R.I.P. CUZ TRACY BYGUM LOVE YOU ALWAYS

THIS IS DEE DEE I GREW UP IN CLEARLAKE HIGHLANDS CALIF. ALL MY LIFE, I NOW LIVE IN STOCKTON I HAVE 5 BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN AND 7 GRANDCHILDREN WHO ARE MY HEART AND SOUL THEY ARE ALL WELL ADJUSTED AND HAPPY IN 2005 I WAS DEALT A BLOW I WAS SICK AND HAD A BIOPSY AND ONE DAY WHILE SITTING HOME THE DR CALLED AND WANTED EVERYONE TO COME TO HER OFFICE, I SAID NO TELL ME NOW SHE REFUSED BUT AFTER MY INSISTING SHE SAID DEE DEE YOU HAVE A TERIBLE GRADE AGRESSIVE STAGE 3-C ENDOMETRIEAL CANCER AND I DONT THINK YOU WILL SURVIVE SURGERY SO GO HOME AND ENJOY THE 2 TO 3 MOS YOU HAVE LEFT,I SCREAMED NOOOOO YOU CANT SAY THIS I WANT TO LIVE TELL ME WHAT MY OPTIONS ARE SHE GAVE ME ALL MY RISKS BUT NOTHING OUTWEIGHED THE FACT THAT IF I DO NOTHING I WOULD DIE SO I WENT TO DR. MOHAVNI IN SACRAMENTO THIS BEAUTIFUL MAN DID MY SURGERY, ALMOST LOST ME BUT I SURVIVED HE SAID IT WAS THE SIZE OF A FOOTBALL" THE TUMOR" AND ITS BAD BUT I DID ALL I COULD DO, THE REST IS UP TO YOU SO AFTER 6 MONTHS OF CHEMO AND 7 MOS OF RADIATION I HAVE EXTENDED MY STAY HERE FOR 3 TO 5 YEARS BUT HE SAID IT WILL NEVER GO INTO REMISSION I WILL DIE SO PREPARE MYSELF, SO I TRY NOT TO DEAL WITH THE THOUGHT AND I ALWAYS LOOK AT THOSE WHO ARE WORSE OFF THEN ME, I LOVE LIFE AND I TRY TO STAY POSITIVE BUT WHAT IS WORSE IS KNOWING I HAVE TO LEAVE HERE AND NOT SEEING MY CHILDREN, I HATE THE THOUGHT, BEING BALD ALLOVER SUCKED TOO, I LOOK SO UGLY WITH NO HAIR SOME WOMEN ARE GEORGEOUS I AM NOT WITH NO HAIR,..LOL,,,,............I WANT TO SAY ALSO THAT FRIENSHIPS REALLY CHANGE SO MUCH WHEN YOU GET CANCER YOU ARENT LOOKED AT THE SAME ANYMORE, AND THE SEMI STRONG RELATIONSHIPS DESOLVE AND THEN THERE IS THE FRIENDS WHO ARE AFRAID TO LOVE YOU THEN LOSE YOU, AND THEN THERE ARE THOSE WHO WILL LOVE YOU TILL YOUR LAST BREATH AND AFTER FOREVER,........I AM SO AFRAID OF DEATH NOT BEING HERE ANYMORE REALLY IS SO DARN SCARRY,MY CLOSE DEAR FRIENDS I HOPE WILL NEVER FORGET ME AND I KNOW MY FAMILY WONT, I JUST WISH THAT THIS ONGOING PAIN IN MY BACK AND STOMACH AND LEGS WOULD LET UP SO LIFE WOULD NOT BE SO PAINFUL ITS A DAILY STRUGGLE AND I HATE HURTING LIKE THIS,,I DONT WANT ANYONE FILLING SORRY FOR ME THIS IS THE HAND I WAS DEALT AND I HAVE TO TAKE IT BUT BY YOU PRAYING FOR ME AND BEING THERE FOR ME IS ALL I NEED I LOVE YOU ALL, LOVE DEE DEE

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BABY COLE
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she waited and waited for this day to come the little life inside her, her unborn son, she named him cole,what a strong cute name, it will fit him well one day with such a fine name, oh little cole what a handsome boy you are, you have a beauty for your momma a natural born star, sierra is her name, YOU DID WELL CHOSING HER , LOVE D.D.