roxann arwen mills

I'd like to meet:

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About me:

I'm an artist and a fine art photographer who believes that we each change the world by how we respond to those around us daily. The spiritual teacher who has most influenced my daily life, and who is Japanese always says, "Put out the fires in your own heart first. Until you can do that nothing really changes in the world." I think the mind is a powerful tool but without engaging the sacred you're just moving around furniture.
Challenging the popular notion of absolute reality for me has been somewhat like falling through the rabbit hole, and discovering that so called absolute reality is not absolute, nor often even reality. I'm interested in exploring these directions in my fine art work, and in the continuing investigation of dreams and all the things that whirl behind and beneath the surface of life, the connection between the seen and the unseen.

Who I'd like to meet:Other artists and spiritual seekers who journey off the beaten path.

www.roxannarwenmills.com

"Subway"

"Thrilled to know emptiness,
this passenger improvised spools of gospel
for homeward bound saints
blessing tunnel after tunnel
of anonymous survivors
toward inevitable resurrection
and the sudden haunting
expectation of light."

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"You are each part of that magnificent wave of light that is washing away the sands of sleep from the eyes of humanity."
Michael Tamura

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"In a real sense all life is inter-related. All men are caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied in a single garment of destiny. Whatever affects one directly affects all indirectly. I can never be what I ought to be until you are what you ought to be, and you can never be what you ought to be until I am what I ought to be. This is the inter-related structure of reality."
Rev. Martin Luther King, Jr.
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"The animal shall not be measured by man. In a world older and more complete than ours they move finished and complete, gifted with extensions of the sense we have lost or never attained, living by voices we shall never hear.”
Henry Beston

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KATRINA

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fires in the sky: Ca wildfires down the street from my house. 2007
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FAVORITE ANIMAL CHARITIES:

IFAW.org

Animal Rescue New Orleans.org
In 2007 they are still fighting a very difficult battle.

The David Sheldrick Wildlife Trust
Visit the site, adopt an elephant and read the elephant journals.

Best Friends.org
KATRINA-rescue, this group was on the ground supporting ARNO when everyone else
had left; leaving behind thousands of roaming, starving, companion animals needing rescue.

The Jane Goodall Institute.

WSPA-usa.org
World Society for the Protection of Animals.

IAKA - Koreananimals.org

ROLDA.org
Romanian animal rescue.

• Be kind. Support your global and local wild life sanctuaries and animal rescue organizations.

"The earth is but one country and mankind its citizens." Baha'u'llah
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TAKE THE RED PILL and WAKE UP AMERICA.


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BIG FISH: Me and my sister used to have this thing called the Big Fish Story. It came from our father who liked to make things a bit bigger than life. He'd spin a good tale without anyone knowing it was a tale. Sometime this created anger, sometimes laughter. Most of his tales took awhile for us to figure out-- sometimes years, sometimes forever. Some days we would laugh and make up stories of our own, until one of us would say, "Come on! Is that a big fish story?" We did this even as we got older, but we were always careful to fess up and eventually tell the truth. As for my dad, well, his secrets died with him. He was always somewhat of an enigma to me. This is why BIG FISH is one of my favorite movies.

White Pigeon, Michigan: Mother,Roxann ( the dork holding all the papers), Ralph, Melissa (who became a hot cheerleader in Jr. High). You'd never know it by looking at this photo.

Thanksgiving; Chicago: Mother (in blue velvet) ,Dad and my great-grantparents early 1960's.

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Excerpt from Journal notes : The Arrival

I run that last quarter mile
still not looking down
at the changes in the terrain,
the places where the grass disappears
into dirt and stone,
the places where the "I"fears losing its footing.
I keep running,
further now,
much further than before.

I pass the tree yet still feeling it's roots all around me,
glowing.
breathing.
being.
Then the fear becomes a knowing
that there were and always will be
these things on the road
for they are part of what is.

As I leave the last glimmer of light behind me
the tree turns into a silhouette
and then into darkness.
I head back to this place called home
where my suitcases are still packed, ready to go.

And I know I may never run on that field again,
but I will always see that tree standing before me,
it's presence quietly
reminding me
that now is all that is.

And the "I" understands
it is like the tree
grounded and rooted in earth.

How fast I go
is of no consequence.
I only need to be,
for being is arriving.

thoughts to myself - ramills ©2006


Missy and Sissy. I love this picture because that was my sister,
always trying to lead the way.


Ma & Dad. They look happy here before we all arrived on the scene. My dads mother was from an upper middle class, very white English family and my mother was a hot blooded Hispanic/ Eastern European mix from a poor family. I remember some of the racist comments until this day. But we all got my dad's whiter-than-white skin, so most people left us alone, except for my brother Edward who looked like a little Native American Indian.


