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Gabriella

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The dross is being burnt away. I breathe deep today and feel the power beginning to course. The breath of life is in the air. I am beholden to know-one and know-one is beholden to me. I am Alone. I am Power. I am Becoming. I stride as a glimmer of a singularity upon the world. I remake myself and the world is remade. The shells wither away from the coiled snake. I am Burning. Passion is in my I's. I gather within to strike in both directions. The Break is coming, and I will be know more. Then I Will Begin.I seek self-transformation and am constantly redefining my world and myself. I practice chaos magick, Witchcraft, ceremonial magick, shamanism, neo-Reichian techniques, Kundalini Yoga, and Tantra.I am passionate, articulate, outgoing, and energetic. At times however, I can be moody and withdrawn (especially when understimulated, locked into roles, or coming out of relationships).I love conversation, especially over a glass of wine. In the mundane world I enjoy art, literature, music (jazz, alternative rock, trance), trance dance, science (biology, neuroscience, psychology), history, herbalism/gardening, wine, nature, politics, and travel.I think I took one of those personality tests one time and came out as the Innovator (ENTP)---here's a definition for a person who hates being defined...ENTPs are known for their quest of the novel and complex. They have faith in their ability to improvise and to overcome any challenges that they face. They are highly independent, and value adaptability and innovation. They may be several steps ahead of others in encouraging and valuing change. They hate uninspired routine and resist hierarchical and bureaucratic structures that are not functional. They need freedom for action.So I guess that means something...I'm an adventurous spirit who is looking for similiar people...I love men who are aggressive and know what they like. I'm into passion, sex, the normal bohemian type stuff. I am into beauty and the mind; I hold to no Descarte-like divisions...therefore I'm very into physical looks, but with mind as pre-eminent in my relationships. I love conversation...it really turns me on to spend hours staring into my partners eyes and discussing philosophy or magick and then end up spending hours in the bedroom. I am VERY physical, I really enjoy lovemaking and want my partners to be very secure in their own bodies---I am especially into sex magick and Tantra and look for partners who have similiar tastes. I am not the type of girl who sits and watches TV , I'd rather be dancing ecstatically in a dark forest, spending the day in bed with a handsome man, or sitting in a cafe in San Francisco discussing philosophy/magick/politics over an espresso or wine.Sex magick means using your sexuality in order to work magick. This technique is not new nor outrageous; although usually kept secret many esoteric systems use sexuality for spiritual and magical aims. Examples of such traditions are witchcraft, shamanism, alchemy, Buddhist and Hinduist tantra and ancient Egyptian religion. A probably more known form of sex magick is the ceremonial sexual union of man and woman on the land to ensure a good crop. Their fertility act should encourage the land to deliver a rich harvest. Western sex magick has its roots in Hebrew kabbalah and is spread further through several occult doctrines like the knights Templar and the free masons. Nowadays sex magick is a beautiful way of giving sex back its rightful place of sacred sexuality. It is a firm invitation to leave the trail of the sneaky, hidden-in-the-dark and 'sinful' sex most of us have grown up with. It is a call to stop fighting this most powerful human force and to make use of its possibilities. Since sexuality is a gift from God/the Goddess it has to be divine. Within an open and respectful sexual relationship we can experience ourselves in all our aspects: the animal part, the human part and the divine flame within. Thus the beast-man-God is connected, as well as the beast-woman-Goddess. During sexual arousal an enormous amount of energy can be channeled upwards from the genitals along the spine to the top of the head. On its way up this energy fills and cleans blockages in the chakras, caused by emotional and psychological wounds. This explains why several spiritual paths view sexual yoga as a shortcut to enlightenment.Why use sex for magical aims? Simply because the creative force itself creates very powerful magick. Secondly because it is the most pleasurable magick one can do. The strong sexual force is the 'raw oil of our body' as Lama Yeshe stated. Several practitioners of sex magick reported that this form of magick turned out to be much