runs down
The distance between us is hurting; my heart
seared,
But the closeness was what really killed me, what I
really feared
(DieColdHearted) +~+~+~+~+~+~+~+ Symbol: A tear (sign of strength, yet it
contains pain) +~+~+~+~+~+~+~+
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Wiccan Gothic Fairy. You take pride in your
religion and don't care what anyone thinks of
you. Your passionate about those you love and
will do anything to protech them. You don't
usually deal in dark magic, but will if
anyone deserves it. Karma is always
something to watch out for.
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Classic New Romantic: You are the gothest of the
Goth, your pale skin and raven hair fool
mourners into thinking you are a living ghost
as you slink around a graveyard with your
sketch book. You are the epitome of the scene;
you listen to the right music, wear beautifully
tailored gowns and are intelligent enough to
hold your own against normal people who accuse
you of being Satanic. You have a tight circle
of friends who you do everything with and they
understand when you need time alone. You see
beauty where others see dirt, you're creative
flair will lead you down paths that only people
can dream about. You seem unapproachable but
that is just your icy exterior, there are times
when you open up, most often when you've had
more wine than usual! You wear your dark cape
and gothic jewelled chokers with a regal air
you were born with. Your motto is "There
is beauty in darkness"
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You are the Dark Mother. Beautiful, dark,
protecting, you are the grace of the night. You
keep safe the newly turned and guide them
through their first dark days.
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You Are Scary
You even scare scary people sometimes! How Scary Are You?You have a sexual IQ of 157
When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends.
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You are crazy kinky. Do you ever think of anything other than sex?
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Your Love Life Secrets Are
Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt.
You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.
In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so.
A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well. Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed
Your Stripper Song Is
Closer by Nine Inch Nails
"You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I?ve got no
Soul to tell"
When you dance, it's a little scary - and a lot sexy. What Song Should You Strip To?
You Are 68% Open Minded
You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself. How Open Minded Are You?
You Are Smokin' Hot
You're a terrible flirt, a sharp dresser, and a party animal.
Of course, you're totally sizzling too. And for you, being hot just comes naturally. Are You Hot?
Your Seduction Style: The Charismatic
You're beyond seductive, you're downright magnetic!
You life live and approach seduction on a grand scale.
You have an inner self confidence and energy that most people lack
It's these talents that make you seem extraordinary - and you truly are! What Is Your Seduction Style?
Which stereotype do you fall under?
Goth
You're dark and probably depressed. You feel no one understands you and may have a cynical view of people in general.

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You Are From Venus
You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious. A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host. You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a frind to all. Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform. Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it. What Planet Are You From? What sign of the Black Zodiac are you? Elite Goth Quiz
Ultra Goth - You are the club! Your tragic, beautiful, dress to kill and never where the same outfit twice in one month. You dawn fishnets, crucifixes, big hair, black, red or purple make-up. As a social elitist, Ultragoths never dance to anything that micro-goths listen to, you sweep across the floor to green-light goth songs & everyone takes note. You miss the old club scene & have fallen down at the club once or twice,...but you did it well.
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Which Magical Dark Creature Are You?

Vampire
You are damn sexy you hot, hot midnight lover you - I love you. In folklore you are a corpse that rises from the grave during the night, and for nourishment or pleasure sucks the blood of humans. Various talismans and herbs supposedly avert vampires, but, according to tradition, they can be destroyed only by cremation by stakes driven through their hearts. You like people to have high or even intimidated feelings towards you. You love to gloat - but pretend to be modest. Definitely the slyest and most elegant of all of the creatures, your dark mystery and painful passion attracts all to your bed and mouth. Marry me you hot beast.
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You Are 4: The Individualist
You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.
You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.
You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.
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You reflect the magic of the spirit. You are a mystical person who values the magic in life. You enjoy the beauty in almost everything; every sound, smell, touch, taste. Although you find yourself pulled back to reality by the pollution of earth, this a very lovely quality to have, for there isn't much magic left.

My Interests

Goth, Rock, Metal...Really Music in general...Though, Gangsta Rappers need not apply. LOVE Voltaire, the Cruxshadows and Ego Likeness (see pics). I have a huge place in my heart for animals. I hate abusers... of animals or people. I love California. It's the BEST place to live. I hide from the bright Cali sun though... If you want to know more, contact me.

