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Ashe

You were right, this place is haunted...

About Me

I'm a part time integral Flower of Life facilitator, full time marketing assistant, full time student of psychology, off the clock full time integral theory student. I'm recovering from 6 years as a blind follower of pathological new age thinking. I was fluffy. It hurts to think about it. I learned a lot and continue to learn. It's been eye opening, simply realizing the partiality of how I used to view the world. I continue to gather, integrate and transcend all that I learn. I am not perfect. I am not a guru. I am not "enlightened." I am simply trying my best to work through my own shit and try to live as best I can in this crazy thing we call life. I allow myself to express the many facets and levels of my personality. I can be a bitch, I can be nice. I have severe road rage. I scare my friend Matt on a daily basis.
I’m only good at the Being Serious thing when we first meet and when I don’t feel good. Otherwise, I can be downright stupid-silly and say random things with lots of vulgarity. I’m the f-bomb queen. But I’m well intentioned and mostly innocent, which I guess is hard to believe for some people (ha!). I’m compassionate and sincere, open and understanding. I just happen to say fuck a lot…and I mean A LOT, I’m sparing you right now.
I'm into AQAL and Integral Theory. Ken Wilber has sexy brain matter. And so do a lot of other very brilliant people involved in the integral community. I'm thankful for being exposed to such great minds.
I am polyamorous (non-monogamous). I'm a big believer in following my heart wherever that may lead. If you want to know more about my views on polyamory, please read my blog about it, it's probably not what you think it is.
I like digging into the hearts, minds, and souls of people (whether they notice or not). I am obsessive in this regard. I might be shy and quiet, but I'm really peering into you. Right now. I like complexity. Weirdness. Dorkiness. Smiles, beauty, laughter, tears, humanness, divinity-ness. Anything-ness, no-thingness.
I love people watching and am cynical in the fact that I think most people are close to being mentally handicapped. I can be a real asshole about it. So while I may love and believe in humanity as a whole, I'm definitely lacking in the "liking individual people" part.

My Interests

Music, art, growth, contraction, authentic spirituality, equality, reading, polyamory, transcendental channeling, philosophy, Integral Theory, AQAL, agency, communion, the mystery, love in all its forms, emotions, analytical psychology, reason, meditation, contemplation, being silly, sacred geometry, tribal bellydance, steampunk, steamfashion, travelling, spiritual alchemy, ritual and ceremony, literature, mythology, past lives, future lives, parallel lives, Ancient Egypt, ancient cultures, being a humongous DORK.

I'd like to meet:

Interesting people. Star gazers, artists, musicians, amazing individuals, sarcastic a-holes, dorks. People who aren't afraid to be. People who aren't afraid to Love. People who aren't uncomfortable in awkward silences for I am a connoisseur of awkward silences. Or maybe people that just don't suck. People who know what "projection" is and who knows what the "shadow" is. Spiritual people whose heads are not "so far up their asses that the light don't shine in those dark places." I used to be one of those people, it's kind of embarrassing, however, I learned a lot and couldn't have gotten to this point without it.
All Quadrants, All Levels, BITCHES! (I swear I'm not in a cult, mkay? There's no kool-aid or Scientologists. Ok, there probably is.)

Music:

Tool, APC, Puscifer, Stuart Davis, Abney Park, Fair to Midland, Dr. Steel, Regina Spektor, The Dresden Dolls, Amanda Palmer, Imogen Heap, Only Son, Panic! At the Disco, AFI, Whorse, Sister Soleil, Kidneythieves, NIN, Veruca Salt, Tori Amos, Fiona Apple, Led Zeppelin, Free Dominguez, Stella Katsoudas, Stella Soleil, Combichrist, The Mars Volta, Paris Burning, Rain Fur Rent, Revolve, Opus Dai, 00 Metro, Animastik, The Beatles, The Doors, Live, The Secret Machines, Tripping Daisy, Spacehog, 30 Seconds to Mars, Alice in Chains, Nirvana, Soundgarden, The Cure, Deadsy, The Postal Service, Death Cab For Cutie, Devotchka, Humanwine, Duran Duran, Erykah Badu, Joni Mitchell, White Zombie, The Velvet Underground, Paramore, Fall Out Boy, meditative soundscapes, Chanting, Toning, Middle Eastern dance. I like a little of every-tang.

