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About Me

IM 18 YEARS OLD A FRESHMAN IN COLLEGE.I LIKE TO HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS AND HAVE A GOOD TIME- I COME FROM A FAMILY OF 9-IM THE MIDDLE CHILD ...I WAS HOSPITALIZED FOR 2 MONTHS FOR AN EATING DISORDER-AUG-OCT. 2005 I HAVE BEEN IN RECOVERY FROM AN EATING DISORDER FOR...ONE YR.EXACTLY ON OCTOBER 15TH,2006! YAY!!..I STRUGGLE SOMETIMES..ok most of the time.., BUT IM GONNA BE OK. I PLAN TO GO TO: NORTHLAND COMM. AND TECH. COLLEGE FOR NURSINGLayout made by sammyshakedown at CreateBlog.com . body{ background-image:url(); background-color:555555; scrollbar-arrow-color:ffffff; scrollbar-track-color: 555555; scrollbar-shadow-color: 000000; scrollbar-face-color:999999; scrollbar-highlight-color:000000; scrollbar-darkshadow-color:555555; scrollbar-3dlight-color:555555; cursor: nw-resize;} Table, Td{ background-color:transparent; }table table table{ background-color:8EE5EE; border-color:000000; border-style:solid; border-width:6px; } table table table table, table table table td{ border-style:none; }body, div, p, strong, td, .text, .blacktext10, a.searchlinkSmall, a.searchlinkSmall:link, a.searchlinkSmall:visited{ color:000000; font-size:8pt; font-weight:normal; font-style:normal; font-family:Arial; }.orangetext15, .lightbluetext8, .whitetext12, .btext, .redtext, .redbtext.redbtext{font-family:arial; font-size:8pt; color:555555; font-weight:bold;border:0px; text-transform:none;}a, a:link, a:visited, a.navbar, a.navbar:link, a.navbar:visited, a.man, a.man:link, a.man:visited, a.redlink, a.redlink:visited{ color:ffffff; font-size:8pt; font-weight:normal; font-style:normal; font-family:terminal; text-decoration: none; border: 1px solid; border-color:009ACD; }a:link img { filter: gray; } a:hover img { filter: none; }.nametext{font-family: georgia; color: 009ACD; font-weight: bold; font-size: 32px; letter-spacing: -3px; line-height: 35px;}a:hover, a:active, a.navbar:hover, a.navbar:active, a.man:hover, a.man:active, a.searchlinkSmall:hover, a.searchlinkSmall:active, a.redlink:hover, a.redlink:hover{ color:999999; font-size:8pt; font-weight:normal; font-style:normal; font-family:terminal; text-decoration:none; background-color:000000; cursor:ne-resize; text-transform: UPPERCASE; border: 1px dashed; border-color:009ACD;}table table table td {vertical-align:top ! important;} span.blacktext12 { visibility:visible !important; background-color:transparent; background-image:url("http://images.cbimg5.com/myspace/30/73 62.jpg"); background-repeat:no-repeat; background-position:center center; font-size:0px; letter-spacing:-0.5px; width:494px; height:401px; display:block !important; } span.blacktext12 img {display:none;}.contactTable {width:300px!important; height:150px!important; padding:0px!important; background-image:url("http://images.cbimg5.com/myspace/30/73 62a.jpg"); background-attachment:scroll; background-position:center center; background-repeat:no-repeat; background-color:transparent;} .contactTable table, table.contactTable td {padding:0px !important; border:0px; background-color:transparent; background-image:none;} .contactTable a img {visibility:hidden; border:0px!important;} .contactTable a {display:block; height:28px; width:115px;} .contactTable .text {font-size:1px!important;} .contactTable .text, .contactTable a, .contactTable img {filter:none!important;}

My Interests

*MUSIC & SINGING!!..ACTING & DANCING!!*EATING DISORDER RECOVERY*LEARNING TO LOVE & ACCEPT MYSELF FOR WHO I AM...**LOSING WEIGHT,LOSING WEIGHT & LOSING WEIGHT** EXPERTISE: FAILING, SCREWING UP, BURNING BRIDGES, PUSHING/DRIVING PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT AWAY...."No one can make me a victim unless I allow them to""Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we do." (Confucius)Get Your Own! | View Slideshow

