Good conversation is hard to find in this town.I am a HUMANIST"I don't want to be a product of my environment. I want my environment to be a product of me." - Frank Costello.I have a blog:
www.blueberryscradle.blogspot.com
Read it.There is an idea of a Jessica Miller; some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable... I simply am not there.
My COVER.
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Queens of the Stone Age - "Suture up my Future."I'm gonna suture up my future,
I ain't jaded, I just hate it.
See, I been down too long,
It's kinda hard to explain.
Done and buried all I carried.
All my evil is through a needle,
As it pull through the eye,
What was and what will are now gone.Don't sweat it,
Thread it, to forget it.
To feel like you've already gone on,
To the rest of,
The rest of the life that you've got.
Take a picture and bury it all away,
Bury it all,
Away.Tried to fake it, I just can't take it.
I don't care if it hurts,
Just so long as it's real.
I won't waste it, turned to face it,
I'd sharpened a knife, then use it,
Until bone made it dull.
Tried explaining, done explaining,
I got caught in the plaid,
All of this talking at once.
I've been giving my love away,
To the things that tear it apart,
I'm gonna suture up my future.Thread it, to forget it,
To feel like you've already gone on,
To the rest of,
The rest of the life that you've got,
Tie the loose ends and bury it all away,
It's like this,
It's like this...I have all the characteristics of a human being: blood, flesh, skin, hair; but not a single, clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside of me and I don't know why. My nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days. I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip.
How happy is the blameless vessel's lot. The world forgetting by the world forgot. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Each prayer accepted. and each wish resigned.
"At first I was a little worried people were gonna think that I'm a showboat and a little bit of a prick. But then I realized... that's me. I said those things. I did those things. I can live with that."-Steve Zissou