stronger then the ceremonial magick they had practiced before. Sex magick does not require previous knowledge of ceremonial magick. Anyone who is dedicated to controlling and directing his or her sexual energies for magickal work, and who has a reasonable physical condition, is able to perform sex magick.However, if you don't feel attracted to sex magick simply don't do it! And never let someone force you into sex magick against your will.Practicing sex magick neither implies that you have to give up sex for pleasure. It is up to you to decide how much sex you wish to use for magical rituals and how much for purely having a good time with yourself or your partner.What is the theory behind sex magick? In magick we manipulate a certain amount of energy into a desired direction; for that we specify a goal, raise energy and point it into the wished direction (release the energy) to achieve a manifestation in our physical reality. In sex magick we basically focus on a goal by affirmation, visualization etc.; we raise much energy through prolonged sexual arousal and we release the energy at the moment of orgasm. The goal in sex magick can be the achievement or attraction of anything wished in the physical world, like a new house, a better relationship or a healing. It can also be the charging of magickal tools or talismans. And the goal can be spiritual development. This controlled form of love-making for higher purposes is often mentioned as the ultimate explanation of Crowley's famous statement "Love is the Law, Love under Will." By love Crowley meant the uniting of the opposites masculine and feminine, active and receptive, and not so much romantic love. Orgasm is considered to be the moment when 'the gates of heaven open up'; for a while the barriers between the restricted physical world and the limitless heavens dissolve. During the precious orgasmic moments we swing away our magical desire into the universe with enormous power and a 'magickal child' is born. This magickal child is the astral effect of our magical action that will result in manifestation. The sexual fluids of man and woman are charged with powerful qualities because of their magick and they can be used for several purposes.What types of sex can be used for sex magick? In fact any sexual activity can be used to work sex magick. It can be practiced alone, it can be practiced with a partner of the same sex or of the opposite sex, and in advanced sex magick it is also possible to work with more people. But: a group sex magick ritual is never an excuse for a sexual orgy! It is a strong ritual in which several people dedicate their sexual forces towards a mutual goal. Magick is synergistic, what means that the power conjured up is geometric (1,2,4,8,16, etc., so a ritual with four people gives the energy of eight separate people!) Please remember that in no way this is an invitation to ever do a group ritual in your life unwanted, nor does it mean that joining a group ritual implies that you should also have sex with more than one partner in your personal love life. You can include all forms of sex in your ritual; it can be genital, oral or anal sex; it can be bondage, bizarre sex or whatever; as long as all partners included enjoy it and agree it's okay.Does sex magick feel different from regular sex? In sex magick we concentrate on the ritual, while in regular sex we concentrate on the fantastic physical sensations and intimate togetherness. Sex magick rituals feel very pleasurable but they do feel different. They are simply intenser. A much greater amount of sexual energy is built up due to mainly two reasons:When you reach the brink of orgasm you back off to later on resume arousing. This leads to a stronger felt orgasm. While repeating the chosen affirmation during intercourse you send up energy from the genitals to the head, so you constantly send bits of genital excitement 'away' upwards along your spine to be stored till the moment of orgasm. By concentrating on your goal you extend the moment of orgasm and reach some sort of trance. Sometimes I notice that halfway the ritual I can already feel the magical energy working. I feel a large amount of hot energy along my spine and the chakras in my head, while the crown chakra feels like a wide opened chalice or lotus flower. The energy can cause big shiverings or emotional unloads like crying, mostly after orgasm (be prepared for this and let it happen to yourself or your partner, it clears blockages). Sex magick orgasms will be intense. And after a ritual with a partner I feel reverent and grateful, realizing that we have shared something truly meaningful. Once you know the depths and values of sex magick I wonder if a partner who would prefer to stick to 'normal' sex could any longer satisfy your needs. ..