Me at 15. The dream didn't last. This photo was taken shortly before my parents divorced, and I'd already left home and came out West alone. Some kid stopped me on the street and asked me if he could take my photo. I posed for him in front of a window for 15 minutes. Later he gave me two prints. I've saved those photographs because I don't have any others from that period in my life.

Current projects : Horse , Water, Profundum:the sea.

Current project 2 : Profundum the sea :no.8572 All rights reserved 2006/2007
A chocolate-orange sunset.

Profundum the sea :no.7733© all rights reserved PICTURE MAGAZINE FEATURE ARTICLE: Sense and Sensibility
"PHOTO" The Influence of Blue" self portrait.

FREE HUGS video: Simply Beautiful.

Self portrait- SX-70 polaroid - 2001

Profundum : the sea:: 8630 ©2006 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

In The Realm of The Dying Sun : ravens ©2007 all rights reserved roxann arwen mills

"Self" series SX-70 polaroids-self portraits. Polaroids from this body of work were featured in
BLACK + WHITE International Magazine, GRAPHIS International Photo Award book publications,
and have been used in plays, and on various book covers around the globe.

"Self" series SX-70 polaroids-self portraits.

Music:

Jazz, Blues, film soundtracks(tons of them),
KCRW- Metropolis,Brian Eno, SIA , Sinead O Connor, Erykah Badu,
Me'Shell Ndegeocello,The Verve, Alanis Morissette,U2, Pink floyd,
Elvis, Aimee Mann, The Doors,Otis Redding,
Marvin Gaye: What's Going On,
Patty Smith,
Elvis, Lisa Marie Presley,U2,
Derek & the Dominos, Gypsy KINGS
Peter Gabriel, Moby, Fiona Apple, Tori Amos, TAKOTA,
Nine Inch Nails, Theivery Corp.,Patty Griffin,
The Beatles, Neil Young, David Sylvan, Dead Can Dance,
Janis Joplin, Barry White, Beck, Portishead,
Kid Loco, Damien Rice, Earth Wind and Fire,Goo Goo Dolls
DAve Matthews Band( I love these guys),
The Delfonics, Johnny Cash, Emiliana Torrini
and anything that makes me want to get up and move...

Movies:

"DECALOGUE" (all), "Blue," :director Krzysztof Kieslowski.
ZATOICHI (The Blind Swordsman-saga:1963- 1978),
"Avalon" director Mamoru Oshi, House of Flying Daggers,
The Ice Storm, CLOSER,The Constant Gardner, CRASH (2004)
NETWORK 1976 ( one of the best scripts ever written)
I heart Huckabees, Empire Falls, Blade Runner,
The DREAMLIFE of Angels, 400 BLOWS, SOLARIS
everything by PEDRO ALMODOVAR
3 Needles, The Cooler, The Human Stain
Lovers on the Bridge,"Amants du Pont-Neuf, Les (1991)"
Artificial Intelligence,
KILL BILL 1,2, Before Night Falls,
"Amateur"Hal Hartly,Vanilla Sky,
John Cassavetes Films, Adapadation, Frida,
Lovely and Amazing, High Art, Happy Accidents,
Death to Smoochy, FARGO, Swimming Pool,
Orlando, Female Pervsions, Monster's Ball, American History X,
Paris Texas, Wings of Desire, Citizen Kane,
Godfather I, The French Connection, Contact,
Alien I,II, The Maxrix, Demon Lover,
: The Haunting of Hill House novel: movie;The Haunting(1963)
In The Company of Wolves, .
GINGER Snaps, Hell Boy, GHOST STORY, EXistenZ,
The Prophecy, The Addiction (1995),
The Devil's Advocate, Needful Things,
DONNIE DARKO, DreamChild,The Green Mile ,
The Legend of Sleepy Hollow, Pay it Forward,
The LIMEY, Ammores Perros,
A Walk on the Moon, Saturday Night Fever,
American Beauty,
Thelma and Louise, GIA, Fearless,
Pollock, Three Kings, Ma VIIE EN ROSE, Galaxy Quest,
"Ran,""Dreams," Akira Kurosawa films,
Fear and loathing in Las Vegas,
The Motorcycle Diaries, Chinese Box, Uncle Buck,
Ed Wood, Boogie Nights,
Muriel's Wedding, Jarhead, The Dancer Upstairs,
The Life Aquatic, Little Buddha(1993),
It's All Gone Pete Tong, Bee Season,
The Seventh Seal,
Thank You for Smoking,
Edward Scissorhands,
Walk the Line,
Off The Map
Teknolust,Punch Drunk Love,
CAST AWAY, The BEACH, BIG,
Mean Streets,Taxi Driver, Raging Bull,
Monster in a Box: Spalding Grey,
The Lord of The Rings I, II, III,
The Dear Hunter, The Mission,
The Adventures of Priscilla,
Queen of the Desert, Love Serenade(1996),
Clockers, Malcom X, The Doors,
Roman Polanski,"Repulsion, NETWORK(1976),
"Le femme Nikita" Luc Besson,
The Professional (international version),
28 days,The Corporation,CODE 46,
Being John Malkovich, House of Sand and Fog,
The Ninth Gate, The PRESTIGE,A Simple Plan,
Tarvosky, "The Mirror", Mars Attacks, Broken Flowers,
"Holly Smoke", "ANGEL at MY TABLE": Jane Champion,
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

