The important thing is to strive toward a goal which is not immediately visible. That goal is not the concern of the mind, but of the spirit. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupery
Somehow I can't believe that there are any heights that can't be scaled by a person who knows the secrets of making dreams come true. This special secret, it seems to me, can be summarized in four Cs. They are curiosity, confidence, courage, and constancy, and the greatest of all is confidence. When you believe in a thing, believe in it all the way, implicitly and unquestionably...anything is possible. ~Walt Disney
2008 New Year's Resolutions! Finish writing memoir and send to publishers Start impressionistic art book Learn to play Rachmaninov's Prelude in C(Sharp) Minor scan box of photos for safer keeping Launch RockTheCazba.com See NIN in concert See Glassjaw again Go to Bamboozle Spend a weekend in NYC Get a passport Continue rocking my 3.7+GPA Stay on graduation track Get a raise or promotion Sell/move everything from Utah Visit San Francisco
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I'd like to meet a guy that's incredibly ambitious without also being self-centered. Who's spiritual, but open-minded. Who's intelligent, but can also listen. I need someone who's motivating, encouraging, and ultimately my partner in crime. A guys biggest competition in life isn't "another guy" or the fact that I'm in love with my life; who's not insecure over my independent nature. Overall, I need someone who will prove to me he's better than being alone because let's face it, I can buy myself flowers, make myself a candlelit dinner and rent whatever movie I want at night and cuddle up to a dog and be fine with the rest of my life. :)
The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars.... Jack Kerouac
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I'll give ya a dose But it'll never come close To the rage built up inside of me Fist in the air, in the land of hypocrisy Movements come and movements go Leaders speak, movements cease When their heads are flown 'Cause all these punks Got bullets in their heads Departments of police, the judges, the feds Networks at work, keepin' people calm You know they went after King When he spoke out on Vietnam He turned the power to the have-nots And then came the shot...
Tha rotten sore on the face of mother earth gets Bigger Tha triggers cold empty ya purse They rally round tha family With pockets full of shells Weapons not food, not homes, not shoes Not need, just feed tha war canibal anima
You justify those that died by wearing the badge, they're the chosen whites Some of those that were forces are the same that bore crosses Some of those that are in office are the same that bore crosses Killing in the name of I won't do what you tell me
I won't stand in your way Let your hatred grow And she'll scream And she'll shout And she'll pray And she had a name Yeah she had a name And I won't hold you back Let your anger rise And we'll fly And we'll fall And we'll burn No one will recall No one will recall This is the last time I'll abandon you And this is the last time I'll forget you I wish I could
Rocky I
Snatch
Mr. And Mrs. Smith
The Matrix
American History X
Fight Club
Bood Diamond
The Number 23
300
The Prestige
Sin City
Garden State
I heart Huckabees
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Hotel Rwanda
Power of One
Cry Freedom
Girl Interrupted
Edward Scissorhands
Pirates of the Carribean
Domino
Robin Hood (Disney Cartoon Version!)
Closer
Beyond Borders
Good Will Hutning
The Royal Tenenbaums
Moulin Rouge
Momento
V for Vendetta
Underworld
The Ninja Turtles!
It is in the past... Remember who you are! ;)
And shepherds we shall be
For Thee, my Lord, for Thee
Power hath descended forth from Thy hand
That our feet may swiftly carry out Thy command
So we shall flow a river forth to Thee
And teeming with souls shall it ever be
In nomine Patri, et Filii, et Spiriti Sancti
~Boondock Saints
Sex and the City
Gilmore Girls
Will & Grace
Dharma & Greg
The Tao of Pooh
The Tao Te Ching
The Little Prince
Anything Shakespeare The Outsiders
The Missing Piece
Fight Club
Alice in Wonderland
Nature's first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold. Her early leaf's a flower; But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay.-- Robert Frost
We must not cease from exploration. And the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we began and to know the place for the first time. ~T. S. Eliot
I've been thinking about seeing... ~ Annie Dillard
Prison walls cannot confine him who loves, for he belongs to an empire that is not of this world, being made not of material things but of the meaning of things...
~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery
No single event can awaken within us a stranger totally unknown to us. To live is to be slowly born. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupery
"Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise." ~Alice in Wonderland
"Who are you?... I-I hardly know, Sir, just at present - at least I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then." ~Alice in Wonderland
First and foremost, My Mom and my brother. My Mom was born in 1944 in Wiesbaden, Germany and lived on rations, in complete fear of war and Americans for the majority of her life in Germany. She was the most humble, selfless individual I have ever known. She was amazing and beautiful and I miss her very much. My brother is my greatest partner in crime. Regardless of an entire country between us, we are always on the same page. We both live off of energy drinks, stay up insane amount of hours and schedule our entire lives with goals, ambitions, and "the next big thing". We have big hearts and big dreams and our interests compliment each other like peas and carrots. :)
Peter Pan
A prayer for the wild at heart kept in cages
Tennessee Williams
The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars....
Jack Kerouac
He who has a why to live can bare with almost any how
Nietzsche
True, we love life, not because we are used to living but because we are used to loving. There is always some madness in love. But there is always some reason in madness.
Nietzsche
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God; your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
NELSON MANDELA, inaugural speech, 1994
What blood was this, and what roses? It could have been the rose of union, the blood of murder, or the rose of beauty bare and the blood of some unspeakable sacrifice or birth. The sign on my body could have been an emblem or a stain, the keys to the kingdom or the mark of Cain. I never knew. I never knew as I washed, and the blood streaked, faded, and finally disappeared, whether Id purified myself or ruined the blood sign of the Passover. - Annie Dillard
If you're not a little depressed, than you're not paying attention to what's going on in this world.
You know what it's like writing, it isn't fun, it's torture. I read about Van Gogh or Beethoven, any of the f***ers. And I read an article the other day - "if they'd had psychiatrists, we wouldn't have had Gauguin's great pictures." And these f***in' bastards, they're sucking us to death. About all we can do is do it like fuckin circus animals. I resent being an artist in that respect. I resent performing for f***in' idiots who won't know - who don't know - anything. Cause they can't feel - I'm the one that's feeling, cause I'm the one expressing what they are trying to. They live vicariously through me and other artists. And we are the ones that - even with the boxers. - John Lennon