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Heatherlee

i am incredibly uncool but am insanely happy:)

About Me


I wish i could dance, i wish i could fly, i wish i would had written more and slept more under the sky, if only i had realized sooner that every moment was pure; i wouldn't have wasted all of my time searching for things so demure... i miss the smallness of my child and the softness of my skin, time could have passed slower if only i had known then...
i shall start to dance, and dream to fly and i will write more as the days go by... i shall cherish every size of my childs' hand, and take pleasure in every single wrinkle in my own hand... time will be more cherished now i know what i didn't know then...
i gotta zwinky!
Heatherlee --
[adjective]:
Fuzzy to the touch
'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com
H Heartwarming
E Enlightening
A Appealing
T Tender
H Honest
E Earthy
R Raindancer
L Loving
E Entertaining
E Eccentric
Who am I? I am a mommy, quirky, I am big, I am physically impaired (yeah im gimpy), but i'm stubborn about it,----I should be in a wheelchair- but i just use my cane most of the time-- I wear a leg/ankle brace, knee brace and I need to go pick up arm braces for my wrists.... i'm trying to enjoy the use of my legs- but i'm only making them worse every time i do...I have EHLERS DANLOS SYNDROME , which is a collagen protein disorder that affects pretty much every inch of my body... pain, chills, muscle and joint breakdown, pain, did i mention pain?, my fingers don't work very well anymore, i can't walk more than a few feet before im EXHAUSTED, my chest hurts like i'm having a heart attack most of the time... it kinda sucks... it could be worse, people have died from my condition....I am a medical Zebra, if you want to know more about my condition or donate to researching my condition or buy Eherls-Danlos Awareness bracelets (that come in zebra or blue and yellow colors) just go to www.ednf.org
I am a SAHM (i stay at home with my little ZO) , I am a writer (though i haven't really written in a while thats worth anything) , i have more far away friends than i have near... but i enjoy the friends that i do have close to me:), I have issues... if you know me you know that;) , I am bi, i am married faithfully to my husband of 5 years, I DO have a poly heart and i love chubby girls that enjoy scifi:) (feel free to apply:)) , I have a 3 (nearly 4) year old that i spend all my time with, i am planning to home school starting this year:) I have depression issues, i am an ex addict & cutter, i am bi-polar, ocd and a medley of other diagnosis:) i am on medication now so we're all better now:)
I listen to music ALL THE TIME... pearl jam, steve burns (songs for dustmites is the best!), mazzy star, TOM MCRAE!!!, soul asylum, sarah bettens, tool... people playing in my living room... i love new music too... so feel free to make suggestions;)
take the which pearl jam song are you? quiz, a product of the pearljammers community.
so I'm totally neurotic most of the time i guess...Things Bother me... all sorts of things......bother me to the point that i have to remind myself that its not ok to just go out and protest in front of gas stations and street lights... i obsess over the thoughts in my head constantly...
sometimes it leaves me crying or fuming for days over something i saw on the news or heard in a speech or on the radio...
religion bothers me... i go to bed at night bewildered and thinking how we can still let something similar to a fairy tale run our lives and our society...
we destroy our environment, pollute our air and water and it seems that nomatter how much we scream or yell about it, they don't listen... we have so many energy options and fuel options... why arent we using them? expense they say...but if it is mandatory for us and our planet to co exist why must there be a cost? i don't get it...
Here I am, sitting at a desk, writing about myself... how odd and shallow it would seem to someone who didnt understand this entire myspace/internet connection thing that we all seem to have developed...
what a world we live in...
I, although am a very peace loving pseudo-hippie , i am a VERY opinionated person.. when it comes to a few certain things... i must warn you... seriously ... i seem to not be able to help it...
I do very much believe that religion was nesessary for man to explain the things he could not... the sun went down it must have been something great.., lightning feel from the sky, it must have been a god.. , quick.. worship it before you anger it!...I believe that man has evolved enough and science has shown... evolution has been proven, that there IS no greater diety.. what we have in this universe is what we have.. there is no heaven or hell, and god is like a fairy tale.. with a good list and a bad list... with a long white beard and rosy cheeks.. told to children to make them be good at night... God is a Farce... Religion Breeds Hate and Wars.
I guess you could say that I'm an atheist.. but i would say i'm more of and anti-theist than anything... you really don't want to get me started...i'm sorry... i really can't help it apparently....
Those who can make you believe absurdities can make you commit atrocities. —Voltaire
Your Birthdate: September 5
With a birthday on the 5th of the month you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them.You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas.You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel.You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable.Your mind is quick, clever and analytical.A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine.You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility
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close my eyes
and feel the sun
fold my arms
and know im one

one person
under one sky
one reason
that we dont know why

one person
learning to live
one person
trying to fogive
one person
with so much love

one person
and thats all i'll ever be

one person
and thats all we'll ever be

one person
and thats all we need to be.

open my eyes and look around
to see the whole world spining round

one person
can be such a lonely sound.

