ok here i go...i like math. i can't fucking stand writing papers. i like sports. i love baseball. i am angry with men for only one reason: i envy that they can play baseball for money. even if i could only be a minor league player i would do it until a doctor told me it would kill me to continue. i like reading. i have read quite a few books, and i'll venture to say that i will read quite a few more. i love my dog. she is one of my friends on this thing, her name is Carmen. sometimes she is the only bright spot in my day. it's real hard to be upset about my problems when i have this little being that is so happy to see me and just wants to play and eat and cuddle. my relationships are like trainwrecks....but that doesn't stop me from trying. they all fail until they succeed. i believe in love. my favorite quote is from the bible (see below). my patron saint is St. Jude : the patron saint of the lost cause. I am told that I am pretty direct with my communication with others...in other words I don't spin a lot of pretty bullshit to dilute my meaning. but i am always trying to avoid hurting people. being straight-forward is admirable...being mean is not. i believe that i am growing (albeit slowly) into the person i want to be. i have four tatoos, i want more. what i want to be when i grow up changes every week. this week: game designer. money and i have a love/hate relationship. i love to spend it, i hate to pay bills. i like talking about nerd stuff, geek stuff and dork (uh...not whale penis though) stuff. i can't hide the excitement in my eyes when i get an opportunity to talk about the philosophies of mathematics, science and baseball. if you are reading this...i love you...you must be a truly caring person to read this much about someone!
loosely translated...
If I speak in the tongues of men and angels, but have not love, I have become a sounding brass or a clashing cymbal. And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains but have not love, I am nothing. And if I dole out all my goods, and if I deliver my body that I may boast but have not love, I have gained nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It is not jealous, love is not pompous, it is not inflated, it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury, it does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. If there are prophecies, they will be brought to nothing; if tongues, they will cease; if knowledge, it will be brought to nothing. For we know partially and we prophesy partially, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. When I was a child, I used to talk as a child, think as a child, reason as a child; when I became a man, I put aside childish things. At the present we see indistinctly, as in a mirror, but then face to face. At the present I know partially; then I shall know fully, as I am fully known. So faith, hope, love remain, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
