About Me

i LOVE my mother. more than anyone in the world.

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you.. how good you look when you smile.how much i love your laugh I day-dream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversation; laughing at funny things that you said or did.. I've memorized your face && the way that you look at me.. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine.. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together, & even though neither of us know what the future holds, i know one thing for sure; you're the best thing that ever happened to me..
-Samantha.

You only think that youre immune to feelings. The most unlikely person could reduce you to tears, laughter, or spontaneous declarations of love.
I suppose I'm a little bit scared. You might not like it that I felt so much for him. But that was then. You are here now, you make me and define me. It's over after all but he's still a part of me. And I want you to know all about it, so there are no secrets .
I need you. I need the guy who can make me laug h just by the way he says hello when I pick up the phone .. . the guy who makes my hands shake when I'm sitting next to him... and the guy who isn't afraid to keep hugging me when I'm not ready to let go yet. maybe it's the way you look at me... and your smile just makes me melt... maybe it's the way we can talk on the phone for hours... about absolutely nothing but I still feel like I just had the best conversation of my whole life...

My Interests

please don't ask me to trust you..i cannot. i am incapable of it. i have learned...there is no trust. there is not such thing. the idea of it..only leads to betrayal.im losing it..i cant hold it together much longer.
if i can just have one of my dreams come true...all the suffering will have been worth it. if in the end i end up with who i know i was meant to be with...all is rightshowing off the eyes looking at you :)Get Your Own! | View SlideshowGet Your Own! | View Slideshow

I'd like to meet:

Myspace For Girls Only - MyGirlySpace.com Rufio is hott...id sex him all day
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oh word? its tony. i like him.

Music:

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing Watch you smile while you are sleepingWhile you're far away and dreaming I could spend my life in this sweet surrender I could stay lost in this moment forever

Movies:

v for vendetta, count of monte cristo, all disney, peterpan, the little mermaid, the princess bride.v for vendetta, count of monte cristo, all disney, peterpan, the little mermaid, the princess bride./

Television:

eh..

Books:

i like...The last dog on Earth, Island of the Blue Dolphins, Romeo And Juliet, The Pregnancy Test...and bunches and oodles more.v

Heroes:

and to that one special person..you know who you are...who you've always been..this is an unending feeling that will never change. i love you. and you truly are my hero. and my one and only.

My Blog

im sorry you think i never should have lived.

Nights like thisI wish raindrops would fallTo cover my tearsWishing i could replaceAll those wasted yearsOf loving someoneWho couldnt love me backI've given everythingI've loved you endlesslyAnd when ...
Posted by Sam[antha] cries rose petal tears on Fri, 16 Feb 2007 07:39:00 PST

slow asphixiation

"i just want you to leave, please leave" he said as he looked down on me, his amazing eyes, shattering. i could almost hear the faint sound of tears, like glass beyond his eyes."there's no way i coul...
Posted by Sam[antha] cries rose petal tears on Thu, 15 Feb 2007 01:58:00 PST

sigh

i thought i lost youbecause i had no smile on my facebut i hope one day, you'll come back.and bring it back.it hurts because i knowhe`s out there falling in and outof love with girls who aren`t ...
Posted by Sam[antha] cries rose petal tears on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 05:42:00 PST

this time its real

we're finally over.he tried to kick in my front door, break open my back door, he waited outside my window. all for a bong, so he can do drugs with his friends.told me that th...
Posted by Sam[antha] cries rose petal tears on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 12:03:00 PST

honesty..hurts. here is the truth..im sorry.

its so complicated..ill try to explain.when i was 17, i met a guy...he was 15...love at first sight. we were inseperable for the next two years, we quit highschool together, moved in together, even go...
Posted by Sam[antha] cries rose petal tears on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 12:18:00 PST

advise me

what do you do to stop love? its not like an illness..there is no shotits not like smoking..there is no patchits not like birth control..there is no pilli wont start drinking, and i ...
Posted by Sam[antha] cries rose petal tears on Fri, 29 Dec 2006 09:34:00 PST

its the end.

i believe my heart has reached the highest level of bitterness. i no longer believe in love. i cant bring myself to watch movies...anymore, cause most of them have happy endings, where couples find ea...
Posted by Sam[antha] cries rose petal tears on Sun, 17 Dec 2006 02:35:00 PST

tonight is...

the night where i just want to break down and cry. ive been alone today...which gave me time to think...and ive realized, im nothing, going nowhere, destined to be alone. i am living my life, th...
Posted by Sam[antha] cries rose petal tears on Sun, 10 Dec 2006 08:24:00 PST

he taught me to love, but not how to stop

The world is crammed with all these souls, rising and falling by the weight of their hearts. and i suppose its all our own fault. for handing our hearts over to someone. Trust is one of th...
Posted by Sam[antha] cries rose petal tears on Sun, 10 Dec 2006 08:17:00 PST

i have no life...pick your favorites

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Posted by Sam[antha] cries rose petal tears on Tue, 26 Sep 2006 07:29:00 PST