Layout made by shadowleopardWE LIVE IN A WORLD THAT ARE FILLED WITH SO MANY HIDDEN SECRETS. SOME HAVE BEEN REVEALED, AND MANY ARE STILL UNDISTURBED. WE ARE THE RULERS OF THE WORLD, PEOPLE, HUMANS, WOMAN AND MAN.......WE TOO ARE FILLED WITH MANY CHARACTERS, AND SOME ARE HIDDEN. SOME CHOOSE TO HIDE BEHIND THE PERVERBILE MASK. SOME CHOOSE TO HIDE THEIR TRUE SELF WITH MAKEUP......SOME MEN HIDE BEHIND THE MASK OF A BEIRD AND MUSTACHE. SOME ACTUALLY HAVE TWO FACES. ONE THAT IS REVEALED TO THE SURFACE RELATIONSHIPS. RARELY DO WE REVEAL WHAT'S UNDER THE MASK. SOME FEAR THAT IF THEY REVEAL THEIR TRUE SELF, NO-ONE WILL WANT US, LOVE US. "IF THEY ONLY KNEW WHAT I HAD DONE, OR WHO I TRULY AM"....THIS IS WHAT SO MANY FEAR. YET FROM MY OWN EXPERIENCE, WHEN I REVEALED MY "TRUE SELF" AND TOOK OFF THE MASK...OF COURSE TO THOSE ONLY THAT I TRUSTED, I FOUND THAT MANY OTHERS FELT AS I DID, AND THAT I WASN'T AS HORRIBLE FOR WHO I WAS. SOME PEOPLE JUDGED....."BUT THOSE WHO JUDGE DON'T MATTER, AND THOSE WHO MATTER, DON'T JUDGE" SO WE WEED OUT THE INDIVIDUALS WHO CANNOT ACCEPT US. PERHAPS BECAUSE THEY SEE A REFLECTION OF THEMSELVES, OR BECAUSE THEY HAVE A GRADIOUS FEELING OF SUPERIOR BEING.....WHAT EVER THE CASE, I FOUND THAT THOSE WHO ACCEPTED ME FOR WHO I WAS/AM....WERE MY TRUE FRIENDS, WE DIDN'T HAVE TO LIVE BEHIND A MASK. WE DIDN'T HAVE TO LIE OR PLAY GAMES WITH ONE ANOTHER. SOME OF THOSE FRIENDS OF MINE HAVE LONG SINCE DIED. MANY AT A YOUNG AGE. SOME WERE DUE THE TERRIBLE DISEASE OF AIDS. THIS DISEASE RAN RAMPANT IN THE '80'S....WE WERE YOUNG AND PERMISCUOUS.....BUT THEY ENDED UP HAVING TO LOSE THEIR YOUNG LIFE. SOME HAVE PASSED AWAY BECAUSE OF TRAGEDY. I'VE LOST SO MANY WONDERFUL FRIENDS. I MISS THEM SO. BUT I WAS THE LUCKY ONE....I WAS ABLE TO REMOVE MY MASK, AND SEE THEM FOR THEIR TRUE SELF. NIETHER ONE OF US WORE A MASK.AS I GET OLDER, I FIND IT HARD TO FIND TRUE FRIENDSHIP. THE KIND WHERE THERE IS NOTHING WE CAN KEEP FROM EACHOTHER, NO LIES, NO GAMES, NO EXPECTATIONS. ONES THAT NEVER HARBOR NEGATIVE THOUGHTS OF YOU. THE KIND OF FRIEND THAT DOESN'T KICK YOU WHEN YOU'RE DOWN, OR BECAUSE OF THEIR OWN CHARACTER DEFECTS, AND LOW SELF ESTEEM FEEL THE NEED TO TRY AND CREATE A "COMPETITIVE" RELATIONSHIP. WHEN SOMEONE I KNOW IS BLESSED WITH MANY GOOD FORTUNES I AM TRULY HAPPY FOR THEM, BUT THEN THERE ARE THOSE WHO ACTUALLY BASE THEIR SELF WORTH ON WHAT