I'd like to meet:

**She never slows down She doesn’t know why But she knows that when she’s all alone It feels like it’s all coming downShe won’t turn around The shadows are long And she fears if she cries that first tear The tears will not stop raining downShe won’t make a sound Alone in this fight with herself And the fear’s whispering If she stands, she’ll fall downShe wants to be found The only way out is through everything She’s running from Wants to give up and lie down So stand in the rain Stand your ground Stand up when it’s all crashing down You stand through the pain You won’t drown And one day what’s lost can be found You stand in the rain**

Music:

ALOT OF DIFF. STUFF...BUT MAINLY ANY CHRISTIAN MUSIC: RELIANT K, THOUSAND FOOT KRUTCH, SUPERCHICK, BARLOW GIRLS, MERCY ME...

Movies:

A WALK TO REMEMBER, AND THE NOTEBOOK

Television:

GREYS ANATOMY,HOUSE,DR. 90210,NIP/TUCK(IM A LIL OBSESSED..NOT GONNA LIE.LOL) DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES, LAW AND ORDER, MONK...

Books:

MILLION LITTLE PIECES, WASTED,THE 5 PEOPLE U MEET IN HEAVEN, PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE...

Heroes:

JESUS...& Everyone that continues to fight their Eating Disorder!!

My Blog

I'm tired of feeling so numb..

I'm not a stranger No I am yours With crippled anger And tears that still drip sore A fragile flame aged Is misery And when our hearts meet I know you see I do ...
Posted by *AMY* on Wed, 01 Nov 2006 10:58:00 PST

What do u see when u look at me?..

Perception What do you see when you look at mePerhaps a womanPerhaps even beautyWant to know what I seeWant to see what's really thereI see an ugly little girlStriving to reach perfectionFailing eve...
Posted by *AMY* on Wed, 01 Nov 2006 09:56:00 PST

More to life...

There's Gotta be More To LifeI've got it all, but I feel so deprivedI go up, I come down and I'm emptier insideTell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missingAnd why can't I let it go.. T...
Posted by *AMY* on Mon, 30 Oct 2006 09:45:00 PST

And so each step she's taking is a step of faith toward who she'll be....

She feels lost in her own lifeTreading water just to keep from slipping underAnd she wonders if she's where she's supposed to beTired of trying to do it rightHer dreams are just to far away to s...
Posted by *AMY* on Sun, 29 Oct 2006 11:51:00 PST

Maybe this world's better off without me...

"Someone I Once Knew" She wasn't born anorexic, but nowadays she suffers,staring at these half-naked stars on magazine covers.feeling pressured by the public.She only weighs 90 pounds but still s...
Posted by *AMY* on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 02:50:00 PST

If you're going thru hell....

If you're going thru hell.... Well you know those timesWhen you feel like there's a sign there on your back Say's I don't mind if ya kick me Seems like everybody hasThings go from bad to w...
Posted by *AMY* on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 07:27:00 PST

Alone in this fight with herself...

Stand In The Rain She never slows downShe doesn't know why But she knows that when she's all alone It feels like it's all coming down She won't turn a...
Posted by *AMY* on Wed, 25 Oct 2006 10:48:00 PST

Thinking..

I'M FALLING.....FALLING F ...
Posted by *AMY* on Wed, 18 Oct 2006 09:08:00 PST

Soo many things racing thru my mind...

Trust How can I trust someone if th...
Posted by *AMY* on Mon, 16 Oct 2006 01:34:00 PST

"Im not broken, so dont try to fix me"

Self Esteem The one trait that is obviously apparent in all sufferers of an Eating Disorder is their low self-esteem. Often they feel as though they are not good enough, that they never do any...
Posted by *AMY* on Sat, 14 Oct 2006 01:02:00 PST