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About Me

Happily married with one child Joshua Diar 4 years old as of May 26th. My wife Rezarta, is Kosovar and I meet her in May 2000 a bit more than 1 year after the war there.Musician song writer, bass guitar, electric/accustic guitar, keyboards and 7 brass instraments. I would consider myself to be a christian-goth. Goth is just something that you are. I think most people try to dress up as, or try to act like. But in reality either you are or youre not. And I'm christian one beacause I gave my life to the Lord. And two I have His Holy Spirit indwelling and living in me, the resurection from the dead. So, with truth I was dead and brought back from the dead, and am truely a walking dead man, alive in Christ...

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My Interests

I enjoy things that inspire me to walk with love while I am on this earth. And to search for, and seek for truth, love and honesty. Here are just a few of my favorite songs that has done this in my life. And have caused me to walk closer to my God, with faith. They are full of beauty, love and inspartion. Each song has helped me along this journey of life. In my comings, and goings and in all the simple things of everyday life. Hope you enjoy them as I do! ZThe Big Hand makes all of your favorite things. And when your dreams grow small, and all your friends run away. And to the man and his faith, and the words dont fit. The way the Big Hand smiles you just wont care about it!The Big Hand makes all of your favorite things. And when your days run out, and all your hopes dissaper. And your smile just stop, and your eyes grow dead. And the shadows start to crawl in the back of your head.But when the Big Hand speaks its like firworks of heaven. So, you listen dont speak, whisper nothing at all. And when the Big Hand sings its like fireworks of praise.Leaving alone, I'm not leaving alone Leaving alone, I'll never leave alone again!So, when the Big Hand holds off all your favorite things. And when the touch like glass starts to scream. Dont ask why me, just slip to the floor, just slip to your knees.But when the Big Hand speaks its like firworks of heaven. So, you listen dont speak, whisper nothing at all. And when the Big Hand sings its like fireworks of praise.Leaving alone, I'm not leaving alone Leaving alone, never leaving alone Leaving alone, I'm not leaving alone Leaving alone, I'm not leaving alone again!"The Big Hand" by, The CureSpeak to me in a language I can hear. Humour me before I have to go. Deep in thought I forgive everyone. As the cluttered streets greet me once again. I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table. Tomorrow's just an excuse away. So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own. The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet, At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk Steeple guide me to my heart and home. The sun is out and up and down again. I know I'll make it, love can last forever Graceful swans of never topple to the earth. And you can make it last, forever you. You can make it last, forever you. And for a moment I lose myself Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world. I've journeyed here and there and back again. But ,in the same old haunts I still find my friends. Mysteries not ready to reveal, Sympathies I'm ready to return. I'll make the effort, love can last forever Graceful swans of never topple to the earth Tomorrow's just an excuse And you can make it last, forever you You can make it last, forever you"Thirty-Three" by, The Smashing Pumpkins
You are "Thirty-Three" from the album
"Mellon Collie and the Infinite
Sadness."

What Smashing Pumpkins Song Are You (lots of outcomes)?
brought to you by QuizillaThere is no-one left in the world that I can hold onto There is really no-one left at all there is only You And if you leave me now you leave all that we were undone There is really no one left You are the only OneAnd still the hardest part for you To put your trust in Me I love you more than I can say Why wont you just believe?And still the hardest part for you To put your trust in Me I love you more than I can say Why wont you just believe?"Trust" by, The Cure




I'd like to meet:

In reality anyone, doesnt matter to me. Robert Smith, I know I will meet Jonny Cash, but more than these is SIMON GALLUP, I love that guy!!!!!! It would be nice to meet Billy Corgan. But again my life on this earth would be complete if I meet Simon Gallup.



Love Song

The Cure Love Quiz
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You're Bauhaus, the grandfather's of goth. You
probably don't call yourself a goth...but that
just makes you cooler. Nice boots, by the way
}:)

What Goth Band Are You?
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You are FAITH
Severely depressed, and even more depressing. You're one of my favorites!!
SIMON GALLUP- you are the groovy one, the only one with hair that
still looks like hair (when its not behind a
stupid hat or headband that is). guys want to
be you, girls want to fuk ya. its good to be
you.

Which CURE member are you?
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What is Your Goth Symbol?

Red Rose
The red rose is a symbol of passion, love, and sometimes overpowering dominance. Life has bonded you, but you are crafty in its grasp.

