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im naked before you

i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiled.. even when her heart was broken.

About Me

hold them too close. kiss them even when they dont want you to. remember to tell them every single time you walk out that door that you love them and make sure that they hear you. you never know when your words may be the last you ever say to them. children are blessings no matter what they put you thru and never forget that. my baby is gone and nothing will ever bring him back, but yours are here and you need to go wherever they are right now and kiss them for all you are worth and just tell them u love them. please do it for me. you will never regret it.
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."
I am a strong willed and determined person. I go after what I want. I tend to have very strong opinions on most subjects and i rely on my heart to make decisions. I am emotional, talkitive, sometimes absentminded, always thinking, and I dont shy away from much of anything. I write a lot of poetry that is based on my personal life, sometimes it is happy, but mostly its sad or angry. I write to emtpy my head of negativity and make room for the positive that I try to always focus on. I am probably one of the most optimistic ppl in the world. I have led a very rough life, but I never lost hope of a better future. I work towards making my son's and my future better every single time I walk out my door. I lost my oldest son on June 14, 2007. This is the single most devastating thing to ever happen in my lifetime. There are no words to describe how this has changed our lives. My son Jacob and I are simply survivors of this. We strive every day to just be functional in this immense sadness that has enveloped us... Read my VisualDNA ™ Get your own VisualDNA™

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My Interests


Countup Timers at WishAFriend.comi already told you pretty much all my interests, but heres a few more.... i like to drive around town with my radio as loud as it will go and sing to the top of my lungs.. ummmm.... i like to spend time with my kids. so that i can drive them as crazy as they make me feel...i enjoy going to college. yes, i know that makes me a nerd, but i dont care! lol

I'd like to meet:

people who are as crazy as i am, with a quirky sense of humor, and may be able to deal with my retarded ass every now and then... must love kids and pitbulls!

Tori Amos

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this video is cool because she plays 2 pianos at once.. Concertina- Tori Amos - Concertina

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Music:

tori amos, edwin mccain,our lady peace, raine maida, pitbull, sean paul, k's choice, pink, nirvana,flyleaf, NIN, Paula Cole, trisha yearwood, garth brooks, disturbed, system of a down, kitty, fiona apple, natasha bedingfield, sugarland, kirk franklin, maxwell, d'angelo, me'shell ngeocello, india arie. shinedown, stone sour, hole. i like pretty much anything in almost every genre, with the exception of blue grass and old timey gospel type stuff.

Movies:

the truth about cats and dogs, stealing beauty, the lake house, love and basketball, john q, mr and mrs smith, pirates of the caribbean, all stand up comedy movies.. theres lots more, but i cant think of them cuz its 4 am.. haha ok heres a few more up to date movies i like.... freedom writers (best movie ever), happy feet, broken brigdes, the departed,flicka, the pursuit of happyness, an unfinished life, and any Madea/Tyler Perry movies! .... ..

Television:

greys anatomy,ugly betty, the l word, queer as folk, anything law and order, desperate housewives, ER, nip/tuck, standoff, brothers and sisters, sex and the city, scrubs, my name is earl, weeds, tell me you love me, private practice, californication, fringe, lipstick jungle, dexter..... lots more.. i'm a very eclectic person.

Books:

My new favorite author is Philippa Gregory. She is one of the best writers of anything historical that I have ever read! anything by anne rice, V.C. andrews, danielle steele, the hannible lecter series...and i was entranced by helter skelter too.... see? i told u i was crazy...

Heroes:

My son, Nicholas Raine Scott Craddock is the biggest hero I have ever known. He gave up his life in a car crash to save his little brother's life. There is nothing in this world I wouldnt give to see him smile at me one more time, but there was no other way for him to go than to go while protecting his brother. That was his life's goal. To always protect his brother fiercely.Icicle- Tori Icicle Live

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1) she rocks on the piano
2) her music is my therapy when im depressed
3) she has an awesome personality
4) she made the outreach program RAINN for all those unfortunate people in this world who have been sexually abused...
5) her words of inspiration
she is a beautiful person and i just freaking love her ok???
also, my grandma, she is the strongest woman i've ever known in my life.. she has a beautiful soul.. i love her sooo much!!! there is no one on this earth that can surpass her strong will of mind and heart when it comes to going thru hard times like she has been going thru in the last few years.. i only hope that i am half the woman she is when i get her age...
My Papa is the greatest man I have ever known, and he raised me along with my Grandma. He passed away in November 2004, and I was the one who felt his last heartbeat. I will never forget him as long as I live. Papa you are still very much loved and U will forever be missed!!Jessica-- This woman is so amazing that there are not enough brilliant words to describe her. She is giving to the point of insanity. She would literally give you the shirt off her back gladly. There is not another person on earth that can compare to this beautiful woman.

My Blog

wonder in your eyes

Sometimes I envy That wonder in your eyes The silly joy of discovery When the world is a surprise I want to look at things From behind your eyes I want to see the new Instead of only lies Skeptic...
Posted by im naked before you on Sun, 05 Oct 2008 06:38:00 PST

vice president candidates

ok, so i am not the most political person on earth. i take spurts where i get interested in the presidential campaigns and i spend a couple of days or hours researching things online, but when it come...
Posted by im naked before you on Fri, 03 Oct 2008 12:34:00 PST

My Sister's Celebrity Look-alikes

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Geneology - Family tree chart ...
Posted by im naked before you on Wed, 24 Sep 2008 01:43:00 PST

My Celebrity Look-alikes

MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celebrity - Collage - Morph...
Posted by im naked before you on Wed, 24 Sep 2008 01:25:00 PST

a kinda diary entry

so i was watching the news tonight and i dont know if it was the hormones surging thru me or just the grief i still feel, but there was a story of a man getting hit and they showed his shoe in the mid...
Posted by im naked before you on Fri, 19 Sep 2008 09:07:00 PST

the words out of my mouth

sometimes i say things and i mean them but i dont mean for the way i say them   i dont mean to be so blunt i just think too much and let it bubble up and then burst   im sorry for the ...
Posted by im naked before you on Fri, 19 Sep 2008 08:32:00 PST

a shoe

there is a shoe in the road right there for everyone to see a shoe that belonged to someone who is now dead somewhere near right there for everyone to see   someone didnt see him a car didnt stop...
Posted by im naked before you on Fri, 19 Sep 2008 08:12:00 PST

dream big

Dream like you live Eyes wide open One foot in front of the next   Dream big Even if you get In your own way   Dream big Even if it seems So far out of reach   Open your eyes To ...
Posted by im naked before you on Fri, 12 Sep 2008 02:30:00 PST

a mothers cry

I heard a mother's cry From far away I knew it That pain, that cold That gut wrenching cry I had tears in my eyes Before I could even think A mother's pain in losing A child held so close Is not uni...
Posted by im naked before you on Mon, 18 Aug 2008 07:25:00 PST

news news news!!!!!

I AM PREGNANT!!!!!  and excited as hell! i just found out saturday.     ok. you can go about ur normal business now lol love, brandi
Posted by im naked before you on Tue, 12 Aug 2008 06:43:00 PST