My Interests

Magick ~ Chaos Magick ~ Shamanism ~ Golden Dawn ~ Feri ~ Tantra ~ Cooking ~ Gardening ~ Herbalism ~ Witchcraft ~ History ~ Wine ~ Molecular Biology ~ Psychology ~ Art ~ Music ~ Trance Dance ~ Kundalini Yoga ~Ceremonial Magick ~ Voodoo ~Seidr ~Hoodoo ~ Trance ~Paganism ~Runes ~Sigils ~Entheogens ~ Kundalini ~Kundalini Yoga ~ Sex Magick ~Mythology ~ Art ~Literature ~, Music (jazz, alternative rock, trance, goth/industrial ~), Trance Dance ~Science (biology, neuroscience, psychology, space) ~ Science Fiction ~History ~ Politics ~World Events ~Herbalism/Gardening ~Nature ~ Travel ~ Hiking ~Fishing ~Camping.

I'd like to meet:

My ancestors and Nietzsche.The Yavapai-Apache Nation is a sovereign Native American tribe from the Verde Valley, Arizona. Tribal members have two culturally distinct backgrounds and speak two indigenous languages.The Yavapai originate from Yuman-speaking peoples known as the Pai. The Apache descend from an Athapaskan background similar to other Apache groups to the East.Yavapai and Apache history in the Verde Valley spans several hundred years, as two distinct indigenous groups that co-existed in surrounding areas, and as one Indian tribal nation since 1934.The Yavapai-Apache Tribal Administration Complex, Tribal Court, Council Chambers, and Cliff Castle Casino are located on the reservation in Camp Verde, about 90 miles north of Phoenix and 50 miles south of Flagstaff, along Interstate 17.The reservation today spans 665 acres in the four communities of Camp Verde, Middle Verde, Clarkdale, and Rimrock.Story of the Yavapai-Apache Exodus DayOn February 27, 1875, the United States Army, acting on an Executive Order from the President, transferred an estimated 1,500 Yavapai and Dilzhee Apache from the Rio Verde Indian Reserve 180 miles away to the Indian Agency at San Carlos. The forced removal of the indigenous people of the Verde Valley resulted in several hundred lives lost and the loss of several thousand acres of treaty lands promised to the Yavapai-Apache by the United States government.The People were forced to march, under considerable duress, through the winter-flooded rivers, mountainous terrain, and harsh weather under the direction of Indian Commissioner L.E. Dudley and U.S. Army troops. Rather than use the wagon roads that could be used to carry supplies and transport the sick and the elderly, Dudley made the people, young and old, walk through the mountain passes and narrow canyon trails get to San Carlos.The Yavapai and Dilzhee Apache remained in internment at San Carlos for 25 years. When finally released, only about 200 actually made it back to their homeland in the Verde Valley. What they found when they returned was that their land was taken over by Anglo settlers and that there was no longer a place reserved for the Yavapai-Apache people in their own homeland.The Yavapai-Apache people have come a long way since that fateful day in 1875. The entire event, now known as Exodus Day, is reenacted each year by the Yavapai-Apache Nation in the 1875 Removal 1900 Return commemoration. Last February marked the 129th anniversary of Exodus Day, and the Nation honored it with a weekend full of ceremony, traditional song and dancing, food, and other activities for the family and general public.The Seal represents the unity of the Yavapai-Apache people and the coming together of the Tribe as one nation. Below is a description of the symbolism of the Seal from tribal elder and designer of the Seal, the "Arizona Living Legend," David Sine.1. Circle: In our culture, it is the cycle of life that one must face throughout life in this world. We go from home and when life has been completed we return back to the homeland.2. Feathers: In our beginning we were two distinct tribes, warring against the people coming into our valley. Inter-marriages made our togetherness very close in relation as shown in the seal. Together to the very end, our forefathers were all herded to San Carlos.3. Crown: Symbolizes the Apache in our people, proud of being what we are.4. Bell Rock: Symbolizes the Yavapai in our people. It is they, who have their roots to the canyon and surrounding area. Since the beginning of time, their legends tie in the land around all of us.5. Rainbow: This symbolizes our religion. We are taught to believe in something and walk in this beauty of life, not to deviate from what we believe in.6. Colors:Yellow - symbolizes the power of pollen, divinity and perfect ceremonial control. Blue - symbolizes the fruitfulness of mother earth. White - symbolizes the purity of nature's gifts and beauty. Red - symbolizes the power we have within ourselves to lay down our lives for others as our forefathers shed their blood for us to be free. Orange - symbolizes the power of the sun to create and recreate with its radiation."To be an Indian artist, one has to interpret his creations to tie into the Tribe. This makes him a historian of his Tribe." -- David W. Sine, Artist of the Yavapai-Apache Nation

