Industrial music,abnormal psychology,dreams,occult,religion,people,industrial zones,old buildings,past.
DREAMS: I dream a lot. Every day. And I am strongly influenced by my dreams. They are my guide to my life.My nightmares are helping me with my problems. My nightmares are the angels of the truth: the more visual and graphic they are- the more I learn about myself.NIGHTMARES REPRESENT YOUR STATE OF MIND. DON'T BE AFRAID AND DON'T EVER IGNORE THEM!!!MySpace Layouts
OCCULT: My first serious introduction with the occult was when I was 17 with the book "Magick" by Alexander. In that book, I was so fascinated by the ability magick can give a person, that I dedided to become magician.At that time I was dealing with some inner problems and that book was all I needed. While reading, I started to develop an interest for magick and it’s philosophy. I was in desperate need for a new believe that will help me step on my feet and understand the cruelty of the world.
I'd like to meet:
Mostly people into Industrial music.Open minded people that are not afraid to talk about their fears.People that have hopes and dreams,and are not afraid to reveal them. People that respect other people and don't try to change anyone.
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Industrial bands as well.I have a huge craving for Industrial music,so every Industrial band is welcome in my pg.
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Music:
Industrial/Death,Black Metal/GothHere are some of the Industrial bands I'm into:
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Acumen Nation,Bile,Birmingham 6,Christian Death,DIE KRUPPS,Electric Hellfire Club,Einstürzende Neubauten,Front Line Assembly,Front 242,Gravity Kills,Hate Dept.,KMFDM,Luxt,Ministry,My Life With the Thrill Kill Kult,Nine Inch Nails,Pig,Pigface,Pitchshifter,Pop Will Eat Itself,Rammstein,Rob Zombie,
Skiny Puppy,Spahn Ranch,
Static X,Throbbing Gristle,White Zombie.
Television:
Twin Peaks
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I used to write a lot before.When I had my depression. I was having it since I was 12, and it's been on and off.I was never diagnosed as a Bipolar Disorder or something like that,but I knew I had it.Maybe that's why I get along with people with depressive sympthoms and that's why I'm interested in people's mind and soul.Fortunately,I'd cured myself from that evil disorder and now I don't have those suicidal thoughts anymore(yeah,if you ever had a depression,you know what I mean).So,in those more than 12 years of my mind desease I 've written many poems and abstracts.And since I created this pg to my old,real and true soul,I'll be sharing some of my best writings here.And on my Blogs.
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EASY NOT TO BELIEVE
Sometimes I wish not to have a soul, ‘cause it’s easy not to believe. Without any trust I wish I stop thinking ‘cause it all cause pain anyway. It all causes pain anyway – all of the existence when it comes to pain. The entire world is based on pain and it suffers. The only light that comes is from the mouth of the ego that swallows. Swallows you—the EGOMANIAC. Probably everything will turn to dust and there’s no reason why. Why keep on doing things—it’s useless anyway. And the people you meet only want themselves. Fuck them—the Future is an egomaniac and nothing‘s gonna change for good, let them talk and behave—what’s the deal anyway. It’s so predictable—should I care? Yes, I should care. That’s why it hurts. Because I care too much. I care that much I screw up. My feelings. My pain. That’s why it hurts—I care too much. Let them dogs eat each other. It hurts, when you feel the pain; it stops when you disappear.
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I write sometimes when I feel down and confused.I write about my feeligns and life,hoping to feel better.
Books:
"Practical magick" by Papus-Gerard Encausse (July 13, 1865 - 1916), whose esoteric pseudonym was Papus, was the Spanish-born French physician, hypnotist, and popularizer of occultism, who founded the modern Martinist Order.
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"The New Magus" by Donald Tyson- an author of modern occult literature who has built a highly practical system of magic which delves into complex areas of the occult such as Enochian magic and sexual union with spirits.
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"Liber Null & Psychonaut: An Introduction to Chaos Magic" by Peter J. CarrollChaos Magic is a relatively new form of ritual and empty-handed magic, utilizing paradigm shifting and inhibitory or excitatory states of consciousness, called "gnosis," including, but not limited to, meditation, chanting, spinning, dancing, drug use, pain or orgasm. Practitioners hold that they can shape reality using this form of magic.
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I wrote this:SATAN WAS GOD
Satan once believed he was God, but he reversed it. Being a God was boring and acceptable. Who wants Satan if he was good? So, he put away his wings and decided to destroy. Destruction is easy to survive. Satan told me that he wants my soul (I gave it to him once). Now he wants his trade again. When I'm happy I believe in Satan, cuz he's smiling--happiness of death.
Heroes:
Not heroes,but Peter Caroll and Austin Spare.Spare, Initially involved with the Golden Dawn tradition, and its offshoots such as the O.T.O and Aleister Crowley's Argenteum Astrum but later broke with them to work independently. He would develop theory and practices which would, after his death, profoundly influence the Illuminates of Thanateros. Specifically, Spare developed the use of sigils, and techniques involving states of ecstasy (see gnosis below) to empower these. Spare also pioneered the development of a personal sacred alphabet, and was a talented artist who used images as part of his magical technique.