toiling over the swarm in my head, small children, poetry, acoustic music, rational thought, unschooling, oceans, furry animals, animal circus acts... i think i may be onto something... conspiracy theories (why they really dont want you to drink the water), being afraid of my own evil rainbow colored shadow.
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Medical Zebras are US

Pearl Jam, Pearl Jam, Pearl Jam!
SciFi/Fantasy stuff, Books, Music, Musicals, Writing, Our BackYard, Spending Time with my Little One, Nice Rainy Weather,Cooking Sweet Stuff, SciFi TV, Not Leaving My House, Walking to the Park, Swimming, wishing i was swimming, dancing in the rain, taking showers, Listening to Pearl Jam, Listening to Mother Love Bone, Listening to Steve Burns, Internet Brousing, Thrift Stores, Freecycle, Sugar Gliders(oh how i miss my Lazlo), My Husband. The man the Universe has Placed Me with for This Lifetime *Purr*,(and that doesnt mean i'm not open to a girlfriend), Flying Kites with Husband and girlchild, Nice Dreams, LoveStorys, Happy Music, Penguins, Pewter Stuff, Earthy Stuff, Didgeriedoos, Acoustic Music, Finding Friends I thought I'd never see again! Purple.

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Who Should Paint You: Alfred Gockel
All American yet funky, you inspire an artist's imagination
And while not everyone will understand your portrait, you will! What Artist Should Paint Your Portrait?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile
Extroversion:

You have low extroversion.
You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.
A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.
You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people.

Conscientiousness:

You have low conscientiousness.
Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.
Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.
Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have high neuroticism.
It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.
You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.
You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is medium.
You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.
But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.
You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue. The Five Factor Personality Test

I'd like to meet:

Jamie Kilstein is a very ingenious comedian that really sparks free thought...
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Music:

grip the wheel...get a reading

Punk Cabaret..... yeah...

Pearl JAM, STEVE BURNS, Dresden Dolls, HUMANWINE, Godsmack, coheed & cambria, AudioSlave, mother love bone,Mazzy Star, Ani DiFranco, Belly, Placebo, SARAH BETTENS, the gerbils, FLUNK, the Butchies (ROCK!), mogwai, Tom McRae (I LOVE BOY WITH THE BUBBLEGUN!!!) dressy bessy, Massive Attack, Soul Asylum, Idaho, Mojave 3, Jack Johnson, Chris Cornell, Placebo,Snake River Conspiracy, Bowie, Oleander, 10,000 Maniacs, april march, K's Choice, Starflyer 59, Concrete Blonde, Siouxsie & the Banshees, beth orton, imogen heap, The Jesus and Mary Chain, The Pixies, Flaming Lips, magnificant bastards, Portishead, Pj Harvey, Counting Crows, RadioHead, Anouk, rosie thomas, Loreena Mckennitt, Blues Traveller, Tori Amos,...Musicals-- I LOVE musicals :) on and on and on-- oh and i have a slight affinity for Bluegrass.... makes me foot tap and stuff...

You Are Pecan Pie Soda
Sweet, but totally nuts What Jones Holiday Soda Are You?

HUNGERSTRIKE-TEMPLE OF THE DOG (this one is for you Roo!)

Your Theme Song is Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd
"There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship’s smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves."

You haven't been feeling a lot lately, and you think that's a good thing.
The comfortable part is nice... but you should really work on numb. What's Your Theme Song?

ASK ME FOR MY PAYPAL STORY AND I'LL TELL YOU PERSONALLY HOW BAD PAYPAL IS AND WHY YOU SHOULDNT USE IT!!!!

Movies:


HAPPY ACCIDENTS!!! High Art, Deeply, An Inconvenient Truth, A life less Ordinary, Stealing Beauty, A home at the End of The World, But I'm a Cheerleader, Rolling Kansas, Ginger Snaps, Ginger Snaps Unleashed, Ginger Snaps Back, Star Wars, Anything Kevin Smith, Anime, Alice in Wonderland, Nightmare Before Christmas, Moulin Rouge, Cats, Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, Donnie Darko, Monty Python & The Holy Grail, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Requiem for a Dream, Corpse Bride, Robin Hood, Dracula, Hackers, Farscape Peacekeeper Wars, Harold & Kumar, Half Baked, Dazed & Confused, WEED, Confessions of a Dangerous Mind, The Incredible Story of Two Girls in Love, Blade Trilogy, Vampire Hunter D, Evolution, Alien, Aliens, Alien VS Predator, GodZilla movies, Legend, Labrynth, Reign of Fire, WIllow,The Princess Bride, Evil Dead, Army of Darkness, Brokeback Mountain, LadyHawke, Ever After, , The Merlin,he Odessy, Time Bandits, Peter Pan, Xmen Movies, HellBoy,Pitch Black, Chronicles of Riddick (can't wait for the 3rd movie!)Fantastic 4, Tim Burton's CorpseBride, Batteries Not Included, NeverEnding Story, Lost Boys, The Goonies, SpaceBalls, Highlander Movies, Indiana Jones Movies, ET, Pink Floyd: the Wall, Edward ScissorHands, The Secret of Roan Innish, House of Cards, Chicago, Flight of the Navigator, Willy Wonka, Flight of Dragons, The Last Unicorn, Secret World of OG, Ultraviolet, Bloodrayne, Shopgirl, Brokeback Mountain,
Take the quiz:
Which Ginger Snaps character are you?