Music:

Red Hot Chili Peppers ~ ELO ~ Thelonious Monk ~ Nine Inch Nails ~ Heather Combs Band ~ Grateful Dead ~ The Doors ~ Foo Fighters ~ The Moody Blues ~ Nirvana ~ White Stripes ~ Mozart ~ Dead Milkmen ~ Jack Johnson ~ White Zom ~bie ~ INXS ~ Sisters of Mercy ~ Faith and the Muse ~ Marilyn Manson ~ Led Zepplin ~Electric Light Orchestra - Xanadu

Television:

Long do I dwell in the twilight grottos Awaiting a sign, a touch, a word Feeling the lichen and aeons bind me As I slowly trace my fingers in the clayMemories and scents remind me A drifting remembrance on the breeze Shadowed looks and fond caresses Your eyes when they used to play on meSummer heat and supple skin We used to curl about each other Dragonflies buzzing in the wind As we laughed and dreamed the night awayRemember me and remember us Scents and sights and simple sounds The days they cruelly slip away And leave nothing in their place But a faint token of your golden face As I fade into the darkened ground Mad GypsyA light dance, swaying and weaving about Gives rise to warm feelings of life Then ceaseslowly sense the feet meshed to ground A bubbling from below, the fiery orbA stream, a pulseliquid crimson rising Spiraling about the bodythe legs begin swaying Tremors in the belly, shaking in the legs The body sways like the treesThen ricochetingthe energy takes hold The body jerks and spasmsthe feet lose grip Tossed about like a cork in a storm Warmth and fire burn from withinLoose now, the serpent coils As the coils tighten, the body shakes more Releasing tension, sadness, thorns Giving strength and serenitypeaceThen the storm abatesfalling to the knees Slight tremors, like a morning sprinkle Beginning to understand, to invoke these powers I invoke the afterglow Mad GypsyNo two events are identicalour minds create the illusion of similarity, even absoluteness of similarity between events. The Witch of today is not the Witch of yesterdayand the Witchof tomorrow will never exist, precisely because tomorrow never comesit is always Today.What we believe we see tells us more of these beliefs than what is seen Apply the same to knowledge, emotion, relations, ectad nauseumwandering Mad Gypsy

Books:

The Anita Blake and the Meredith Gentry series by Laurell K Hamilton, The Outlander books by Diana Gabaldon, The In Death books by J D Robb, anything by Nora Roberts, The Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice, The Wheel Of Time by Robert Jordan, The Dragon Riders Of Pern by Anne McCaffrey, all of Raymond Feist's books, same goes for David and Leigh Eddings, and Catherine Coulter, The Vlad Taltos books by Steven Brust, Pakesenarrion books by Elizabeth Moon, The Wayfarer Redemption by Sara Douglass, Symphony of Ages by Elizabeth Haydon

Heroes:

Those who are true to themselves.

My Blog

The Worst President in History?

No previous president appears to have squandered the public's trust more than Bush has. No other president faced with a monumental set of military and political circumstances failed to embrace the op...
Posted by Gabriella on Thu, 20 Apr 2006 06:52:00 PST