Television:

Thank God for DVRS.
I pick up late night TV rays when I can.
Current: PLANET EARTH, THE MOST AMAZING DOCUMENTARY on "planet earth" ever made, period. Nothing comes even remotely close to this except perhaps "GENESIS" the French documentary on the creation of the universe and the evolution of life. This documentary is also breathtaking on the visuals.
"TRUDELL", is an incredible documentary every American should see. It documents the life and work of American Indian activist and poet JOHN TRUDELL. This is on my top 25 list of best documentaries, with lots of historical footage it's both inspiring and brilliant.
current:
Twilight Zone ,Rod Serling, 1959-1964.
Not the badly written 1985 series.
Mystery, Masterpiece Theater: ALL
Democracy Now,
Sundance :The Green,
Animal planet,
The Dog Whisper.
The Minor Accomplishments of Jackie Woodman.
past :
Huff ,Slings & Arrows,
Six feet Under, Angel,Carnival, Prime Suspect,
Second Sight, Waking The Dead.
Great Comedy :
Dave Chapelle,Doug Stanhope, Borat, Richard Jeni,
Marilyn Martinez, Eddie Izzard , George Lopez, George Carlin,
Dirty Love by Jenny McCarthy rocks. I don't care what the stupid
reviews said. it made me laugh my ass off.
RICHARD JENI YOU WILL BE DEEPLY MISSED.
You were a brilliant comic and a force of nature on stage.
Not just funny, but smart and you spoke the truth. You have left the world a wonderful legacy of laughter. Your hysterical Red Wine and PMS joke is a classic. God Bless you Richard, the world is a much lonelier, darker place without you in it. Richare Jeni: 1957-2007

Books:

To many to list here. Art, philosophy books,poetry books.
"The Little Prince " Antoine de Saint Exupey
(original french version).
Masaur Emoto, "The Message from Water."
Robert Johnsons books: He, She, We ,
The Fisher KING & The Handless Maiden.
Michael Tamura, "You Are The Answer."
Conversations with God: neal walsh
"Fairy Tales and Myths," "Myths of Light." Joseph Cambell,
Einstein's Wife, Alan Watts, Timothy Leary, Rumni.
Nietzsche, William Blake, FRIDA's journals.
Dorothy Parker.
I love Bukowski.
His raw,honest face is as brutal as his prose.
I suppose in many ways his prose remind me of my own
childhood and leaving home so young.
He was a real drunken bastard,
but he knew it and he wrote about it.
He didn't hide behind it.
It was moving to hear him read one of my favorite poems of his,
"Bluebird" in the documentary, "Born Into This."
There appeared to be a real evolution of his soul towards the end of his life that was clearly expressed in his words. Thankfully, I think that he found some peace.
currently::
re-read, "Myths of Light." by Joseph Campbell.
It examines heroic myths and Eastern Metaphors of the Eternal.
It also shows the great divide of East and West in Religion and why.
Personally I don't believe in Western religion.
In his book,"Myths of Light." Mr Campbell focuses in particular
on the idea of the transcendent World Soul as it appears
throughout Asian religion, as the Buddha mind,
the Tao, or Brahman.
A highly recommended read.
also reading:
Che Guevara on Global Justice
Janet Frame: The Carpathians, Snowman Snowman
Essays on the Gita:Sri Aurobindo

Heroes:

My sister Melissa as without her I wouldn't be half the person I am.
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Someone working to raise their own consciousness and that of the planet.
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The 14th Dali Lama
"Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other."

Follow the three R’s:
Respect for self,
Respect for others, and
Responsibility for all your actions.

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Masaru Emoto, for his revolutionary work on water crystals and their relationship to human consciousness. One of his many inspiring books, Message from Water. These water crystal photographs were posted with his permission.
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"Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds."
- Einstein

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