Movies:

Donnie Darko, Bowling for Columbine, Fight Club, What the Bleep, Happiness, Big Fish, Labyrinth, Harry Potter 1-4, Kama Sutra, Requiem for a Dream, Pi, Waking Life, Dark Crystal, Return to Oz, The Mummy 1 &2, Contact, Lord of The Rings 1-3, Stargate (movie and series), Chicago, Almost Famous, Vanilla Sky, Yellow Submarine, Grafitti Bridge, Moulin Rouge, Drop Dead Fred, Ma Vie En Rose, Run Lola Run, Blow, Edward Scissorhands, Benny and Joon, Henry and June, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Pirates of the Caribbean, Heavenly Creatures, Quills, Gattaca, Dark City, Flatliners, Pan's Labyrinth, Brain Donors, Young Sherlock Holmes, Elizabethtown, Palindromes, The Fountain, The Queen, Breakfast on Pluto

Television:

HEROES, The Stuart Davis Show (integralnaked.org), Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, Tru Calling, Will & Grace, The Critic, Big Love, Drew Carey, Dharma & Greg, Sex & the City, Ren & Stimpy, Invader Zim, Family Guy, Just Shoot Me, The Awful Truth, ER, House, Stargate (movie and series), The Young Ones, Ab Fab, Don Hertzfeldt Cartoons, Autopsy (Michael Baden rocks my socks), America's Next Top Model, Search for the Next Doll, Flavor of Love Charm School.

Books:

Grace & Grit, Boomeritis, Integral Spirituality, Integral Psychology, One Taste, The Spectrum of Consciousness, No Boundary, Sex Ecology Spirituality (all Ken Wilber), The Alchemist, A Garden of Pomegranates, The Secret Garden, Confessions of a Record Producer, The Emerald Tablet, The Bhagavad Gita, Answer to Job, Memories-Dreams-Reflections, Maya Cosmogenesis, Diary of a Drug Fiend, Jung and the Lost Gospels, The Cube of Space, The Prism of Lyra, The Seth Books, Parallel Myths, Alchemical Psychology, Who's Afraid of Schroedingers Cat, Love Has No Opposite (Stuart Davis, audiobook).

Heroes:

Treya and Ken Wilber - For reminding me that ALL and NONE of this really matters.
Stuart Davis - Because well, he fucking rocks. And he likes the word fuck. I also like the word fuck. He's also an amazing artist and human being whom I respect greatly for just being who he IS.
Ron & Lyssa Holt-for the amazing tools they are providing to the world through a balanced Flower of Life organization.
Molly - cuz she's fantabulous.
Sofia Coppola & Cameron Crowe

My Blog

Because I feel like it

FOUR JOBS I HAVE HAD IN MY LIFE1. Disney - lasted 3 weeks, I was 16 and it was my first job ever. I was a "merchantainer" aka, some dumb ass teenager that gets to work a cash register in a merchandisi...
Posted by Ashe on Sat, 24 Mar 2007 11:02:00 PST

Polyamory ... a treatise about Love

According to wikipedia, polyamory is defined as such:"Polyamory is the practice of having more than one loving relationship at the same time, with the full knowledge and consent of all partners involv...
Posted by Ashe on Wed, 21 Feb 2007 06:46:00 PST

Mooninite terrorists???

Mooninite shuts down Boston highways...
Posted by Ashe on Thu, 01 Feb 2007 07:44:00 PST

Richard Kelly & Southland Tales

I just purchased Richard Kelly's first 3 volumes of the "Southland Tales". The books are available now on Amazon. They are required reading since the movie (which is coming out in April!!!!!) will be ...
Posted by Ashe on Sat, 13 Jan 2007 11:25:00 PST

Integral Naked & Stuart Davis (my new hero)

My newfound obsession is Integral Theory. I've been reading a lot of Ken Wilber lately and my fire is ignited along this particular path. What's awesome about it is that it contains ALL paths. All Qua...
Posted by Ashe on Fri, 10 Nov 2006 05:45:00 PST

The Integralist

The folks at the Ken Wilber camp sent out a recent email detailing a new print magazine that they will be pressing in the near future called "The Integralist." The magazine will feature articles, poe...
Posted by Ashe on Fri, 10 Nov 2006 05:28:00 PST

Breathe

Breathe. In. Out. In. Around. Up. Out. Balance. Calmly. Midair. Frozen. Exhale. Breathless. Now. Heaviness. Sinking. Blue. Black. Stars. Stop. Motion. Freeze. Frame. Forward. Take. Flight. Inhale. Sha...
Posted by Ashe on Thu, 26 Oct 2006 07:24:00 PST

Vaudeville?

So I've been getting this strange new interest in vaudeville, burlesque and sideshow freaks of the past. I've been scouring the internet for any bit of history I can find. I ended up tunneling through...
Posted by Ashe on Thu, 29 Jun 2006 09:59:00 PST