Ginger Fitzgerald
You're obsessed with death and suicide. You're an outcast, different to the others, but inside you have a craving desire to belong. You're dead sexy and you know how to flaunt it.

Television:

Battlestar Galactica, HEROES, Dr. Who, DEXTER, L Word, Hex, Lost, Big Love, House, So you Think you can dance, Smallville, Inuyasha, Full Metal Alchemist,Eureka 7, Samuri 7, Henry Rollins Show
other shows
the nine
HEROES
WEEDS
Dresden Files
My name is Earl
Smallville
Supernatural
BLISS
LOST
Enterprise
Firefly
Jeremiah
Odyssey5

Books:

Tank-Girl!
You are most like Tank Girl in a playful mood.Most people wouldn't brain you with a spiked bat when they were in a good mood but You and Tank Girl aren't "Most People".You should probably never have children or any long-term relationships with people that don't have at least three tattoos and five piercings.
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living in the light; freeing your children from the dark ages, Pronoia (is the antidote for paranoia), life story, philosophy of pooh, ABARAT, girl interrupted, TEASER AND THE FIRECAT (CAT STEVENS), Anne Rice, Atheist Universe, Star Wars books, Douglas Adams, Comics, the crow gn, starting to really enjoy clive barker books, dr seuss, dracula - i love this book- i always have:) , i have a collection of fraggle books too:)
I am interested in finding more secular no-faiths-attached history/evolution explanations for smaller children...
also any unique bedtime fairy tale suggestions would be well welcomed as well:)

Heroes:

People that take action.


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mmmmmm.....starbuck.....

DJ. If it wasn't for him I would either still be a junkie or no longer in a breating condition. Thank you for saving me from myself. I miss you. Hope you are in a better place smoking ganja from a floating hooka in the sky--

hehe-- emperor of the us... apparently this is historical fact here-
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yeah, it hurts

so my backpiece is done.... 1 session of lining- 3 sessions of shading and i'm finished.... this shit hurts......i'll post a pic as soon as i get batteries....
Posted by Heatherlee on Thu, 31 May 2007 04:38:00 PST

9:40 AM

  woke up to earlyto the sound pit-patteringnow the need to writecrave ink in my skinmy body is my art piecei don't go outsidewords scorch inside melike a swirling raging stormwriting quiets methese b...
Posted by Heatherlee on Wed, 30 May 2007 07:49:00 PST

so its his birthday-(this one is for you fucktard.)

he's 8 years old today... i don't even know if i'm going to call my son.... i think all it would do right now, in the state my brain is in is cause problems...  i didn't get a phone call, card, anythi...
Posted by Heatherlee on Tue, 29 May 2007 06:46:00 PST

cutting of hair & tattoos

first i chopped all my hairthen stormy chopped all her hairthen aaron came home the other day and his hair was like mine= but black...this evening i chopped all of chettly's hair off all bruce willis-...
Posted by Heatherlee on Sun, 27 May 2007 10:07:00 PST

just wanted to say thank you

Seriously... a HUGE thank you to Aaron and Stormy....from the bottom of my hearts.... i don't know if i could take quite all of this at once if it wasn't for you two being here  for me.....my heads a...
Posted by Heatherlee on Wed, 23 May 2007 11:09:00 PST

2:42 am

small. medium. largeno room for X-X-X-Lendless cycles shinepenguin looks at meprovides me the fire i needpink is my colorvoices in my headmost just sound like me insidemy eyes dialatemistakes in the p...
Posted by Heatherlee on Wed, 23 May 2007 12:48:00 PST

no meds day 1 - 2 to go

so 3 days off geodon before i can start abilify...    i didnt take it last night... my head feels all crazy... palpitations are still there everynow and then... those better frikking go away....  just...
Posted by Heatherlee on Tue, 22 May 2007 10:43:00 PST

New Meds!

ok... new meds get started in 3 daysthe Geodon was giving me heart palpitations and they told me NO MORE! and even apologized for it... So in 3 days along with my celexa, meloxicam, and ranitidine i c...
Posted by Heatherlee on Mon, 21 May 2007 03:39:00 PST

just noticed the time

whats up with that... i didnt even do that on purpose... my last set of haikus in the middle of the night were at 2:20 too.... lol i just went  back and read that *dork*dude- this movie is never gonna...
Posted by Heatherlee on Mon, 21 May 2007 12:47:00 PST

normality in haiku's

watching the break upgave a tattoo to a frienda fun night it waswhy do i not sleepis it these new pills im onoh.movie got good.counting syllablesat two am in the mornwhat would my shrink sayjust dropp...
Posted by Heatherlee on Mon, 21 May 2007 12:33:00 PST