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Music:



THE CURE* Rob/White Zombie* The Last Dance* Scarlet's Remains* Smashing Pumpkins* Gary Numan* Calabrese* The Other* Misfits* Danzig* Whisper in the Shadow* Anders Manga* Pins and Needles* City of the Dead* The Cult* Sex Pistols* NIN* Marilyn Manson* Concrete Blonde* The Birthay Massacre* Type O Negative* London After Midnight* DeathStars* Shadow Reichenstein* Collide* Joy Division* Bauhaus* Orgy* Placebo* Johnny Cash* MIGUEL AND THE LIVING DEAD* Tapping the Vein* Dust* Collapsing New People* Faith and the Muse* GothMinister* Screaming Banshee Aircrew* Ego Likeness* Clan Of Xymox* All About Eve* Earth Calling Angela* Scream Silence* The Cruxshadows* Switchblade Symphony* The 69 Eyes* Fields Of The Nephilim* Bella Morte* All Gone Dead* Plan 9* Moribund Thirteen A.D* The Myriad Form* Issengard* Gorgonas* Reverend Horton Heat* The Clash* Dead Milk Men* Dead can Dance* The Tombs Tones* The Birthday Massacre* Resurex* Frankenstein* Nim Vind* Mr. Underhill* The Other* Thee Marry Widows* 45 Grave* Aien Sex Fiend* Mad Sin* Vodoo Church* Sisters of Mercy* My Life with the Trill Kill Cult* Lords of Acid* The Undead* Specimen* Ok, you get the idea...Ect... Please no metal bands need apply here..A few other bands I get into from time to time.. Pink Floyd* The Animals* Muddy Waters* The Doors* Black Sabath Ozzy years* The Beatles* The Rolling Stones* Bob Marly* Some Eagles* Those guys that sing"Nights in White Satin"* some other classic rock, and old school blues, as far as the blues, one has to be old,2 and dirty!!The way the blues is suppose to be...


Movies:

The Crow, The Matrix, The Outsiders, Amedeus, Lost Boys, Almost all Dracula movies, though the old black and white are the best, Rebel without a Cause, Rocky Horror Picture Show, A Clock-work Orange, The Doors, Forrest Gump, The Wall/Pink Floyd ect....ect...ect.....

Television:

Addams Family, The Munsters

Books:

Basicly I read really boring text books, indepth study junk.... Except for that one time long ago when I picked up a Micheal Moorecock book series Elric of Melnibonian. Realy good books, back when I was into D&D, and all that other weirdness.

Heroes:

Robert Smith, Simon Gallup, Jesus the Christ the Lover of all Souls!!!





My Blog

Halloween! DJing set list if I remember right..Opps

So, other than the night starting off realy friggin slow...GRRRRRRRR.. I did have a great time. And got to play music people just ont listen to here.. Calabrese-Zombie I Beer The Cure-Doubt Beer The O...
Posted by Z on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 03:08:00 PST

Vacation

So, yep had a vacation..Which was great, but I'm not much of a beach boy. But, I had fun none the less..Mostly, the drive and hanging out with my son.. Needless to say, I'm not into the sun too much, ...
Posted by Z on Thu, 07 Sep 2006 02:45:00 PST

A messenger of Death and nothing more

In a whimper of thought, the star light speaks out to her Malice is not in her nature, only a heart that is true She finds the power within her not growing weaker To live and not with just simple dre...
Posted by Z on Tue, 25 Jul 2006 05:10:00 PST

I havent wrote in a LONG time!!! Hope you will like it!

Chantel the only still standing lonely though braver than any and I    Her words have no meaning, while walking down dreaming The footsteps the shadows, her fragrance someone stealing She ho...
Posted by Z on Sat, 22 Jul 2006 03:52:00 PST

Thats my boy!!

So, yeah my son wakes me up this mourning. Which is ok, I dont mind at all. But, he decided to wake dad up by sitting on dads face. Nothing like waking up to a butt in your face.. He then decides his...
Posted by Z on Sun, 16 Jul 2006 02:24:00 PST

Tagged rules!!!

Sorry, I'm a bit off tonight and forgot to include the rules..DUH!! Name six weird/odd/wacky or vaguely interesting things about myself and then tag six others and hope they do it...  Who I...
Posted by Z on Wed, 03 May 2006 05:35:00 PST

TAGGED...What a joy!!

So, I have no idea who to thank for this. So, I guess its better to thank the Goth Couple, DJ Martin Old Goth, and his lovely wife, GothTart. Realy your a joy, and I'm glade I've had the time to get t...
Posted by Z on Wed, 03 May 2006 05:09:00 PST

My son!!

Well, lets see how to begin this. I guess I'll just start off and tell everyone that my son is a realy ham. And he is like me in so many ways that, at times it makes me scared. Including the fact tha...
Posted by Z on Thu, 16 Mar 2006 04:29:00 PST