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jain

4 years old under a candy sky...

About Me

So I’ve been swimming around in a fish tank thinking it was the ocean for 20 years but some lush tipped the tub over and voila! The earth has a new assailant.
“There's nothin' to be scared of. you just gotta think about it like the first time you got laid. You just gotta go, 'Daddy, are you sure this is right?'”- TANK GIRL!
i find the beauty and dissapointment in everything. its a curse as much as it is a gift. i fall in love too easily but the more i love, the more i hate. my grandmother calls me her little gypsy ever since i was born. i used to think it was an insult, but it just proves how odd life works cause it's the only word that defines me. im in a constant state of shifting, again, a curse as much as it is a gift. there is one thing i'm determined to do while in this life: is to prove how we are all the same in our differences. it is the ultimate reality crusher; your world wont ever be the same. it is the very reason the occult is called the mysterious. not all minds are equipped to understand. i'm not here to make you understand. i'm here to use my tools, with or without you. i have an old time way of thinking. i despise most of the modern world and dream of returning back to the days where we carried daggers instead of cell phones, drank from a chalice instead of a soda can, laced up our boots instead of using velcro and used busks instead of zippers. i wear my mohawk of natural dreadlocks with pride that my bones and naturally sculpted shoulders define me as once been a warrior, without a lord. through my muscle memory, i do not learn quickly, i remember...
this is not a "myspace". this is a prortal and i am a seeker.
"when eons and man" jain '05
hemp and tofu can help end poverty. so can you. infect yourself with awareness.
"perception is a whore or the bearer of divine children" jain '05
"speak for yourself" jain'05
"as free as the wind" jain'05
"his eye" (incomplete) jain'06
"his mind" (incomplete) jain'04
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My Interests


untitled (pending incomplete). jain '06
by alex grey
"the only constant is change"
my gypsy nature
time travel
the multi-dimensional.
the chaos
the sorrow
the peace
the chaos
self-diciplin
physical combat
daggers
sword play
playing with hair
cutting hair
finger painting hair
canvas
oil paint
weeks in solitude
roaming the city
palm reading
tarot
dissatisfaction
disillusions
the occult
tears
the blossom of a tulip
cherry blossoms one day in japan
the new
much used
tea cups
collecting junk
subways
mountain climbing
stretching the flexability of my body off large edged surfaces
xtream biking
boxing
bloody combat
martial arts films
my hot, sweaty, welder boy
mothers who have no children of their own
escaping this life by means of oxygen
BDSM
shoe fetishist
belly dance
bon fires
dreadlocks
silver jewlery
tam tams
anthropology
mi famiglia
master me
being a vegetarian
soup

i dance for the sky and live for the trees.
i am not human.
i was sent here to obey and disobey.

I'd like to meet:


carolee schneeman. college was good for somethin'.

chantal menard. most beautiful creature, ever!

if she were my mother, we'd commit incest. dita von teese

Music:

tool. and a song that played when i was 4 that i never heard outside my head. it had something about a bridge or an alley. i was not your average child.

Movies:

TANK GIRL!
the matrix.
boondock saints.
i've watched these 3 all day for days at a time

Television:

i'd much rather watch the screens of my mind, the fight channel or the fashion network. IFC is chill too.

Books:

if numbers be words then i read the universe; your soul; your eyes; your shoulders, the tales in which i find between the pages of second hand books. my favourite place- used book stores. my, i've never told anyone that.

Heroes:

the compassionate lust inhabiting my soul
rebeca
promethea
my family of women. if we'd start a burlesque troop, we'd sell out every night for as long as we'd perform.

My Blog

evolution

...of the self. im hopping off the bandwagon. this whole online journal phenomena can exist without the attention i once gave it. i removed much but will continue to post events and when the soul wish...
Posted by jain on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 10:45:00 PST

a stone.

il silenzio. perduto entro le richieste del padrone. la sua carne è la mia carne. la mia anima è la sua anima. la scelta è stata fatta.sono il suo servo, la sua figlia, le sue parole sono parlato entr...
Posted by jain on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 04:34:00 PST

suicide protest. autobiography of Malachi Ritscher

we've heard of many who have set themselves a flame but there is a connection with his words, of his actions that i ask myself to keep him alive in memory.  i would have liked to s...
Posted by jain on Tue, 28 Nov 2006 02:14:00 PST

world wide day of healing (give peace a chance)

i repost this for i believe healing begins with ourselfs and our self-healing will cause a ripple effect unto our surroundings. the more people who are affected by our self-healing the wider...
Posted by jain on Tue, 28 Nov 2006 12:56:00 PST

O.

if it weren't for the men at Roissy my mother would have never given me the chance to be. like Jaquelin's own mother, O played one part, to deliver a soul to Roissy. but unlike my mother's first maste...
Posted by jain on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 11:56:00 PST

Dance With Your Demons

citizens, you are a battery for the economy. spend your energy, spend your money, spend your life fueling an illusion. death awaits. death had released. i shall return. i can taste the pleasure within...
Posted by jain on Thu, 28 Sep 2006 11:40:00 PST

I am a junkie

Take this game. Accept defeat. This will ensure my participation but not my victory. Admit to thee. I am sore. I am jaded, wounded and continually intoxicated.   Ghost of me, repeat defeat. Repe...
Posted by jain on Wed, 16 Aug 2006 05:24:00 PST

of day

Shush Me! Quite please! Tea for three!    We speak. We commute from our past. Souvenirs for our present. A sacrifice for our future.   I belong to none. But you are my children. Eyes ...
Posted by jain on Wed, 16 Aug 2006 05:19:00 PST

ruby.

  how badly do you want it? are you willing to die for it? i've awoken from my birth. i've been shown my death, a dream, a realm, an existance i've been programmed to forget. fill me up from&nbs...
Posted by jain on Mon, 07 Aug 2006 01:12:00 PST

acid is a four letter word.

if the soilders who were fighting the wars for the countries took a blodder of acid, alone with no "needs" and "wants" that one is so acoustomed to, that standard of living which he is fighting f...
Posted by jain on Wed, 19 Jul 2006 03:40:00 PST