THEY HAVE, OR CAN BUY, AND PUT UP SUCH A PRETENSE OF WHO THEY REALLY ARE. THIS IS SAD. THEY ARE THE ONES WHO CAN'T WAIT TO SHOW OFF SOMETHING THEY POSSESS, AND ACTUALLY GLOAT OVER WHAT YOU DON'T HAVE........I'VE LEARNED TO PRAY FOR THOSE TYPES, AND LET THEM GO. NO NEED FOR THAT TYPE IN MY LIFE.WE MUST ALL REMOVE OUR MASK, AND ALLOW THE "TRUE SELF" TO BE EXPOSED. WE ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL IN OUR OWN RITE. THERE IS NO NEED TO FEEL SUPERIOR TO OTHERS, OR WISH OTHER'S TO FAIL. FOR EVERYTHING COMES FULL CIRCLE. AND WHAT YOU DO TO OTHERS, WILL MOST CERTAINLY BE DONE TO YOU.....THAT IS THE LAWS OF THE UNIVERSE. I'VE SEEN IT HAPPEN MANY OF TIMES.I AM NOT EXEPT FROM MY CHARACTER DEFECTS, AND AT TIMES I FIND MYSELF FALLING TO PREY OF SUCH PEOPLE, AND PLAYING THEIR GAMES, AS I HAVE MY OWN. BUT I AM ON A DAILY REPRIEVE OF "SELF AWARENESS" I AM FOREVER GROWING AND CHANGING. MATERIAL THINGS DON'T MAKE UP WHO I AM, THEY ARE A FALSE SENSE OF ESTEEM. I FIND THAT IN HELPING OTHERS, AND PASSING ALONG THE WISDOM I'VE LEARNED IS A MORE SELF FULFILLING FEELING. I AM NO BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE, BUT I AM WHO I AM. I AM ALL OF ME. I CAN MAKE DECISIONS IN MY LIFE. THROUGH FAILURE DO I LEARN. LESSONS ARE ALL AROUND US. AND THE UNIVERSE WILL ALWAYS PRESENT TO US A LESSON TO BE LEARNED. IF WE FAIL TO PASS THE TEST THE FIRST TIME AROUND, IT WILL COME BACK TO US IN ANOTHER FORM....SOME SOULS NEVER OVERCOME THAT HURDLE. AND SOME JUST CHOOSE TO LIVE WITH THE DECISIONS THEY MAKE.
I'VE LIVED AND LEARNED, AND I HAVE SO MUCH YET TO LEARN.
MASK.....SOME ARE UGLY, AND SOME ARE EVEN SCARY. I DON'T LIKE FALSE PEOPLE. COME AS WHO YOU ARE. I WILL SET MY OWN BOUNDARIES, AND DECIDE WHETHER YOU FIT IN MY REALM OF WHAT I NEED AND LOOK FOR IN A FRIEND. IT'S NOT THAT I AM BETTER THAN, BUT I HAVE A HEALTHY OUTLOOK ON WHO AND WHAT I WANT IN MY LIFE TODAY. AND FOR TODAY I CHOOSE TO BE ENLIGHTENED BY ADULT PEOPLE WHO KNOW WHO THEY ARE, WHAT THEY WANT OUT OF LIFE, AND CAN TEACH ME TO BE A BETTER PERSON.
FOR TODAY, I WILL REMOVE MY MASK, LEARN, LOVE, LIVE, AND PRAY. I AM SERENE TODAY. I AM WORRY FREE TODAY. I AM GRATEFUL TODAY. I AM LOVING THE FRIENDS I MEET HERE, AND ENJOY THEIR DAILY COMMENTS. I MAY NOT KNOW YOU ALL PERSONALLY, BUT GOD HAS PUT YOU IN MY PATH FOR A REASON. NOTHING HAPPENS BY CHANCE. IT'S APART OF MY JOURNEY.