I'd like to meet:

The Grim Reaper

Music:


My Immortal
By Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave
Coz your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I tried so hard to tell myself that your gone,
But though you're still with me
I've been all alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me, me

I Will Follow You Into the Dark
by Death Cab For Cutie
Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

Movies:

Separate Ways
(Worlds Apart)
Here we stand
Worlds apart
Hearts broken in two, two, two
Sleepless nights
Losing ground
I'm reaching for you, you, you
Feelin' that it's gone
Can't change your mind
If we can't go on
To survive the tide
Love divides
Someday love will find you
Break those chains that bind you
One night will remind you
How we touched
And went our separate ways
If he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
You know I still love you
Though we touched
And went our separate ways
Troubled times
Caught between confusion and pain, pain, pain
Distant eyes
Promises we made were in vain, in vain, in vain
If you must go
I wish you luck
You'll never walk alone
Take care my love
Miss you love
Someday love will find you
Break those chains that bind you
One night will remind you
How we touched
And went our separate ways
If he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
You know I still love you
Though we touched
And went our separate ways
Ooooooohhhhhhhh
Someday love will find you
Break those chains that bind you
One night will remind you
If he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
You know I still love you
Nooooooo, Nooooooo

Books:

Fidelis
Adelaide A. Procter
You have taken back the promise
That you spoke so long ago;
Taken back the heart you gave me
I must even let it go.
Where Love once has breathed,
Pride dieth,
So I struggled,
But in vain,
First to keep the links together,
Then to piece the broken chain.
But it might not be-so freely
All your friendship I restore,
And the heart that I had taken
As my own forevermore.
No shade of reproach shall touch you,
Dread no more a claim from me
But I will not have you fancy
That I count myself as free.
I am bound by the old promise;
What can break that golden chain?
Not even the words that you have spoken,
Or the sharpness of my pain:
Do you think, because you fail me
And draw back your hand today,
That from out the heart I gave you
My strong love can fade away?
It will live. No eyes may see it;
In my soul it will lie deep,
Hidden from all; but I shall feel it
Often stirring in its sleep.
So remember that the friendship
Which you now think poor and vain,
Will endure in hope and patience,
Till you ask for it again.
Perhaps in some long twilight hour,
Like those we have known of old,
When past shadows gather round you,
And your present friends grow cold,
You may stretch your hands out towards me
Ahl You will
I know not when
I shall nurse my love and keep it
Faithfully, for you, till then.

My Blog

Giving Up

    Giving Up   Love is a dagger It cuts out your heart leaving nothing but an ugly scar. That and a shell An empty husk Which moves through life From dawn until dusk Night is the wors...
Posted by Starfire on Wed, 20 Dec 2006 12:55:00 PST

Beltane

Here's another old poem that I wrote so long ago.     Beltane Dancing by the Goddess light Sacred fires light the night Full moon hovers high above Beltane is a night for Love.   Union...
Posted by Starfire on Tue, 28 Nov 2006 11:48:00 PST

Union

I wrote this poem more years ago than I care to remember.  I just found it. Let me know what you think. Union The wind blows back her hair She shivers Sky-clad, she raises her arms Drawing down...
Posted by Starfire on Tue, 28 Nov 2006 11:42:00 PST

Life is Short....

Today started out pretty crappy, and went downhill from there. I woke up and it was pouring. I don't mean just raining, it was the kind of rain where you think about building an ark. So I make mysel...
Posted by Starfire on Mon, 22 May 2006 12:28:00 PST

Betrayal

Why is it that when ever I trust someone I get hurt in the worst way possible? I really should have known better. I trusted my ex-boyfriend Casey with the most precious thing in my life. Moon. And Cas...
Posted by Starfire on Fri, 10 Mar 2006 03:48:00 PST

Moving On

This is a poem I wrote last spring.  It just flowed from me.  After reading what I'd written, I realized I was finally over my Ex-fiance and was ready to move on.  Let me know what you ...
Posted by Starfire on Mon, 24 Oct 2005 03:06:00 PST